Chapter 34 (EDITED)

Goodbye Again

"WHY?!"

"I don't know, it's not like I chose him!" I exclaim

I don't know why Ibenez was mad at me, it's not my fault besides being mated to Andrés is not the worse thing in the world.

"do you know that Luna thinks you're at the mystic pack," ibenez says " that's where I was headed until that girl stopped me and told me that she knew you"

"why didn't uncle henpeck let mom know I didn't make it?" I ask him confused "I've been away for a while now"

ibenez shrugs " probably because it's too dangerous, Heath knows that someone helped you leave and if alpha henpeck had contacted your mother she would be in trouble"

I gulp, that makes sense. Maybe it will be safer if I go back I don't want my mother or my friends to get hurt because of me.

"Heath has taken over the pack, Amma. It's no longer the way-heaven but alpha Heath's pack" he tells me,

I knew that already, Iris told me.

 " look everything is going to be fine, Andrés is going to set you free" I tell ibenez trying to change the subject.

It really hurt knowing my dad just gave the pack, my home to Heath.

"are you sure? aren't they supposed to kill me or force me to join their pack?" Ibenez asks surprised by the news

"because you're my friend, Andrés won't hurt you"

ibenez doesn't believe me, i know he doesn't but it doesn't matter because i will not let anything happen to him.

" do you want breakfast?" I ask

the beta raises his brows " not if you made it, last time I ate your food I went into a coma"

"  liar" I chuckle and kick his leg playfully, i'm glad that he's coming back around.  "  Cameron made it."

Also, he didn't go into a coma, he did faint and didn't wake up for two days but I swear it wasn't because I accidentally put wolfsbane in his soup.

"Cameron?  you're on first name basis with rogue now?"

"..yes, I know it's weird and confusing but they're not so bad- I mean Cameron is a little annoying but other then that they're normal," I say

"rogues are normal now? I never thought I'd see the day" ibenez scoffs

ibenez eyes made me eel guilty, I feel like I betrayed him, I betrayed my pack because growing up we were raised to stay away rogues. They are bad, they are dangerous.

One of the big reasons why rogues are so hated in the wolf community is because they are the reason that hunters exist. Because of them, we were exposed to humans.

This happened a long time ago but since then if we saw a rogue we either run or kill them on sight.

"what are you thinking?" I ask the beta when I realise it's been quiet for too long

"I can't believe that my mate is rogue" Ibenez cries burying his face into his lap

in an instant I'm next to him, hugging him. " I don't understand what I did to deserve this" he sniffles wrapping his arms around me and pulling me close.

I rub his back to comfort him "it's going to be okay, the moon goddess chose him as your mate for a reason"

" rejection exists for a reason too"

I look towards where the voice is to see an angry Cameron " Amma, you're not supposed to be in here"

"why? he's my friend" I say

the alpha rolls his eyes " breakfast is ready, tell your friend he is invited too that is if he can stand to look at a rogue without getting the urge to kill it"

"huh?"

"his words" Cameron says "not mine" then he walks away

he looked really offended and I kinda felt bad because I may have spoken to the pack the same way ibenez was speaking to them when I first arrived. I haven't noticed it until now but those words were kind of hurtful especially since the night-walkers have changed a lot.

"Amma, you should come with me"

I turn to the beta " I can't...not now"

"are you afraid of Heath? if that's the reason you should know that I'm not going back, I'm going to mystic pack" ibenez assures me

it's not that,

" don't settle for worse"

"what is that supposed to mean?" i ask him,

don't settle for worse? does he think that I just want to mate with Andrés because I am trying to get away from Heath?

ibenez shrugs "I'm just saying misery loves company"

I don't think ibenez will ever warm up to a rogue so whatever I tell him will just come out his other ear, he will always hate rogues.

" I'm starving, can we just eat?" I groan

ibenez hesitates for a second " sure"

"great" I smile grabbing his wrist and pulling him with me.

*

" sit next to me,"I tell him when we enter the kitchen

"where's the door?" ibenez asks pointing to where the door previously was

" that's a long story" Iris sighs " eat, we have a eggs, sausages, crêpe- tea, coffee" she lists off

ibenez does sit down, that's process I guess? Cameron walks back into the kitchen with a scowl plastered on his face, he kind of looked like Andrés now.

" eat up, it's a long walk from here to your pack," the alpha says opening a cupboard and taking out two plates

" I am not going back to  way-heaven pack" ibenez speaks

"then where are you going? I was told to take you back to the way-heaven pack" Cameron glares putting two full plates in front of us

" you're not taking me anywhere" Ibenez growls his eyes changing colour " I can find my way back"

"as much as I would love to let you go on your own and get eaten by  my brothers, I can't," Cameron replies

"also I'd say my goodbyes because you're not going to remember any of this"

ibenez turns to me "why is that?" he asks raising his brows " let me guess, he's going to snap my neck again?"

"no, he's going to compel you to forget, "I say cringing a little

"you're kidding me, can they do that?" ibenez asks his eyes wide

"yea" I nod

"How?!"

I exhale and look towards Cameron who was watching us with intrigued eyes, oh goddess what am I supposed to tell him?

" ..it's, hard to explain, "I tell him and eat a mouth full of eggs

**

" so I am not going to remember this?" ibenez asks

I shake my head "I'm sorry but this is how it is"

the beta nods before pulling me into a hug " I can't believe we're saying goodbye again" I sniffle burying my head in his chest, I am already starting to miss him.

it was easier when he wasn't here but now that I've seen him I'm going to miss him so much.

"we'll see each other again, Amma. this isn't goodbye"

"i know, but i'm still going to miss you very much,"I tell him

Cameron clear his throat "it's time to go!"

slowly ibenez and I pull apart, "be safe," I tell him biting my lip to stop myself from bawling my eyes out like a baby

"I will, take care of yourself Amma"

Authors Note:

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she's so strong, and I've been listening to ghostin while writing this chapter and I've been crying nonstop! my chest hurts, I can't even imagine how much pain she was in, she's so strong, and I think I love her... I'm not okay!

i put the song on top, listen to it if it works and cry with me please.

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