Jane

Stomping up the stairs after arguing with my father, demanding I apologies to the people I shot and taking away my gun until I learn how to use it. I was furious and tired after everything that had happened today. All my father had to say was River was wherever he was and none of this would have happened. True I might have jumped to conclusions quickly, but my father didn't help the matter and it was reasonable or at least it seemed reasonable a while ago. I slammed my door shut loudly to make sure it was heard throughout the house. I continued stomping to my bed and flung myself on my bed grabbing a pillow and screaming into it because I was so frustrated. I heard the door open a few minutes later as I laid in my bed.

“get out of my room” I yelled as I sat up in my bed ferrous someone had the nerve to come in her first without knocking and second without permission 

“don't take that tone with me young lady” my mother said as she sat on the edge of the bed

“I'm not in the mood to chat now” I said sitting up against the headboard crossing my arms

“I don't give a damn, what was that freak out about, you have never been one to do something without just reasoning so I would like to know because I can't figure it out” she said looking at me impatiently, as I rolled my eyes

“nothing” I said grumpy because in truth I freaked out and lost it for nothing because I thought my father had ordered River death and clearly he didn't

“I got all night honey bun, when you're willing to talk I'll be sitting here” she said leaning back looking at her nails 

“I don't feel like talking now” I said glaring out the window

“I don't give a damn Jane, you are going to talk with me about this cause you shot two of the guards, threatened Tition and Tiffany bodyguard then locked yourself in her room. I'm not stupid Jane you didn't do all that for nothing, if you just wanted to chat you have a phone and computer” she said as I glared at my computer and picked at it avoiding the conversation

“it nothing really” I said hoping she would just leave it

“Jane, don't make me call River in here and make you talk, I'm sure he can get it out of you” she said as I glared at my mother ferrous “your threatening looks don't faze me little girl” she said as I looked away

“I thought daddy had killed River and I lost it okay, but clearly I'm wrong so it's nothing I lost it for nothing okay” I said angry 

“was it in guilt or something else” she said smiling as I scoffed at her, getting off the bed heading for the bathroom

I slammed the door, turning on the water to fill the tube with water, I really need to have a few moments alone and relax. Pouring in lavender-scented bubble beads, I waited for the water to fill the tube and stripped off my clothing. Bubble baths are such wonderful things they're super fun as a kid to play in and marvels to relax in as adult. I laid there for a moment as I thought about my mother's words. She really knows how to get under my skin when she needs to. Of course she was correct about her assumptions, but I was furious with myself that she was correct. It's true I flipped because I thought my dad had ordered Gino to kill River for what happened, which was horrible unfair. I also hated the idea that River was gone and I wouldn't ever see him again, true he drove me up the wall a majority of the time, but it was kind of nice. Everyone usually just wants to be my friend and always does whatever I want them to do. But River doesn't, he doesn't even want to be my friend let alone do what I want him to do.

I tried putting my mother out of my mind as I laid in the warm tropical scented bubble bath trying to relax. It did work I almost drifted off to sleep and decided it was time to get out mostly because the water was starting to turn cooled and was no longer relaxing. I climbed out almost regretting it as the freezing cold air nipped at my buddy and I grabbed quickly for a towel. Wrapping it around myself quickly feeling better still slightly cold at the exposed legs and arms. Fixing my hair into a messy bun I walked out hoping my mother was gone. She was, yet I was not pleased to see River lounging on my bed, not only lounging, but lounging with his shoes on. My relaxing bath was for nothing as I instantly became irritated. What was it, let just walk into my room day without permission day.

“Get out of my room” I said glaring as he finally opened his eyes and smirked 

“na, your bed so much more comfortable than mine” he said as he wiggled around in my bed

“I swear if you don't get off my bed and get out I'll...” I said threatening walking closer

“What Jane, go around shoot some more guards in trying to get some attention” he said as I wanted to scream, why on earth was I so upset that he might be dead, I really wish he was now “that's what I thought” River said sitting up so he was sitting on the edge of my bed

“I want to change now get out” I said crossing my arms over my chest turning away from him 

Angrily walking over to my closet area as I stalled waiting to hear his heavy footsteps leaving the room yet all I heard was his amused laughing as I stalled. That bastard thought I was bluffing, which I was, but I couldn't let him know these things. I grabbed some underwear and slipped them on with the towel firmly wrapped around me. Truthfully I was that scales to just drop the towel I wanted a little coverage. But after I had the underwear on I let the towel drop. I'm positive he could see anything in the mirrors reflection quickly slipping on a bra and spaghetti strap with some tight booty shorts. I turned around smirking, but it always is useless with him because he was just lying on my bed with a pillow over his face. 

