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Taehyung put on his favorite jazz song on his little speaker. Increasing the volume before he smiles widely, looking back at Jeongguk just laying down on his bed. He had a glass of tea in his hands as both of them were just having a night in. After exploring each other in a physical manner, now they were just having a peaceful time with each other.

"Are you going to make me listen to jazz again??" Jeongguk asks him with a smile on his face.

"If you have any problem with it, you can go back to your room." Taehyung says to him as he twirls around in Jeongguk's shirt, he wasn't wearing anything underneath and the shirt barely reached till his thighs. The little twirl was giving him a peak of what he just ran through.

"Yeah, I don't think that's an option." Jeongguk says, trying not to stare at him but he's so fucking hot, it's hard of him to not to. "I told you, I'm sleeping here tonight." Jeongguk says before drinking his tea whole and putting it on the side table.

"You are not very smart. I know you don't want to leave because of the view-" He points at himself. "It's amazing."

"You got me there but can you blame me? Suddenly jazz sounds like my favorite genre." Jeongguk chuckles along with his husband who just rolls his eyes. He starts humming along the song. His deep beautiful voice dances along with harmony to the song.

Jeongguk just stares at him, it's hard to take your eyes off someone like Taehyung. Someone who is so full of love and so themselves. It's beautiful to see someone like him, to be in their presence. The way he makes the entire room fit his big personality. The certain warmth to his expressions, the melodious voice that echoes through the room.

He is twirling around the room, doing stuff like putting the clothes that they threw on the bedroom floor in a hurry, the ten different things on the dressing table that he just hasn't put inside yet. All these little chores but he still got a smile on his face as he sings along. Taehyung is like sunshine leaving a piece of itself on earth. How can one radiate just great energy?

It was beyond him and without realizing, he was falling deeply for him. He doesn't acknowledge because then it would be too real and when it becomes real, it's practically over. There's no way in the world this can work. He can't do that to Taehyung.

Soon enough, Taehyung comes back into the bed and lays down next to him. Finally turning off his little jazz session. Ready to go to sleep, he turns the other way, with his back facing Jeongguk and he closes his eyes. He feels the other guy's lips on his nape, pressing butterflies kisses down to his nape. Before Taehyung could stop him, Jeongguk stopped himself.

He put his hands on Taehyung's waist, pulling him closer to his body and went to sleep. Cuddling him, Taehyung felt so comfortable and at peace. He doesn't know why he feels so nice right now. The sleep hit him so easily that night. It was definitely not a night to forget.

Jeongguk becoming a person he likes to see around wasn't something he had planned for. He likes Jeongguk as a person, as a friend. He is there when he needs him and gives him the comfort he needs. It's nice to have Jeongguk around. He may be his fake husband but he is one great friend to him.

A friend he has sex with. Amazing sex, that needs to be added. The one where his toes are curling and has him screaming for more. Besides all that, Jeongguk has been just great to him. The way he behaves and acts around him, his mannerisms to take care of his every need, it sometimes feels like he is actually dating Jeongguk. With pet names being involved to little touches here and there, Taehyung can't help but think if there is something more between them.

Attraction that is more romantic than sexual. It does wonders sexually but romantic feelings are something he isn't so sure of. With Jeongguk of all people. He can see something happening there and he doesn't know if he should stop it. Maybe it's too late for that.

Taehyung shakes his head, coming out from his daze. He parks his car into the parking lot of Jin's apartment. He is meeting up with him again because he has nothing better to do anyways. Besides, it has been three weeks since the last time they met in the park. This time he has alerted Taehyung of Eunha's presence in his home too so he is prepared for that.

He hasn't talked to her since and he doesn't know if Jeongguk has. He does see Jeongguk texting someone a lot nowadays but it's nothing that would make him suspicious if it's Eunha or well anyone else he has a connection with. He just hopes she doesn't bring Jeongguk up again or ask him how to hit on his husband. That would be an uncomfortable situation for sure.

Taehyung grabbed onto the wine bottle he got for Jin tightly, entering the elevator as he pressed the number of his floor. Only a few seconds later, the metal doors opened. Hurriedly, he walked out of the elevator. Making his way to Jin's apartment. He rings his bell twice before waiting patiently at the door. Hearing some footsteps from the other side of the door and the door opens revealing his friend. 

