Song: I'm not an angel by Halestorm

I hear it in his voice the moment the first word spills out, "What the fuck are you doing? I thought you said you were done...that you would give all this shit up."I don't bother looking up at him. I continue to work; hell he should know me better than that.

"He killed them...and he would have come for her eventually." I take out one of the kidneys and place it into the bag.

"Wow...seriously...shit, Scar did you even kill the guy first or did you let him suffer through this torture?"

I smirk...just a little. "What do you think?" I pick back up the scalpel and work on the other kidney. I really don't want to hear what he has to say.

"Scar...would you fucking stop...look at me. I thought you were done." He stands in front of me and I know he wants me to stop to look at him but I just don't want to.I look into the cavity of the body that lays out in front of me and shake my head. He doesn't understand he will never get it; he has no idea what it is like to have someone come after you because he is like one of those monsters.

 "He stormed into the house like a monster...he didn't have to kill any of them...and the step-mother...he....he had it out for her. He let his friends have their way with her before killing her. That's fucked up don't you think...and then he just forgot about Violet...like she never existed. It was his little sister...did you know that? How the hell...you just don't go killing your family and if you do... you for sure don't ever leave anyone behind."

"Scarlett...you can't go around just killing people."

I let out a laugh. "Yeah...ok...and what the fuck do you do?" He needs to watch what he says at the moment because I am not with it right now.

"I was an assassin...I got paid to do a job which by the way I am giving up because I told you I was done. It's not like I need the money and you know what...my life with you is more important. You said you were giving this shit up."

"I know...and I'm sorry but this is all I have ever known...it's in my blood...it's ingrained into my soul. I...I...don't think I can just give it up as easy as you did."

I watch as he walks to the other side of the body, stopping to grab a pair of latex gloves. He slides them on and then holds his hands out for me to hand him over the pancreas. "He is not the one who killed your family?"

I stop and blink away the tears before looking up at him. "I know...but it feels that way. We watched the cameras and the whole time I was thinking of the monster in my house."

"My father." He reminded me.

"Why didn't he kill me, Mekhi...he had to have known I was there...why didn't he just do it...like this fucking asshole...why did he keep her alive?" Parts of that night replay in the back of my head as if it all just happened a second ago.

 "I don't know...but I'm glad my father wasn't thinking clearly that night...and honestly I'm glad this piece of shit did the same thing...look she is safe now."

"I know...but you will never understand what it feels like to go through your whole childhood and be scared of the men in black...the monsters that lurk in the dark...and the scary thing is...is that you are one of them. I fell in love with a monster..." I turn and walk to the sink, placing the tools in to clean them up. I look down at my bloody hands. "God...I'm fucked in the head."

I hear him walk over towards me and he stands by my side. I glance over at him. "I'm fucked up...aren't I...shit I can't raise a little girl. I would screw up her whole life...she would end up like me. I...I can't do that to her."

"You are too hard on yourself...I think you would be great at taking care of her and if she ends up like you...is that really so bad because I fucking love everything about you." I give him this look and he smirks back as he takes the pliers from my hand to wash off. "Really I have cleaned a few times you know...this isn't my first rodeo."

 I watch as he rinses off the pliers and puts them on the drying rack. He turns and goes back over to the body and places it into the oven and shuts the door. He then starts cleaning the rest of the room. "Are you ready to go home now?"

"Not exactly...I have more to clean up."

He looks around the room. "What do you mean more...baby there is nothing here."

I walk out of the room and he follows me to the other room. The two guys are lying there side by side all gutted out. Blood drips from both of them onto the floor. I should have thought this through and collected the blood...I'm sure Atticus could have gotten a good price for it as well.

"Shit...Scar...are you fucking kidding me. You went all the way this time didn't you?"

It's the only way to go...do it right the first time around so that no one will come looking for anyone."I can't leave one behind. They all deserved to die."

He looks down shaking his head. "Well come on let's get this shit cleaned up." The whole time he doesn't say a word and I sense that he must be really upset with me. Maybe I should be upset with myself as well but I wasn't lying they all deserved to die.

As we are locking up the building he starts to walk over to his car. "I will meet you at home in about half an hour ok...first I have to stop by to get something."

"Ok..." I reach up and kiss his lips softly. "See you later then." I get in the car and wait for him to leave. I still feel like shit. I hate knowing that he is upset with me. I know I told him that I would go home to meet him but my mind and body has other plans.

 I drive along the highway and end up at the mansion...Virtual Desires. I debate going in but when the guy walks over to my door to open it for me, I step out into the night air. I find myself walking up the steps to the main door that is also opened for me before I even have a chance to knock. I walk in and the lights are dim and music plays softly in the background. A knock out blonde hands me a drink and then I see Taylor walking over towards me. "Long time no see...I thought after last time I would never see you again." He wraps his arm around mine and kisses me softly on the cheek. "What can I do for you today Scarlett?"

I raise my eyebrows and wrinkle my nose at him. "I was hoping to use the room."

He rubs his jaw like he is thinking about something but then shrugs. "If that is what you want...right this way." He guides me up the stairs. "I will need to let Elis know that you are here but I'm sure everything will be fine."

I turn to look at him. "Taylor...I don't want Mekhi knowing that I am here. Look is there any way to keep this between us for now?"His lips turn down and he hesitates for a second. He looks up and I know that he is worried about getting into some kind of trouble."Taylor...please...just let me have like fifteen minutes and then you can tell Else that I am here. Let me have this, please?"

 He hands me the suit with a grin on his face. I get undressed and put on the suit in front of him. Of course he turns and looks the other way as he sets up the machine or hell maybe he looks away now because he knows who my husband is. Either way it doesn't really bother me at he moment and I let him hook me up to all the cables and then he hands me the head gear. I wait for him to leave and then relax.

Within seconds I am running and then fighting my demons. They come at me and I fight them off one by one until he is there in front of me. This time I will win. He puts up a good fight. I hit the floor a few times and once I'm thrown against the wall, pain radiates through my spine. I get back up and go in for more. I'm not sure what happens but I blink and he is gone. I am in a dark room. I feel my body being pulled up and out in all directions. The whip stings against my back. I can't see who is punishing me but his voice is deep and malice. 'You came here for this...start counting.'

Another lick, my back arches in the air and I call out, 'two'. My tongue licks my lips and I taste the blood from hitting the floor earlier. I should have caught myself but I didn't. I gasp as the next blow comes and I feel my body jerk. His voice more cruel this time, 'you are not counting.'

'Three,' I feel the tears sting my eyes this time. By the time five comes around my body collapses to the floor.