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Chapter 51: FALLEN HARD FOR HIM

HEER'S POV

Heer Bibi! Ye file ap k liye buhat zaroori hea...q hea? is ka jawab merey pas bhi nai, kash perha likha hota to samajh sakta k kia likha hea is mein. Mager Sahab ko un k dost se batein kerte suna tha, wo keh rahe thy k ye ap ki zindagi ki dor hea, sambhal k rakhne ko di thi mujhey, ap se ziada behter isy kon sambhaley ga.

Ap ki amaanat ap ko lauta raha hoon.

Or ye mat sochiye ga k mujhey ap ka pata kesey chala, wo to mein ne buhat pehley he pata laga liya tha Arsalan sahab k hokum per, mager himat nai hui Heer Bibi! unhen bataney ki...

shaid zameer jag gaya mera.

Aur ap jald az jald ye sheher chor ker kaheen or chali jaiye Heer Bibi! Shehryar sahab ki jan ko khatra hea.

Ho sakey to purani khata'on k liye maaf ker dijiye ga, Allah ap ko apki naii duniya mein abaad rakhey. Ameen.

Ap ka khadim

Nazim Ali.

My heart beats accelerated.

Shehryar ki jan ko khatra hea? I felt thones in my throat, I couldn't even gulp the fear down and my eyes watered at once.

Aesa nai ho sakta. Ya Allah!.... my heart panicked.

My heart beats accelerated reading those lines, and my hands trembling as I folded the paper and kept in on the bed, before piking up the envelope. My breaths were uneasy and my head started to get heavy as I bit my lower lip and opened the file.

Mrs Arsalan Kharr I felt spite and hatred as I read my name next to his, and my mouth instantly got bitter.

'Hum bus Heer hen bus Hee......."my words got lost as I blinked my eyes, something flashed across and I gulped down.

"Heer Shehryar hen hum..."

I looked back on the file and my forehead wrinkled into many frowns at the same time, as I read and kept on reading with my heartbeats increasing and then suddenly they stopped..... I felt my mouth was perched and my soul already left my body. I gulped the dryness in my throat as I read the line again, my eyes widened and my heart panicked as I got up from the bed holding the file...in my hands trembling once again.

"B-brai-brain Lesion....?"

My eyes travelled down the page and read those terms which just flew over my head except a few, I read the whole thing again thinking maybe I was reading wrong, may be it wasn't what I was thinking...maybe it wasn't my repports.

But they were mine... there was no need to read them again and again, they were mine, my test reports, those MRI I had months back. This was all I was suffering from for such long time?

Arsalan wanted to keep it away from me????

Why?

My head started spinning, I felt like throwing up like crying... and so a tear dropped down on the page and I looked down once again.

He wanted you in pain Heer! that's why he didn't even tell you about this...

he wanted you to suffer as he suffered behind those bars because of you.

he wanted you to die in pain.

I fell down over my knees, my vision blurred and my eyes itched and pained like hell as I shut them tight, letting the stream of pain flow through them.

I could never have a shock greater than what I had in my hand; what I was holding, my whole life going crumbling into bits in front of my eyes. I wiped my face with the back of my hand as suddenly I heard foot steps and I got up to my feet.

"Shehryar?" my heart skipped a beat and my feet almost ran into the direction but they halted in their tracks the moment my eyes cught sight of an unfamiliar unknown lady standing in the door fram hesitantly, with a smile on her face which soon turned into a frown as she searched my face and I gulped down quickly wiping my face as I walked towards her trying to stay calm.

"As-assalam-o-alaikum!" I tried to smile, it must have looked so fake.

"Wa-laikum assalam!" the frown was still there on her forehead as she replied. "mein ne tumhen disturb to nai kiya beti!?" she asked and I shook my head, gesturing her to come in getting aside and she stepped in still hesitant, her eyes took a tour of the entire room before landing back on me.

"Tum-ro rahi theen?" she asked and I gulped down trying to come up with a reason, meanwhile she was searching my face suspiciously.

"Ji wo....wo humein yad aa rahi thi kisi ki" I stated and she smiled atonce I frowned this time.

"Mian ki yad aa rahi thi?" she asked in rather naugthy way and I gulped down trying to press a smile.

Han..unhi ki yad aa rahi hea.