"Hey, you are finally here!! Thank god you arrived or Eunha would have drank all of the mimosas I prepared." Jin says to him before giving him a hug and letting him inside the house. Taehyung takes his shoes off and puts them aside before walking in with house slippers on.

"Why is she drinking?"

"Your husband has been ignoring her." Jin tells him and immediately realizes how strange that sounds. Taehyung raises his eyebrow at him and just chuckles.

"I didn't even know they were in contact."

"Does it matter if they are?" Jin questions and Taehyung realizes he does have a point.

"I guess not." Taehyung says, shutting his heart down in this matter. He walks into the lounge and sees Eunha sitting in a pretty sundress as she is eyeing the mimosas on the table that are displayed with such elegance.

His footsteps alert her and she whips her head to face him. A smile on her face when she sees who it is. Immediately getting up from the couch, she hugs Taehyung tightly. Taehyung is a bit taken back but he hugs her back. "Taehyung Oppa! I was waiting for you to come. So glad to see you here."

"You too, Eunha. Let's sit down." Taehyung says to her before all three of them sit down on the couch. Jin hands them all one drink as they all take a sip and Eunha looks like she was just reincarnated.

"So Tae, how have you been? How is everything with Jeongguk?" Jin asks him an honest question and Taehyung takes a sip of the drink before answering.

"I am fine, so is Jeongguk. We are both good. In a good space right now with our thing." Taehyung gives a short answer as he still doesn't feel comfortable saying too much in front of Eunha. Who does look heavily invested in what he has to say.

"Has Jeongguk been busy? We text each other a lot and he hasn't been replying for quite some days now." Eunha says with a smile but something about it all just pisses him off so much. He doesn't know why it irks him so much.

Taehyung wants to tell her, yes he is busy, busy rearranging Taehyung's gut every chance he gets but he can't say that. He should be the bigger person. "I wouldn't say he is busier than usual. Maybe he just hasn't gotten the time to text you back." Taehyung gives her his signature smile back and the air gets tense. 

Jin notices it and decides to change the subject. He clears his throat so the attention is on him. "How is job search going?"

"I have kind of given up. Every job just wants my dad more than me. Jeongguk suggested starting my own thing and I think that's the only option left for me now. What about you, any new interests for you?" Taehyung switches the topic back to him because there hasn't been any major update in his own life to talk about it.

"He went on a date with this girl and she was actually ready to marry him there." Eunha adds in and they all chuckle.

"It's not my fault I'm so irresistible. Ladies want me the second they lay their eyes on me." Jin locks in and just smirks. "But yeah no, she wanted too much and I wasn't ready for all that. Then I went on a date with this guy. He was just...weird. He was talking about himself the entire time and didn't even let me speak."

"Sounds like someone I know." Taehyung jokes and Jin smacks his arm playfully.

"I am your hyung, respect me. I also texted your Jeongguk's friend, Jimin and he hasn't been replying too. I'm at a dead end. I haven't even gotten laid in a long while now. How has your sex life been?" Jin questions him and Taehyung almost chokes.

"Wait, Taehyung oppa, are you seeing someone?" Eunha questioned him.

"Not seeing, it's just casual. My sex has been great, you don't have to worry about me, trust me." Taehyung tilts his head with pride. Because he is getting it good.

"That good ha? I'm jealous now. Does he do other people too? Just curious." Jin winks at him and Taehyung just laughs. He hopes not because lately they have even ditched protection. Not a smart choice but god does it feel like he's in the stars.

"Oh my god!" Eunha suddenly screams and both of the boys look at her. She's staring at her phone as it rings.

"What is it?" Jin asks.

"It's Jeongguk, he's calling me. I will be back." Eunha says excitedly. She springs up from the couch and quickly walks out of the room into the balcony. Picking up his call.

Taehyung feels his stomach churning up. His vision gets a bit blurry before he focuses back. He tries to not make it obvious but his facial expressions are betraying him. He doesn't feel very well. There are a thousand questions running through his mind right now. Did he read it all wrong? Has there been something going on with Jeongguk and Eunha that he didn't notice? Are they closer than he thinks they are?

The biggest question of them all is if he was just jumping through hoops regarding their relationship and Jeongguk didn't even feel half of what he has been. The act of service, taking care of him was all that just for the sake of sex? Taehyung is losing his mind right now.

