-Raven Pov-

When the first morning light comes into my tent, I open my eyes and then I sigh. Looking at my scroll, I can see that it's still early in the morning, but as the leader of the tribe, I need to be the first one awake so I can make sure I set a good example for the tribe, and make sure that people respect and look up to me. Sighing, I then run my hands through my hair again, and then I stand up and look at myself in the mirror, and for a moment, I don't recognize the face in the mirror I see, mascara running because of my tears, eyes and nose red from tears and the crying I did. " You look pathetic Raven," I mutter to myself. For once, I'm thankful to have woken up early, so I have time to compose myself before I have to go and face the rest of the tribe.

Checking my scroll to see what time it is for certain, I wince when the wallpaper of it comes up. I never let (y/n) or anyone else see it, but the background I used for my scroll was from a date the two of us went on, when we went drinking, and then had a bar fight with some people. The picture I used for my background was our matching mugshots, when the two of us winked at each other. I put down my scroll for a little bit since it's too hard for me to look at. I sniffle a little and then pinch some tears out of my eyes.

I have to remind myself that this is what I chose, and this is what I have to do. Salem is a danger to the world, and the tribe helps me to counter her. By causing chaos, I'm going to be able to keep the rest of the world safe by keeping the target on us. This is the only way Yang is going to be able to grow up safely, safely as possible. Considering (y/n)'s heritage as a Son of Sparda, he's an even bigger target for Salem. This is the best thing I can do for any of them, no matter how much it costs me, which is everything. The love of my life, my daughter. Any chance to have a family I could ever have.

When I finally manage to push down the negative thoughts from my mind, I get dressed for the day in my armor, and then look at myself in the mirror, and have to give myself a little bit of a pep talk to make sure I don't break down into tears in front of the tribe if I even need to deal with talking about the family I came from. I then go and wait for the rest of the tribe to walk up so I can give them orders for the rest of the day. A little while later, the tribe comes out and waits for my  orders.

I give them what to do for the day, the raids they need to go on, the things which they need to bring us so we can survive, and then they go for their missions, leaving me to think what I want to do for the rest of the day. With a little bit of a sigh, I know what I have to do, otherwise I'm not going to be able to focus and make a mistake. I need answers for this, and so I turn into my bird form and begin a long flight to a place I could find with my eyes closed, the house I used to share with (y/n).

Perching in a branch, I look inside and try to wait until he comes home. I need to see what he's up to, and if he's doing okay. I watch for a little bit, and then I see (y/n) come home with a smile, and then I see him lace his hands with Summer as the two of them hold Yang. A cold feeling goes through me, and I almost fall out of the tree entirely. But, I force myself to keep watching. " Ma-ma," Yang coos as she looks at Summer, and I feel a little part of myself die. I force myself again to keep watching, but I want to leave so badly. And yet, I can't. My body is frozen into place.

I know when I left that things were going to change. I know when I left I told Summer to take care of my family, that I gave up my right to be Yang's mother, and I gave up the right to be (y/n)'s lover. But there was this part of me deep down that hoped when and if I was going to be able to come back, that there was still going to be a place for me. For a moment, I watch the house and wonder what it would be like if I could have stayed. I watch (y/n) with Yang, and with Summer, and then I pretend that it's me in there with them. And then (y/n) calls for Summer, and then my delusions shatter. I no longer have my place in his heart. And seeing that breaks my heart all over again.

Turning from a bird into human, I begin to walk into the woods. When I get far enough, I drop to my knees. A sob goes through my chest, ugly, but I don't even bother to fight with it. I cry and cry, and cry. I don't even bother trying to fight with it until the tears end. For a moment, I like to think (y/n) is going to come to me, and say something cheesy. I'd roll my eyes, but smile softly. But it's not happening, and it might not ever happen again. " I've never felt so alone in my life," I whisper to myself, before I glance back at the house on more time before going back to the tribe.

( let me know what you thought. Just something from Raven's PoV)