"Ye?...." she walked towards the portrait of Behram on the wall at my back and I turned. "Ye hen na tumharey miyan?" she asked and my eyes widened at once.

Ye? Ye hathi.....?

"Wesey bura mat man'na beti! mager umer mein kuch ziada nai tum se?' she turned and looked at me with concern, keeping her index over his chin thoughtfully.

"Ji? J-ji...." I stammered not knowing how to respond.

"Arey baton mein bataya he nai, mein Shehry ki Phupo hoon, wo jo neechey rehta hea na tumharey Shehryar Asif, uski" she smiled informing me and I smiled back nodding my head.

"Ji! Buhat khushi hui jan ke, bethiye na ap" I offered her a couch but ignoring me she walked towards Rehmat's crib.

"Bari piyari bachi hea tumhari" stating that she bent down and kissed her forehead, I smiled standing at a distance. 'MashaAllah' she added and I copied.

"Kia nam hea is ka?"

"Rehmat" I told her and her head spun into my direction at once.

"Rehmat?" she exclaimed and I smiled nodding, she smiled back with a slight disbelief there.

"In k Abba ne rakha tha nam......" I added. "Jan hea ye un ki" I said almost to myself.

"Allah aesa baap her beti ko de" she softly touched her cheek and walked towards me.

"Jan to tum bhi ho gi un ki....." she smirked and I just felt my cheeks turned into a fire pit or something and I looked down gulping the embarrassment down and she chuckled.

"Din mein is k roney ki awaaz aa rahi thi socha ja ker dekhoon mager Shehry ne mana ker diya...keh raha tha k pata nai tumhen kesa lage mera aese achanak chale aana" she stated and I smiled shaking my head lightly.

"nai aunty aesi koi bat nai, ap aaeen humein acha laga buhat". She returned a smile. "ap bethiye hum chae latey hen"

"Oho nai phir kabhi, abhi tum araam karo...thaki thaki si lag rahi ho" she patted my shoulder and I smiled uncertainly. She walked past me, and I followed her to the exit when suddenly the clouds rambled hard and I shivered a little.

"Lag raha hea phir se barish aaney wali hea" She stated. "or ye Shehry or Usman bhi na, pata nai kahan ghoom rahe hen itne kharab mausam mein" she shook her head disapprovingly.

Jan ko khatra hea...

Suddenly something stirred inside me, a strange kind of fear an in security and I gulped all of that down my throat.

"Aunty you should call him" It slipped from my mouth and she actually turned and look at my face, she must have found that disturbance there, the way she frowned, it made me slap my face hard.

"umm hamara matlab mausam buh-buhat kharab hea na" I tried to explain and she nodded exhaling a little.

"Tum fiker nai karo aa jayen ge...jao so jao 10 baj gaye hen' she smiled and I nodded my head, and she walked through the gallery towards the stairs. I let out that held up breath as soon as she left and ran a hand through my open locks.

Shehryar.....

Turning around I almost ran towards my bed and picked up my phone, my heart was beating fast for an unknown reason, the line connected and... 'Hello!". I heard his voice... sending relief down my heart.

"Hello!...Heer?" I shut my eyes exhaling, falling back on the bed still not able to utter a word.

Ek ajeeb sa sakoon mil gaya hamarey dil ko...

"Koi marr gaya kia????" he joked and my eyes flutter open, my breathing went uneven.

"Heer? you there?" I could sense a frown in his voice. "you okay? Heer!"

"Where are you?" I asked

"Ek aaloo. do aalooo" he stated.

"Ghar kab aaen ge?" I felt I would burst into tears anytime, it was so damn hard to control my tears, those emotions...everything inside my heart that I wanted to put open in front of this one man who has become my life.

"Ayee hayeee Heeriye! yad aa rai hea meri?" he stated cheekily and I gulped down, a tear rolled down my cheek a smile onto my lips. I couldn't hold on to my tears and a sudden unintentional hiccup let out of my throat and I covered my mouth at once.

"Heer.....?"

I hurriedly cut the call, it fell down my grip as I broke into sobs once again; hiding my face in my knees I just cried my heart out.

Abhi abhi to jeena chaha tha hum ne

Abhi abhi to sakoon mila tha Ya Allah! phir q? q ye be-sakooni de di tu ne?

I felt so much helpless so much drained out, as if life was just some sand in my fist; the more I was trying to hold on to it the more it was slipping away.

