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CHAPTER 55: A PROMISE

"Wha-whattt?" I felt I heard completely wrong, whatever she said felt like a joke to my ears, but those tears in her eyes....

"If this is again a joke Heer? I swear I will kil....

"Am sick Shehryar! Hum bemaar hen, Can't you see? AM SICK" her hands were grabbing my collars as she tried to jerk me back to senses, but her grip was faint and she was too weak.

"Waqt nai hea hamarey pas, hu-hum nai..hum nai ja saktey apk sath" her face soaking in tears as I stared her blankly and she hiccuped.

My grip over her arms went loose and she fell down over her knees, breaking into a painful sob in front of me while I just stood there like a stone statue; cold and numb, with no feelings or power to think at all.

Bemaar hai? Per....?

"Heer? Heer! look at me...." I scooted down over my knees in front of her and held her wrists, she was crying hiding her face in her palms.

"Heer! dekho meri taraf, batao mujhey kia hua hea tumhen?" she shook her head as I tried to pull her hands back, my heart had started to panic even more.

"Heer! please!" I literally pleaded holding onto her face from both sides, her body was shaking, she slowly pulled her hands down from her face but her gaze was still lowered and her face all wet. I wiped her cheeks with my palms before cupping her face in them and pulled it up.

"Please stop crying Heer! I can't see you like this, please!" my voice was breaking, and my heart clenched hard inside my chest as her wet moistened eyelashes rose up and met my gaze, I searched her eyes, for a moment I went completely out of words.

She was panting hard out of all that crying, she slowly raised her hands and held my writs with those trembling fingers...and pulled my hands down from her face, though she didn't let them go rather held them tight keeping them over her thighs.

"You were right Shehryar! Dama-damagh kharab ho gaya hea hamara poori terha se" she was still in hiccups and I frowned, not getting her riddles.

"Heer! stop playing with words and tell me what is wrong damn it!"

"Everything is wrong" words came out into a whisper as she shook her head, increasing the frustration inside me.

"You came in my life. Wrong"

"you showed me a new hope for life, for happiness for...for love. Wrong" tears rolled down her cheeks as she stated.

"and the moment when I started feeling that even I can be happy, even I can be loved and cared, even I have the right to live...I realised I don't have time for any of this Shehryar!" she shook her head, her eyes boring into mine pain drooling down along with tears.

"You have every right to stay happy and live your life the way you want Heer! stop thinking like this" I stated firmly, though someone inside me was uncertain about every word of it. "Just tell me what is wrong" I looked deep in her eyes asking again.

"Humein Brain Lesion hea Shehryar!" she stated and my mouth went perched, my throat full of thorns I couldn't even utter a single word, just kept staring her face blankly.

"Doctor said that I.... I have chances of...."she took a pause as her gaze lowered, my heart was throbbing inside my chest and I pulled my hands out from her grip and held her arms firm.

"Heer! kia bat hea? theek se batao mujhey...kon sa doctor? Kab-kab mili tum doctor se?"

"I have clots in my brain, oxygen nai puhanch rai. hum-humein Haemorrhage ho sakta hea Shehryar!" she looked up at my face with her eyes horrified and I felt frozen, my senses went blank and my throat so much dry that I couldn't even gulp down.

"Heer?" a low gasp came out of my mouth in utmost disbelief and shock; she sniffled wiping away the tears with the back of her hand.

"What are you saying Heer? ye...ye kesey....

i just couldn't ask this even, my heart was throbbing inside my chest.

"Q ho gaya ye Shehryar? Q ho gaya?" she fisted my collards once again and jerked me, I couldn't reply I wasn't in my senses any more. "Q hamarey sath he ye sab ho raha hea?" her voice rising as her words got mixed with painful cries.

"I never did anything wrong to anyone Shehryar! Never, then why me? q Allah ko terss nai aata hum per? Kun hum khush nai reh saktey? Q......" tears rolled down my waterline unknowingly as my heart bled, looking her like this in such miserable vulnerable state.

"You are wrong Shehryar!" she jerked me holding my collars and I bit hard onto my lower lip, suppressing those cries I want to let out. "I have no right over happiness, I have no right ov..

"Heer! stop it" I cut her though as I couldn't bare that any more, holding her wrists softly I looked into her eyes with my own blur moist vision.

"I won't go with you, I won't" she shook her head and I frowned.

"Mein tumhen chor ker nai jaoon ga Heer!, wahan ilaj hea her cheez ka Heer!" I stated firmly, but she shook her head as if she was in pain her eyes shut and face muscles stiffened.

"Heer? what happened? Kia ho raha hea? Dard ho....