A lightbulb went off as I thought maybe I could just smother him with the pillow, then I wouldn't have to deal with him. I slightly tipped to over toward the bed trying not to giggle to make him suspicious. Jumping onto my bed, basically straddling him as I grabbed the pillow pressing down hard as I felt his hand grab onto my hips. He practically flung me off without even trying as he grabbed the pillow out of my hands, and playfully hitting me with it as he laughed

“really Jane, trying to smother me” he said laying back down on the bed with the pillow behind his head

“not my fault maybe if you had just done what I asked and got out of my room! I wouldn't have been driven to take such drastic measures” I said taking the other pillow and trying to hit him not in a playful way, but he grabbed it mid-air and took it room me

“what are you bipolar?” River said as he put the second strolled pillow behind his head

“What? No, why are you in my room? You need to leave before I call my dad and make him make you leave” I said kind of confused not really sure what that meant, but I wasn't going to let him know that and hold it over me

“I'm here because clearly we  need to talk, what you did was way out of line, you can't go around shoot people who work for your dad Jane, or threatening people who are supposed to be your friends and allies, you understand that right” he said sitting up again

“why is everyone so hell bond on discussing this, look I made a little mistake and overreacted a bit everyone needs to just drop it okay” I said getting up really not wanting to discuss this and started heading for the door

“where do you think you're going” he said as I could hear him following me as I rolled my eyes

“well if you're not going to leave my room I'm going to leave” I said smugly walking toward the door, but stopped when I heard footsteps behind me “why are you following me” I said backing away as he stopped 

“well I've been with you for a week know Jane, I thought this was pretty clear by now, wherever you go I go” he said speaking slowly as I glared at him

“that only applies outside the house not inside” I snapped back, as he smirked

“sadly no, wherever you go I go princess, except for bathroom, but that should be obvious really” he said reaching beside me opening the door as I stood there fuming mad 

I turned quickly and stomped out the door where, my mother and River mother were chatting near the staircase. My mother smiled her knowing smile as I glared back at her even more irritated as I quickly tried escaping their present without argument, but apparently I am not  that luck of a person.

“Jane might I ask where you think you're running off to?” I heard my mother ask“I'm just going down stairs to get something to eat, why do I have to be interrogated and followed in my house” I said stomping down the stairs

“well maybe if you did go postal because you thought River was dead we wouldn't have to be paranoid about what you are up to” my mother shouted from the top of the staircase as I wanted to strangle her

I quickly tried escaping their voice but it was hard, why on earth would she shout what she had forced me to tell her to the entire house. Like really, especially with River walking behind me, I'm sure with a giant smug smirk on his stupid face. I walked straight into the kitchen, grabbing a bowl and the bottle of milk and placing it on the counter. I opened the cabinet that held the cereal boxes and stood their trying to decide what I wanted to eat, wasn't really hungry, but I had already made such a scene, and I wasn't about to just change my mind now.

“will you just chose already” I heard River say next to me as I glare at him with standing next to me 

“you can't rush these decisions” I said casually mostly just wanting to irritate him

“really, you got fruit loops, lucky charms, or Cheerios, on what planet is that a difficult choice” he said as I tried ignoring him, I had already decided I just wanted to stand there longer to tick him off

I reluctantly pulled out the box of fruit loops and turned back to where I had set my bowl down and glared at River standing next to a counter where two bowls set and gallon of milk waiting beside them. I rolled my eyes and filled my bowl and set it down as River snatched it off the counter and started filling his bowl as I tried ignoring him, but it was so hard not to be irritated by everything he did at this very moment. At least he did one thing correct and was nice enough to fill my bowl after he filled his and add the milk. He was clearly better at being a servant then a body-guard he sucked as a bodyguard. I snatch my bowl and head to the living room and sat down on the couch and turned the TV on to waste the rest of the night.