My phone rang up, I knew who could it be... I looked down at the screen.

Akkroo calling...... I couldn't even smile reading his name flashing on my screen with his ever smiling face, I picked it up in my trembling hands and looked closely at his face.

Abhi abhi to kuch mehsoos hua tha kisi k liye...

q ye ahsas, ye khushi, ye zindagi hamari nai ho sakti? Q...? call ended but those tears that stream of pain just didn't stop, I shut my phone off, before laying down in the bed, I shut my eyes inhaling his scent as my head rested over his pillow which I just stoled from him.

My eyes pained and I knew they must be blood shot and puffed by now, thanks God! I didn't have to face him anytime soon.

Pulling the pillow out from under my head and I hugged him tight, close to myself before shutting my eyes once again. Sleep was far, fear was closer than ever, but still I could feel him around me...

.....and as far as Shehryar was around, I knew I was safe.

SHEHRY'S POV

"Hey bro! earth to" I blinked my eyes coming out from my thoughts as he snapped his fingers in front of my face.

She sounded tensed...

Phone q band ker diya?

Kaheen phupo ne to kuch.....? shittt! No!

"Where were you lost and why were you staring your phone screen as if it was a piece of pizza or tu salon ton pukka!" he joked as he sat across the table holding our order, my thoughts struck in her...

"Usman! I think we should better move' I got up at once and he frowned, making a face.

"Man its raining kutta billi out" I pointed and he rolled his eyes.

"So? We have a reasonably safe ride back home Shehry! beth ja yar!" shrugging his shoulders, he tried to grab my hand for pulling me down back in my seat but I took a step back coming out from the table.

"Nai, mujhey lagta hea humein chalna chaiye. Aa ja!" I stated firmly and before he could protest I strode towards the exit ignoring his shout outs at my back.

For some odd unknown reasons my heartbeats were quicker than they ought to be as I drove silently back home, it was definitely one of the worst rains of the city, with a hell of traffic jam and those signals.....Sucks!

"Shehry! tu theek to hea?" Usman asked and I glanced at him for a moment before looking back on the road.

"Yup! Am perfectly fine, q? kia hua?"

"Nothing but you started acting all serious and tensed all of a sudden, koi bat hea kia?" he asked concerned and I smiled, shaking my head.

"Nai bey! Bus I thought Phupo is not used to of all that so she must be worrying about us being out that late, wo bhi itne toofani mausam mein" I explained and he nodded his head.

"Han I got a call from her while I was collecting our order, she was freaking out" he rolled his eyes.

"Or saley! tu or rukney ki bat ker raha tha.... ullu ka patha he rahe ga tu" I chuckled a little, shaking my head and he laughed carelessly.

"Acha sun!" after a silent 5 minutes he called. "Apni us makan malkan se to milwa de yar.....

"Q?" I almost fired, looking at his face cutting him through and he smiled gaping a little.

"Aewaeen keh diya yar, ghussa q hota hea?" he made a face and I let a breath out, running a hand through my hair, the rest of the drive went in utmost silence with my thoughts once again wandered towards Heer.

She was crying?... I felt that, I heard her sobbing

But why?

Mujhey use Akeley whan chorna he nai chaiye tha...

worst idea ever Shehry! Saley teri ghalti hea sari. Unknowingly I smacked my palm hard over the steering and Usman almost jumped up into his seat, I blankly looked at his face before pressing a fake smile and gulped down as he frowned suspiciously.

"Ub kia so bhi nai sakta?" he asked irritated and I actually laughed.

"Naheen" I retorted. "Because we are home buddy!' I smiled as I slowed down in front of the gates and once they were wide open I drove in, it was still raining heavy. My gaze went up towards the tarrace of her room, the lights were switched on.

"Shehryar Sahab! mein chatri le aata hoon, ruken ap, bheeg jaen ge" Ahmad came running to my side of window and asked, I smiled shaking my head.

"Tum bhi to bheeg rahe ho yar, to mein konsa koi malai kulfi hoon, jo barish mein bheeg ker beh jaoon ga" I stated and he chuckled before getting back, I opened the door and stepped out getting a slight shiver in my body the air was cold. I went pouring head to toe as I reached inside.

"Aa gaye tum dono.... ?" Phupo asked, a little disapproval evident in her tone, it reminded me of Heer instantly...they way everyday she asks the same stupid irritating and the most dumb question ever;

Aa gaye ap....? And I felt it sounded way cuter from her than from Phupoo.

