I need you to give me your time, but not wanna be mine. Are you down to be a distraction baby

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I laugh lightly listening to Taehyung sing seeing him move around. He recently dyed his hair blue which I can't get over. It makes him look beautifully handsome.

"Come here before that cream dries up on your skin and makes you itchy." I tell him going over to the bed watching him bounce on it.

I straddle his waist delicately moving my fingers along his skin to smoothen the cream deeper on his face.

I feel his hands on my waist just resting their..maybe an attempt to reassure me that he's not as deadly as the story he told me last night or this morning.

"You've put this on my face for a month and a half and I can honestly say my skin has been much smoother and clearer." He says getting up once I'm done going over to the mirror to pat his face and fix himself up. "What is it?"

"I made it myself, my skin really had lots of rush edges and no cream would help my features so I found out what my skin likes and decided to cook up a little lotion cream for it." I say while lacing up my shoes.

"I'm speechless wow," he says holding onto the little cream. "What is in it?"

"Do not judge me," I laugh lightly. "Coconut milk, coconut water, regular water and also a tip of baby's condensed milk, nut oil and uhm Jin's tea." I chuckle lightly walking past him out the door. I hear him gasp while following me once he's done with his buttons.

[A/n: This isn't a real cream... Don't try it at home.]

"I will judge you. Jin's tea?"

"Yeah it was on special and I got the herbs he was using to make the tea and found out that it was vitamin E6 like avocado and helped with repairs of soars, scars and all that. I gave it a try and bam." I laugh lightly walking next to him.

"Now that I notice, you take really good care of your skin and body Apple doll," he notes his finger sliding down my arm. "I like that you can take care of me too,"

I'm about to respond but his phone rings. He looks at the phone and curses. "Alright Apple doll I think Jay is downstairs already. You go ahead without me I'll meet you downstairs,"

I nod my head and take my bag. Today for some reason he wanted to treat me. I didn't understand and I still don't understand but I'm ready for everything he's got to give today. This might be the last time I'll ever spend with him again.

Once I'm downstairs I walk out the lobby greeting the door man and meeting Jay by the car. I smile slightly.

"Hey," I greet. He stands straight opening the backseat door. I slide in the back watching him as he takes the drivers seat.

"Where's Zha?" He asks suddenly.

"He'll be out in a minute," I answer.

"Gives me time."

"For what?" I ask suspiciously as he sharply turns around facing me.

"Akai I'm being tracked." He states. "Your buddy, I figured is Namjoon. He's gone to the police hasn't he?"

I stare at him in shock not being able to say anything. He rubs his face and sits back properly on his seat. "This is becoming too dangerous Akai," he says. "If Zha finds out about this, he won't even care if Namjoon's his friend or whatever. His gonna kill him. So please Akai, stop your friend while he's still alive,"

"Jay but I need to know the truth. You can't expect me to stop when I'm this close-"

"To what? Honestly Akai if you haven't noticed Zha's more into you then he's ever been with any woman he's met," he sighs looking out the window. "Consider this as a warning. This won't end well."

Before I can even respond the passengers door opens up and Taehyung enters the car looking behind catching my eye. I quickly fix my gaze looking at him peacefully, he returns a smile looking forward.

"Jay you and I have something to discuss later, but first I wanna treat Akai," he smiles in the review mirror. "So you can just drop us by the Vale and I'll call you when we're done."

"The Vale? Isn't that like thee most expensive place ever?" I ask completely shocked.

"Yes it is," he chuckles. "Akai if you let me, I can grant you the whole world,"

Jay turns his head forward shaking it and I meet his gaze at the review mirror.

"You're already in my world Apple doll. So will you let me?" Taehyung breaks the silence. I nod my head. "That's good,"

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Namjoon's pov

Akai:
Good morning Namjoon :)
How are you? I hope you're doing well
So, I got Taehyung to confess..or talk about things.
I'll send them to you.

I frown a bit. Taehyung? What does Taehyung have to do with this? I've never asked her that. Maybe Taehyung also works for Zha.

Namjoon:
What does Taehyung have to do with this?

It takes her moments to respond but she eventually does.

Akai:
That's the other thing I needed to tell you.
Taehyung is Zha. It's his... dealing name
Zha is a ghost. Meaning Taehyung is also a ghost.
There's no record of him or Zha. Apparently he died years ago..his father died but somehow he got it to be him.
I'll send the recording.
We're leaving now.

My mouth hangs open as I read the message thinking back to why Taehyung stopped coming to school. This makes no sense at all. Actually it does. It all makes sense now.

Namjoon:
I also have some things to tell you about him.

[Read]

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2 hours later...Akai's pov.

"You cold?" He asks as he makes me step in the car. I nod my head slightly warming myself. Taehyung removes his jacket handing it to me remaining only in his long sleeved white shirt.

"Tae?" I shake my head. "No I can't take this. You'll be freezing. Come in the backseat with me, we'll warm each other up. Body heat. Please," I give him puppy eyes.

He looks to Jay in the front seat. "What do you say Jay?"

Jay playfully frowns and exaggerates his voice making it higher. "Then I'll be lonely. No! Don't leave me,"

We both chuckle and Taehyung shakes his head getting in the backseat with me. He brings me in his arms and smiles while rubbing my shoulder.

From the moment we left till now the vibe between us has been amazing and wonderful, he took me out into 'His World'. Not the kidnapping killing world but the world without violence and hate where his peace was still at. It was wonderful.

Soul City.

It was peaceful from the moment we stepped into the gates. I've never felt such peace just by looking at the blue sky, mountains and the trees. The road was paved with little colourful roses and smelled refreshing, rainbow prints on the wall, so authentic and artistic. I failed to understand the obedience around the land as everyone and everything were just in peace and a soothing sound of laughter could be heard. The birds as well chimed so sweetly and the food was so delicious like I swear I felt my insides melting each and every time I took a bite- but then it hit me.

