Looking down from the edge of the building, my eyes dulled and my world spinning from the pain, I knew I had to at least do one thing. I pulled out my phone, opened my Messager app, and pushed on her name. I was expecting no response, no pick up, after all, she was to be working. 

Surprise surprise... She did.

"Hey hun what's up?"

"Oh... Sol... you picked up..." I was stunned. I expected to leave a voice mail, a little message for her to get off work to. Nothing bad, just to wish her a happy life.

"It's my lunch break. What's up?" Her voice was so perky and yet a dull rage hid behind them. I didn't blame her, seeing who she had to deal with.

My mind blank, my body against the edge, I said,

"I wanted to call... to say a few things."

"Shoot." She was calmed, it seems. She didn't understand what was to happen.

"I wanted to say thank you. Thank you for being a big sister to me. Thank you for treating me like an equal. Thank you for being beside me in some of my bad moments."

"Of course, Andi. I will always be here to listen." That brought tears to Andi's eyes, making her sniffle before she let out a choked sob. "Andi? What's wrong?"

"I am so sorry Sol. I just... You are a wonderful woman. You are strong. You are improving your life. You have such a wonderful future to look forward to." I let the tears flow freely, my voice beginning to waver and become more choked up.

"Andi..." She sounded so sympathetic...

"And I'm sorry... for what I have done." I whispered, before my emotions shut down. Depression numbness was a blessing. The tears dried, and my voice steadied. "I'm sorry for what's to happen."

"Andi? What's happened?" Her voice took a sudden shift, noticeable and strong. Concern and a bit of fear entered her voice.

"... I am so sorry." It was the only thing I could feel to say.

"Stop saying that... what's going on?" More fear. Oh Solstice...

"I'm on the edge, and I'm... I'm planning to jump." My words were emotionless, and yet my voice shook at them.

The phone was silent, just before Solstice spoke again with a shaky voice.

"What... You better not mean..." Confusion, horror, and realization all in the same tone.

"It's ok, Sol. I'll..." I stopped, before starting again, "I've been a terrible friend to you. I haven't told you everything, but it's just I can't take anymore pain."

"Andi stop right now. Where are you? I'll come and get you. I'll send Auric to get you. Please stay somewhere safe and just wait." Panic was an emotion I knew too well, and her voice was full of it. Auric would give my spirit hell if he knew that I called his fiancé with the intent of being my last call.

"I'm sorry Solstice... I can't do that. I'm too tired. I'm too broken. I'm... I have no energy left to fight." I smile slightly, as I look down from my college perch, to see the small crowd below. They were calling to me, wondering what was happening with me and begging for me to get down.

"Don't give me that shit Andi. Please just think this through." The begging in her voice was almost touching. If only it was there before all this. If only they had thought of this before they destroyed my world.

"I have. This will be quick and this... this is best." I said, looking to the horizon. There was truly beautiful things in the world. I would miss it, but not enough for me to stay my feet.

"What about your sister? Your friends? Me? Auric? Devan?" She tried for anything that would snap me back to anxiety, where I would be too panicked to move. So smart.

"Liz will be fine. If anything, she will be happier. My friends will move on eventually. Auric and you will get married and continue on. Devan... Devan made his choice. He doesn't care anymore about me. I don't blame him. I'm nothing." I said, before taking a breath. "Solstice..."

"ANDI DON'T DO THIS!" There was voices in the background, coworkers wondering what was happening, her supervisor asking her what was wrong. She was trying to explain, while trying to yell at me.

"Just leave me a seat at your wedding, won't you?" I asked, a rather dumb question to ask at that moment.

"ANDI!!" Her scream almost poked at what I used to call a heart.

"Good bye, Solstice. Stay strong. Love you." I murmured, before clicking the phone. I dropped it to the ground below, hearing it shatter with a sickening crack. I smile, before putting my arms out to my sides. 

"Good bye, everyone. See you next run." I whispered, before letting my body fall forward, and the world go dark.

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