Can you see how humble I have become,
Knowing I walk in the world,
Just being.
Painting my face,
Or how I fell asleep,
Can you understand,
I thrive in it all,
And just wish I didn't do the things I do,
And I know I have the will to quit,
It just hasn't come that far,
I keep finding all this reason why,
And I know I can do it,
But my brain forever keeps on with its dark scheming,
I don't know what the hell the heart is doing,
It's racing,
Addictive like the pain,
Don't ever wanna few of those habits go.
In my head, it's so maniacally,
And everything below my gripped throat,
Is freezing inside the oceans,
I can't hear a thing over the panic inside my head,
And my attempts to tell you to let me go,
Don't ever want the insanity of a broken brain to go away,
Silly though it seems.
Please, I always said my heart was the one that took root,
And why is it all I ever want is another chapter to read,
Warm me back up inside,
Release the only man I ever really hated,
From my neck,
Please can't you please just get me out of my freezing oceans,
Dry me out and reconnect the  circuits in my neck,
And wait with me until the nerves kick in.