"Okay, start talking," Ruth said as we walked to the breakfast hall and I breathed out a laugh. "Come on, it's been a day already. What were you and the president talking about? What happened to your ankle? Tell me everything!" She held my arm and shook me lightly as she demanded for answers.

She's been at it since last night, bugging me for answers but I was too tired and still processing everything. "Why do you guys call him president anyway? I get he's the student council president and all, but you can still call him by his name" I mumbled and she tsked.

"How do I explain this to you?" She began and I gave her my undivided attention. "It's just a way of showing Respect. President really looks out for the students even tho he doesn't look like it, and he has a really good relationship with God. Have you seen him during prayers and the baptism of the Spirit? Can you see the way he carries himself? He literally radiates God! He's so wise too and..." She paused and took a deep breath, "do you get it? We just really respect him and even tho he's told us to be free with him, you just can't not respect a man like that!"

"Okay, one thing that I got from all you just said is that you have a crush on him," I said, and a big grin appeared on her face.

She flicked her hair over her shoulders and nodded, "so does every girl in this school. He and Gabriel are the boys that every girl has a crush on. They are both so anointed and fine."

I scoffed and shook my head, "I thought you didn't like Gabriel"

"I think he has a big ego that's all" she shrugged and wrapped her hands around my arms again, "I'm done, it's your turn now. Tell me what happened last night!" She whined and my lips tugged up in a smile.

"Fine" I breathed out and she clapped her hands excitedly.  "I don't know how to tell stories, so you'll have to fix my jargon to truly understand." She rolled her eyes and sighed dramatically at my words, but nodded nonetheless.

"Don't be mean!" I pouted and slapped her shoulders, "we're already here" I mumbled when I saw the door to the hall. A shudder rushed through my body as I recalled all that happened last night in this hall.

Everyone had turned to me the moment I walked in and soon mumblings and mutterings ensued. I didn't know why it happened, but at that moment all I wished for was the ability to turn back time. I never would have entered. But luckily for me, Ruth came to my rescue and dragged me away. Now, the thought of entering there again was unsettling

"Are you okay? You are tensed" Ruth asked and I immediately nodded.

"Let's go in, I'll tell you everything as we eat," I said with a forced smile and she tilted her head to the side and just stared at me. A few seconds passed and all she did was stare at me without blinking, but right as I was about to talk, she smiled and hugged me.

"Don't worry, I am here. If anyone makes you uncomfortable. Let me know, okay?" The corners of my lips immediately tugged up in a big smile and we both walked into the hall together.

This time around, it was as if we were nonexistent. No one turned toward us or made any comments as we walked in. I released a deep breath at the treatment and my tensed muscles relaxed, "this is more like it" I whispered under my breath and I heard Ruth laugh at me.

We both immediately walked over to the line for our food, and I used that as an opportunity to tell her everything that happened last night. By the time I was done, her mouth hung open.

"I'm not shocked at the healing because obviously God's good, but I'm shocked at the healing," she said after recovering from her shock and I chuckled nervously. I thought her shock was because of my lack of belief in God being a good God. "Wow, I can't believe this for real! God just honored his faith and request, imagine having enough faith for two!" She rambled as we dished out our food and settled on a random table to dining.

"Some people's relationship with God is just amazing!" She exclaimed and I chuckled nervously, "and the way he responded to you, bliss!" I immediately tensed up at her words, there it was. "Are you going to meet him as he said?"

I shoved a spoon in my mouth and shrugged. I didn't trust myself to speak. "You should definitely go, I'm sure you'll be amazed at what you'll learn"

"Aren't you going to talk about my thoughts and view of God?" I blurted out and her eyes widened for a split second before she relaxed and smiled. "You don't have to thread on eggshells around it, I'm already scared of what you think so please don't make me more nervous by avoiding it. Please"

"I have nothing against the way you think of God," she said and both of my eyebrows shot up. "Everyone starts somewhere with God. I know I did. I have nothing against how you are starting but it hurts so much that you call him a selfish God, because he isn't. But there's no need to fret over it. I know you'd one day come to marvel at his goodness and selflessness" a smile rested on her face when she was done talking and I found myself smiling as well.

"Thank you, Ruth. I'm going to meet with him later today for answers"

"Thank you. Enough with the sappiness now! it's draining my energy." She whined and waved her hand around, "let's eat and get to class. Have you picked your major?" She asked and my eyes immediately widened, oh no!

