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CHAPTER 16: FAREWELL AND THE PAIN

SHEHRY'S POV

"Shehry beta! do check your documents before leaving" Dad instructed me as I was bringing my wheelers down stairs putting them near the exit door of the apartment. Mom and Maha looked extreme gloom and my bakri was nowhere to be seen, I frowned looking around.

"Yup Dad! all checked" I replied and he nodded his head.

"Shehry bhai! wapas kab aao ge?' Maha came near me pouting and I ruffled her hair, before bending down over my knees.

"Jab meri princess kahe gi" I rested my hands over her small shoulders.

"to phir mat jao" she said still pouting.

"Okay, fine nai jata, theek?" I smiled and she smiled back but all at once she smacked her forehead as if remembered something.

"But you have an important task there na? tum to merey liye bhabi lane ja rae ho, phir bhabi kesey aai gi tum nai jao ge to?" she said sweetly and I narrowed my eyes.

"And who told you this?" I asked knowing the answer.

"Sain bhai told me" she answered and I rolled my eyes.

"us khotey nu to mein dasna" I said to myself.

"But I will miss you" she at once bent down and wrapped her arms around my neck; I smiled and hugged her back tight.

"I will miss you too meri jan" I stroked her back as I felt she was sobbing lightly. "Hussain is here, you can do all the masti and fun with him. Merey hissey ka bhi" I said still hugging her and she hiccuped without saying anything.

"But you are my favourite" she pulled back and looked at me with a puppy dog face, her eyes wet and I smiled softly.

"You are my favourite too" I kissed her cheek and she smiled.... Finally.

"Shehry beta! ye bag bhi rakh lo" I heard Mom calling me and I got up, she was coming out of the kitchen holding a packet which she stuffed into an other small bag.

"What's this Mom?" I asked going towards her.

"Ye halwa hea or kuch murabbey hen tumharey liye, or ye achaar bhi hea tumhen pasand hea na, bahir se le ker mat khana gala kharab ho jae ga." she instructed me and I chuckled.

"Mom EK saal ka achaar pack ker diya ap ne na?" I asked and she at once smacked her forehead with one hand over her waist.

"Ye sab to buhat thora hea, mujhe to dihan he nai raha... mein

"Mom! Mom! I was joking" I cut her in the middle chuckling, i held her hands in mine. "Ek saal ka achar ho na ho kaii salon ka piyar zorro baandh diya hea ap ne sath merey" I said softly and she smiled warmly, despite those gloomy eyes having a little moisture now.

"Mom! but seriously.... Is sab ki kia zaroorat hea yar?" I said and she shook her head.

"Zaroorat hea" she said firmly and I remained quiet with a smile on my face. "Pata nai kitne maheeney bad wapas aao tum" a grimness was evident in her tone.

"Mom! Don't get senti now please! Werna mein nai janaa" I said and she giggled lightly.

"Acha chalo moo nai banao, jatey hue hanste muskurate Allah hafiz kehna chaiye" Mom said and I smiled at once.

"yeh Cheez!" I hugged her tight and she wrapped her arms around me, patting my back softly.

"Apna buhat dihan rakhna, ek to ho bhi Akeley... bivi hoti to bhi bat thi" she said and I just remained quiet, hugging her feeling the best hug in the world.

"Mom! I will take care of myself, you don't worry. In fact ap apna dihan rakhiye ga... buhat yad aaen gi ap" I pulled back saying and she wiped the tear from the corner of her eyes.

"or hum nai yad aaye ge kia?" I heard Dad saying as he rested his arm around my shoulder and I smiled.

"Aesey wesey?" I said and he pulled me in a warm tight, comforting hug. Ahhh! These fathers

"Mom! Dad! where is Hussain?" I asked as pulled back.

"I don't know keh raha tha aa jae ga jaldi... abhi tak nai aya" Dad looked at his wrist watch.

