RAIN|02

It was a really nice day outside the bakery. The sound of the pitter patter of the rain, the cold that came along with it and the damp smell that followed it were therapeutic to me. I liked the rain a lot but more than that rain...

I looked at Matt who was sitting right next to me, kicking his feet back and forth as he stared outside at the rain. I ran my fingers through his curly ringlets of reddish-brown hair, and he turned to look up at me with a smile on his face, chocolate fudge all over his lips.

"Mommy, look!" he pointed out at the rain and I smiled, picking up a napkin to clean the corner of his lips. Like me, Matt loved the rain and chocolate.

"It's really pretty, isn't it?" I kissed his head and he nodded, a grin on his face.

"Like mommy" I laughed, holding him closer before looking outside the window. As much as I loved the rain, my body felt like shit when it rained. A psychological trauma from the accident was what the doctor called it. I hated it.

"Mrs. Antonov, we're out of blueberry cupcakes" Talia, an employee, walked up to me and I sighed turning to look out at the window as I contemplated whether to stand up and make another batch.

My legs felt like putty.

"Mama's sleepy?" Matt crawled into my arms, cupping my face and tilting his head at me in a way that Ren did, and I laughed. It was odd, how a child could easily copy such mannerisms.

"Can you not see that she's unwell?" Ren's voice sent a sweet shiver down my spine and I didn't know if to throw myself into his arms or chastise him for getting mad at the poor girl. I could smell him right behind me and my heart raced even faster.

"Daddy!" Matt cried out, reaching his arms out for Ren who, from behind me, swept the oblivious little boy into his arms.

Ah, the joys of childhood ignorance.

"Oh, Mr. Antonov. I-I didn't realize" Talia stuttered, looking at Ren who was standing behind me. Naturally, people feared him. I was scared of him when he came to the hospital and claimed to be my husband.

Ren hardly ever smiled and coupled with his large build and excessive tattoos; he had a scar on his face that seemed to scare a lot of people.

I thought 'Oh, I must have lost my mind' but after spending a few months with him, I realized why I married him. Contrary to how 'rough' and 'scary' he looked; he was an absolute angel. A gentle giant, if you wish.

"It's fine, Talia. If anyone asks for those cupcakes, just let them know they won't be available until tomorrow. I'm a little tired" I told her, patting her hand lightly and she nodded before she scurried off.

Ren walked around the table, standing next to me. He cupped my cheek with his left hand and tilted his head at me, jaws clenched and brows furrowed. I was probably the only one in the world who found such a rough man quite adorable, wasn't I?

But then, he always looked so delectable in a suit.

"Does it hurt a lot?" He grumbled, pressing his palm to my forehead and then, my neck. I could feel the coldness of his wedding ring against my skin.

"It doesn't hurt, Ren and you know she didn't mean it like that" I placed my palm over his hand that was pressed against my neck, looking up at him. His tattoos peeked out of his sleeves and collars and I nipped on my bottom lip, thinking the most inappropriate things.

"It doesn't matter how she meant it. She saw you weren't feeling well, the least she could've done was ask if you were okay. Do you wanna go to the hospital?" He sat down next to me, leaning close and letting Matt sit on the table. Matt busied himself by fiddling with Ren's hair. I smiled at the worried expression on Ren's face and pressed a kiss to his cheek.

"I'll be fine. Matt and I were just watching the rain, weren't we, baby?" I cooed and Matt grinned nodding in agreement making Ren chuckle.

"Wanna tell me what you did today?" Ren asked and I rested my head on his shoulder, listening to them talk.

On some days, I thought back to four years ago. All I knew was that I lost my memory, I lost a baby and I was married to someone.

I initially thought about what my life was like before the accident. I wanted to cry for the baby I lost but how could I when I didn't even remember it?

I wanted to know who I was. I was curious but that curiosity died over time as I got to know Ren.

I didn't care about my past when I was with Ren but sometimes, I wondered...

"And you think the rain is as pretty as mommy?" Ren asked Matt and I looked at them, smiling without thinking.

"The prettiest!" Matt clapped and I laughed, poking the dimples on his cheek. Ren brushed his fingers through Matt's hair. I turned to Ren and brushed my fingers through his hair. He was a lot like Matt in so many ways.

A couple of hours later, Matt fell asleep and Ren drove us home. We tucked Matt in and went to our own bedroom.