"Mom! you spoiled all the fun" Usman stated as he yawned wide and Phupo smacked the back of his head, I was too occupied in thinking about her to participate in the talk.

"Good night! Subha na uthaaeen mujhey" Usman announced as he lazily dragged his feet towards the room and Phuppo shook her head disapprovingly.

"Good night!" I smiled and was about to turn to my room when Phupo called me and I stopped.

"Shehry beta! mein ooper gai thi abhi" she stated in rather a hushed tone and I frowned, I could smell something there.

"Buhat pareshan lag rahi thi bechari...jab mein gai to aankhein lal ho rahi theen jese pata nai kitna roi ho" she told me, keeping her tone lowest. "wesey hea bari piyaari, pata nai q Maa baap ne aesey hathi jese aadmi se biyah diya" She made a face and I frowned even harder.

Hathi....?

"Hathi jesa insaan?"

"Han to or....wo itni bari tasveer jo lagi thi deewar per, deewar choti or wo sahab bare maloom ho rahe thy" she added disgustingly and my eyes went a little out of my sockets.

Did Heer call him, her husband????

"umm Phupo ho gi koi waja pareshani ki, ub mein ya ap kia ker saktey hen? ap fiker mat kijiye so jaiye" I reluctantly smiled and she nodded her head absentmindedly, not looking convinced.

"am too sleepy...." I faked a yawn, keeping my palm over my mouth. "good night" stretching my arms wide I turned and walked towards my room.

Shutting the door I almost ran towards the cupboard, I hated wet clothes...just couldn't go on wearing damp shirt, picking up a freshly laundered blue shirt and a pair of grey sweatpants I hurried towards the bathroom to change so that I could go upstairs and check out...ki siyaapa pe gaya enu hunn....?

Washing my face quickly I changed and stepped out of the bathroom, standing in front of the dresser I was brushing my hair when my hands halted suddenly...

Kaheen wo terey sath na khush to nai....? Maybe she wants something and not able to open up in front of me, maybe.... I blinked my eyes staring at my own reflection, my forehead wrinkled into a frown as my thoughts went wayward.

Kia poochoon ga ja ker us se? kun pareshan ho? kun ro rahi theen? Being a husband am suppose to know the reasons behind her worries.... Per mein to janta he nai usey.

Who is she to you shehry? a voice spoke inside me and I narrowed my eyes, khud k he swaalon ka jawab nai tha merey pas.

Hea kon wo Meri....? bivi hea? Dost hea? Room mate hea ya phir...ye phir bus Rehmat ki maa.....?

We just fight like kids all the time... never tried to understand eachother, kabhi koshish he nai ki.

Najaney kia hea dermiyan jo rokta hea....?

Sighing deep I kept the brush back on the dresser and I looked at my reflection.

Kisi ko to ye pehla qadam uthana ho ga...shaid tujhey he Shehry!

Thunder struck and clouds rambled hard as I stepped out of my room, before pushing the lock button from inside. Shutting the door and double checking it was locked from inside I cautiously walked into the lounge and found complete silence.

Taking a deep breath in I stepped towards the stairs.

Reaching upstairs I looked around, the lounge was empty so I walked towards the gallery and found the door of her room wide open and lights still turned on.

Maybe she was afraid alone.... Walking silently towards her room, I peeked in and found the bed empty. I entered and walked to Rehmat's crib where she was playing with the toys hanging above. I stopped near the brim and smiled down at her.

"Babbba!' her hands flapped happily and she chirped making my heart go insane inside, I quickly picked her up in my arms and showered her face with as many kisses as I could and as she could bare. It was a whole day without her.....

"How are you?" I asked keeping my voice low but I couldn't low down my excitement, neither could she as she slapped both her palms over my face giggling, showing how happy she was. I poked the tip of my nose in her cheek and she kept on laughing.

"You missed me na?" I asked pouting. "Say yes" I added.

"Mumma mmy mamma" she tried to shove her index into my mouth and I acted as gobbling it up that made her giggle at once.

"Yeah I know your Mummy missed me" I winked and kissed her cheek before laying her back in her crib but the moment I stood back straight she pouted making a face and was about to cry.