 I sat there for a moment alone satisfied that River had not followed me, I smirked and started flipping through movie channels to see if anything good was on. There wasn't anything spectacular on so I decided on a classic good movie The Sound of Music. But as I sat down the remote and picked up my spoon River had to come in and ruin my almost good mood by plopping, and I mean physically plopping down right next to me. His stupid big heave freakishness practical bounced me a foot of the couch, possible exaggerating, but he did make me spill some milk from my bowl onto my legs and I had just had a bath. I glared at him as I grabbed his shirt and pulled it toward my leg to whip the milk off

“hey what are you doing, go get a napkin” River said as he smack my hand, not hard, but I let go off his shirt, mostly because I was done

“no, beside you're the reason I spilled” I said as he took a large spoonful of cereal and I wanted to dump my bowl over his head “there are other pace to sit in the room” I said looking at the two armchairs that sat next to the coach.

“I know, but sitting her piss you off, plus it has a better view of the TV, you could always move as well of not be rude in it in the middle of a coach and on an end” he shoot back with food still in his mouth. 

“ I sat in the middle because I didn't want anybody sitting next to me, plus don't you have something better to be doing, I'm sure you can order a hooker online or something” I said taking spoonful of cereal as felt a satisfied smirk grew on my face as I felt the heated glare on one side of my face and the clicking of my mother shoe's walk into the room.

“what are you two up to down here, I'm also pretty sure senses your but is grounded you shouldn't be watching TV” I heard my mother say behind me and River sinkered besides me, he was a bi asshole 

“you said I was grounded from going out, I was never informed that included the television” I said irritated as I could just feel  River sitting there smirking next to me.

“huh, don't stay up too late” she said as the sound of her heels leaving  the room satisfied me as I went back to watching The Sound of Music, it was the senses at the start with beautiful images of Austrian landscape.

“so what are we watching something stupid and mindless” River said snippy as I rolled my eyes

“it is not stupid, it's the The Sound of Music, a famous classic movie, plus it is right up your alley it deals with historical events” I said in a mocking tone

“what's it about?” he said talking with his mouth full again at least he was almost done with his bowl

“it's about this nun who is sent to work for the military guy and basically take care of his kids, and they are so different, but she changes him and they fall madly in love” I said as I stirred the spoon around in my practically full bowl, I was getting a bad feeling in my stomach and desired it wasn't a good idea to eat anymore

“that doesn't sound like anything to do with history this is some stupid girl movie, plus nuns take a vow of celibacy, which means this story is completely wrong, is this a musical? Why must we watch this” he said as I started feeling dizzy.

The turning in my stomach became more clear as I closed my eyes leaning my head back trying to let the sickness subside, clearly eating a large bowl of sugar on an empty stomach was not sitting well with me. I started to feel shaky and I realized I still had the bowl in my hands and I was afraid I was going to drop it if I had to get up and run. I moved my arm in the direction he was sitting hoping he would just get the clue and take it and set it down, which clearly he did because within seconds the bowl was out of my hands and the distinct warmth of his body next to mine was gone. I heard the faucet turn on and off as I could feel vomit try to push its way into my throat, but I was fighting it. I just really hate throwing up because the second I did throw up I was end up throwing up a few more times because I was so grossed out and signed by the smell and it was just a circle that was nasty and not good. 

“slow deep breath Jane” I heard River say very close to me as I opened my eyes quickly to see him stand close with a wet cloth in his hand, which he quickly placed on my forehead, which truly felt amazing. I felt like I was on fire

“I...II... I... I think I'm going to be sick” I said slowly trying to move and 

“shhh, its okay, here lay down on your back and there is a trash can here just in case” he said sitting down with a pillow in his lap and he helped me move gently to keep me in control of the sick feeling.

