When I wake up I stand up and take care of rooms, one for me and one for Julien to sleep in, I let him go in there with his bed slowly so I won't wake him up, I get some food ready and eat it. I am not in a state to write, so I just go to my room and stare in front of me. I don't know how long I am there, laying on my bed and staring in front of me when I suddenly hear screaming. I jump up and run towards Juliens room ready to safe or protect him. When I am there I sigh relieved, no one is attacking. Julien is laying in his bed and he is sobbing. He looks very scared and his eyes are wide. I walk towards him and sit on his bed. Julien turns away, ashamed that he is crying. I smile softly at that and rub his back. 'I'm here, you are okay. Everything is okay. I am here.' I crawl over the bed so I am able to sit beside Julien, he is shaking and shivering and between his sobs he hiccups. He tries to turn away, but I hold him back. 'Don't be ashamed to cry. Someone important used to say: "It's okay to cry, clouds rain too when things get heavy." so there is nothing to be ashamed of.' I say. Julien nods and I hand him a tissue. Julien stops sobbing, but he is still shaking and shivering. 'Go lay down, I am back in a second.' I say while standing up when Julien catches my wrist to stop me. 'Please don't leave, I already am scared as hell.' Julien tries to say it joking, but I can see he is very affected by whatever it was that happened, so I sit down. Julien lays in his bed again and motions for me to lay beside him under the blankets. Julien puts an arm around me and pulls me close. I feel a bit uncomfortable, but Juliens warmth and smell make me relax soon enough. I twist a bit so I am more comfortable. Juliens breath goes steady and I close my eyes. 'What happened?' I ask softly, Juliens breath hitches, but he answers. 'I had a nightmare. Everyone was dead, you too and when I woke up and you weren't there and everything else looked different I panicked. I thought you had left me, or locked me up under the ground.' I looked up to Julien, an silent tear rolled out of his eye. 'No one is dead, everything is just different. And it's my fault, I created rooms for us apart to sleep in and I let you be carried into your room, and I am not going to watch while you sleep.' Julien laughs a bit at that. 'Yeah, that would be creepy. It's fine, you didn't know that I would react like this. Are you sure you are not dead?' I smile. 'I am not dead.' I took his hand and guided it, apparently Julien thought I was going to let him feel my hart trough my chest, but I stopped him right on time and said with a wink: 'You would want that huh?' Julien flushed bright red and I laughed while I guided his hand to my neck, I took two fingers and put them on the spot where you can feel my heartbeat the best. I waited a second until Julien pulled his fingers away, still blushing about before. 'See, I am alive, I have a beating hart and I am warm, I am not dead.' Julien looks away a bit awkward and I don't know how to feel about his reaction myself. 'It's okay. I don't mind. Don't be ashamed about it.' Julien nods, but he is still tense. It gets weird when the silence isn't broken. 'Can I have an hug?' I ask hoping Julien will relax a bit from it. Julien nods and I turn so I can give him a hug. I hug him and Julien hugs me tightly. When I want to let go Julien pulls me closer, so I hug him back and let go when Julien is done. I see he cried and wipe away his tears. 'Come on, you have to eat something and I need to write.' Julien nods and I get out of bed, Julien does the same. I give him some clothes and say he can take a shower as long as he wants. I make some food for him and he eats it when he is done with taking a shower. I let warm water fall on him and the ground took it back, so it's a shower pure made of nature. I try to write, but I can't find the right position, when Julien is done he takes me to my room and sits on it in the middle leaning against the wall. 'You can sit between my legs and can lean against my chest, you can make a table or something so you can write nice and I can read with you. I have nothing else to do.' Julien says. I want to open my mouth, but Julien gives me a look that says: "No buts" I take all paper sheets and my pen and sit between Juliens legs, it actually is way much better then anything else and I start to write.

Chapter 7 (The Book).

Jason.