"Oh! nai nai nai rona nai...Abba ka pala beta hea na? don't cry, come on! take this" taking out a colourfull soft toy from the canapy of her crib I handed it to her, and after distracting her I walked backwards slowly trying not to make any sound.

Coming out I looked into the kitchen but she wasn't even at her favourite place. Frowning a little I walked into the lounge when my feet halted in my tracks as my eyes caught sight of her; she was standing with her back turned towards me, in the tarrace at the far end of the lounge, the glass doors partly closed at her back.

I walked towards her, her long open hair all soaking as she stood there like a statue under that heavy rain. My gaze glued on her as I halted in front of the glass slider, I don't know why my breaths were uneven and my heart beating fast.

Raising a hand, my fingers shivered slightly as they touched the cold metal before I slide the door open, clouds roared above us as she turned instantly around...leaving me breathless there.

HEER'S POV

Leaving Rehmat with her milk bottle in the crib I walked out from the room, feeling suffocated I stepped out into the lounge and slidded the door wide open. A sudden ghush of fresh cold air stroked my face and I exhaled shutting my eyes, rain drops brushed across my face and I opened my eyes stepping out into the tarrace.

The water under my bare feet gave me a soothing sensation throughout my body, my body which trembled a little as harsh drops of heavy rain fell over it but I shut my eyes and inhaled the scent coming from the mud...

Maybe I should never tell him about all this...

He has already done enough for me..far much than I ever deserved.

Ub mazeed mushkilon or pareshaniyo mein nai dalna humein ap ko Shehryar!

Kash hum aaye he na hotey apki zindagi azaab bananey. Tears started rolling down and those eyes barely rested started itching and paining once again.

I whimpered sniffling, as I wiped my face, tears mixed with rain drops.

Is khofnak andheri rat jesi hea hamari zindagi or Shehryar... wo subha k jesey, barish ki thandi boond k jesey.

Jesey kisi gehrey puraney zakham per merham....Jesey behtey aansu'on mein achanak si hansi. Despite the pain a smile crept onto my trembling lips and tears rolling down, I gulped down the pain and held the railing tight in front of me.

"I will never drag you to my hell along with me Shehryar!" I shook my head as an unknown fear of hurting him overpowered my wits. "That is my hell, my pain....and I will have to walk alone through that.You deserve better...much better than what I have at hand to give you" I said firmly to myself before shutting my eyes and bent my head back facing the sky...rain was harsh over my face but it was washing my pain.

Pheli theen siyaah ratein

Aaya tu subha le ke

Khanmakhan si zindagi mein

Jeeney ki wajah le ke

Khoya tha samandaron mein tanha safeena mera

Sahilon pe aaya hea tu

Janey kis terha le ke

My eyes shut and my heartbeats accelerating when suddenly they flutter open, clouds rambled loud above my head and with that the door at my back slided open and I turned around.

A sudden shiver ran through my spine as I found him there, right in front of me just a couple of feet away. His forehead wrinkled and face muscles tensed a little, that tension soon melted down as his eyes searched my face.

I wanted to run in his arms and cry....I wanted to tell him what he meant to me, a whole life. I blinked my eyes as I stared his face through that heavy rain fall.

Kuch to hea tujh se raabta

Kuch to hea tujh se raabta

Tu humsafar hea

Phir kia fiker hea

Jeeney ki waja yehi hea

Mernaa isi k liye...

His gaze was intense over my face and I shivered once again, hugging my self feeling a little cold all of a sudden as air blew hard, he stepped into the terrace with his eyes still on me and stood right in front of me I searched his face as he searched my eyes for something I couldn't get.

"I want to say something" it slipped through my tongue and he remained quiet, staring down in my eyes. His face soaking with rain drops and hair fallen down over his broad forehead.

"And I want to hear that" he replied in barely a whisper, after a moment of silence and I blinked my eyes. His warm breaths soothing the coldness over my skin and I gulped down.

Kia kahen?

Q zubaan atak gai hea phir se....?

"you-you shouldn't have come here..." I looked away from his face as I stated. "Ap ki phup...

"I didn't want to hear this...." He cut me through and my head shot up as I looked at his face, his eyes still boring into mine.

"I wanted to here what you wanted to say...actually" he stated and I gulped down.

"This...." He raised his hand and his index touched a spot near my jawline giving me shivers down my spine. "and this..." he touched a little up over my cheek now and I frowned. "are not same Heer!" he looked back into my eyes and I trembled inside.