In truth I did feel so much better once I laid down and after another 10 min the feeling was gone completely. I guess I should have known I would be punished in some way for my actions and being sick for attempting to eat something in over 24 hours. River mostly stayed quiet and gently stroked the side of my head and it made me feel more relaxed. It was a little awkward at first, but I just didn't care because as I focused more on his hand the sickness was almost completely faded. I reached up and took the cloth off my forehead as I looked up to see River watching the movie instantly. I rolled slightly so I could lay on my side and gently tossed the cloth on the coffee table in front of the coach. River stopped stroking my hair and moved his left arm to rest on my side, as he softly rubbed circles into my arms. It was nice feeling as I smiled and looked as   Maria was being introduced to the children and River started to laugh.

“what's so funny?” I said as  I watched the movie

“the little one, she reminds me of you when you were little, its cute” he said, I frowned at his words

“what would you know what I was like as a kid? I've only known you for a week and I'm pretty sure I was not her age in that span of time” confused he didn't know me when I was near that age” I said watching the movie, as he chuckled lightly

“no I've only been back for a week, you just don't remember when we were that young and we were friends” he said as I sat up slowly and looked at him very confused, and not sure if he had lost his mind.

“I have a very good memory River and we were never friends when we were younger I didn't even know you excited last week” I said as River shook his head

“your memory is wrong then you were pretty young when I left Jane, if I'm correct you were four possible five when I was sent away.” he said as I shook my head and could recall anything about ever knowing River 

“no, I would remember, you must be mistaken me for someone else” I said as he just shook his head

“nope, it was you, that ragged doll in your room is enough proof that we did know each other as kids” he said 

“its not ragged it is old and has sentimental value” I said as he chuckled 

“I know it is old I gave it you on your second birthday” he said as I shook my head

“no, my dad gave it to me, he told me himself” I said get frustrated, I almost

“sorry he didn't, I've seen the pictures Jane, plus I know you remember me you remembered the park where we use to play almost every day” he said as the small frame of hope that he might have been the friend I used to play with, but everyone said he didn't ignite that I never played with anybody at that park. But I was so sure there was a boy there and he just disappeared so suddenly

“the park we woke up at this morning” I asked trying not to be overly excited, as River nodded his head “where you the boy who saved my doll?” I said asking so carefully trying to show the hope that was growing inside me

“yeah, I guess I've always been protective of you, just now its my job” he said as with a smile, but it wasn't genuine, I didn't care I was so happy, I throw my arms around him, I always knew the boy was real and everybody said I must have imagined him, but I knew I had not he was real and that boy was River and he was back.

“Oh River, I knew you were real, I was so sure I didn't imagine you like everyone said” I said feeling so happy 

“they told you I didn't exist” he asked as I realized my arms and sat back, his hands still lingered just slightly as he had a confused look on his face

“yeah, the day you save my doll, you disappeared, I asked everyone where you were and they acted like they didn't know anything about you said you must have been an imaginary friend, but I knew you were real, I just knew, but now your back” I said happily feeling like a child again as I smiled at him, but River didn't seem as happy as me.

“it was probably for the best you have forgotten about me” he said not looking at me as he looked at the television wearing a stone face mask

“What no, you're where my best friend River, it hurt so bad when you disappeared without a word, I was along for years until I meet Tiffany and everyone else” I said lightly shoving him because I was angry he had said that.

“it is for the best really, I'm not that little boy anymore Jane, haven't been senses that day at the park. I can't be your friend either Jane I'm your bodyguard and that's my job and I will do my best at it and there is no room for friends in this job”

“what, your friends with mark, Kegan and the others that a bullshit lie River you just don't want to be my friend” I said grabbing the pillow from his lap and throwing at the other end of the coach and finding myself down away from him

“My friendship with them is different, they are also in a way my colleagues and working toward a common goal keeping all the girls safe and out of trouble”he snapped back

“and Kevin, what about him?” I said angry glaring at the TV

“Kevin is like a brother to me just like the rest of the guys, he also my band mate so it's still different” he said clearly frustrated

“you're in a band?” 

I sat up quickly as I heard his words and instantly felt lightheaded and dizzy as River grabbed my shoulder and moved the trash bin closer and leaned over me to grab the pillow and placed it back on his lap. I glared as he moved me to lay back down and as he leaned forward to grab the cloth again. It wasn't as soothing as it had been before as it was not cold and as damp as it had been, but it still felt good. I glared up at River who was watching the movie paying no attention to me. I wanted to grab the pillow and go back to the other side of the coach, but I was afraid I would get sick feeling again. So, I turned on my side ruffled to show my anger. I wished he never told me who he was, he had managed to ruin my most cherished childhood memory in matter of min. Plus I was going to have a long discussion about my parents lying to me. Why couldn't they have just said it was River and why they all chose to keep him hidden from me.

