I sigh after writing everything down in my journal. It feels good actually, Judy's idea worked. Well you people must be confused as to who I am, so let me introduce myself.

I am Maira Collins. 17, living in a city called surprise. Yes I do, its not a made up name. It's in Maricopa county in the state of Arizona.

Judy Williams is my best friend. It was her idea to start writing everything down in a journal because she told me it may make us feel better.

It does feel better. I feel light as if I don't have any weight on my shoulders. You will think why do I need to write in my journal right? Well its all because of my family and the people around me.

Growing up with my family has been nothing but a very bad experience. You'll think I am mad. Right? Who says having a family is bad but for me it is.

Well I have an alcoholic father and a mother who ran away with some other man leaving me alone. Well I actually can't blame my mom because dad is abusive. He used to beat the shit out of my mom everyday for small mistakes.

Eventually my mom got tired of this and ran away with some man she met at her workplace. But she left me. She didn't even think about how I will live with a man like this.

After my mom left, my dad started beating me. First it started with a hard slap on my face because I didn't wake up early and then it turned to getting beaten by a belt all over my body for not coming home early. I am not just harassed at home but at school too.

I was the freak of the school, nobody talked to me except Judy. And there were many people who bullied me including the two most popular bitches in the school. They used every single opportunity to make my life hell in school.

And to top this, I have a boyfriend. His name is Rick Smith. He's abusive and overpossessive.

We met online and fell in love. Rick was not like this in the beginning. He loved me so much, cared for me so much but then he changed and after sometime I got to know his real side. His sadistic side.

One day we had a huge argument. He wanted to have sex but I had to study because there was an exam tomorrow. In the middle of the argument, he stood up and left. I thought he left me but I was wrong, so wrong.

Now I wish that he never came back that day. But he came back. He came to me an hour later, slapped me so hard that I fell on the floor and raped me. He told me that I was only His and he can do whatever he want with me.

We have made love before, but this was so horrible and it made me feel disgusting. That day he lost all my love and respect that I had for him.

When I told Rick I am going to break up with him, he blackmailed me that he'll get me arrested for breaking, entering in his house and stealing his money.

He could do that because his dad was a very rich business man and my dad was a small factory worker. So who would believe me? A poor factory worker's daughter and the school's freak or the businessman's handsome son?

As the days went by the torture increased. But one fateful day, everything changed in my life for the worst.

And I wish I could take it back. It would have just stopped if I wouldn't have agreed. But destiny had a different plan for me.