"Hum nai ja saktey q k hum nai dekh saktey apno ko dard mein Shehryar! Q nai samajhtye ap?" she yelled out, before biting her lower lip hard and I gulped down.

"I can bare my pain, but I can not look at you like this" she added in the same tone, I was about to calm her down when she stopped me. "I can not look at her like this..." she yelled out and I furrowed my brows.

"Her?"

"Wo maa ban'ney wali hea Shehryar! Hamari behen" she cried stating and I just blinked my eyes not getting, I never knew she had a married sister.

 "wo behen jis k seeney se lage bagher neend nai aati thi humein, wo behen jis ko do sal se nai dekha hum ne.... hamari behen Shehryar! Hamari Mahrukh"

"Mahrukh?"

"han Mahrukh, jis ki zindagi mein khushiyan laney k liye hum ne usey is daldal, is jahannum se door bhaga diya tha, ye usi jahunnum ki aag hai Shehryar! Jis mein aj tak jal rahe hen hum" she stated firmly tears soaking her face, her words felt like bricks over my head....

"She won't be able to bare this Shehryar! Wo humein aesi halat mein nai dekh pae gi" she shook her head. "Hum nai ja saktey America"

"Mahr...Mahrukh Waqas?" I asked in utmost disbelief and she nodded her head whimpering. I felt I would never be able to utter any word, my tongue felt like struck and my heart bleeding...

Ya Allah ye kesa insaaf hai tera? Ye kesa qanoon hai tera?

Itna dard, itni takleef....q de raha hea tu isey?

Kia qasoor hai is ka Ya Allah! bus ker dey...bus ker de ub.

I heard her sniffle and I looked at her face, I wanted to take her in my arms and never let her go, I felt like sucking every single sorrow, ever single tear from her eyes so that no pain would left inside her.

"Promise me Shehryar! Promise me you will never let her know about this" her face was horror struck as she grabbed my hand and kept it over her head, I gulped down before snatching my hand away.

"I will" I stated firmly and she frowned.

"I will Heer! I will tell her everything; about every fucking pain you went through at her back, about every single tear you shed after her, I will tell her everything Heer!' my voice rising as anger building up inside me mixing up with the pain.

"Tum farishta nai ho Heer!" I grabbed her shoulders and jerked her hard, she gasped. "Stop acting like an angel, stop it for God's sake" I yelled at her face and she blinked her eyes.

"You are coming with me Heer! and there is no way you can convince me for otherwise" I stated, keeping my voice low and my anger inside.

"Wo mar jae gi Shehryar!" she stated lowly, still in tears.

"We will go to America and we will see the finest doctors, sab theek ho jae ga" I avoided eye contact as I stated flatly.

"Veins are clustered in my brain Shehryar! causing that slow bleeding, its increasing Shehryar! I can't...

"Heer!bus karo, khamosh ho jao" I cut her through, I just didn't want to here that.

"Mein hoon na tumharey sath, tumharey pass...sab theek ho jae ga, trust me Heer!" holding her hands I added softly.

"Kia kia theek karen ge ap hamari zindagi mein Shehryar? Thak jaen ge...thak ker haar jaen ge ap bhi" she stated pain evident in her tone and i shook my head, another tear rolled down my cheek.

"Nai haroon ga, na haroon ga na tumhen harney doon ga Heer!" I cupped her face in my palms, looking straight in her swollen puffed eyes.

"Sherniyan bhi bhala kabhi hara kerti hen? tum to meri sherni ho....sab theek ho ga Heer! sab theek...sab...

I was in the middle of my sentence when my words got lost in my mouth and my wits lost the battle against those tears those emotions flooding inside me and my head hung down in front of her, letting the tears slipped away. I rolled my lower lip inward to hide the pain once again, my breath hiccuped as tears kept on rolling down.

"I wish we had never met, I wish I hadn't become the reason of this pain, these tears for you Shehryar!" I heard her saying and I shook my head still hung low.

"You should leave, you should go I will never be able to see you like this" she said, with my fingers I wiped the tears from my face and looked up, for the first time in life it felt difficult to look into somebody's eyes. Her face was wet... drenched and pain struck.

"Rehmat apki beti hea, hum jantey hen ap usey kabhi hamari kami nai mehsoos honey den ge" Fresh tears rolled down her cheeks as she stated before rolling her lip inward.

Muhabbat bhi ajeeb cheez hea us ka dard khud k seeney mein mehsoos ho raha tha.

us k aansoo kisi aag ki terha merey dil ko apni lapet mein le rahe thy.

"Take her and leave. Ap chale jaiye Shehryar!" She shook her head looking into my eyes and stood up pulling her hands from my grip, my gaze was fixed on her feet as she turned to leave.