Did he just.... No, he can not.

"Aansoo or barish ki boondon mein buhat ferk hota hea Heer!" he added as I stayed quiet, frozen in my place.

"Or siraf koi apna he ye ferk dhoond sakta hea" it came out unintentionally, unknowingly and he smiled.

"To mein tumhara apna he to hoon" he replied and a tear rolled down, a warm tear mixing with the cold rain drop and I looked down as I sniffled a little.

"Heer? what happened yar?" he asked softly as I stood there in front of him soaking in water with my head hung down feeling cold and as if he was reading my mind, his hand grabbed my wrist firmly.

"Chalo yahan se you will catch cold otherwise" he stated almost to himself as he pulled me out from the terrace but I stopped right at the exit and he turned to look at me with a frown.

"Hum...hum bheeg rae hen"

"So what?"

"sab geela ho jaye ga"

"ho janey do" replying carelessly he stepped out and pulling me at his back he walked to the room.

"Get changed..." he instructed before stepping out from the room, before I even say anything. I pouted and went into the bathroom.

Looking into the mirror I found my eyes puffed and blood shot, and those dark cirles even worse than ever. Ignoring the beauty in front of my eyes I shook my head and after taking a quick shower I changed into a simple black kameez shalwar. Opening the door I stepped out wiping my hair with a towel I walked to Rehmat's crib and found her playing with Shehryar's iphone.

Is he still here.....? frowning a little, I walked out of the room and bumped into him suddenly. The towel fell down my hands and my gaze fixed on his face.

"Shehryar! Ap gaye nai?"

"Tum ne kaha jo nai ahi tak, jo kehna chahti theen" he shrugged his houlders and I felt flushed, I looked away from his gaze and tied my hair up in a bun.

"Let them be...." He took a step forward, moving his hand up at the back of my head he open the bun loose before looking back at my face where he could easily read that blank expression. "khuly rehne do" he added and I stayed quiet, looking away from his face as I tugged my hair at the back of my ear.

"Oh teriiii! Ubal gaiii' Suddenly he made a face smacking his forehead with his palm and I frowned, as he ran back, I followed him and found him in the kitchen straining tea into mugs.

Why cant all this be permanent? I wish I could get a grip on moments...I wish I could hold on to them and never let them pass by.

"Here is our tea" I was jumped out f my thoughts as he chirped and I blinked my eyes, he was offering me the mug, I held it and we walked into the lounge.

It was still raining but the intensity had much decreased....

"What if your phuppo comes and find out...

"Find out what?" he asked cutting me in the middle and I blankly gaped at him. "that you are my wife? Not a makan maalkan" he added before shrugging his shoulders making a face.

"Lets stop talking about Phuppo, Heer!"

"So, what do you want to talk about?" I asked sipping from my tea and he thoughtfully raised his eyebrow, I waited in anticipation when his expressions went a little serious.

"you" he stated and I blinked my eyes, he took a sip from his tea.

"Me?" I exclaimed. "what bout me?"

"sab se pehley tell me why were you crying?" he asked and I looked down at the mug I was holding.

"I wasn't" I lied.

"Poor try Heer!" he made a face and I rolled my eyes. "I repeat, why you were crying?" he asked again and I searched his eyes.

"Ferz kejiye...

"Ferz kiya" he cut me through stating firmly and I smiled, rather getting fumed up.

"If ever in life I won't remain with you, will you still and always love Rehmat the way you do today?" I asked and he frowned a little.

"Why do you think my love for my daughter depends on you?...or it depends on anything in the world?" he asked back and I remained silent. "It doesn't Heer!" He added firmly.

"Love is never dependant" he smiled and I looked down biting my lower lip, trying to hold back my emotions.

"Tumhari chae thandi ho rahi hea" he gestured down at my mug and I brought it to my lips taking a sip.

"Umm I guess we should..." he hesitated for a moment and I looked at his face. "we should try to know eachother" he added casually. "jab sath sari umer ka hea to nibhaney k liye ak doosrey ko jan'na zaroori hea na" he stated seriously and I gulped down, that pain that fear started to oz up once again.

Saari umer???? My heart sank.

"We just don't know anything bout echother, except you being saroo and I being....

"Akroo" he trailed off and I finished his sentence, he chuckled rolling his eyes.