I jerked and spat out water. I felt weak and could hardly breathe because of all the people standing around me. I looked around. I was put on a stretcher and Xavier held my hand, I looked at him strangely. "You were angry with me, right?" I ask. He looks at me with a slanting smile. "I can't be angry with you in this situation." He squeezed my hand. I was placed on a kind of cart and Xavier walked next to it. The Camp soon came into view again and I was taken to the infirmary. There I was buried under all kinds of blankets. People came running and they all did tests. I was freezing because I was hypothermic and felt weak. I didn't know exactly what happened, but I didn't really care, Xavier was okay again. I had a headache and thirst. The doctors wanted to keep an eye on me for a while, but I wanted to get back to work immediately. Nomi also came by and gave me a kiss on the cheek and a big hug. I saw Xavier frowning and gently pushed her away from me. 'Be a little careful with me. I am severely weakened.' Apparently I was deficient in some kind of substance that could cause me to faint or something, the doctors had said. I didn't know exactly what, but I let it go. Xavier was with me constantly, and he kept me informed of everything. He also told me that he had made friends with a boy. Dion, I knew him, but he was a bit quieter. He was super handsome and tall and muscular, he was one of the best here and I actually didn't like him at all. I didn't say it because Xavier seemed so happy. Nomi also joined in sometimes, but then Xavier quickly ran away. Nomi had no special strength and she told me that was why she felt a bit like the outsider in the group. I tried to cheer her up a bit: 'You can also get your strength later, but only with strength, the four elements are immediately visible at birth.' Nomi was a kind of soulmate, and I could understand her so well. . In recent days Xavier came less and less and spent more time with Dion. I noticed that this bothered me and when I was discharged again I immediately started training the frustration away.

I was angry, but I didn't know who. I started practicing my strength to strengthen it. I let the water swirl, form a huge wave and then gently ripple again. Exercising your strength is a tough workout and I felt myself getting dizzy and falling, but I was caught just in time by none other than Xavier. idiot! You have just almost completely recovered and then you are going to do the toughest training there is!!! And you almost fainted again, how STUPID can you be!!' Xavier shouted, but he looked worried. He sat me down and looked at me worriedly. "I'm just out of shape, I didn't fall because I fainted." I smiled faintly, but I felt really bad. He felt my forehead and I shivered. He took off his vest and wrapped it around me. He helped me get up and guided me to Nero. He asked her for advice, and she said that Xavier had to guide me in training and that I had to do that together with Xavier.

Xavier.

I guided Jason to Nero's office with an arm under his shoulder so he could lean. She told me to stay with him and guide him with his training. But now he had to rest. "You'll go straight to your room." I said and helped him go to it. I opened the door and put him to bed. I sat down next to him and built a fire in my hand so he could warm himself. I didn't raise my body temperature so that I got a fever, but so that I became like a heater. 'Is this okay Gup?' Jason nodded and rested his head on my shoulder, which felt strange but familiar. I may have smiled a little and a blush appeared on my cheeks, but I pulled up my hoodie so he couldn't see. I felt his breathing calming down and I expected him to be falling asleep.

Jason.

I felt safe like that and said, 'Sorry, Pup, I should have paid more attention to myself.' He laughed at his nickname, but I wouldn't use it often, he was one of the nicknames, not me. I rested my head on his shoulder and fell asleep. When I woke up there was a wheelchair next to me and Xavier was standing there. "Xavier, I think this is really exaggerated, I'm not going to die." I said, but Xavier winked: "This is for fun." and he whispered: "I practiced my acting skills and in the end they approved of it." .' I laughed 'Goddammit, you're really just a puppy!'

Xavier.

I looked "hurt" when he said that and gasped. "YOU ARE LYING!" I laughed, grabbed his arm and lifted him into the wheelchair. "Now... if they believe you're sick, you get all these freebies like candy and stuff. So if you just play along." He laughed and sat down while making the saddest pout. "Okay, let's go." I walked out of the room with the wheelchair in front of me. People looked on worriedly and all said "get well" and we put the chocolates Jason got in a bag.

Jason.

We got the whole bag full, and that said something, because it was such a gigantic shopping bag. We went back to my room and stuffed ourselves with chocolate. We laughed together, and I felt happy. It was time to go to sleep, and Xavier was going to go to his own room, but he asked me if he could stay and I was more than happy to. "Gup?" Xavier asked. "Yes?" "What do you think of me?" "What do you mean?" "Just, do you like me? And in what way?' 'I think you are nice and beautiful just the way you are, there is no reason to doubt that, Xavier.' 'We'll just remain friends,' I said. And as I said that I felt like an imposter. I like Xavier so much more then just a friend.

Xavier.