"Wo bhi kaheen senti hua betha ho ga" Mom said and I chuckled. "pata nai kesey rahe ga tumharey bager wo Shehry?" She added in a worry full tone and I pressed my lips in a hrd thin line, thinking the same.

Khotey ko aadat eh nai hea, kuch time k liye Melbourne kia shift ho gaya tha k shokhey ne hansna muskurana he chor diya tha, ub to m going all the way to Pakistan... Allah he khair karey.

MAHEEN'S POV

"Hussain! you should be going now" I said, he looked extremely down today, his usual chirp was gone somewhere.

"Hm"this was all he could respond and I rested my hand over his shoulder.

"Come on! See off him with a smile Hussain! not with this grim face of yours" I said and he looked at me, still looking gloomy.

"Am so used to of him, how on earth am going to live in that apartment alone without Shehry?" he said. "you know when he got married and shifted to Melbourne, for so many days and nights I couldn't even think straight, neend aati thi na kuch kerne ka dil kerta tha" he added looking down.

"Tum to bilkul us behen ki terha ki batein ker rae ho jis ki twin sister vida ho ker ja rai ho" I said trying to make him smile and he did, a little.

"Sala ja bhi Pakistan raha hea, itni door... Melbourne to phir qareeb tha" Hussain said shaking his head. "Kal tak I was all happy and excited about all this and today when he is leaving...band baji pari hea meri" He said disapprovingly and I got up from the bench.

"Chalo utho!" I grabbed his wrist and he looked up at my face. "Ch! Come on Hussain you need to be there right now...he must be leaving for the airport in a couple of hours" I said and tried to pull him up but he didn't even move a little, I rolled my eyes.

"Hussain! I kind of warned him and he chuckled lightly and finally got up on his feet.

"that's good!" I smiled. "Now, go!" I said and was about to leave his wrist when he grabbed my hand at once, just as he did the other day.

"Yup! Lets go" he said and started walking almost dragging me at his back.

"Oye! Mujhe kahan le ja rahe ho?" I asked frowning, holding my bag over my shoulder as he walked fast and I was almost running after him.

"Shehry se milwaney" he stated casually still holding my hand we walked towards the parking lot.

"Phir se utaar bahir to nai karo ge na?" I asked as he opened the door for me and he chuckled, shaking his head.

"Depends" he said smiling and I rolled my eyes, sitting in I kept my bag in my lap and he shut the door before coming towards the driving seat himself.

HUSSAIN'S POV

Parking the car in front of the apartment I jumped out and opened the door for Maheen who stepped out, smiling. She held her bag hanging over her shoulder as I showed her the way towards the gate.

"Your Mom Dad will be inside too?" she asked, sounding a little nervous and I looked at her.

"Yup! Don't worry tumhari saas se milwane nai le ja raha jo aesey ghabra rahi ho" I said smiling down at her and she rolled her eyes despite that evident blush on her cheeks.

"I didn't mean that" She said acting cool and I chuckled, halting at the doorstep I took out my keys and opened the lock. Letting the door wide open I gestured her to step in and she followed.

I stepped after her and shut the door at my back, I could hear voices from the kitchen.

"This way" I showed her the way and we started walking towards the kitchen.

"Nice home" she remarked looking around and I smiled.

"Assalam-o-alaikum everyone!" I beamed as we both halted in front of the kitchen and everyone turned and look at me smiling before their gaze shifted upon her.

"Mom! She is Maheen, my school mate and Maheen she is the most beautiful woman on earth.. my Mom!" I smiled introducing them and Maheeen stepped closer to he smiling.

"Assalam-o-alaikum aunty!" she greeted with a smile and Mom hugged her smiling back.

"Assalam-o-alaikum uncle!" she greeted Dad who replied back with a pat over her head.

"Oye kahan tha tu khotey?" I heard Shehry yelling at my back and we turned to look at him, his frown faded as he looked at Maheen, and then looked at me with a raised eyebrow.

"Hello Shehry!" Maheen smiled greeting him and he came forward.

