i love listening to music because the noise drowns out all the other noise in my head

i miss being happy

like

consistently happy

i'm still happy enough. when i'm talking to friends, mostly.

but they're like

pockets

that i keep falling through

and i'm really just tired of it all.

In other news, I want to write something inspired by White Knuckles

Until the next burst of randomness,

-Rush and Nina