I just want to break down
Like really break down
With tears streaming down my face
While I'm gasping for air
To keep my lungs in chess

But all I can ever mange to do
Is to get this lump in my throat
That's more of a punishment than a relief
And when I'm done all I feel is worse.

And it seems as if I can never fully snap out of this break down
And I want to scream at everyone and everything,
So much my brain is actually shaking but I can't
Because I'm too strong
Or too weak.