"Hello! Maheen right?" Shehry said and the shook hands. "Nice meeting you" he added with a smile and Maheen reciprocated.

"Hussain was really glum since morning, tumhen he yad kiye jar aha tha" Maheen said and I rolled my eyes. "isey bhi bag mein pack ker k le jao" She added smiling

"Don't tell him, mazeed shokha ho jae ga Sala!" I said making a face and She giggled while Shehry smacked my head.

"Isey to apne sath le jaoon mager phir sochta hoon New York di saari kurriyan da ki hoye ga?" Shehry said seriously, sighing a little and Maheen chuckled while i waved a hand in air to brush away his silliness.

"By the way, Finding you here with him... means that the apology was accepted, right?" Shehry asked narrowing his eyes as he looked at Maheen who blushed a little, before nodding her head with a smile.

"Fir se aesa karey na ye khota to dasna menu, aeney chitter lavan gi k nani yad aa javey gi, shokey nu" Shehry said in Dolly aunty style and Maheen laughed.

"Oho! At least ask her to sit down comfortable, boys" Mom said as she washed her hands in the basin and came near us, Maheen smiled shyly looking looking down and I rolled my eyes.

"Ub ap mujhe chae banae ka na keh dejiye ga" I said making a face and Mom smiled.

"ji nai! Am already getting late, tu apne armana nu dil vich he rakh hun, bad mein pilaaeen ji bhar ker chaa" Shehry said looking down at his wrist watch and Maheen giggled.

We stepped out of the kitchen and Dad asked me to help him putting the luggage in the car, I left Maheen and Mom in the lounge and along with Shehry we walked out of the apartment.

"Kia bat hea bakri! Mom se milwaney laya hea bhabi ko?" I was putting the wheeler in the car trunk when Shehry whispered mischievously in my ear and I rolled my eyes.

"Bhabi?" I raised my eyebrow, looking at him who was smiling cheekily. "Remember? No bhabi until I get my bhabi" I reminded him and he rolled his eyes dramatically.

"To sari umer kanwara rae ga tu, khotey?" Shehry asked in mock anger and I shrugged my shoulders.

"Depends on you man!" I stated. "wesey Pakistan ja ker kisi heroine se chaker waker na chala leen" I said like warning him and he chuckled, shaking his head.

"Directors are famous for this thing' I added, making a face.

"Mera chaker chor, apna chaker set ker tu" Shehry said seriously. "by the way, What about Maheen? are you two......

"Pagal hea kia? Nothing is going on between us, we both are just friends" I cut him in the middle and he crossed his arms.

"I was asking if you two are coming to see off me?" he asked with an amused grin on his face and I face palm myself at once getting a little heat up in face.

"Shokha he raeen sari umer" Shehry chuckled smacking my head and I smiled. "wesey I liked her" Shehry added, picking up the other bag and putting it in the car he shut the trunk up.

"Yeah yeah! I know chal ub you are getting late" I saw Mom and Maheen coming towards us along with Maha and Dad so I hurriedly tried to change the topic, Shehry ka kia pata chalta hea sab k samne he shuroo ho jae

We all sat in Dad's jeep, Shehry was sitting at the back with Mom and Maheen while Dad was sitting with me at the front. Maha took the last seat and we drove off towards the airport.

HEER'S POV

Days passed by so were weeks so were months, nights changed into days and days changed into nights but I was the same Heer who got to married to one evil and brute savage who became an MPA now after winning the election, I was right about these politicians they are one heck of an illiterate, empty at mind kind of people who only have love for money, status and their seat.

So why would he care about his wife? Or phir mein bivi thi he kahan, mein to wo aurat thi jo us k sath ek chat k neechey rehte hue bhi us k wajood se khaufzada thi, mein wo aurat thi k jab chaha istimal kia jab chaha paaon taley rond dala.

