I've tried to save myself time and time again
But my mind just hates
Everything I ever am
I tried to cut it out of me
That's why there's all these scars
But these thoughts don't just disappear
They just grow inside my mind
They build up over time you see
I'm an expert at this art
You cry when no one is looking
Or force a smile when they do
I want to live, I truly do
But I've been fighting for years
And my heart just hasn't came through
I don't know what else to try
I'm out of things to do
But these demons never stop
I always here their whisper in my ear
Tearing at my memories
That I hold so close and dear
They make them rotten
Any happiness disappears
They turn good memories
Into dark and dreary fears
There's nothing good left except
For a heart that won't stop beating
But the energy it once had
Is quickly fleeting.

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Hi guys
Merry Christmas to y'all and happy holidays to whoever is reading this.