I find it hard to sleep lately.

I go to bed and lie down in the dark,

trying to fall asleep before I fall apart.

I no longer feel safe in my own bed,

it used to be my favorite place to hide,

now even that is gone overnight.

I break like a piece of glass

that hit the ground hard.

With no one to rescue me,

no one to catch me.

So, I scream to the moon

and almost stop believing in god,

because I don't understand

how anyone deserves that kind of pain;

The one you can't put a plaster on,

or a pill to numb it all for a little while.