"Hey, are you okay?" Jin puts his hand on his shoulder, he is just as surprised as Taehyung by the call.

"I am fine, why wouldn't I be?" Taehyung replies with a fake smile.

"It's bothering you, Taehyung. I know it is. Your face fell so quickly the second she said Jeongguk's name. You didn't like that." Jin read him like an open book.

"It's just a phone call. It's not that serious." Taehyung was convincing no one, not even himself.

"You do not know that. They have been texting back and forth a lot and she never shuts up about him so things have been progressing in some way for her to get hope. Are you sure you are really okay with this?"

"I am fine, hyung. We can see other people if we want you to know how our situation is. If they have something going on then I can't stop them. I have no right to. So just drop it?"

"You have every right to. Contact or not, you are still legally married to him, you are still his legal husband. You have every right to question him. Especially with this friends with benefits situation you have going on. If it has gotten sexual, you should know if he's sleeping with only you or other people as well." Jin tries to make him think deeper about it. Taehyung turns his face away, biting his lips because of his nerves.

"He said we can stop the friends with benefits situation if any of us get involved with someone else romantically. So he won't do that to me without telling me first." Taehyung says to him. It's bothering him so much, he feels like throwing up.

"Taehyung. I don't think you realize your feelings right now. I think you have grown infatuated with him. Setting him up with Eunha is like the worst scenario ever. You have some feelings for him, whether you like it or not. Tell me, has his behavior changed in any way? ever since you guys started this whole sex thing."

"...Yes. He has gotten nicer, he tends to my every need and he acts more like..."

"Your husband. An actual husband. I never believed in sex with no strings attached thing because that's just basically not possible if you ask me. Something that is physically and intimate, it's impossible for feelings to not change. For the feelings to not develop. So take my advice, be honest with him and maybe give it an actual chance." Jin informs him and Taehyung still avoids eye contact.

"That's stupid." Taehyung says as his eyes fall on Eunha in the balcony. She has the biggest smile on her face, she's giggling and laughing. It's annoying him how happy she looks on the phone right now.

"What you both are doing is stupid. Taehyung, just think about what I said okay? I know it must be hard to come to terms with it but from what I can see, it's your reality." Jin presses his finger on Taehyung's chest. Finally looking him in the eyes.

"I think I need a job. Being around him is making me delusional and somehow I have given you the same idea. It's because I have nothing to do that all my focus is on him. It's really not that deep hyung. Don't worry about me, I will be fine." Taehyung ignores it all again and Jin sighs.

"Do whatever you seem fit, tae but you know there is some truth in what I said. I will drop it but only if you promise to think about it."

"Fine, I promise. Now can I get something to eat? I haven't eaten anything today because I wanted to have the dishes your amazing talented chef has made."

"You are not ever getting him, Taehyung. His magic hands will always be mine." Jin says to him and Taehyung just laughs. "I will tell him to set the table." He quickly gets up from the lounge and walks over to his kitchen.

When he opens the door to their place, a heavy feeling burdens his chest. What Jin said to him stuck to him and he just cannot get it out of his head. Does he really have developed feelings for Jeongguk? without realizing he dug himself a deeper hole. A hole he cannot get out of so easily.

It's Jeongguk's fault isn't it. He had to suddenly switch overnight and start being nice to him, treat him like a boyfriend would. All those sweet words that confused Taehyung. They weren't supposed to do this, it goes against the contract too. Taehyung wants to pull his hair out of his head. While he is so conflicted there is Jeongguk out there probably texting and laughing with Eunha.

Walking into his lounge, he sees Jeongguk with some food on the table. He had some fried chicken from Taehyung's favorite place and some sort of curry next to it with some rice. His footsteps alerted the man who immediately turned around to face Taehyung with a big smile.

"You are back right on time, that's good. I ordered some dinner for us because I didn't feel like cooking today. I also got some non spicy kimchi jjigae for you because i know you cannot handle the normal spice level. Come sit before it gets cold." Jeongguk tapped on the spot behind. Taehyung just gulped and walked over to sit next to him.

Jeongguk started to put some food on his plate and then started to eat himself. Taehyung stared at the food in front of him. He isn't really that hungry but the food does look really good and it's a nice gesture from Jeongguk that is suddenly melting his heart.