I nodded with a hole in my heart when there was a knock on the door. "I'll open-" I walked over and opened the door, I saw Dion standing there with his black hair that was always in a half ponytail and blonde highlights. "What is it Donny?" I always called him Donny and saw a smile on his face. "Are you going to make lights for me again?" "I want to show you something." He mumbled, he didn't like being around others. I looked at Jason. "I'll be right back." And after I said that, I walked out the door and took Dion's hand. He dragged me and ran to the garden. There was a simple rug with a nice view of the rest. I looked at Dion and frowned. "Wait-" He mumbled and stretched his hand towards the sky and several lights appeared in the sky like shooting stars. Dion could make light out of nothing and it was beautiful. I smiled and lay down on the rug. Dion also lay down and put his head on my chest. "I learned to make this for you, I thought you would like this." He said with a proud smile. I looked at the lights that rotated and told stories, myths about the gods and their world as a beautiful illusion. It made me tired and before I knew it I fell asleep. I completely forgot about Jason.

Jason.

I followed Xavier and saw everything. I was jealous, and I went to my room to grab my earphones and my phone. I walked to the lake on the property and sat at the water's edge. I turned on some music and put in my earphones, the music sounded sad through my ears, just like I felt. Xavier didn't like me. I sighed and enjoyed the night. I got cold and I walked out onto the lake, I started training and practiced fighting. I made men of water and fought with them. It was a good workout and with the new music I had more energy. I wasn't going to create any drama, but focus on Nomi, because I like her more than anything, or at least I think so? I went to my room and went to sleep.

Xavier.

I woke up the next morning, Dion was still fast asleep with me, I laughed and gently shook him awake. "Donny wake up." He mumbled something I couldn't understand but woke up. 'Good morning Sunshine.' I laughed and stood up. I looked around. And scolded myself when I realized I had completely forgotten about Jason. Dion noticed and walked towards me, placing a hand on my shoulder. "Hey, it's fine. He really doesn't get angry. Otherwise I'll follow along." He grabbed my hand with his other hand and squeezed it. "Okay." I nodded and he led me to Jason's room. I knocked on the door and Jason opened it. "Hey Gup. Sorry about yesterday. I hope it wasn't too hard for you all alone." I joked.

Jason.

I listened to him and thought about what I was going to do, Nomi was in my room and I said, 'I was not alone.' and I stepped aside so Xavier could see Nomi. She had only just arrived, but Xavier didn't need to know that. "If you don't mind, I'm going to train now." I pulled Nomi by her hand and I went to the lake. This time I turned on my music via a box and went to practice on the lake with Nomi.

Xavier.

I followed Jason with Dion, I couldn't let him train alone. Nero told me to always come along. "Xavier- we better get going." I shook my head and followed Jason to the lake. I sat down a ways from the water and watched Jason train.

Dion.

I sat next to Xavier on the grass and he had a hand around my waist. I didn't like Jason. The way he looked at Xavier. I hated it. I hated being with him and I just wanted to spend my time with Xavier. But Xavier didn't seem to notice. So I gave Xavier a kiss on the cheek. He smiled at me and that warmed my whole heart. I rested my head on his shoulder. And I saw Jason looking at us. Xavier saw it too but he just waved. Oh, if only they knew what I was capable of.

Jason.

Of course that fucking Xavier had to chase me again, and I saw what Dion was doing to him. I was angry at Xavier and I let the water swirl around Nomi and me so Xavier couldn't keep an eye on us. I found myself getting tired and exhausted, but I kept going. When I was done, I couldn't hold back anymore and walked over to Xavier. "Xavier, please get off this property, because you have no business here, I will do everything for you and I get no thanks in return, I want you out of my eyes, you bother me."

Xavier.

I frowned when Jason said that and Dion looked away. I knew he doesn't like confrontation. "Jason, Nero wants me to be here, so you accept that or you go and talk to her yourself. And if you have something, you can complain to her, but not to me or Dion." Jason, he looked angry when I said Dion's name. So that's what all this is about?! "You're jealous, aren't you?" I sighed. I loved Dion, or so I thought. He was my everything, but so was Jason and it just didn't feel the same, Jason was my whole world, my universe and without him I was nothing. "Xavier- I think I'm going to go-" Dion sounded hurt but I nodded and waved at him. 'Look what you're doing Jason. You can be a little happy for me, can't you?'

Jason.