He was about to say something when Rehmat's voice came, and as I was about to get up he placed his hand over my knee, stopping me and got up. "let the expert handle" he boasted before running towards the room and I smiled.

Zindagi to sab ki he char din ki hea...bus agar khoobsurat ho jae to ikhtitam ka dil nai chahta.

Mager ikhtitaam ho bhi gaya to is bat ka sakoon to hea k wo log jo zindagi se ziada piyarey thy humein wok hush hen...

Na ub Mahrukh ki fikr hea na Rehmat ki...

sab theek hea. Han Heer! ub sab theek hea.

For few minutes I remained seated there in the sofa, thinking bout life...bout him and then I got up, placing the mug on the table I walked towards the room when my feet stopped in the door frame as I heard him singing a ....lullaby?

"lalla lalla loorii..

Doodh ki katori...

Dhoodh mein batasha...

Melaa baby kare tamasha.....

Lalla lalla loriii..... "

My eyes watered, I rolled my lower lip between my teeth as I saw him holding her in his arms, singing for her... I can't believe he could sing so well, or wo bhi lori? Tears rolling down my cheeks, soaking my face once again and I whimpered which made him turn around and he caught sight of me, though I covered my mouth but it didn't help, my feelings overwhelming.

He stared my face as I stood there in the door frame covering my mouth, my head hung low with tears falling down.

"Heer!" after a minute or so I felt his touch over my arm, I couldn't look up at his face or else he would know...he would know everything I was hiding from him.

"Ch! Heer! Come on....look at me" he held my face in his palms and pulled it up, he searched my eyes... his face tensed, concern and worry evident there. "What happened?"

"You want something? You need something? Tell me please! What happened yar?" he almost begged, his tone soft and convincing, his eyes urging me to speak up but I just couldn't.

"Am scared..." I huccuped.

"Am scared Shehryar!" he blinked his eyes frowning, before he could ask more, I felt I totally lost it; going on my toes I threw my arms around his neck and my face burrried into his collars, I felt his body stiffened and frozen as I held him tight sobbing silently and he slowly raised his arms, snaking one around the small of my back and the other caressing my hair at the back of my head, trying to calm me down.

I could feel his heart thumping wild as he held me firm, close to himself, his face dung down over my shoulder his breaths ragged and hot over my cold skin. I just cried my heart out whimpering there and he kept on softly stroking my head.

"It's okay Heer! am here, mein hoon na. You don't have to be scared" he stated softly, his lips brushed across my skin and I tightened my arms around his neck fisting his shirt.

"Am sorry! I always fight with you, yell at you, joke around all the time..." he took a pause, my heart was pounding inside my chest. "but trust me I don't mean all that Heer! don't take my jokes to your heart" he stroked my back softly assuring me and I gulped down, inhaling his scent.

I felt it was the safest, warmest the best place on earth... I never felt that good before, that loved that pampered before as I felf with him being in his arms, all protected and loved.

Ab kia hea kehna

Hum ko hea rehna

Jantaein bhula k

Teri bahon mein panah le k....

Pheli theen siyaah ratein

Aaya tu subha le ke

Khanmakhan si zindagi mein

Jeeney ki wajah le ke

"Calm down...am here Heer! for you, for our daughter. Kuch nai ho ga, am here trust me" I sniffled and my whole body trembled, he held me even tighter resting his lips over my shoulder before pressing them firmly and I exhaled a sharp breath out.

My grip went loose a bit around him, but he remained there still holding me tight, I gulped down, my breaths rough as I tried to pull back a little and his arms reluctantly pulled down from my back, I backed off not looking at his face while his breaths fanning my forehead. I bit my lower lip unable to cool down the heat...unable to overcome the embarrassment.

"You okay?" he asked softly and I nodded my head, not looking at his face still.

"you sure?" he added and I remained quiet this time, we were standing at hardly no distance left between us and his effect was just too much to handle.

"Am better" I stated and looked up at his face, his eyes searched my face. "Am sorry I went a little...carried away" I added lowly.

"So you want nothing else?" he ignored my statement and asked once again, I frowned and shook my head a smirk appeared on his face as he snaked his arm around my back and pulled me in, making me gasp in shock as his other hand rested over my waist.

"What if I do?" he asked whispering, his breaths hot over my face and I blinked my eyes. "what if I something else Heer!?" he repeated, my heart started thumping hard somewhere in my throat.

