I'm literally crying because no matter what I do or where I am, I'm reminded that I'm not allowed to be my freaky, weird, Insane, gay/girly, transgender, hyperactive, coffee addicted, smiling, singing, dancing, antisocial, afraid of the dark but still most of the times in the dark self!

My dad thinks I'm running away from something and think that being a boy solves that, my mom thinks we all are sometimes boy and sometimes girl and I...

I CAN'T TAKE THIS ANYMORE!!!

I HAVE NIGHTMARES KEEPING ME UP AT NIGHT, I FEEL ALONE AND ABANDONED, I'M ANGRY/UPSET/HYPER ALL OF THE TIME BECAUSE OF THAT, I BARELY EAT/DRINK, I'M CRYING AND MY CRY FACE AIN'T PRETTY AND I FEEL LOCKED UP!

JUST KILL ME ALREADY!!

I don't cut! I think my skin is more than meat.
I don't put on make-up! I'm a boy and my face is not canvas.

I don't do all those things but that doesn't mean that I'm not in pain. I have a headache and pain in my back 24/7 365 and it never goes away. I've had it for the past 7 years and I live with that everyday. I can't train my muscles because it hurts me too much. I'm not losing weight because I'm too stressed out. I'm out of breath from WALKING UP 15 STEPS ON STAIRS, WALKING!

People, I don't want money, fame or anything like that! I just want some support that I'll never get from my family. I just want people to see that they are not alone and that I just want to be myself. If people think that I'm doing it for the attention. I'm not.
For me is one person just as important as one hundred. I don't give a crap about attention. Attention is nice and all but it's not everything.

James