MAHIR

It's been another two weeks,me trying to talk to her,meet her,but no one is allowing me to talk to her.I'm getting calls from my office daily,dad is coming and meeting me daily,trying to make me stop drinking and smoking.

But it's not happening.I don't see anything in front of me except this intercom,our fish bowl,my whiskey bottles,cigarettes,and Bela's dresses,
"Baby...I used to tie your blouse strings...slowly and you used to blush when I kissed you..now please come back",I spoke having my drink and caressing her saree cloth.

"Please baby..I'm sorry..I want you back..please..Bela..I love you,I need you",I sobbed hiding my face in her saree.

"Babies..please tell mommy to come back to daddy..I am sorry..daddy needs mommy..please babies",I said giving food to my fishes.

"Babies..my baby..baby I'm sorry..dadda and mumma dint knew that..you were with us..you were with mumma..and we..we lost you..I'm sorry baby",I cried sleeping on the floor.

"Bela...please..I'm sorry..baby..please tell mumma to come back to me",I cried.

I cried and cried sleeping on the floor for a long time.I opened my eye's when someone was shaking me,
"Mahir bhai..Mahir bhai get up",I felt someone tapping on my cheeks.

I slowly opened my eye's and saw Kuhu in tears,trying to wake me up,
"Ku..Kuhu...",I said weakly and she sobbed.

"Mahir bhai..get up..please",she said making me sit properly.

"Mahir bhai..no..",she caressed my face and hugged me.

I hugged her and sobbed,
"Mahir bhai..what have you done to yourself?"she cried hugging me.

"Kuhu...I'm sorry..tell Bela..I'm sorry..my baby..I lost my baby..my babyy...",I cried hard hugging her and she sobbed.

"Mahir bhai..please don't cry..please..look at me",she said cupping my face.

I looked at her and saw Yuvi helding Ruhi in his arms,
"Ma..mamuuu...",she smiled looking at me.

I got up and went to her,I took her in my arms and hugged her to my heart,
"Maamuu...",she squealed hugging me.

"Ruhi...my baby...",I cried helding her.

I just feel like I'm hugging my baby!

"Maamu..loves you so much..I love you baby",I kissed her cheek and cried hugging her.

"Mahir bhai..please don't cry like this",Kuhu cried hugging us.

I hugged them both and cried my heart out,
"My baby Kuhu..I lost my baby..or else even I would have a daughter like you..or a son..I lost my baby",I cried.

"Yuvi..",Kuhu called and Yuvi came wiping his tears and took Ruhi from me.

"Ruhi baby,you go and play with maamu,I and Mahir maamu should talk",Kuhu said kissing her.

Yuvi looked at me and took Ruhi with him,
"Mahir bhai...",Kuhu cried hugging me.

"Kuhu...my baby..I lost my baby Kuhu..I killed our baby...my baby..my son..my daughter",I cried slumping on the floor.

"Mahir bhai..no..you dint kill your baby..no..you dint",she sobbed kissing my forehead.

I rested my head on her lap and sobbed when she was kissing my forehead,
"I lost it Kuhu...I lost my baby..my Bela..I lost everything",I sobbed.

"No Mahir bhai..you dint loose anything,Bela babhi is still with you",she said and I sobbed.

"I was not at fault Kuhu..I was trying to prove myself innocent..but this accident..my baby,we dint knew that we were pregnant and lost our baby..I lost my baby..my Bela..she has left me..I lost everything",I cried helding her hand and she sobbed kissing my hand.

"No Mahir bhai..you dint loose anything.It was an accident..you or Bela babhi..no one did it intentionally.Don't talk like this",she said wiping my tears.

"We were already going through a problem because of K,I and Bela...things were way too bad in between us..it was coming to an end..but..she fell..she was in pain..pregnant..and my child..I lost my child,mine and Bela's",I cried.

"Please Mahir bhai..I don't know how to console you in this matter..but stay strong bhai..Bela babhi will come back to you.You are her home,she will come back to you,she is in a shock right now.But trust me..she will come back to you",Kuhu said wiping my tears.

"You met her?You met Bela?"I asked.

"No Mahir bhai,I'm coming here directly from the airport along with Ruhi.RJ couldn't make it,but I couldn't sit there when mom informed me everything.I will meet Bela babhi also",Kuhu said.

