So this is it!!! Draco will finally know and has Jenine become nice?

Draco

In our last conversation Jenine said some weird things, she said something about mates. Well...the thing she said was that we were mates. What the hell is a mate and how are we mates? I'll really have to ask someone, but the only thing I can think of is asking Jenine and she hurt me deeply, I just can't right now. The other person I know can answer my question is Dumbledore and since my father isn't a fan of Dumbledore I've never really talked to him before. I'll have to ask him tonight, it can't wait and I can't really be seen at the library, it's for nerds and geeks. What am I gonna do with out fighting? All we do is fight and I don't like it, not a bit. I'm lost.

I head into the castle along with the others, take a seat in the big hall while we wait for the first years. I sneak a peak at Jenine a few seats away from me. Her beautiful eyes just stare into mid air, they are cloudy and blank, like she is in deep painful thoughts. Her whole figure just seem so sad that I want to go right down to her and hug her. She's painfully beautiful and at the same time awfully sad. I wonder what have made her this sad, maybe she thinks about her past. I wonder what really happened in her past that's so awful, I've never asked her, because I wanted to spare her from the terrible pain. When the first years come in, it's only one of them I notice, the blonde haired girl form train who demanded me to go talk to Jenine when I dumped her in public. I should not have done that, but she did say she loves me. I see that Jenine sees the girl, she and the blonde has eye contact for a few seconds before Jenine turn away with a smile. She doesn't look at me, not even once and that hurts me.

Then the ceremony happens, I don't listen to it though as I'm way to busy trying not to be caught staring at my ex girlfriend. The thought of Jenine being my ex girlfriend is breaking to think. She is supposed to be my girl, I just somehow know it. We belong to each other, not apart. It would only ruin us. I know I'm young, but I know what true love is, it's what we have. And I've heard that you should never let go of your true love, she is my first love and still is and I want her to be my one, last and only. I clap along with the other occasionally, but other than that I'm in deep, heavy thoughts. So when the ceremony stops I do not notice it, I only notice anything when someone shake my arm. I stare at the person, it's Pansy. I don't say anything, but nod to her that says, 'thanks, but I won't forgive you, ever'. Her brown eyes well up, but she blink the new made tears away and go back to her seat once again and shatter with her friends as usual. I may have pushed away the only person who likes me right now, except for Crabbe and Goyle. They stuff whatever they can find in their big mouths as usual, not bothering to make a conversation. When the meal is finished I have only eaten little, as I'm not hungry, except for Jenine to take me back. Dumbledore make a little speech I do not bother listening to, then we are sent to bed. Everyone leave with the prefects, while I hurry up to Professor Dumbledore.

When I stand before him, I do not know what to say, but he surprisingly says, "Come, we're going to my office, then we can talk privately". I do not say anything while we wake and neither does he. We just walk in silence. We walk to a statue of a bird, when he whispers something and the statue opens, it leads to some stairs. We walk up in to a big room with tables full of some weird devices, and helves full of old looking books. He seat himself behind a large desk and gesture for me to sit in the chair in front of him. I does as he says. His bright blue eyes looks at me curious as he asks, "What is it you want to ask me about, Draco". While I try to come up with an appropriate answer, he just looks at me intensely, almost like he's scanning me for all my secrets.

"I wonder if you know anything about mates?", I ask him in a low voice.

"Yes, infact I do. Mates are bond between two beings", he explain, when he sees my confused face, he adds, "soulmates". Oh, so that is mates. The next question that pops into my head, seems so silly that I don't dare to ask it.

When I don't say anything, Dumbledore just looks expectantly at me with a raised eyebrow, like he's saying 'Just ask it'. So for once in my lifetime I decide to listen, I hessisate for å moment, but one glare from him encourage me to move forward.

"Em...sir I wonder if it may occur to you that Jenine and I might be...mates", I push out the last word with force and all my might. I swallow and try to calm my racing hearth.

"Yes", he answers instantly.

"What does that mean?", I ask, this time with more confidence in my voice.

"It means that she'll be the love of your life, go chase after her", he says encourangly with a huge grin.

I think for a second and storm out of his office. It's still things that are unclear for me, but I know now that Jenine will tell me more when we talk, I just know it. Maybe it's the mate thing, I don't know. All I know is that I want to be with her, now and for the rest of my life, cliche I know, but I'm just so sure. Now I know she's my mate and we are meant to be, literary. I've heard about mates to werewolves, it shouldn't be so different. In stories ,mates are meant to be and instantly knows when they see each other for the first time. When I think about it, I always knew Jenine was something special, managing to captivate me at first sight. I run down the stairs, as Dumbledore's office's in the seventh floor and the common room is in the dungeons I have to run long. When I'm finally at the stone wall leading into the common room I realize that I haven't got the new password. Shit. So I bang on the door, hoping someone decent enough is still awake. Too bad most of us catch up in our rooms.

