Not so lost,
But don't know where I am,
But that's what lost is isn't it?

Not so fixed,
But all the pieces are together,
That's not broken if I am not mistaken.

Not so depressed,
But all the motivation is gone,
And that is the only definition of depression I know.

Not so lonely,
But still I stand here alone,
And I know that this is what lonely is.

Not so angry,
But still I want to scream and pull out my hair,
And this is what you still call anger.

Not so peaceful,
And yet that's the vibe you keep getting out of me.
Why must it be the only one I don't feel myself.

Not so happy,
But here I am smiling a true smile,
And that is the only happiness I have ever known.