Song: Hold me while you wait by Lewis Capaldi

I arrange for her to have her own room on the top floor for now. I had wanted to take her home but the doctors suggested that I needed to wait till after all the swelling has gone down. They are afraid to send her home so early even if I do hire a private nurse. It's been almost a week and I can't seem to leave her side. I have a bed in the room with her as well and it kills me not to just lay beside her all night. During the day I will snug up next to her. I hold her hand and talk to her to let her know that I am there with her. If I only knew if she actually was able to hear me, they say people can while in a coma and if that is true I will never stop talking to her.

My parents have only been by once this week. Meagan swings by every day and brings Rylan, hoping that if he coos loud enough that she will hear him want to wake up to see him. When she does come by that is when I will step in and take a quick shower. I don't want her to be left alone at any time...because when she wakes I want someone that she knows to be there.

The guys have come by a few times as well...even Atticus. I know he never meant for any of this to happen to her but it did. I'm sure I will be able to forgive him one day...but not any time soon. Today I am massaging her body. I cup her foot in my hands and massage the bottom and between her toes. I work my way up one leg and then do the other leg. I start on her hand and they have a chill to them. I try to warm them up. When I get to the second hand, my hand glides over her wedding ring and I lean in to kiss the top of it. "I love you Scarlett...if you can hear me....please wake up baby...I need you." I kiss it again and blink the tears away. Funny how a woman can make a grown man cry like this.

There is a knock at the door and Dr. Blake walks in. He walks over with a soft smile. "Good afternoon, Mekhi how is our girl doing today?"

"Same as always, nothing has changed." I frown and look down at Scarlett. They still have all the bandages on and all you can see is her swollen eyes. Her nose and mouth are covered by the machine to help her breath.

"I need to take her down to have some test run...jus to see if the swelling is going down."

"Yeah...alright." I walk over to her and pick up her hand. I lean in to kiss her cheek...well the bandage that is. "I will be right here waiting for you when you get back alright....I love you babe."

"We might be a while...maybe you should get some fresh air, go take a walk etc...I can text you to let you know when she will be back." I shake my head no and he places his hand on my shoulder. "Mekhi...I'm not asking you to do; I am telling you to do now go."

I huff and feel my eyes start to tear up so I walk out of the room before it all comes rushing out. As I am stepping into the elevator my mom is coming out. "Oh...hi sweetheart I was just up on my way to see Scarlett."

"They are running some test on her; doctor told me that I need to get some fresh air."

"Oh." She looks down and then up at me. "Well let's go outside then I could use a nice walk."

I grit my teeth. It's not that I don't want her to walk with me it's just I want to be alone. As we are walking outside she talks about things that are going on in her life and I know it is just so that I will get my mind off of everything. We find a bench by the pond and sit down."So...I have been rambling on...I'm so sorry. Mekhi how are you doing?"

"I'm alright." I look down at the ground tying not to look at her in her eyes.

She always knows when something is wrong...then again she is my mother. She reaches out to grab my hand and waits until I look up at her. "Mekhi...I know when things are troubling you I'm your mom for Pete's sake...you can talk to me. I know this is difficult for you right now but Scarlett is a very strong woman she has been through so much and has always pulled through."

The whole time she is talking I can fill my jaw twitch...there is a small lump in the back of my throat, not to mention the stinging sensation in the bridge of my nose. I don't want to cry in front of my mom. However the moment I open my mouth the fucking tears come. "What if she doesn't make it though...what if she never wakes up? I can't keep her on that machine forever. And if she does wake up...what if she can't move at all...what if she is not her anymore?"

She pulls me in and holds me. "Sweetheart you have to have faith that everything is going to be alright. And when she wakes up we will have to just see where she is physically and mentally...she is still your wife and always will be."

"I know...I can't let her die there in that room she needs to be home with me. If she is going to die she needs to be somewhere that she loves and that is at home."

"So let's take her home."

"We have to wait till the swelling has gone down and then the doctors will give the ok."

"Well...let's get back up there and see if they are done with all the test." She stands up and waits for me to stand beside her before we walk quietly back to the room. She is back and the Dr. Blake is waiting there beside her with her chart in his hands.

He turns to me and shakes my hand again and then he shakes my mom's hand. "It's good to see you Mrs. Adler. You have an amazing caring son here. I will say he refuses to leave her side."

She looks over at me with a tender smile. "Yes...I will say he is a caring young man. So doctor do you have the results back?"

"Oh yes...the swelling has gone down tremendously. I know you want to take her home but I would like to keep her one more night. Not only that but I would like to take her off the life support and see if she is able to breathe on her own." I start to reject but he stops me before I can get a word out. "In the meantime...you need to set up a room for her at home. You also need to get a nurse that will be able to care for her needs in case something happens."

"I can have it set up within the hour."

"I don't doubt that at all." He smirks. "Look Mekhi...she needs a special bed, she will special supplies and the machine...you do realize this is going to cost a fortune?"

"I don't care how much it will cost. I want her home; she needs to be there not here."

"I see...I will have the release papers ready for you...in the morning." He nods and walks out the door.

"Shit! I just want to take her home." I slam my fist into the back part of the chair.

My mom's hands grab the back of my shoulders. "And she will be home tomorrow...we have a lot of things to put in place. You heard him...she needs a bed, all the machines, a nurse. I think we need to get started the quicker we have everything in place the sooner she comes home."

Later that afternoon the doctor comes back with another doctor and a few nurses. I watch as they take her off the life support machine. They watch her vitals on the machine as I stand back and hold my breath. I know they will not let her die. I almost cry when I see her chest rise up and down on it's own. The doctors look back and forth at each other and smile. Dr. Blake turns to me. "She is breathing on her own...that my friend is the best new yet."

I let out my lungs and finally start breathing myself. "We will continue to monitor her tonight. If all goes well she will cleared in the morning alright." He taps me on the shoulder before leaving with his team.

I walk over to her and grab her hand. "You're coming home baby girl...where you belong...you are coming home." I bend down and kiss her sweet lips.Then whisper... "Now if only you would just wake up."