Joshua groaned as he rolled over and felt the warm weight next to him and reality came crashing down all around him.

What the fuck was I thinking?

"Seokmin," he prodded gently and when the other man opened his eyes they sparkled with delight. "Good morning hyung," he said, his skin glowing in the low light, his eyes alive instantly at the sight of the other. "do you have class this morning?" "No," Joshua answered as he snuggled back down into the pillow. "Me either," Seokmin said quietly.

Neither of them moved, or even spoke, as they lay in the cool dim silence.

Joshua didn't know what to say. He just buried half his face in the pillow as he watched Seokmin with one eye open. He was a little puffy with sleep, his hair mussed and rough, the slight hint of stubble the only thing marring his perfect complexion. He didn't look too hungover, Joshua thought, and he wondered exactly how drunk Seokmin had been. He'd only had a few beers.

He pushed the thought out of his mind as he watched the younger man get up from the bed. He was unselfconscious in his naked form, unusual for Seokmin, the boy had shyness inherently intrinsic in his nature. This morning something seemed different about him as he wandered nonchalant and bare across the room to find something to put on.

The navy robe Joshua had bought for him was wrapped around his shoulders as he turned back and smiled again. "You want coffee?" he asked and Joshua sat up. "Let's go out for breakfast. My treat." He watched the man move gracefully across the room and out into the living area. "Where are you going?" he asked and Seokmin stopped. "To get my clothes," he said. "They're in my bag."

To Joshua's disappointment he vanished into the lounge room and Joshua heard the sound of water running in the main bathroom. Maybe, if he was smarter, he would have already made space in his huge walk in closet for Seokmin's things. The thought of them hanging beside his, taking up space in his life, gave him a warm feeling in his chest. If his clothes were in the bedroom it was likely Seokmin would have used Joshua's en-suite, maybe giving him a glimpse of his rock hard body, maybe just letting Joshua enjoy the sound of water tricking down his flawless skin.

Maybes and What Ifs were a waste of time and Joshua didn't have much to spare. He rolled off the bed and went into the other bathroom and prepared to face the day.

They walked across the sports oval and enjoyed the warm morning sun. "You don't seem too hungover," Joshua said and Seokmin laughed nervously. "Yeah, I guess I recovered well, I was pretty drunk last night..." "Me too," Joshua quickly replied. "And, I guess, accidents happen. Right?"

Seokmin nodded his agreement and Joshua's heart clenched a little in his chest. He hated being an accident. He wanted nothing more than to know Seokmin came into his bed willingly and deliberately. But he would have to work for it; he knew that. He was determined, starting today, to win him over. He wanted nothing more. He'd never felt this strongly about anything before, his want for Seokmin only matched by his want for a record deal, and hard work was the only way to get either of them.

They arrived at their favourite café and walked in to the sound of the tinkling bell. Jeonghan was behind the counter, with the other tall barista; Joshua could never remember his name. "Hi guys," Jeonghan smiled widely at them, "take a seat anywhere and I'll come out and take your order." It was unusually enthusiastic for the casually apathetic barista but the café was also almost empty. Joshua headed straight for Seokmin's favourite table by the window. He liked to look out onto the street and watch people walk by while he drank his coffee and Joshua almost stumbled a little in his haste to pull the chair out for the younger. "Thanks," Seokmin said with a dreamy smile and Joshua's heart lifted a little. Maybe it was working.

He reached out and rubbed the back of Seokmin's hand softly and enjoyed the feel of his skin. His hands were stunningly beautiful and Joshua marvelled at them and wondered how they could be so perfect. His fingers were long and thin and the nails were sculpted and manicured to perfection. He stared and stroked and when he looked up he was met with Seokmin's shy gaze. "Your hands are so pretty," Joshua stammered out nervously and expected Seokmin to pull his hand back but he didn't. He just grinned brightly and blushed sweet and pink as he watched Joshua stroke the back of his hand with his thumb. Joshua's mind flashed back to last night when he remembered how those beautiful hands felt on his body, how far inside him Seokmin had reached with those long perfect fingers, the noises he'd made as he shamelessly threw himself at the mercy of those stunningly gorgeous hands.

"Ahem," Jeonghan cleared his throat as he stood next to the table, "I hate to interrupt your moment." "Its fine," Seokmin chirped happily at the barista, "I'll just have whatever Joshua hyung is having," the look on his face could only be described as pure adulation and Jeonghan smirked a little as he turned to the other. "What will it be Joshua?" "Standard hangover breakfast," he said as he closed the menu. "Two Americanos over ice, two BLT, fruit plate...." "And apple juices," Seokmin interrupted and Jeonghan wrote it down. "Coming right up," he said as he turned and walked back into the kitchen.

Seokmin couldn't hide his delight at the attentiveness of his hyung over breakfast. Smiling at him, talking in that low breathy voice that told him their conversation was only for his ears, stroking his hand so softly and complimenting him so reverently. He knew it was all pretence, that Joshua was just showing off in front of Jeonghan, but he accepted it willingly anyway. One day Joshua's sweet gestures might come from the heart but until then he would take what he could get.

He picked at his food when it arrived. He wasn't that hungry - mainly because he wasn't hungover. The delicious meal Joshua had served him the night before had been satisfying in so many ways and he ate just half the BLT before pushing it aside in favour of the fruit. "Still not feeling well?" Joshua asked and Seokmin shook his head. His stomach was churning but not with the after effects of alcohol. It was in turmoil over the realisation of what he'd done the night before. Taking advantage of Joshua like that, when his hyung was drunk and vulnerable, it wasn't his proudest moment and he resolved to be more careful in the future. His phone buzzed on the table and he threw it a cursory glance before shoving it in his pocket.

"Who was that?" Joshua asked as he mulled over a piece of pineapple. "Just Soonyoung," Seokmin said as he sipped his coffee. "He wants to catch up later and get my help on a song he's working on for the musical..." Joshua's face dropped a little and it wasn't unnoticed by the younger. "I thought you didn't like him anymore," Joshua said as he put the fruit down. "Actually," he said as he looked around, "I thought you said you might like someone else."

"No," Seokmin quickly jumped in. He didn't know what he had been thinking, almost spilling the truth to Joshua last week, almost giving himself away. "I still like him." He looked over to the counter where Jeonghan was drying a mug and watching them intently. He sighed a little and wondered how he ever could compete with that. The barista was stunningly good looking, putting other men and women to shame with his pretty and delicate doll like features which contrasted sharply with his strong wit and savage sarcasm, and Seokmin knew he would never be on that level of confidence.

"I think we need to do a better job of trying to make Soonyoung jealous," Seokmin said as he picked at a slice of melon. "Maybe you can come and pick me up later from the rehearsal room?" He let hope build in his heart and was rewarded when Joshua nodded his agreement.

"Jeonghan hyung," Mingyu said as he joined the other barista at the counter, "you've been staring at them for ages." "They're cute," Jeonghan replied as he began to wipe the counter down. "I thought they were an odd couple at first but they actually suit each other really well. It's nice." Jeonghan sighed. He was tired of the way things were going with his boyfriend. The rapper was still reluctant to settle down and, while it was fun at first having so much freedom, Jeonghan was increasingly jealous of the couples around him acting so cute and smitten all the time.

"Anyway, why do you look so happy today?" Jeonghan braced himself for another sappy story about Mingyu and his burgeoning love life with his new boyfriend. "Got good news today, one of my best friends has been living overseas, in America for four years, anyway he's coming back!" Jeonghan smiled in surprise at the cute boy grinning at his phone, typing away furiously in his friends group message. "Jaehyun's coming home to study here! I'm so excited."