"Are you not going to eat?" Jeongguk asked in between chewing his fried chicken.

"I kind of had a really big lunch at Jin hyung's place so I'm not that hungry but I'll still eat because how can I reject such delicious food." Taehyung says before picking up one piece and taking a bite of it. The flavors bursted in his mouth. It was so good.

"Hey, you don't have to force yourself to eat. I can just put it in the fridge and you can microwave it later." Jeongguk suggested and Taehyung immediately shook his head.

"No, no I will eat. I am a little hungry. So let me okay, you focus on eating too. Don't worry about me." Taehyung says to him before eating again. He doesn't say anything more as he feels they have reached a dead end with this conversation.

For the next few minutes, both of them are just eating in silence. Jeongguk put on some Netflix show on the TV for some background noise because it was getting too awkward at one point. There is some weird tension in the air that he cannot understand.  Taehyung isn't his usual self today. He is less bubbly and just looks a bit upset.

He wants to ask but he doesn't to poke where he isn't allowed to. So he just eats in silence, not bothering him until he speaks first. After eating, Jeongguk takes both of their dishes and puts them in the kitchen. He comes and goes before all the plates are in the kitchen. Taehyung is still sitting there, deep in his thoughts. It's so obvious something is bothering him and Jeongguk wants to know. He wants to know so he can ease him. Help him in any way he can.

So he sits down next to him, as close as possible and takes his hands into his own lap which takes Taehyung by surprise. "Baby, Is something bothering you?"

"No, why would you think that?" Taehyung is suddenly defensive and Jeongguk is the one taken back.

"I...you look troubled. You haven't been your usual self ever since you walked in through that door. Did something happen at Jin's place?" Jeongguk questions him and Taehyung wonders if this man is being for real right now. He should know right? there's no way he doesn't.

How could Eunha have not mentioned him at all, how does he not know that Taehyung was there when Jeongguk called Eunha and had that long call with both of them just laughing. It bothers him so much.

"Shouldn't you know? what are you doing, Jeongguk??" Taehyung asks him and Jeongguk blinks in confusion.

"I don't understand." He responds blankly, Taehyung takes his hand out of Jeongguk's lap and stands up.

"We need some sort of break from each other. All of this is getting too much for me. I don't know what's happening anymore." Taehyung says to him as he throws his hands in the air. Jeongguk gets up too.

"Taehyung, take a deep breath and please tell me what's going on? taking a break from what? our marriage?"

"Yes. We have complicated it too much, Jeongguk. The lines are blurring and I don't want to stop you from finding something meaningful because of me. So let's take a break, you do your thing, I'll do mine."

"Taehyung, can you just tell me why you are suddenly being like this? meaningful what? a relationship? you know I don't do all that."

"Then what are you doing with me!?" Taehyung exclaims and Jeongguk goes silent. He feels like someone just hammered his brain.

"I-what- wait we are different, Taehyung. This is all different from normal relationships. I thought our arrangement was convenient for both of us so why are you suddenly so against it??" Jeongguk asked him, Grabbing his arm to pull him closer.

"I met with Eunha today at Jin hyung's place. She kept on talking about you the entire time I was there. She was in a way belittling our relationship but I didn't care about that. I was more bothered by the fact how much she was into you. I was bothered when she got the call from you and she was there in that fucking balcony for so fucking long just talking to you. That scares me, Jeongguk." Taehyung confesses to him with full honesty.

Jeongguk stared at him in surprise, he looked down on the ground contemplating what he just heard. "Eunha and I aren't serious. We are just talking, nothing more nothing less."

"Do you like her? you told me you didn't. You fucked me in your car after I mentioned you liking her the first time around. What was all that about?"

"I don't get what you are asking me right now. I do think she's attractive, I don't have any feelings for her. Like I said, We are just talking, Taehyung, it's not that serious. It never was. Are you...Are you jealous right now?" Jeongguk asks him. As if there's a slight hope for him.

