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When Ben told me he was breaking up with me, my heart felt like it stopped then painfully restarted. It became difficult to take in air.

He was breaking up with me because he thought he was doing me a favor; he felt our breakup was the best thing for me. I really don’t want to go into details. Tears flowed down my eyes in quantum.

‘Ben please don’t leave me. I don’t know how to live without you.’ I could barely talk with the tears almost choking me.

‘This is what is best. I love you but I want what is best for you’

‘You are best for me. I am happy with you. I have no complaints’
I began sobbing hard and I knew my tears hurt him.

‘Please stop crying. Just please stop crying. Just forget what I said. We are okay.’

‘Please say you are not breaking up with me’

‘I am not breaking up with you and I’m not staying out of pity. I’m staying because I love you’

‘I love you too’
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‘Hello?’

It was a lady’s voice. Why was a lady answering Ben’s phone that late at night.

‘Please where is Ben?’

‘Is this Dee?’ the voice asked.

‘Yes. Where is Ben?’ I asked again.

‘He is not here.’

‘Did he go far?’

‘I don’t know’

Realization hit me. I was speaking to Grace. It had to be Grace.

‘Is this Grace?’ I asked.

‘It’s not important’ the voice replied.

‘I need to know where Ben is’ I was getting upset.

‘What is it that you want to tell him that you can’t tell me?’

I lost it. Who the hell was she? What sort of stupid question was that? I hung up because I saw no need in exchanging words with her. It was Ben I was going to talk to.

‘I am sorry. Don’t be mad. She was using the torchlight of my phone’. Ben explained the next day over the phone.

I wasn’t even aware that the girl now lived in the family house too with Ben.

‘Please tell her never to answer your phone again. I will not tolerate it’ I said.

‘I am sorry.'
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Things were very awkward between Ben and I and I knew it was because of my one week affair with Jerry.

We stayed in a hotel for three days. We didn’t have anything to talk about. I was constantly on my phone and his eyes were always on the television.

Even when we tried to have sex, it didn’t work. Something was wrong with us. It was like the burning fire between us had been quenched.

We talked about what was going on between us and we decided to try to make our relationship work.

We had just had sex and he had gone to the bathroom to shower. I picked up his phone and I opened his text messages.

I discovered he was having a relationship with Grace. I was hurt and I began crying. I faced his phone towards him immediately he came out of the bathroom.

‘What is the meaning of this?’

He took the phone from me and he knew I knew he was messing around with Grace.

‘Can I explain?’ He asked me.

I didn’t want to hear his explanation. Even in my anger, I felt guilty. I knew what I had done with Jerry and I knew I was no better than Ben. I went to bed that night in tears.

I gave Ben the silent treatment for the half of the next day.

‘Can we talk?’ I finally said to him. I asked him to explain to me what was going on.

‘We dated for a very short while and we decided to be friends. There is nothing between us now other than friendship’. Ben tried explaining.

‘Why did you do it?’

‘We were having issues then and I got a little confused. Grace was always there and she showed me care and the attention was nice. I was just infatuated.’

I wanted to tell Ben about everything that had happened with Jerry but I didn’t. I knew I was going to tell him but it wasn’t the right time.

‘I’m very sorry. It won’t happen again.’ He looked pitiable. I came close to him on the bed and I kissed him.

‘It’s okay. I forgive you’.

The make-up sex was amazing.
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