As we were eating he slipped his fingers into mine and said those three words. I heard it before at night but I just thought that he didn't mean it. However when he said it again I couldn't help but ask how he fell for me in such a short time. After all our relationship was built on lust and maybe lies- I was helping Namjoon. I didn't tell him the last part.

His answer made me wish I would've just handed Namjoon the hard drive and folders I found a long time ago. I thought that maybe for once I could consider my own feelings. I wanted to help Taehyung, I didn't even know how to help him but I figured my presence here with him would push him a little to do a little soul searching. A full four months in total with him of lust, but one month spent just to get to know each other.

I could see it in his eyes how he didn't hesitate with pure sincerity, he was ready.

Earlier... flashback

"I love you, Akai,"

After a moment of silence I hold his hand tightening up my grip.

"Taehyung...do you really mean that?" I ask him laying my fork down on my other hand so that I'm holding both his hands. "How do you even know what love is after all you've done,"

The thoughts of Namjoon's words echoing in my mind.

"Have you ever wondered why forbidden love is forbidden? Why some people don't love at all? Why the word love makes some people angry?" He asks.

I shake my head.

"It is something that is rare, out of this world. Unique. Strange. Yet, it's beautiful and sweet at the same time." He smiles licking his lips. "Love happens with strange people. It is not forced or planned for, it grows like a fire in my heart. I know I haven't been the greatest guy but I do know what love is. Love demands attention, care, totality. Love wants you to give up everything just for one person..you are that person to me. You've been talking a lot about self respect and self worth and self love that at some point I've been thinking about it and.. I'm tired of picking up things that won't pick me up." He sighs gesturing around to the place we're at. "My childhood.. I didn't think it'd still be here or looking as marvelous and gracious like this. I came here all the time before I killed my mum. The few months we've been together it's made me realise that after vengeance what will be left of me. When all this is done. What will be left? This is all I've been doing, working up my way to this just to save my dad and when it's done, I'd have wasted 34 years of my life. I don't wanna waste anymore.. I need you to be with me. You're all I have that's close to my heart.. I don't wanna loose you so I'll say it now because I know and I'm certain that..you'll be mine.. all mine."

End of flashback.

"Hey," Taehyung asks. "You good? You kinda zoned out on me,"

I look up to him just now realising his already embracing me and looking down at me.

"Don't worry though," Jay says from the front. He's already driving. How long was I out? "You didn't miss anything, he was being boring,"

"He's never boring," I state laying my head on his chest. "Your mind isn't ready and cannot absorb such wisdom,"

Jay cries in pain and Taehyung laughs but then—

"Jay duck!"

Taehyung's warning is short as a piercing sound of a bullet breaks through the glass near Jay.

"Shit!" Jay yells speeding his car in the long empty high way. "The hell!"

"Drive faster they're gaining on us- Akai!" Taehyung pulls me rapidly towards him by his side as another bullet breaks the window allowing the fast air running inside. "Jay! Drive!"

Jay immediately steps on the gas and the car swerves to full speed. My ears are barely audible only hearing the wind. I see Taehyung's lips moving before he tells me to go down- I follow his order as he steps to the front seat.

I'm jolted out of my mind when I hear gunshots echoing all over coming from Taehyung. I clutch my heart as it's beating roughly. I hold onto his abdomen while he's shooting and shake my head. Half his body is outside the window and the gun is in both his hands as he's just shooting. "Tae please stop!"

It's when I speak that I hear how I've been crying and all sounds come back to my ears like a swerve of shoots.

He holds my hand getting back in the car running his fingers through his hair.

It's silent- I think they've stopped following us or he probably shot them. The only sound now is my sniffs and light cries.

I turn my head back seeing two black vehicles bumped into each other. There's smoke coming out from the front end of one car as a man stands far from the car. I squint my eyes as we get further and further away. I turn back to the front holding Taehyung's hand again. My heart beats fast and I try and hold my breath.

"Akai are you okay?" Taehyung asks, his leg shaking. I nod my head. Taehyung's hand gets harder as he turns to Jay. "Would you mind telling me what the fuck that was!?" He yells at Jay.

"I'm being followed." Jay snaps back.

Taehyung laughs and it sounds dark. "No shit. Who are you being followed by? Tell me this now."

Jay sighs on edge. "Do you remember Kihyun?"

"Jungkook's dad? The dead guy?"

"Yeah the dead guy," Jay sighs. "His other biological daughter-"

"Oh wow." Taehyung chuckles as if realising something. "Sindy. Let me guess. Namjoon?"

"Yeah."

"I've been missing so many files lately- thought I misplaced them but my suspicions are correct. We might have a rat amongst us."

Jay begins. "What do we do?"

My heart stops beating after what Taehyung says next. "I'll get Slick to kill Namjoon."

"No." I say from the back. I shift forward gripping his hand tighter. "Taehyung don't you dare. I don't like seeing this side of you-"

"Akai," he breaths in and out through his mouth, I catch him close his eyes while squeezing his forehead. "Let me think."

Jay looks at me through the review mirror.

"Now that Jay is being followed then my guesses of Zico and Hoseok are right," Zha says.

Jay looks at him a little before facing the road again. "What do you mean?"

"I've been seeing a lot more police around them then usual. It clicked when one cop tried gunning Zico down while taking a piss." Zha chuckles. "Their on to us. I have to find this rat fast before we can continue."

"Might be closer then you think boss." Jay says keeping his eyes on the rearview mirror at me.

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Amazing poem by my bestie Dave ;) entitled: Forbidden love