I bang once, then twice. I wait a moment and concentrate all my force and bang one last time, with thoughts of Jenine fresh in my mind. Everything from her delicious smell to her meanesss.

Then I hear footsteps on the other side of the door, and someone who opens.

A smell hits me, it smells like lavender, I see a flick of long, black hair.

Jenine

Someone's banging on the door, I look around to see if someone else is going to open, when I realize that no one dare to for the fear that it might be Snape an we should be in bed already, I walk steady to the door. I take the handle, rest my fingers on it for a second and open it.

Then the smell hits me boyish and a hint of caramel, that can only mean, Draco. I see his cute smile before I try to smash the door, but he blocks it and walk in. His grey eyes, those beautiful grey eyes that I love is looking at me with hurt. Then something weird happens, I sense something weird, an emotion of hurt. This can't mean that we're developing our mate bond now that Draco knows. I really can't do this right now. There's a reason I wouldn't get back with Draco, I can't hurt him again, no less bear it. That's the last thing I want to do.

"Jen, I know. Any more secrets that you wanna tell me?", he asks. I think about it. Maybe it's finally time to reveal it all to him.

"Yes", I say, forcing the words out of my mouth. This is not anything I want to do, but I love him and he deserves the truth, I love him enough to do at least that for him.

I take his arm and lead us to a dark corner of the common room, t's many of them now that people begin to leave as they're afraid of Snape and the fact that we have classes tomorrow.

I take a chair and Draco take the one opposite of me, when I doesn't say anything he says, "So are you gonna say anything or not". I think for a moment and see that he really means it. Now that I can read his emotions it's easier to not upset him more than needed. I wonder if Draco can sense my feelings too. Hope not, they're not nice most of the time.

"Yes", I answer him with as much calmness I can manage.

"Well...", I start, twining my fingers nervously as anxiety runs over me, like chills.

This time he don't interrupt, but just encourage me further, which I'm thankful for as this is pretty hard for me, to dive down into terrible memories. Maybe he can sense my feelings as well...

"I was born in a little smug in London. My mother bore me, but died giving birth to me, fortunately for me some 'nice' people came", I split the word 'nice' with large amounts of venom lacking in my voice.

He's about to interrupt, but I stop him with a movement of my finger on his lips. He nod as if he understands.

The next I'm gonna say is hard, so I swallow once and keep on telling him, "Those people were my family, I had. A girl named Tibby did I consider as my sister. And a man, Alex did I consider my father. I also had a brother, Max. They were my family, they betrayed me. I stop, take a deep breath and swallow once more, then twice. I blink the tears out of my eyes and when I'm sure they are gone I look into his beautiful eyes, which are full of love. I feel so bad that I know I have to go away from him ,again. I feel so bad about this.

"Then Dumbledore showed up, and the rest you kind of knows. And do you remember the girl you saw in my compartment, when I was singing? ", I ask him. He nod and I continue, "She's actually my cousin. Mom and her was apparently sisters, which neither I or Luna knew about, my sister", I say before he can ask.

"My father is in Askaban, so now I have no family left. None", I say bitterly.

Then he takes my chin to make me look at him through the well of tears that's started to form, creating a fog. Surprisingly his beautiful grey ones has tears in them too.

"It's okay, Jen. You have me", he says in his sweetest voice ever and I believe him in the moment. I let myself be embraced in his arms and our moment is not disturbed.

Sadly, it's always always for a moment, a moment only. While he seems to enjoy this as much as I do, but I have to destroy it and tell him everything, literary everything before leaving him, forever....

So I do as I have to, let go of him. It's like my entire body shouts, 'NO', but I ignore it and begin to leave. However, he hold tighter and sadly he's stronger than me. I feel a feeling of frustration and more hurt comming from him. Stupid, stupid me. Why does I always hurt him?, even when I don't intend to?...

"Jenine, I wanna know more", he pleads, his eyes are begging for me to say yes, and how can say no to his adorable grey eyes.

"Fine", I answer with and sign. I really wish that this conversation is over soon, so I can crawl up to bed and cry. Yes, cry, I love him for God's sake.

"What do you wanna know?", I ask him with as much patience I can master, which isn't much.

The exitment coming from him is so joyful that I let myself be caught in it for a second. An escape, a beautiful escape.

His face is in thinking mode for a few minutes, then he replies, "everything. I wanna know when you first found out that we were mates and how it works and stuff". He says it all in one single breath of exitment, so it sounds more like words placed everywhere.

"I found out last year, sorry for not telling you", I apologize. I study his face close, to be sure I'm not hurting him. His face change from exited to sad to betrayal. Oh no! This is not good, really not good. Oh, fuck.

He looks like he's about to shout, but surprise me when he calmly says, "I can't believe you". Then he storm away, seems like I'm not the one leaving him after all.