I glared at Xavier. 'You don't understand, you're on my lips and you're really driving me crazy, you're confusing me and you're driving me crazy. I never want to see you again because you're driving my head crazy and my feelings are in knots. You're an idiot, a fucker, so fuck off!' I shouted the last part and he looked at me in shock and said: 'Jason, don't say that, you don't mean this.' But he saw in the look I gave him that this was not just a statement. I walked away haughtily and didn't even look at him. I went to the garden to sit quietly and 1 and a half hours later Nomi came running towards me. 'Jason, the Summer Gala is coming and it's already in one week!!! Jason, do you want to go to the ball with me?' Nomi asked happily. "Yes, of course I want that." I said and I was genuinely happy.

The following week I saw Xavier and Dion, but didn't talk to them, and to be honest it was nice to have a week without any hassle. Xavier broke something between us and at the moment I don't know if it can still be healed. I spent a lot of time with Nomi and I felt that we were growing even closer together. I had arranged a nice suit and I was very happy with it. And then the night of the ball arrived. Nomi was getting ready in her room and I was getting ready too. I had a white suit with all different colored spots on it that were all over my suit in pastel shades, and it was super beautiful. I went to Nomi and knocked, she opened the door and she had put on makeup and a white dress with all kinds of pastel colored spots on the dress, we had ordered them together and our outfits looked beautiful! We walked to the dining room, where everything was decorated and the ball was being held. I saw Xavier walking with Dion and Xavier was wearing a simple black suit. Our eyes met, and I continued to look around. When we got inside the party was announced and that a King and Queen would be chosen at the end of the party. Me and Nomi danced like crazy and we were very attuned to each other, and that had its advantages. Towards the end of the party it was announced who this year's King and Queen were and to our great surprise, Nomi and I were called on stage. I got a crown and she got a tiara. Nomi grabbed my shoulders, stood on her toes and gave me a kiss on the mouth, I returned her kiss and there were loud cheers. I felt like I was floating and I walked off stage, I went to get us something to drink, but when I walked back I saw Xavier walking towards me angrily. He threw his drink all over me and I was all dirty and wet. "Oh, sorry, I didn't see you," he said angrily, but he looked hurt. I sneered angrily: 'What the fuck, you don't do this! Purely because you are jealous of me, because I continued with my life after you rejected me! With people who love me! I don't think you can continue living with that fucking Dion?! Do you want me gone so badly? I'm going already!' I ran furiously to my room and stuffed all my stuff into my magic bag. Xavier ran after me, but I just kept going.

Xavier.

I walked behind Jason, but my arm was grabbed by a strong hand. His hand felt soft and warm. I turned around and saw Dion and I fell into his arms. He caught me and rubbed my back.

"I want to show you something." Dion whispered in my ear and I let him go, but his arm stayed over my shoulder and I liked that. He was a little taller than me. I followed him. We went up the stairs and then another. Until we ended up in some kind of attic, I looked around and frowned, this couldn't be it, could it? But Dion continued walking to a skylight that was quite low. He opened it and climbed through, then when he got there he gently grabbed my arm and pulled me through too. We were right up on the roof and it was beautiful. I sat down next to Dion, in the highest spot. I saw all the stars from here. I leaned against Dion. And he put his arm around my waist. 'It's beautiful.' I said in amazement. And Dion nodded along.

I felt a hand rub my arm and slowly take the paper, I didn't want to let go, because I was in the flow, but I let go. 'Time to eat something and go to sleep.' Julien whispered in my ear, I held back a shiver and nodded, but I didn't move I just leaned back against Julien and pulled the blanket up to my chin. Julien put his arms around me and I felt my eyes close slowly. 'I said first food, then sleep, not otherwise.' Julien says and he chuckles amused. 'Tired.' I shift and look up to Julien with puppy eyes. 'I know. Are you able to let the food and some water come here?' Julien asks, I nod and immediately there is some water and food in front of us. I eat slow until I ate everything and then I go to lay beside Julien, I put an arm around him, and he puts an arm around me. 'Good night.' He chuckles while I already am in dreamland.

So it's a girl huh? Otherwise she wouldn't mind Julien feeling her heartbeat through her chest... Paper, I wonder what her real name is? She is getting pretty close with Julien... And Jason and Xavier, those are definitely in a hate love relationship... What do you think of it?

love!