"You know Kuhu?Last week..I went to meet her in her cafe..her father...he dint allow me to see her..as if..as if I'm a criminal or a physco lover..she is my wife Kuhu..why am I not allowed to talk to her?In this crucial time..I need her..she needs me..we both need each other",I sobbed and she wiped my tears.

"They are thinking as her parents Mahir bhai.They are still seeing Bela babhi as their only child,but now she is your wife,your responsibility.I will go and talk to them,I will see how they will not allow you to meet her",Kuhu said wiping her tears.

"Kuhu..if you go to meet her..just..make her talk to me once..just once Kuhu..I'm suffocating without her..I need her",I cried helding her hands.

"Not just talking Mahir bhai..I will make you meet her.I will wait and watch how her parents will stop me from doing so",Kuhu said gritting her teeth.

"But Mahir bhai..first you should come back to our home.We can't see you like this.You stopped going to office,you are not eating and sleeping,sitting in front of this intercom and drinking this poison daily.Mom and dad are crying for you bhai..please come back to home at least for them",Kuhu sobbed helding my hand.

"No Kuhu..this house...it's the only memory I have of her..I can't leave this place and come",I said.

This house is my biggest memory with her,we made love in every corner of this house.This is not just a house,it's our home,made up of our love!

"Please Mahir bhai...listen to me.Mom is spoiling her health crying for you daily.They are not able to do anything..please bhai..come back to our home till babhi comes",Kuhu said.

"Even I can't stay without Bela..I'm not able to live without her...I can't come..I won't..no..I won't",I said.

"And her parents are not allowing me to talk to her..they are telling space.What space Kuhu?"I cried hugging her and she was rubbing my back.

"Don't worry Mahir bhai..I will talk to her,I will talk to her and come back to you today,I will",she said rubbing my back and I sobbed.

"I just want her back..I want my Bela back..please",I cried and she nodded.

Kuhu made me eat some lunch and left to Bela's house along with Ruhi.My dad,Vyom,Annu..everyone are trying their best to take me to office and make me normal.

I'm all over the headlines that,

'Mahir Sehgal stopped working'!

'The top model on a break?'

'Trouble in paradise for BEHIR?'

The customers in Bela's cafe saw me that day,they all saw how I was behaving,how I was dragged out of the cafe.And now it's all over the news.

But I don't give a fuck about what people think!

I just want my Bela to myself!

BELA

"Dad..now it's almost been a month.I'm doing good now,I want to go to my cafe",I said resting my head on his shoulder.

"No beta,not now.I'm taking care of everything over there along with Rehaan.You don't worry about it",he said caressing my head.

"But I'm feeling bored..I miss baking",I said.

"I know Bela,but these days..that place is surrounded by media,a lot.And I don't want you to face them..never,in this condition especially",dad said and my eye's watered.

Me and Mahir are all over the headlines nowadays.But this is not hurting me,because Mahir was always on the headlines for his achievements and now...now he is on the headlines because of me.

Roumers spread so fast like a forest fires,telling that I and Mahir are not together anymore.

Physically we are not together,but emotionally....

"Bela..did you take your medications?"mom asked coming towards me.

"No mummy..I forgot",I said and she was getting a glass of water for me.

"Mummy..",I gasped when she tripped and the water fell on me.

"Mummy..be careful",I said helding her.

"Be careful while walking Saarika",dad said and she nodded.

"Bela,you go and get changed.It's monsoon,you will catch cold",mom said and I nodded.

I walked back to my room and looked towards the balcony,it's raining.I closed the curtains and stripped myself in front of the mirror.I removed my bra and looked at Mahir's name on my chest.

"Mah...Mahir..",I sobbed touching his name.

He used to worship me like a goddess while making love,gently!

He lit a fire inside me and I never want it to die,it won't!

I slowly slid my hands to down and touched belly,
"Baby..you were here right?"I sobbed touching my belly.

"I'm sorry baby..I'm sorry..my baby..you were so little..breathing inside me..and I..I killed you",I cried helding my stomach.

"I'm sorry baby..I'm sorry",I cried helding my stomach.

"Bela...",my mom came inside and I cried looking at her.

"Mummy..my baby..he was here..",I cried helding my belly and she immediately closed my room door.

"Bela..shh..calm down",she said cupping my face and looking for a towel.

She took a towel and wrapped it around me and I was still sobbing,
"Mummy...see..my baby was here..and now..he's gone...my baby is gone",I broke down hugging her and she sobbed rubbing my back.

