I just wanna give you all the voice till I die, I just wanna give you all the shoulders when you cry
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Namjoon and Akai walk hand in hand through the graveyard. Both withering in spirit and cautious of each other. Finally after a long chase the answers where revealed. It not only brought peace but it brought a sense of relief. Relief to the both of them, for the journey that they took was more than just finding who the murder was.

They both stop at the posts and look to each other with comforting smiles. They're hands slowly slip out of each other and they look ahead.

Akai takes a deep breath and looks at Dean's grave. He was someone she knew and grew to care for. No matter how he lived in the world, she still cared for him and loved him. In a way, she knew that he loved or even liked her in his own way. Maybe it was the wrong way of love but she knew he felt something. After all this time she realises that she's been the only one person who came to visit him. Maybe others came when she wasn't aware, but from her point it's only been her. She smiles to herself. "I was his only true friend and lover."

Namjoon hears her words and nods his head. True he hadn't noticed anyone else dedicated and loyal as Akai was. He focuses back on Sindy's grave seeing it in a different light, seeing her in a different light. She was a good person, she just got caught with the wrong people. He thinks to the recordings he heard of Taehyung speaking about what happened to her. Who knew that Jungkook, as well as Taehyung, had serious issues? A loose piece of humanity must've escaped from them, because it wasn't normal how they dealt with their pain.

As tough as it was to forgive them for what they did he had to put himself in their shoes. Problem was he didn't know what to do, or how to think. How do you begin to think like a psychopath?

"You know," he starts thinking of what exactly he wanted to do. "I want to help Taehyung. I've realised that in all my time hating him, I had no reason to do so. He was hurt and me blindly hating him did not help."

"What do you mean?" She starts walking to the little bench by the far end and he follows her. "Blindly hating how?"

"I hated him. With a burning passion. It was only because I was jealous of him." He releases. "He was good at everything. Talking, getting recognition, his studies. I was inspired by him, but that inspiration slowly turned to hate. He didn't deserve it. I always say that you play an important role in people's lives, so who knew. Maybe if I was more open instead of closed with him, he may have learnt something from me."

"What do you mean?" She asks shrugging her jacket off while also noticing a group of people in black. They were all standing near a tombstone and she understood the feel each of them might've been feeling. She looks back to Namjoon seeing that his attention was also on the group.

"As long as they have each other, they'll be fine," he says refering to the group before looking back to Akai. "What was I saying?" He asks rhetorically trying to remember.

"You were saying that everyone plays an important role in somebody else's life," she reminds him, jolting his memory back to speed.

"Right," he says. "Jin always used to say this phrase of 'Use me'. It meant that in whatever you were doing or suffering, then you could use the other person to find happiness. Like how Taehyung confided in you. I could hear it in his voice.. he had gotten attached to you. He trusted you, and most importantly according to what you said, he used you. Not in a bad note. He used you in the sense that you were his happiness. His happiness and escape from his bad. Whatever you did, you somehow made him want to...stop his bad ways,"

While he speaks he notices Akai's depressed state. "What's wrong?"

"I'm just thinking of what you said earlier, that you wanted to help him. Everything you said was true, he was changing." She nods and looks back to him. "What do you have in mind?"

He sighs and leans back on the bench. "You can take a horse to a river but you can't make it drink..right now," he holds Akai's hand in his. "The best thing to do is probably give him time to think. After all he's in prison. He has all the time to think, all the time to himself. Sometimes being with too many people makes you not think, but when you're alone..all alone you start thinking."

Akai nods her head moving closer to Namjoon and laying her head on his arm. She gets light headed and smiles. "Is it me or did you get taller,"

"No, why?"

She sits up again and looks at him. "I used to rest my head on your shoulder, but now it's like your shoulder has gotten higher,"

"Or maybe you got shorter," he smirks. "Actually, I know why. You didn't wear your hills today,"

She rolls her eyes. "We're sitting not standing."

He grins and just looks at her smiling with his dimpled smile. She stops joking around also looking at him. Her stomach starts doing the things with the butterfly and she crosses her arms over his abdomen resting her chin on his chest looking up to him. He kisses her forehead, drawing his hand down her hair.

"I wanna show you something,"

"What?" She smiles up to him.

"It's a surprise," he closes his eyes. "Let's just lay like this for a little bit longer,"

"Let's at least go to the cafe," she suggests. "It's warmer,"

"I feel warm here with you,"

"In the graveyard?"

He opens his eyes looking to the group. By now everyone else has gone, leaving only one man. He understood what Akai was saying. "You're right,"

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"Round all that up for me please." Namjoon requests.

"4 bedrooms, 3 bathrooms, 2 living rooms, 1 dinning room, 1 front yard, 1 backyard with a swimming pool and 1 garage." The real estate agent lady says standing by the window with a charming smile. "There's a beautiful sun roof on the top floor so I doubt you'll be too cold, and it's all for a cost of ¥650,0000 and per month ¥65,000."

Akai's eyes enlarge at the price and she looks to Namjoon, who if she understood correctly had lived in a trailer. He has a smile while looking at her.

"Can you please give us a moment," Namjoon kindly says and the agent lady smiles before moving out the large illuminated living room. "So," Namjoon starts stuffing his hands in his pockets. "What do you think?"

"W-what do I think?" Akai licks her lips and crosses her arms looking around. "Honestly when you told me that you had a surprise for me I wasn't expecting this... House.."

"I know I shouldn't have decided without you but I want you to move in with me, officially." Namjoon says walking closer to Akai bringing his hands gently on her arms tilting his head to the side to see her clearly.

Akai has been living with Namjoon ever since she left Zha's place, which was a month ago. Even though she always felt like a bother, he was kind enough to let her stay and even buy her normal essentials that she needed even wanted. She was beyond flattered when he got out his way just for her.

Akai smiles and unfolds her hands laying them on his chest. "That's a big step," she whispers. "But.. I would've also been happy in the house,"

Namjoon chuckles. "That house was for Sindy and I." He sighs. "This house here, is for you and I. I want to start a new page with you and not carry on in the same old past book."

"Namjoon..how can you even afford this house with way more bedrooms then needed?"

"Savings, investments and promotions," Namjoon thinks around and smiles when seeing how restless Akai becomes.

"I don't want you for your money Namjoon.. although I won't lie and say it's not nice but I don't want what we have to be built on finance and expenses.." Akai says laying her head on Namjoon's forehead.

"Our relationship is growing with a number of things but the foundation is trust and faith. Trust me when I say I want you to have all of me, my mind, my heart, my soul, my life..and also my assets." He closes his eyes enjoying her tiny fingers at the back of his neck rubbing his baby hair. "And..maybe also my body,"

Akai chuckles and finally opens her eyes leaning away slightly to have a better look at him.

"What do you say? Do you accept my offer to live with me officially? Or.."

Akai nods her head. "Yes, of course. Although I'd say that my home is where your heart is," he snickers at her cliche words but agrees

"This is the first of many...baby steps," he licks his lips wanting to kiss her. She takes the hint and wraps her arms around his neck moving even closer.

Three months ago was tough. He finally found all the answers he needed. He knew Sindy's killer and especially knew that he was in jail. He also knew that he felt lighter, like he wasn't carrying anymore of Sindy's burden. He felt more at ease with moving on. He didn't feel disloyal to his past. He knew that all that mattered was the present and future.

She closes her eyes loving his hot soft breaths on her lips. "What can I possibly say right now to express how I feel?" Akai asks with her smile.

"Nothing, because I already know," after saying that he plants his lips on hers taking her in his arms as she returns his soft kiss.

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