Slade's P.O.V.

          It's been a week since I said those things to Quinn and, I feel extremely guilty. She hasn't even looked at me since then. I can't seem to get her out of my head, I thinks it's because what she did reminds me of what "she" did to me one time. I just wish I would stop thinking about her but I can't.

        " Hey Sladey can you take me to the library, I really need to turn in these books?" Kamaria asks.

        " Sure kiddo just let me get my car keys." I say with a smile.

        " Yay! thank you Sladey!"She exclaims.

        " Your welcome." I say as I look in my room for my keys.

        After I get my keys I run down stairs to where Kamaria is sitting. I usher her out the door and into my car. On the way to the library she tells me about her ballet recital that is coming up ,and how she got the main part. It's times like this I miss Lillian the most, she loved going to Kamaria's swim meets and ballet recitals and cheering her on. She treated my sister like she was the most precious thing in the world. She was the only person my sister loved more than me, so you can imagine that it was really hard on her with Lillian committed suicide. She didn't understand why she did it, but I'm pretty sure if she knew the truth she would never forgive me .

        As we pull into the parking lot I take a deep breath, and look up at the building with anxiety. Lillian used to come here to escape from her family. It seemed like she was always here, everytime I come here now I have to wait a couple seconds before I come in. So I won't lose it when I go in, I especially can't do that with my sister here.

        " Are we going in or what?" asks Kamaria.

        " Oh yeah of course just give me one more second." As I say this I think of the last time I saw Lillian here.

  I remember walking in and seeing her beautiful face behind a book as usual it was some silly romance novel.  Her beautiful blonde hair streaked with brown highlights, heavy eyeliner surrounding her beautiful sky blue eyes. I walked to the table and sat down, and then she looked up at me with that rare smile of hers that stole my breath away.

        " Are you here to actually study, or you here to distract me." She says with a smirk.

        " Most likely to distract you, you know I'm a huge procrastinator." I say with a sly grin.

        " Haha I definitely know that. That's why I never choose you as my science partner." She laughs and I feel my heart beat faster.

        " Hey that's rude I may do that to other people but I would never do that you." I laugh.

        " Really, what about your girlfriend wouldn't you do the same for her?" As she says this I can see a blush forming on her face.

        " Nah she wouldn't do any of the work anyways." I smirk at her and her now full on blush.

        " You shouldn't say that about her, she really loves you." She says with a slight frown.

        " You mean she loves that I'm popular." I mutter under my breath.

        " She wouldn't hate me as much as she does if she didn't love you trust me." She says with a shake of her head.

        " She would if she felt you were a threat to her position." I say stubbornly.

        " I'm not though. I'm not good enough for you." She says sadly.

        I can't believe she didn't feel like she was good enough for me, it was quite the opposite actually. I just wish I would have told her instead of being such an idiot. Everything about her was amazing not just her looks, but her sense of humor and her kindness she always thought the best of others. I look over at my sister, and realize that it's not the time to break down especially not in front of her.

        " Okay let's go in now." I put on a fake smile and get out of the car. Then I went around to her side and opened the door.

        " Are you okay Sladey?" She asks concerned

        " I'm fine my little Angel." I say again with a fake smile.

        We then both turn and walk into the library, and when we get inside I sit down and wait while she goes and checks in her books then checks out more. While waiting I take a look around the library, I stop when my eyes land on a familiar figure, Quinn. I feel my heart quicken when she looks up and starts walking over here.

        " Hey Slade how's your day going?" She says her voice filled with venom.

        " Listen Quinn I wanted to say sorry for what I said. Your right I don't know anything about you." I don't why I'm saying sorry, I should know that she's better off mad at me but for some reason I can't stand the idea of her being mad.

        " Sorry where is this coming from I thought you didn't want to be my friend." She says sarcastically.

        " I don't want to be your friend. Please understand I'm trying to protect you." I sigh.

        " Well I don't need protection, I can handle myself. Please at least let me take you out for lunch it can be just as acquaintances!" Quinn begs.

        " Fine, but you have to let me take my little sister with me got it?" I ask.

        " Oh of course she can come." She says with a victory smile.

        After that she sits down next to me and we wait on my sister together. While we wait we begin talking and I learn that she has a twin sister and a younger brother around Kamaria's age. I learn that she loves painting and reading, when she says she loves reading it reminds me of Lillian for a second ,until she says she loves to read science fiction novels and hates romance novels. I tell her I used to play football and was a quarterback, but quit because I realized I didn't really like it. We talk for thirty minutes until  Kamaria comes over with two new books in her hands.

        " Who is this Sladey?" She asks curiously.

        " Oh this is Quinn, she's an acquaintance from school." I say introducing them.

        " Oh she's your " acquaintance" huh?" She says with a giggle.

        " What do you mean by the that?" Quinn asks with a laugh.

        " My brother can never be just acquaintances with pretty girls, or friend even take Lillian for example." After she says that she quickly puts her hand over her mouth.

        " Oh I'm sorry Sladey I didn't mean to bring her up." She says guilty.

        " It's fine my little Angel." I say sadly.

        " Who's Lillian?" Quinn questions Slade curiously.

        "  Can we go and eat now?" I ask avoiding the question.

        " Do you mind if I ride with you guys, my sister has our car?" She asks sensing the tension in the air.

        " Of course you can ride with us, right Sladey?" Kamaria asks eagerly.

        " Yeah, we don't mind. Come on let's go."I say hurriedly. 

        I can't believe I gave into to Quinn, I'm such and idiot all I'm going to in the end is hurt her. I have to keep our relationship to a minimum, I can't let her in or she will hate me like everyone else would. Like how I hate myself, I can't stand the thought of a girl as sweet her hating me. I also don't want her to end up like Lillian. I can't fall for her or let her become my friend. I can have small talk with her from time to time though, there's no harm in that right?

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Hey guys hope you enjoyed this chapter, sorry I haven't wrote in a while I've been super busy. A lot of things in my life are pretty out of control right now. Plus I've had some depression issues as of late but don't worry I'm fine I'll try to get the next chapter out soon and another chapter for amazon hybrids can't make any promises though. Also I dedicated this chapter to Yannannalays for making me an amazing book cover :]