"Mein apne bachey ko kabhi Arsalan jesa nai banney doon gi"

"My child would be a sensible, responsible human being... with a sound heart and mind"

"I don't want another Arsalan Ya Allah! please keep this child safe from the brutishness of this world"

"Jo salook merey sath hua wo merey bachey k sath nai hona chaiye, werna mein marr jaoon gi.... Khud per hone diya hea mager us per zulm hotey hue nai dekh paoon gi"

"Ya Allah beta ho ya beti... sehat wali emaan wali aulaad dena, aesi aulad jo merey dil ko sakoon de, jo meri zindagi mein maujood ghamon ko kam ker de"

Brushing aside few tears from my cheeks I just kept on staring at the ceiling above my head.

Suddenly I felt intense pain in my head and I held it in both my hands, I got up slowly and sat straight on the bed, this pain was killing me... all this depression and anxiety is sucking my marrow inside and I was unable to do anything, I try hard to stay happy and think about my baby but don't know why I have this strange fear inside me.

Aesa dar jo na bayan kia jata than a berdasht kia jata tha, bus dar tha jo khatam hone ka nam nail eta tha.

As always within a couple of minutes the intensity faded off and I let go of my head, slowly lifting my head up I sighed. Looking at the clock I got up from the bed and headed towards the bathroom to freshen up as it was my appointment with my doctor.

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"Aman twins hue to? Ek ka nam bilal or doosrey ka Ahmad rakhen ge" Sadia was saying to Aunty, who was busy cutting some vegetable, standing near the kitchen counter.

"Lo bhala ek ka pata nai abhi tum twins per puhanch gaeen" Aunty said making a face.

"Oho to aana to hea na merey bhateeje ne ek din, or phir ub time he kitna hea... bus 4 ya mushkil se 5 maheeney to hen peechey" She said munching on an apple in her hand. I just sat there in the TV lounge apparently watching a drama but deep down my eyes were empty... I was simply staring the screen with my thoughts wayward.

"Acha Amaan hum bhateeje ki shoping k liye kab jaen ge?" She asked excitedly.

"Han han chalen ge kisi din, ub wo zara aaloo pakrao mujhe or damagh na khao mera" Aunty said scolding her, I could hear her blabbering something.

"Aman pata hea, naureen itna jal rahi thi sun ker k mera bhateeja aane wala hea"Sadia started again after a couple of minutes and I felt like my brain would explode any time.

"Nandon ka or kam kia hea, jalne k ilawa huhn!" Aman said making a face and I smiled sarcastically. "Khud ki beti bhi nand hea kisi ki" I rolled my eyes thinking.

"Acha Aman bataen na, Bilal nam theek hea na?" She asked again, I got up from the couch in front of the TV screen and headed towards the kitchen.

"han baba theek hea" Aunty said like trying to get rid of her constant blabbering.

"Agar beti hui to Imaan rakhoon gin am mein" I said going into the Kitchen but before I could say even a word more I heard Aunty and Sadia gasping loud, Aunty left the knife and looked at me with a frown.

"Allah na karey beti ho, kesi manhoos batein nikalti ho apne moo se tum" She made a disgusted face and I narrowed my eyes.

'Kia matlab manhoos? beti rehmat hoti hea Allah ki" I said aloud and she rolled her eyes.

"han jesey tum dono theen, ek bhag gai doosri...

"Bus kejiye ap!" I shouted aloud, as she said this thing for like a millionth of time in front of me. "Kisi ki beti k bareu mein fazool bat kerne se pehle ye kun nai sochteen ap k ap k ghar bhi ek beti hea" I added, anger pooling inside me.

"Jo bhi ho Heer! beti nai honi chaiye, ho to bus beta ho... mujhe to bhateeja chaiye wo bhi bilkul Arsalan bhai jesa" Sadia said rolling her eyes and I looed at her.

