I will admit that there might be something wrong with me

My once flawless life is slowly tearing at the seams

Mental abuse, homeless, and taking so many pain pills that I am hoping to OD

I wished that they could hear the war inside my head making war zones seem like a peaceful habitat

I'm holding my knife shaking trying to hold it back because I promised a friend a long time ago I would run like hell and never turn back

Look what you've made me do I'm slowly bleeding out! Oh look another one maybe I will get lucky and bleed out!

I've tried to be perfect every way I can, I starved myself to the point that people are getting suspicious and if they see my wrist I blame it on an accident during a competition.

I'm so sick of not living for me but it seems every time I try to stand up for myself that makes an ass out of me but that's okay because today I will cut the cord

If we can't make peace then I guess this means between the two of us will be at War!

I'm not afraid to take the hits and the blows but one of these days I will have enough and snap to the point that you should know

All of the hate I have will never fade because I will hate you even more if you chose to throw me and my family away!

Close minded and so religious that you make me sick but every time I try to say my opinion you make it sound like I am a huge bitch

I was once sweet but thinking back I was a punching bag so for now I will settle with being someone who doesn't have to worry about being mentally harassed.

I will let you go beg on your knees asking for your life to be handed to you because you don't have a clue how the real world works!

My head is my battleground and my knife is my weapon, suffering I have stopped asking for help, and alone I plan to stay

You say that I just need help that I had just been lead astray

I have to laugh because one of us won't be standing at the end of the day