"Does it still hurt a lot?" He laid his head on my stomach, arms around me as I brushed my fingers through his hair.

"I thought about it today" I told him, and he looked up at me, a childish smile on his face.

"What? Making another baby?" I laughed and his eyes were still hopeful. I smacked his head, making him groan.

"I thought about the accident." His jaws clenched and his expression darkened as it usually did whenever I talked about it. He didn't like to talk about it and neither did I but...he always listened and that put me at ease every time.

"Wanna tell me what was bothering you?" He looked at me again and I sighed.

"I'm not bothered. I was just thinking about it. The baby, the accident, us...I just..." He clenched his jaws and let out a shaky exhale.

"I...That day, I lost my mind, Rain. I was working when I found out. I felt so lost and I thought I'd lost you forever" He chuckled, brushing his fingers through his hair and my heart ached at how tears welled in his eyes. I wrapped my arms around him. I knew that for me, it didn't hurt as much as it did for him. After all, he was the one who remembered everything.

"It's fine, Darling. It really is. If you wanna know about it, it's fine. Anything you w-" I shook my head, cutting him off.

"I love you" I whispered, and he crawled up, straddling me.

"I love you more, Rain" He kissed my forehead, wrapping his arms around me.

I could feel his heart race against my chest, almost like he was scared.

"Wanna watch TV?" I offered and he shook his head childishly with a sly smirk on his face.

"I want a baby" He whispered, and I laughed as he kissed all over my face.

"If want a baby, make one yourself, Mr. Antonov" I tilted my head at him, and he groaned.

"It's no fun making one alone" I laughed as he kissed all over my face again, pulling back to stare at me. I loved how he looked at me. How he stared at me like I was the only one in his world. The only one he saw.

"We're not making another baby until Matt's like ten" I mumbled, and he smiled so sweetly, nodding. He never pressured me into anything.

"Well, I guess there's many more pros than cons. I get to keep you all to myself" He buried his nose in the crook of my neck again and I laughed, brushing my fingers through his hair.

I couldn't possibly ask for anything more.

"Get off, you're suffocating me, you oaf" I groaned, trying to kick him off me but he didn't move so, I smiled and poked his sides until he started chuckling after a while and rolled off me. He was really ticklish.

"I'm going out with Lia next week" I stood up, stripping out of my clothes and he wolf whistled behind me, making me turn to him and fighting back the urge to laugh. He was resting on his side with his elbow propped and his head resting in his palm as he watched me with a greedy delight in his eyes.

"Aww, c'mon...don't be shy. Take everything off" he teased, and I flung my shirt at him, laughing as I walked towards the bathroom.

"Is this an invitation, Rain?" Peeking out of the bathroom, I smiled at him as he stared with lips parted and my shirt in his hand.

"What do you think? I'll take a shower without you if you don't-"

"Wait for me" He grinned and walked into the bathroom, stripping himself of every item of clothing on his body. I could never get used to how magnificent his body was albeit, littered with a few scars. Beautiful, nonetheless.

I ran my fingers over a long scar running down his chest, one of many as the warm water from the shower fell to our skins. It seemed he had attempted to cover the scars with the tattoos, but they only seemed more obvious.

"It must've hurt a lot" I mumbled. He was probably tired of hearing me say it every time, but I knew how much it hurt when I got cut by a knife while cooking. I couldn't possibly imagine how it felt for him.

I brushed my hair back and looked up at him, but he already had his eyes on me.

"Have I ever told you that you're the most beautiful woman I've seen in my entire life?" I almost laughed at this question. He told me that every day.

"Of course. Say it a few more times and my head might..." I trailed off, demonstrating an explosion and he chuckled, reaching for the body-wash.

"I mean it" he kissed my forehead and I smiled, wrapping my arms around him.

"I'm glad I'm stuck with you" I pressed my ear against his chest as he went silent, but his heart raced.

"Ah shit. When you say stuff like that, my head just...spins and I feel lightheaded" His voice sounded muffled, hugging me and I smiled.

Ren, I knew he was my soulmate. I could just feel it. 

A/N

Hello darlings! It's Saturday, or at least it's Saturday here.
I'll be updating three chapters today as I had some free time during the week. I was thinking of updating twice during the week, maybe Saturdays and Wednesdays?
I'm not sure.

Anyways back to Ren and Rain...what do you think?
Any theories? I love to hear your theories because some of them genuinely make me consider the ending I already have in my head while some of them just make me laugh 😂

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