"Her namaz mein dua kerti hoon k mera bacha... apney baap per na jae" I said spitting and her expression changed at once. "Ek or bat sun lo, beta ya beti Allah ki den hoti hea, mein likhwa ker nai lai ooper se. samjheen tum?" I almost yelled and she stepped towards me, her eyes pooling up with fire as she grabbed my arm harshly and I groaned in pain.

"Ahh! Choro mujhe!" I said gritting my teeth to avoid pain, but she jerked me hard.

"Mein ne tumhen kitni bar kaha hea k apni zabaan ko lagaam diya karo...." She said angrily and I gulped the pain down. "Or beti hui na to nateejey ki zimedar tum khud ho gi" she added and I just stared her face blankly, how could she talk like that about her own blood?

"Sadi choro isey or ye handi dekh lo" Aunty said, my eyes were getting pooled up. "or tum! aao merey bazoo daba do thorey, hayeee! Kam ker ker k aadhi ho gai hoon mein to" she added in a fake tone and Sadia jerked my arm out of her grip.

"Dekho! Betiyan palna koi asaan kam nai hota, beta ho ga to Arsalan ki nasal aagey berhae ga, mera pota ho ga wo" Aunty started saying as she laid down on her bed and I slowly and quite absent mindedly held her arm. "Ub ek he to beta hea mera, us ki bhi beti ho gai to khandan ka kia ho ga?" she added and I remained quiet.

"Bus tum kal he jao or altrasound kerwa ker aao"

"or agar beti nikli to?" I asked blankly, my heartbeats were fast.

"Allah na karey" she at once jerked her arm out of my grip, looking at me angrily. "Acha acha kun nai nikalta kabhi tumharey is manhoos moo se?" she pushed me hard with her hand over my jawline and I almost fell down the bed, unable to maintain my balance. Tears started flowing down my cheeks.

"beti hui to waheen mar aana, huhn! Dafa ho jao ub yahan se" She yelled and I hurriedly got up from the floor almost running towards the stairs I ran to my room and shut the door at my back.

Slipping down with the cold wood of the door I cried my heart out.

"how can they even talk like this about... about their own blood?"

I was crying hard when the door of the bathroom burst open and he stepped out, looking up I found a frown on his face as he halted in his track. Looking down I kept my knees into my tummy and kept on crying...

"Sara waqt aese aansoo bahati raho gi to beta bhi roti shakal ka paida ho ga mera" Arsalan spatted as he headed towards the cupboard.

"Beti..." I said and he at once turned to look at me, I looked up and slowly got up from the floor. "beti ho gi meri' I said firmly and he just stood there staring my face.

"Heer! mein siraf ek bar keh raha hoon tumhen dobara nai kahoon ga" he stepped towards me, his eyes boring into my soul and finger pointing towards me. "Mujhe beti nai chaiye, beti naheen ho gi" He said giving pauses between each word as if he was thretnening me or something and I gulped down the fear.

"Allah k kam hen ye" I said, trying to sound brave though deep down I was trembling hard.

"To Allah se mango..... mager beti ki khaber na dena mujhe, betiyan nai pal sakta mein beth ker." he said, warning me and turned towards the cupboard again.

I just stood there feeling my head going all dizzy and my tummy hurt, I felt like throwing up and I rushed towards the bathroom keeping a hand over my mouth.

"Jaldi nikalna mein intizar ker raha hoon neeche" I heard him yelling like a total animal and a sudden feeling of hatred for him filled my heart.

Opening the tap I cried hard just to empty myself, kabhi kabhi mujhe buhat dar lagta tha kaheen mein kuch kern a bethoon, apna ya is duniya ka.

I washed my face and after wiping it up I stepped out of the wash room.

"Heer!"

"Heeeer!neechey aao" I heard Aunty calling... no yelling my name and I sighed deep, adjusting my dupatta I left the room.

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"How often it happens?" she asked.

"It used to be like once or twice in a week but now I feel it all the time, the pai and that uneasy feeling in my head never leaves me" I told her.

"What do you feel?" she asked and I looked up at her face.