"It's OK..it's OK..calm down..take deep breathes",she said and I composed myself.

"First come here",she said making me sit on my bed.

She pulled out my bra and another top from the cupboard and came back.She removed the towel and was trying to make me wear a bra,
"Bela...what is this?"she asked looking at Mahir's name on my chest.

No one knew about this except me and Mahir!

"Mahir..my Mahir...",I sobbed covering my chest.

"Shh..OK..OK..it's OK,wear this",she said making me wear my bra.

"Mummy..Mahir..he is forever in my heart..and that's the imprint..I made it..I surprised him with this on our anniversary..only Mahir can see this..only he can",I sobbed caressing my chest above from the bra.

Even my mom was looking hurt,looking at me crying like this,
"I know beta..only Mahir means everything to you..I know..",she said making me wear my top.

"Yes,only he is my everything..but..my baby",I cried hugging my stomach.

"Bela..please baby..forget about it..and move on..please",she sobbed hugging me and I cried in her arms.

"My baby left me..how can I forget this mummy?"I sobbed.

"Bela..you are not infertile,you can become a mother again.Understand?"she said cupping my face and I nodded.

Me and Mahir...our baby...

We can have another baby,but loosing your first born is very painful.And now I and Mahir are not together since..it's almost been three months.

"Come,now take your medications",she said giving me my meds.

I took them and wiped my tears,
"You will come downstairs or you want to rest?"she asked.

"I will sit in balcony for sometime",I said looking outside.

"OK..wear some pullover and sit.Call me if you need anything and don't think about anything else",she said kissing my forehead and I nodded.

She left my room,I took my shawl and sat in my balcony,looking at the slow rain.Now it's almost been two months since I came to my parents home,leaving Mahir alone over there.

I wiped my tear and looked outside.I saw a car which looked like Yuvi's car parked near our gate.Maybe I'm just assuming,Mahir won't come here,dad won't allow him.

"Maammiii...",I heard a voice and turned back.

Kuhu and Ruhi were standing in front of me,
"Bela babhi...",Kuhu sobbed looking at me.

"Kuhu...",I ran to her and engulfed her in a hug.

"Babhi...I'm so sorry for what happened...I'm..God",she cried rubbing my back.

"Maamiii...",Ruhi was tugging at my pants.

"Ruhi baby..",I picked her up and hugged her.

"Ruhi...my baby",I cried hugging her.

I feel like I'm hugging my child!

"Bela babhi..",Kuhu sobbed hugging me.

"Babhi..come..sit here",she said making me sit on the bed and I sobbed hugging Ruhi to my heart.

"Maamii..I luvvuuu",Ruhi said kissing my cheek and I sobbed.

"I love you too baby..I missed you so much..so much",I cried kissing her.

"Mumma..mum...",she wiggled out of my lap and got down.

"Ruhi baby..walk slowly.OK?"Kuhu said and she nodded showing her incisors.

"Even Mahir bhai cried like this only,hugging Ruhi",Kuhu said looking at Ruhi.

I wiped my tears and looked at Kuhu who held my hand,
"Babhi..I'm so sorry for what happened to you..I'm sorry that I wasn't there for you that time",she said looking the the scar on my forehead.

"How are you feeling now babhi..these stitches?"she asked.

"I'm fine..that's OK now",I said.

"And I'm..sorry babhi..your child..this should have not happened to you",she sobbed and I cried hugging her.

"My baby Kuhu..even I was pregnant and I dint knew..I lost my baby",I cried.

"It's OK babhi...it was an accident..it was written in our fate and it happened..please don't think about it anymore",she said rubbing my back and I cried.

"My baby was breathing inside me Kuhu..and I dint knew..I was pregnant,going to become a mother..but..my baby left me",I cried.

"Your baby will come back to you babhi..he will come back",she said cupping my face and I sobbed.

I sobbed talking to her,she was in abroad all these days and came back today only.I told her everything that happened,K,Mahir,my accident...my baby,everything.

"But babhi..Mahir bhai is not at all good without you,it's been two months since you came here..now please come back babhi",she said.

I sobbed closing my eye's,I'm not able to agree to this.

"I can understand your pain babhi,I understand that you need time.But don't you think you need Mahir bhai also?"Kuhu sniffed helding my hand.

