Song: Further drive- Blue October (So love this song...if you can listen to all of it...the lyrics and music are amazing!!!)

It's been a month since we told my dad goodbye...three months now she has been in a coma. Meagan moved out of the house to move in with my mom. I tried to talk my mom into moving in with us but she wasn't having it. Said she didn't want to leave her house something about too many memories was there and she if she gave it up it would be like giving everything else up. They still come over during the day to check in on Scarlett but it's not the same...the house is usually pretty quit and not having a baby in the house is for sure making a huge difference.

Two days after telling my dad bye, I go back to the club and invite Nicole into my office. This time I am sober. I motion for her to sit down and I stand on the other side of my desk, not wanting her to think something is going to happen between us because it's not going to happen. She has little silver circles on her nipples and has on a g-string. I should have told the guys to tell her that she needed to be fully dressed. However I just told them when she was done with her number on stage to come to my office. I try to look down and when I look at her I focus on the picture behind her. I jump right in, "About the other night...first of all I was shitfaced...and I should never have allowed you into my office."

She gives me this look. "Mr. Adler...no apologizes...it was my fault...I came on to you." She licks her lips and then ends with biting her bottom lip.

"I know...I might have been fucked up...but I do recall what happened." Parts of the night replays in my head and I can't believe she was almost in my pants...under my boxers.

"Oh...well the offer still stands...I'm sorry about your wife but I know a guy like you needs to still get off." She leans over and while her elbow is pressed into her knee...she takes her hand and sucks on one of her fingers as if that is going to make a difference.

I hold my hand out for her to be quite. "That's just it...I know you would love to get a piece of this but I still so happen to belong to Scarlett...regardless of her state I made an oath to her and I can't break that."

"It's not like we have to tell her." She uncrosses her legs and I have to look away because I can see everything. I turn my head as I grab her contract on the table. She stands up and struts over to the desk.

I stop her before reaching the edge of it and I hand the contract to her while trying to only focus on her upper half...her face that it. "I am letting you go."

She stops and places her hands on her hips. "Wait what...I am like the best fucking girl here...you can't be serious."

"I am dead serious. Nicole...it's in the contract. I am not allowed to have contact with any of my girls...look it's for your safety." I don't tell her that Scarlett had a say in the contract. Right after we got married we changed the contract and really she was right...it was for the best or all my girls would be dead.

"Safety my ass...you have wanted me for a while now. Don't act like you haven't. I watch how you look at me and the way you smile...I know you are thinking of ways to fuck me...so don't sit here and tell me all like you are going to hurt me....my safety seriously." She throws the contract down on my desk and walks around to my side. She starts to reach for my chest and I hold my hand out for her to stop.

"Look...Scarlett will kill you knowing that you came on to me and maybe even kill me for letting it happen."

"She is practically dead...hello hasn't she been in a fucking coma for weeks now...like she can really do anything to either one of us." She continues to bitch. "Hello are you even fucking listening to me...I want you Mekhi and you know you want me." She continues to keep trying to touch me and it is starting to piss me off.

I hold on to both of her wrist and push her hard making her almost trip over her own feet. What I should have done is backslap the shit out of her for talking about Scarlett.I only heard part of her ranting. I stop and look at her dead in the eyes this time. "You can either leave on your own or I will have one of the guys come get you. Again I am sorry for having to let you go."

"The fuck you are...you are just a fucking asshole." She storms out the door and I go over and shut it behind her.

I go back over to the bar and fix me straight whiskey and down it in seconds. She is right about one thing...I am a fucking asshole. I never should have let her get that close to me and it was my fault for making her feel that way. I don't think I could ever cheat on Scarlett. And I am saving her ass because if Scar was to find out that she was trying to fuck me...she would for sure kill her without even second guessing it. I wait till I know she has officially gone before leaving. When the coast is clear I head out and the only thing on my mind is Scarlett.

 I'm home a little earlier than usual and when I walk in the nurse is sitting beside her reading a book."Oh...Mr. Adler you are home early. We were just finishing up the chapter." She holds the book up for me to see.

"How is my girl today?"

I watch as she places the bookmarker in the book and closes it before glancing over at Scarlett. "She is doing fine. Would you like me to leave early today?"

"Yeah...you can. I got it." I wait for her to leave and I walk over and sit beside her. I take her hand and hold it in mine."

There is a voice behind me, "You know Mr. Adler...you should talk to her more often. I believe she can still hear everything around her. Might be nice for her to know that you are still here."

I look over and smile at her as she grabs her coat and then walks back out the room. I look at Scarlett...I do come in here and talk to her at times more in the beginning but not so much lately. I still climb in bed with her and lay my head on her chest just to make sure that her heart is still beating. I mean the machines tell me that it is but I just have to hear it for myself. I hold her hand in mine and bring it up to my lips to kiss it softly.

I start out with a whisper. "Scarlett...baby I am still here. I would give anything for you to just open your eyes...I need you to come back home. So much has happened in the past few months...I don't even know where to begin. I told you already that we went down to Mexico...we killed them all. You would have been mad that you did not get to go. However we lost my dad. I'm not sure his exact role in all of it...but I know he had something to do with it. I don't think he ever meant to be involved with any of it and he fought for you baby...he went down there and stood up for you. I know you will still never forgive him for what happened to your mom...but in the end he did care for you." I run my hands through my hair and stand up and walk around the room.

"I...I need to confess to you...and I will again when the time is right. I fucked up baby. I really fucked up. I got drunk and I mean shit face plastered and Nicole at work came on to me. I was almost about to do it...I was but I stopped because all I can think about was you. I thought of you laying here and dammit...I fucking love you Scarlett...I love only you. I will never have sex again...I will never look at another woman...shit...I can't believe I let her get as far as she did." I look over at her lifeless body just laying there stiff...with her eyes still closed. "I fired her...you would have fired her...hell you would have killed her and still might when you find out the truth."

I walk over towards the bed and climb in the bed with her. I lay down next to her. I lift her up so that she can rest in my arms. "Baby...I love you. You got to believe me when I say that I will never stop loving you. Without you I am nothing...I will be by your side to the bitter end...and when it is time I will die right along beside you." I kiss the top of her head.I know that will happen...I know the moment she passes I will take my life. I will be with her because without her I would be so fucked up. She is my everything and as I lay with her in my arms...I fall asleep holding her close to my heart.