“I can't be friend with you Jane, it's too complicated in this world and I need to focus on keeping you safe, and it is hard enough as it is to focus on my job let alone to try to be friends like we were. Maybe after you married off and I have a different job a form of friendship can be made, but what we had as kids can never be again” he said as I felt him playing with my hair as I tried to just focus on the movie “that little boy died a long time ago, and all that left of him is the memories of who I used to be. It is probably why they wanted you to forget me because you would have expected the same type of relationship we used to have, but it can never be that way again, I'm sorry” he said and I felt like I wanted to cry,  but he was right River was different, then he had been as a kid 

He used to be sweet caring boy who was always smiling and laughing, and now he hardly ever did. On the rare occasion he wasn't mad or yelling at me it still wasn't the same, it almost didn't feel really like a robotic action that he was programmed to do. I laid there watching the kids in the movie learning to sing and tried not to think about the fact those kids could sing very well for never singing before. I must have drifted off to sleep some time after I don't really remember falling asleep I just remember watching the movies and how nice it felt to have River stroking my hair. I was something that always made me feel better scenes I was a kid, my mother did it often when I was upset, but River ways felt better perfect. 

I woke up to the sound of voices near me, I was very tired when I opened my eyes and could see my father sits in an armchair looking at the TV. A different movies was on and I wasn't sure what it was, but didn't really care because  was going to go back to sleep. Until I heard my father's voice, my eyes were still closed and I decided not to make it clear that I was half awake.

“hopefully once she gets used to you being around she won't fight you as much, her mother was the same when at first with our” he paused for a second and cleared his voice “with our marriage, she might fight that as well, but eventually it will blow over and she will accept things”

“it's only for her best interest, she will understand in time, I can handle whatever she try's to pull” River said and I noticed he wasn't playing with my hair and I kind of wanted to ask him, but they clearly were talking about me and me being noses really wanted to hear what they had to say

“good, thank you for dealing with the Canton boy, I've known about the boy and her relationship for sometime now, but couldn't really do anything because I need to protect my interest with his father, but in less than a day got rid of him, which is very pleasing.” I heard my father said as I became irritated and the fact my dad made River do his dirty work

“sir I'm sorry for not mentioning David her involvement,  I just need to get some kind of trust established with her to work with me instead of fight me, it was a hard decision to make, and I will tell you know scenes you already probably know from your resource that Jane and I are not dating, I just wanted her school peers to think this way so I didn't have to kill any stupid kids while I'm there.” I heard River say and wanted to slap him what was he doing, 

“yes, I figured as much, the press already assumes you two are in a relationship it's best to keep the facade going, but that all it can be is a facade nothing real are we clear” my father said in a dominating voice

“of course, would never dream of it” River said as my heart slightly feel this I already knew but it still hurt to hear

“good, take her up to bed and gets some sleep yourself we have some work I would like you to go with me with tomorrow senses your parents are away on other business” I heard my fathers say as the TV was turned off and I felt River lifting my head slightly as he got off the coach.

River arms slide under shoulders and under my legs as I was hoisted up and my head leaned against his shoulder. It was nice to be carried by River, I could hear my father walking beside us as we headed out of the room and toward the staircase. I was nervous for River carrying me up the stairs as it wasn't the safest he could drop me and I would be badly hurt. I heard me door open and footsteps continue off in a different direction. I was placed gently on my bed as the covers pulled up to my shoulders as I felt a warm breath on my forehead as River placed a small quick kiss on my forehead

“sweet-dreams Jane, and as a general heads when people are asleep they don't make faces when there eavesdropping on private conversations” he said as I opened my eyes and he stood there smirking

“you knew I was awake?” I glared at him

“yes, I saw you open your eyes, your dad doesn't, but you're not very good at pretending to be asleep, you should practice more” he said walking away as I throw a pillow at him.