"my... my head gets dizzy all at once, and my vision blurs and I feel acute pain in my temples ... and then I cant see anything but darkness as if a black smoke engulfs me from all side and I.. I get faint" I told her slowly.

"Acute pain in temples...okay" she was jotting down something on the paper. "Here?" she touched my temples with her fingers and even just a slight touch sent shiver of pain in my head and I nodded faintly.

"Not in the back part of the head?" she asked as she stretched her fingers back, looking at my expressions.

"No, just in the temples and sometimes here" I touched my forehead and she narrowed her eyes, before looking back on the paper and started writing something.

"See! Heer this is normal in your case as you are facing extreme depression during pregnancy, pain and tease in head is quite a normal sign but I would like to go for some tests just to make sure it's a normal depression nothing else, because the frequency sounds a little abnormal" she told me, and I nodded uncertainly.

"But if it is normal in pregnancy then why to go for these tests?" Arsalan asked and the doctor looked at him.

"Mr Arsalan! Taking these things lightly can cause damage to your baby as well, baby is safe and healthy only if the mother is safe and healthy" she said and Arsalan remained quiet. 'and I don't think that you want an unhealthy baby, or do you?" she asked, I looked at my left towards him who wasn't looking at me at all.

All of a sudden I felt extreme pain in my heart, what kind of a husband he was? What kind of father he was going to? Least bothered, least moved with all this, Ya Allah what did I do to deserve all this? If he doesn't love me or respect me am fine with it but please make him respect the baby at least, it is his child.... Why does he behave like this? So indifferent and cold towards it?

Slowly I looked away and gulped the pain down my throat, Maybe it was all written in my fate maybe it was all predestined.. May be there is no Ranjha thing ever existed in this world, maybe I was the biggest fool to even dream once for him.

Arsalan took hold of the prescription and we stood up, he left the room in quick paces while I was still there trying to stand straight fighting the pain I had in my body.

"oh! You okay Heer?" the doctor came at my side and held my arms as I was about to fall back in the chair at my back.

"Am fine, sorry" I said shaking my head a little.

"Do you want me to call your husband in?" She asked and I shoo my head, looking down.

"No, Thanks" I said and she slowly let my arms go of her grip.

"Heer! please take care of yourself, this is all so not good" she said in a worry full tone and I looked at her face trying to smile. "You don't want this baby?" she added.

"This is the only thing I want in my life doctor!" I said truthfully and she smiled.

"Then take care of this little angel" She smiled sweetly and I smiled back before turning to leave the room.

"Arey to jab koi masla nai to q kerwaney hen bekaar mein itne test? Khaan makhan mein pesey bahao tum" I heard Aunty saying as I went near them, standing in the loddy.

"Ub Doctor keh rai hea to kia karoon Ami!" Arsalan said making an irritated face.

"mujhe nai kerwaney koi test west" I said firmly once I halted near them. "bekaar mein ap logo ko mujh per apna waqt or pesa zaya kerne ki zaroorat nai" I added looking away.

"Ek to azaab ban gai hea ye lerki meri zindagi ki" Arsalan said spatting and I looked at his face. 'jab dekho beemar pari rehti hea, or kerwa bolti hea" he snapped.

"Azaab siraf roz-e-mehsher he nai milna Arsalan, kabhi kabhi duniya mein bhi Allah azaab de deta hea" I looked straight into his eyes and he gritted his teeth, I knew he stopped himself because we were not in our room otherwise he would have slapped my face there and then.

"Zaban katwa do is ki mein to kehti hoon" Aunty said hissing and I looked away crossing my arms.

"Ultrasound kab kerwao ge?" she asked Arsalan.

"kal ki hea date" Arsalan said and before they could start again about all that bullshit about beti and beta crap I walked towards the exit. I fisted the prescription in my hand and making a ball of it I threw it in a dustbin on my way to the car and sat down. Shutting my eyes I rested my head over the head rest letting the tears fall down

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