"What if I want....Everything else" his eyes roamed down to my parted lips, my eyes followed suit and I gulped down as he tilted his head to left leaning into my face. I felt my heart stopped beating and my mouth all perched as my eyes flutter shut with my breathing heavy.

I felt his hand at the side of my neck with his thumb caressing my throat and I gulped down. He softly kissed my jawline and I let out a sharp breath, he pulled back, my eyes flutter open finding them staring straight into his brown ones. He clenched his jaws as he gulped down before a soft smile crept on to his lips and he rested his forehead with mine.

"You should go Shehryar!" I stated worrying if he would stay here minute longer, things would go out of hands for sure.

"but you are scared..Aren't you?" he asked, his eyes shut.

Yes, I am...I am afraid of not being with you Shehryar!

"You are scared of not being with me, hea na?" he pulled back asking and for a moment my eyes went wide in utmost disbelief, he was reading my thoughts?

"buhat ziada khushfehmiyan hen apko wesey" I smirked and he rolled his eyes, we were still standing like that. I felt flushed all of a sudden and pulled back.

"ub banda khush fehmi bhi na paley?" he complaint and I giggled.

"Acha ub jaiye ap..." I pushed his back.

"daro gi to nai?" he asked seriously and I shook my head.

"wah! Bus ek jhappi se dar khatam ho gaya, to socho jab hum....

"Shehryar jaiyeee ap!" I pushed him harder as he was about to vomit God knows what and he chuckled, I felt my cheeks burnt with fire.

"Nai wesey...jhappi k sath ek choti si pappi bhi to thi" he stated like remembering.

"Eeeiiieew kitni gandi batein kerte hen ap" I mimicked his own accent and his eyes widened in disbelief, I bit my lip hiding my grin.

"Don't tell me Heer! you watched my videos" he asked stunned and I nodded my head.

"all of them...wo bhi aj subha"

"Ahh so here I have a new fresh addition to my crazy fans' he boasted and I rolled my eyes.

"huhn! fan' I made a face and he smirked.

"Imran Khan k voters se ziada lambi line baney gi agar apney fans ko khara kara doon, mertey hen ek autograph k liye" he stated showing off and I giggled at his expressions. "tu jutti na kha leen merey hathon. Huhn!" he made a face and I laughed.

"Acha? Then where is my autograph?" I asked keeping my hands over my waist and he smirked leaning into my face.

"ye-ye kia ker rahe hen" I hurriedly stopped him from coming any closer by pushing him back and he chuckled.

"yar I was just giving you an autograph" he stated. "ub bivi hone ka koi to faida ho...kam se kam autograph to special miley" he winked and I blushed.

"So jaiye...good night" I said with a smile and he smiled back.

"Good night" with last long glance on my face he walked out and I sighed deep, standing there feeling better...much better.

Kehte hen Khuda ne is jahan mein sabhi k liye, kisi ka kisi ko hea banaya her kisi k liye.

So it was true...Allah has made somebody for everybody, and if Shehryar has sent for me, then I am probably the luckiest and happiest girl on earth.

Opening the drawer I picked up the file, my hands didn't tremble this time...neither my heart sank down. I was perfectly calm for some unknown reason because of some strange kind of power, I was feeling in myself.

Zindagi choti ho ya lambii kia ferk perta hea Heer! pur sukoon honi chaiye. I thought to myself, and it was the biggest truth of my life that I was never at peace in my life before as much as I was with Shehryar.

Mager Shehryar? Un ka kia? Unki khushiyon ka kia?

You can't play with his feelings Heer!

He deserves to know the truth.... My heart started beating faster once again and I shut my eyes, clenching the file tight in my hands.

SHEHRY'S POV

I could still feel her throbbing hard over my chest, her arms wrapped around my neck...her scent, and those wet tangled locks.

Sighing deep I just feel back in my bed, keeping a hand under my head the other rested over my torso as I stared the ceiling above, thinking about her.

Dertey hum kisi k baap se bhi nai samjhey ap!...

Am scared Shehryar!...

I don't know why I was feeling a strange kind of pain in my chest, such that I never felt before not even in the worst of my times. She was hiding something, but what it could be?

I have never seen her like this before, that's shattered that helpless. I have to find out the reason.... And I will.