"Rehmat will be fine" I stated and her feet stopped. "You are right Heer! Rehmat will be loved as much as she deserves, she will be fine" I looked up, her back was turned towards me and I got up.

"But what about me?" I asked taking a step into her direction as she turn and looked at my face. "mein kesey rahoon ga tumharey bagher Heer?"

"Tumharey gussey ki, tumharey rootheny ki mananey ki, tumhari hasi ki. Her cheez ki aadat ho gai hea Heer!" I stood right in front of her and she looked into my eyes, a light frown was there on her forehead and I raised my index touching those wrinkles, she closed her eyes.

"tumharey mathey per pari in lakeeron ki, tumharey moo se apna naam sun'ney ki...tumhari latt lag gai hea buhat buri Heer! ub nai jaya jae ga tumhen chor ker" I said and her eyes flutter open searching mine.

"Or jab hum hamesha k liye ap ko cho....

"Sshh! Chup!" I placed my index over her lips, a shiver of fear ran through my spine even thinking what she was about to say so easily.

"I will fix everything Heer! I promise" I stated firmly giving her my word and a soft small smile crept on to her lips, which were still under my finger.

Her smile mirrored the pain she had inside, a smile that stirred my heart so bad so deep... a smile felt more like a stab and a tear escaped the corner of my eye travelling down to my cheek.

I pulled my finger down from her lips and felt her gaze fixed upon my face, she blinked her eyes and her hand rose up to my face as she softly wiped the tear away with her fingers.

"I wish I could give you better than this Shehryar!" her gaze was still there. "I wish I was nev....

"I love you Heer!" words just slipped out from my mouth coming straight from my heart and she blankly stared my face with her lips parted wide, as if words got lost inside her mouth. I gulped down cupping her face in my palms and she blinked her eyes.

"I have fallen in love with the least and with the most about you Heer!" my thumbs caressed her cheeks as my fingers got lost in her hair, I could see her eyes mirroring the exact emotions I had for her.

"Mujhey yad hea kuch saal pehley mein ne Hussain ko bola tha, k agar shadi se pehley muhabbat nai ho gi to shadi kesey karoon ga? sath kesey reh paoon ga us k? usey samjhoon ga kesey?" I told her.

"Per ub samajh aya, shadi kerney k bad, sath rehney k bad, tumhen samajhney k bad.... k muhabbat jab jis se honi hoti hea, ho jati hea, ye na waqt dekhti hea, na jaga" I said, a smile appeared on my lips and a tear rolled down her cheek.

I leaned in and kissed her forehead, resting my lips there for a few seconds... feeling like staying there, like that, for the rest of my life.

"I won't be able to live without you Heer! Ye Ranjha ub apni Heer ko liye bagher chala gaya to jee nai paye ga" I shook my head and she smiled softly.

"And don't you dare worry about Mahrukh okay!" I warned her and the smile faded from her face. "we will go there and you will meet her... and just image how happy she would be Heer! bhool jao sab kuch, mein hoon na? sab theek ker doon ga dekhna tum."

"Hum to bus Ranjha Ranjha kertey thy, humein kia pata tha Allah ne farishta likh diya tha hamarey naseeb mein" her gaze was lost in mine as she stated and I smiled.

"Am not that good Heer!" I shook my head.

"Hamari nazer se dekhiye, hamarey dil se poochiye us k liye kia ban chukey hen ap" a smile was there on her lips, a smile melted my heart.

"Muhabbat to bus lafz hea Shehryar! Humein dar lagta hea kaheen Allah hum se naraz na ho jaye, hamara dil to ibadat kerne ko tayyar hea ap ki" she added with a light frown on her forehead and I shook my head with a smile.

My eyes getting moistened once again and before any more tears fall down I pulled her in to a hug, she snaked her arms around my back keeping her head over my chest, listening to my heartbeats.

Ya Allah! tu Rahman hai tu Raheem hai, terey pas to her merz ki shifah hea...chaey kuch bhi cheen le mujh se  mera tu...

bus mujh se meri Heer ko mat alag kerna.

.....werna jee nai paoon ga mein.

"I don't want to die Shehryar! hum merna nai chahtey" her words felt more like stabs in my heart and I gulped down the lump in my throat, my grip around her went even firm.

"I want to live with you, with our daughter, I want to be happy Shehryar!" she added holding me tight, I could feel her heartbeats fast and I softly stroked her hair.

"You will live Heer! You will" I want it to be a promise, a promise worth making. 

"My love will never let you fall Heer! never, I promise" I stated firmly before kissing into her hair.

"love is indeed a promise in itself that can last forever......And I promise you Heer! I will love you and will stay by your side, till my last breath"

"I know you will Shehryar! I know" 

so finally confessions been done ;)

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