"I think I am. I am so fucking jealous I wanted to rip her apart when she talked about you in a flirty manner. I wanted to call you and yell at you for even entertaining her." Taehyung presses his finger on Jeongguk's chest as they are standing so close to each other. "but then I realized I have absolutely no right to feel like this or stop you from doing what you want. Because we are not dating, we are in an arranged marriage that will be over in a two or three months. and that bothered me, Guk. I don't want to get sucked into this deeper because in the end, I know you would never be able to give me what I want."

"Why don't you try me?" Jeongguk whispers, their faces are inches apart. Their breaths are falling on eachother. Taehyung thinks about it and then he looks away.

"I want something that will last forever. I want a relationship, Jeongguk. I already have...some sort of feelings for you and if we continue what we are doing. I think I will just fall deeper and if I do that, you won't reciprocate. You cannot be in a healthy relationship for more than a month and I don't want that. So it's best that I distance myself. So you can focus on your flings and I can come back to real fucking life and stop daydreaming about a life that won't exist in two months." Taehyung answers him and he realizes how right Jin was. It bothers him how it didn't even take a day to prove every single thing Jin said to be right.

Jeongguk doesn't know what to say. He is speechless. Taehyung got him there, what he said was true and Jeongguk has nothing in his defense to say to him. He bites his lips nervously. It doesn't leave a good taste in his mouth. He wants to stop him but he knows that would be so selfish of him to do so because can he really give Taehyung what he wants?

"I will sleep at Jin's tonight-"

"No, no, don't leave. This is your home, so stay okay? I will leave for the night. I am sorry for putting you in this position and I am really sorry for not even being able to respond back properly to provide you with the security you deserve. I wish I had a better answer right now but I don't because it's all just so much to digest. So give me time, I will think about this and then we can sit down again and talk about this with a better conclusion. I'm really sorry again."Jeongguk apologizes to him again and again.

Taehyung just smiles. He crossed the room, his gaze never leaving Jeongguk's, each step bringing him closer until they were mere inches apart.

Without a word, he reached out, gently wrapping his arms around him. Taehyung melted into him, his hands resting on his chest before slowly sliding around his back, pulling him closer. His warmth enveloped Jeongguk, a silent promise of safety, of home. He could feel his heartbeat, steady and sure, as though it was in sync with her own.

His cheek pressed against his shoulder, and Taehyung breathed him in, the familiar scent of him calming his racing thoughts. Jeongguk held him tighter, as if afraid that letting go would mean losing this moment. Neither of them spoke; they didn't need to. In the silence, in the press of their bodies, was everything they had been too afraid to say.

His hand moved up to gently cradle the back of Taehyung's head, his fingers tangling in his hair. He closed his eyes, sinking deeper into the embrace, Taehyung's fingers gripping the fabric of his shirt like it was the only thing keeping him grounded.

And for that brief moment, the world outside ceased to exist. It was just the two of them, wrapped in each other's arms, hearts beating together in perfect harmony. But all of that needed to be over. So Taehyung pulled away immediately.

"You have nothing to apologize for. It's a crazy situation that even I couldn't predict. Text me when you are ready. I will be looking forward to seeing you again even if that means it will be for the last time. Don't stray away from Eunha because of me because I don't think I can give you what you want but I know she can." Taehyung tells him and Jeongguk feels like he's suffocating. They both walk to the door, as Jeongguk puts on his shoes.

"So you want me to pursue her and not think about you? you said you liked me."

"I am not sure about my own feelings right now, Jeongguk. She is, she is interested in you. Maybe try having a relationship with her and forget about me. Me liking you isn't right."

"It's not as easy as you make it sound."

"Maybe but I just don't want you to make any decisions because of me. Think about what you want because even I am not sure what I want anymore."

He takes one last look at Taehyung and doesn't say another word.He's so beautiful, Jeongguk wishes just one last time he could kiss him again. He harbors that wish deep inside his heart before he leaves through the door. Hopefully the night alone will help him get through this nightmare.

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Also guys I know I didn't warn you guys but this book is like almost at the end, there's like very few chapters that are left. I think about 3? 4? yeah then we are done with this book😭.

I wanted it to be a little longer but I don't think I'll be able to drag it because the plot will be weirder that way but also I just don't have time
:(( I'm so busy and I want writing to be enjoyable rather than a burden so that's why I am ending it sooner.

We can meet again whenever I write my next book 💗 or you guys can read my other books I'm always reading your comments it's so fun.
Hope yall liked it.
-K