Laurie's P.O.V

I stared at Violet. She looked quite sad despite everything. I realized I wasn't seeing the whole picture though. I saw a small figure behind her. I recognized his goggles before anything else.

"Welcome Back, Princess.." Varian said as he stepped forward narrowing his eyes down at me.

I wanted to say they looked different. Though they didn't. Violets eyes had changed though. They looked deeper more full of sadness and sorrow. Her hands were crossed over her chest I could see long burns that were covered by here jacket selves.

Varian walked forward, grabbing my wrist looking at me. His blue eyes also had so much sorrow in them. His face fell a bit as he talked as if he was worried about anything I would say to him.

"... A-are they o-okay...?" He asked softly. I nodded my head and pulled out a paper from my jacket sleeve. Varian took it and stared at it before handing it to Violet.

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"Where did you get this...?" She asked to afraid to ask anything else.

I sighed. Not wanting to say that the mysterious figure from my dream left it in my hands when I woke up.

I simply shrugged and sighed looking down. "Varian... I know about the deal maker... and I... I want to make a deal with him..." I said keeping my head low.

Varian stared at me a bit confused. I supposed he thought he and Violet would be making the deal but he didn't say anything. Instead him and Violet walked out waving a hand at me for me to follow them.

I followed them at a distance staring straight ahead as we walking into Varian's lab. He smoothed down the map onto his table before taking out a normal map of a kingdom. Violet starred down at him handing him a note book where he turned to page with another map drawn on it.

I leaned over his shoulder staring at all the maps.

"Wait... Look..." I said pointing at an uncharted mountain on the kingdom and the other map. I saw Violet look back up at me before looking down at the map.

"Yeah... It resembles the new map you brought us... But even if it was there is no way we could get there fast enough." Violet said with a sigh.

"Well... Not on foot of course... but there are other methods of traveling.." Varian said before looking at me with Violet.

I stared back at both of them a bit confused. Not understanding a word they meant.

"...Why are you two looking at me like that." I asked after the silence had gotten too much for me to handle.

"I mean.. You're a princess, you must have access to some... well faster transportation..? Perhaps some horses to cut our time in half..?" Varian asked as he stood up.

I shook my head, though as soon as I heard Violet start to protest I stopped her. "Listen, right now I'm not in the best position to do anything. If my dad found out I was here... He would rip me to shreds, then apologize then rip me to shreds and then make sure that it looked like I committed suicide or some shit so he could stay on the throne longer...!" I said my voice ending in a squeak at the end of my sentence.

I see Varian and Violet staring at me before I let out a sigh. I know that these  two were just going to be more persistent, so why even bother trying to make them think differently.

"Well... There is one way I think we could get a way of transportation... But we would have to leave early in the morning, when the guards are changing positions... It's the only way to be able to sneak into the castle..." I said as I messed around with a vile in my hands

"Really...?" Varian asked his bright blue eyes shimmering with excitement.

I nodded my head, before pointing at the door. "We gotta get going though, we'll never make it by morning if we don't." I sighed softly.

I saw Varian embrace Violet quickly before starting to explain everything we will need to have an orderly trip.

I hated sometimes that he was a bit to organized.

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Varian's P.O.V(Oh ma gawd- O0O)

We had made it to a place nearby where we would sneak in. We were concealed with all the woods and blended in with the dark. I was laying down next to Violet trying to close my eyes so I could at least fall asleep. But something felt off.

I sat up seeing Laurie next to a far off tree crouched down on the ground. I didn't want to disturb her but I honest to god could not sleep. I rose up from the ground walking quietly towards her only to see a flash of blood coming from her wrist. 

"... Laurie...? What are you doing...?" I asked my voice breaking a bit at the end.

She turned around her eyes full of tears as she held a small pocket knife to her wrist. Several cuts that she just did recently and scars of ones I could see from maybe days or weeks ago.

"V-Varian... I-I didn't k-know you were awake..." I heard her say softly.

I sat down beside her taking away the knife and placing it beside me. "What are you doing..?" I asked trying to be calm.

She shook her head staring down at her wrists before speaking softly.

"... I don't want to live anymore... It's hard okay...? To know you caused many deaths to people who have been nothing but kind to you... It's hard to see how much damage your existence has caused. I'm not the princess I want to be... I'm not the daughter that my father wants... I'm n-not the partner that I promised Joel I was... I-I'm not one of those precious, beautiful, wonderful, gentle, or kind beings... alright...? I'm just a stupid bitch who god honestly doesn't have a reason to exist.." She choked out with a sob

I opened my mouth to speak out before she cut me off again.

"I-I know I shouldn't think like that... but it's true... I just want to fucking die... You wanna know why..? Cause I'm a monster, a worthless piece of crap who doesn't deserve to live... I mean what do I have to live for...?! A fiance who abuses me the way my father does...? A life I never wanted in the first place..?! Children who will hate me no matter what I do, cause they'll find out what I'm doing...!" Laurie said with another sob. Her hand went down to her engagement ring before taking it off and throwing it forward. I saw the glint of it before it disappeared into the earth.

I gently wrapped my hands around her tightly unable to speak my mind honestly. I heard her finally give out. She was a strong person, something about hearing her sobs and her apologies broke a part of me. After a good 2 minuets of crying she finally gave in and hugged me back. I gently pet her hair trying to think of a way to comfort her before she pulled away pushing her hair out of her face.

"I'm sorry..." She said finally after what felt like an eternity of silence.

I grabbed some bandages from my bag and cleaned her wounds before wrapping them up and forcing her to lie down. "Please just... get some rest... I'll be right here.." I said softly before gently kissing her forehead and watching over her sleep.

I wanted to hate her. I wanted to blame her, but something about seeing her break down in front of me made me think of her as... a sister I guess. It was weird. Though I didn't have time to think, for now. I think It would have been a good time to get some rest.

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Sorry if this chapter sucked, or if it wasn't as good as other chapters, but to be honest I kinda wanted a chiller episode that wasn't to happy or upbeat, but that also wasn't so depressing. I do hope you enjoyed this. Also you know what's crazy? I started writing this chapter at 12:30pm and just finished it, at 9:29pm-

WOW, I take a hella long time to write chapters, But I also went to go get a new sketchbook and went shopping, Plus I did have a bit of writers block for this chapter so shm-

ANYWAY

Can I just say I'm excited for the next two chapters UwU