I immediately sprang up from my chair "I didn't pick it out and I haven't reported to the principal like she said" I whisper-yelled and Ruth's eyes widened as well, sending shivers down my spine. The first day and I already made a mess. "I'm going to do that right now, see you later" I immediately dashed out without looking, only to end up bumping into a wall.

I was caught off guard by the bump and I missed a step, tripping over my feet. I closed my eyes and awaited my fall, but a hand immediately wrapped around my wrist and held me up. "Be careful, new girl" a very familiar voice said and my eyes snapped open, only to see Zadkiel staring down at me with a smile on his face.

It took a while for me to process what happened, and the moment I did, I immediately jumped out of his reach which led me into falling on my rear and I hissed in pain. "You've got to be careful," he said, and stretched out his hand before me, but I ignored it and stood up on my own.

My eyes wandered around the hall and all eyes were on me, again. I let out a slow shaky breath and turned to Zadkiel with a tight-lipped smile, "thank you" I gritted out and immediately ran out of the hall with my head lowered. That was utterly embarrassing.

I shook my head and forced the thoughts to the back of my mind as I rushed back to my dormitory. Mrs. Kweenton gave me my keys without asking a lot of questions and I quickly rushed up to the room. I exhaled loudly when I saw the booklet resting neatly on the table, I immediately grabbed it and plopped down on my bed.

I had never given two thoughts about what I wanted to be in life. I didn't have the time for those types of dreams, I was just there in the corner patiently awaiting death. But here I was. "This is going to be hard" I whispered as I opened up the booklet. My eyes skimmed over the courses listed on it, yet nothing seemed easy for someone like me.

I had barely gone to high school. And to stay here, I needed something easy.

My eyes skimmed over the booklet again before I sighed and closed it. I glanced at the clock and it was 7:30, only 30 minutes to go and I haven't picked a major. "Just pick anything, Jophiel. We'd get by" I opened up the booklet again and let myself properly look at all the majors that were listed. After a while, a big smile immediately lit up my face I'd seen the course I wouldn't mind studying.

Actually, it was a course that I want to study. I picked up the form and with a little ransacking, I found a pen and began to fill it out. In a little while, I was done and I quickly packed up everything.

"Thank you, Mrs. Kweenton" I greeted as I dropped the keys on her desk and rushed off with a big smile on my face. For the past 19 years of my life, I never had a dream. I never foresaw myself doing anything in this life but all it took was to glance at a booklet for everything to change.

I had a dream now, I had a fantasy now but more than that, I had the urge to chase that. I'd been given an opportunity and I'm going to make the best use of it. I took a deep breath and smoothened out my dress once I stood before the principal's door. I did it again before I finally knocked and I heard the faint "come in" before I pushed the door open.

"Good morning, ma'am" I greeted as I walked in and she immediately looked up from the paper she was reading with a smile on her face.

"Jophiel, Good morning. I was just about to send for you, I see you are settling in well" the smile on my face grew and I bobbed my head happily, "that's good. I believe you are here to submit your form?"

"Yes ma'am." I immediately placed the form before her and she read through it with a big smile on her face.

"Psychology, huh?" She asked as she closed the file and I nodded my head, "it won't be easy to study psychology in this college, but if that's what you want. I'm happy for you, Jophiel and I know that you can do this. I'm cheering for you"

I grinned and nodded at her words, "thank you, ma'am"

"You can go now, first class for today is a general course. Your timetable will be relayed to you later in the day"

"Thank you ma'am" I gave her a curt nod and was about to step out when the news channel caught my attention. My eyes widened and I took a step back, what the heck were they doing there?

I stood rooted to the spot and watched the reporter interview her as she wore a pretentious smile on her face, while he stood beside her, as always.

"Is everything okay, Jophiel?" I dragged my eyes away from them at the sound of her voice, "do you know them?"

My lips tugged up in a forced smile as I shook my head, "no ma, I thought I did" I lied and faced the door, "I'll get going now."

Once I was out the door, I let out a shaky breath and gripped the wall for support. Shivers ran down my spine as I felt myself being dragged into that dark room, their faces staring down at me with malicious grins plastered on them.

My knees gave way at the memory and I tumbled to the floor, struggling to catch my breath. "Oh please Lord" I managed to whisper, and it instantly felt like I was engulfed in a hug.

"I AM is with you" I heard a faint whisper and tears welled up in my eyes. It was Yeshua, it was his voice.