After 1 hour of drive we finally reach our house, without saying a word to anyone I open my gate and enter the house.

As i knock the gate, hoping for some maid to open it so that I can go to my room and relax my mind, but as I said earlier it's a long day and well yes I'm proven right as door is opened by none other than my dad.

I try to escape from the hall as fast as I can to avoid any conversation with my dad, when I was close to stairs I heard my his voice.

So you are graduated now... Says my dad.

I stopped in my path and nod my head.

Great, so I hope you remember my verdict.

I turn my head knowing very well where this conversation is going... I nod my head once again in response to him.

He was saying something when he was interrupted with shaby... Hey dad!!
You are so early  today whatsupp??

I was frankly quite thankful to shaby to engage my dad with him,
So I get the opportunity to avoid him and I  very sneakily turn my head and climb the stairs to reach my room as fast as possible.

I reach for the knob of gate to unlock the door to enter my room,
The color of my room is same as my life dark, with no hope of light whatsoever.

As I reach my bed, I lay down flat there.

After passing some time in darkness lying in my bed, I turn towards my right to turn on side lamp, and In one go my room is lit with light, the previous darkness is vanished with light.
I stared at the lamp continuously, may be trying to brighten my life with help of lamp same way as it lighten my room.

I remember a qoute which I learn in 8th standard "Push yourself, because no one else is going to do it for you"

Than I decide I can't just sit in my room and cry for my life... If I want to change my future if I want to live my dreams than I have to fight for that, no one is going to do that for me.
Only one thing is Going in my head that "All our dreams come true, if only we have the courage to pursue them".

I can't just listen to my dad and get married, it's my life, its my call and for God sake I'm only 24, I have to do fun,dance in club, I have to see the world may be do some mistake learn from it, I want to get drunk and live like a carefree girl without any restriction.. I.. I just want to live..!!

After some time I heard a knock on my door,
Sana Di sir is waiting for you... Says our maid.

Okay... I inform her.
This is it... I can't hide anymore... I can't avoid this conversation anymore... I have to meet my dad and talk to him that I don't want to marry now.... Yes I have do this!!!

With each passing stairs that I'm climbing down i could feel my palm getting wet with my sweat, I could feel my heart beat getting faster, I could feel my shoulder got tensed due to anxiety.

I finally reach the hall and saw my dad sitting in dinning table along with mom and shabby.

Sit says my dad... I nod my head and grab my chair to sit.

Maid serve me the food, I gently smile to thank her and started eating my food.

Sana, I am calling my friends family tommorow to meet you so get yourself dressed in some good decent dress got it.??
Says my dad.

Dad I don't want to meet them.. I inform him without  looking up.

And why so... Says my father getting a little louder.

I didn't respond this time and continue to look down.

Sana I have told you this way before your college started that you are gonna get married soon after your graduation, didn't I??
I could feel my dad getting angrier with passage of time.

I don't want to marry now... I try to say but it only came out as a whisper.

I look up and saw my dad, he clenched his jaw and his knuckles are getting white because of how much he is controlling his anger.

Sana don't you dare try to oppose me... Says my dad as he get up from his seat and start walking towards his room.

I mustered up my courage and speak with convection this time... Dad I'm not opposing you all I'm saying is I don't want to marry now.. I want to live my life.

My dad laugh... A laugh that can scare anyone and turn towards me and walk till he reach just in mere inches from me.

Sana you are really checking my patience.... You are getting married and that's final.

No dad, I am not getting married, it's my life I am an adult now it's my call how I want to live my life, you are No one to deci... de... I could barely complete my sentence when I felt a slap in my cheek.

Dadddd..... My dad slapped me.... Tear escape my eyes, my cheeks are stinging because of how badly my dad slapped me.

Listen Sana, you should be thankful for me that I am bearing you... Otherwise you don't know how bad I can be with you.

I know dad... I very well know... How bad you are, you only love shabby and iam no one to you.... I spoke with trears flowing continuously.

Ohhh really he laugh once again.
Shehnaaz either you are marring in my terms or you can leave my house.

I was shocked to hear this.... My dad is asking me to leave, only because I am asking him that I want to live my life in my terms.

Papa.... Please....
Sana go to your room.... Says shabby as he try to end this dreadful conversation.

My dad leave the hall and enter his room.

All I can see is my mom is crying continuously and shabby is trying to push me towards my room.

Bhai please... I sob to stop him.

Shut up Sana... Are you mad or what dad is not serious and you are not going anywhere, this is your home okk?

Bhai..... Its not my home... I say!!

Sana stop it... Go to your room.

No bhai this is not my home anymore.

Sanaa... Shabby sobbed.

Bhai if you love me you will not stop me.
I say to him kissed his forehead....... And leave.

I unlocked the gate and leave the house..... Yeah house it was never my home...

I left my house... Without money, without clothes, without a place to stay.
All I know is I can't live in this house anymore......!!
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