"I..I don't know..I don't know",I cried.

"And please,talk to Mahir bhai once,please Bela babhi",she said removing her phone.

My heartbeats were racing fast at the thought of hearing his voice,
"Bela..Kuhu..",I saw my mom coming inside.

"Kuhu beta..what are you doing?"mom asked looking at her.

"I'm calling Mahir bhai..babhi should talk to him",Kuhu said and my mom looked shocked.

"Kuhu beta..no..please",mom said taking her phone from her.

"Mummy..",I gasped when she took her phone away.

"Aunty please..give my phone back,Mahir bhai needs to talk to her",Kuhu said trying to take her phone.

"Kuhu beta please..I beg you,don't do this.Not at least now",mom said walking out of my room with her phone.

"Mummy..",I and Kuhu walked behind her.

I went to lobby and saw dad playing with Ruhi,
"Aunty please..give my phone back",Kuhu said.

"Sorry beta..please don't come to meet Bela if you want to make her talk to Mahir..please",mom said joining her hands and dad looked shocked.

"Kuhu beta..why can't you all understand?I will touch all your feet,please leave her alone for sometime,without him",dad said joining his hands and getting on his knees to touch her feet.

"Uncle please...",Kuhu stepped back.

"Uncle..you both are right in your place.But still you both are looking at babhi as your only child,but no.Now she has a family,her home..her husband.She is no more your responsibility after her marriage,it's all Mahir bhai.Mahir bhai is her everything..why can't you all understand that?"Kuhu shouted.

"Yes,I gave all her responsibilities to him,and what did your brother do?He kept hurting her emotionally,she kept begging him for his forgiveness..not realizing that she was pregnant and then..loosing her child",dad said and I sobbed looking the other side.

"She is not the only one who lost her child.Even my brother lost his child",Kuhu shouted and Ruhi was looking at her silently,just like my parent's.

"Maybe he did a blunder for not forgiving her..and he is suffering for that now.Now babhi is retaliating it,why are you all making him suffer like this?Is he a criminal?He is your daughter's husband,your only son-in-law,and you treat him like this?"Kuhu shouted.

"Dad told me everything that day,how you dragged him out of your cafe.You think he deserves all this?But he dint say anything except Bela Bela..,he kept waiting to hear her voice..and you all are behaving like this towards him?"she said.

"I'm telling you both once again,they both need each other.As her parents you have to understand that",Kuhu said looking at them angrily.

"I came here to meet my babhi and I understood one thing,she will become normal only after talking to Mahir bhai..you take her to any doctor..she won't become normal.She will become normal only after being with Mahir bhai",she said taking Ruhi in her arms.

"Kuhu...",I sobbed when she was ready to leave.

She halted and looked at me,
"I just want to tell you one thing Bela babhi,a relationship gets stronger when both of you are willing to understand mistakes and forgive",Kuhu said and walked away along with Ruhi.

I sobbed looking at my parents and went back to my room.I don't know what is happening around me..I'm not understanding anything.

I cried hugging my pillow and drifted to sleep.It was almost half past seven in the evening when I woke up,
"Mummy...",I spoke rubbing my eye's.

"Bela..you woke up.Get freshed,dinner is ready",she said caressing my cheek.

"Bela..don't think about what Kuhu said.She was hurt,that's why she spoke like that.Don't take it to your heart",she said.

I already took it to my heart,in a positive way!

I nodded sitting straight,
"Now get freshed and come down.I and dad will be waiting for you",she said and I nodded.

She left my room and I got freshed,I looked towards my balcony and saw it was still raining.I walked downstairs and saw my parents waiting for me,
"Look who woke up after a strong sleep",dad said and I smiled.

"How are you feeling now?"he asked kissing my forehead.

"Good",I said and sat beside him.

"Now have your dinner then I will apply ointment here",he said slowly caressing the stitches scar on my forehead and I nodded.

My mom and dad were trying to cheer me up while eating and my mind was still thinking about what Kuhu said,
"OK..so today Rehaan baked your favorite chocolate muffins",dad said giving me a muffin.

I smiled and took a bite of it,
"Your love for chocolate will never change right?"mom laughed and I smiled eating my muffin.

Before my marriages,chocolate was just a flavor according to me.And after Mahir happened to me,it's not just a flavor,it's a flavor of our love which is always at the tip of my tongue!

I completed eating and my dad applied some ointment on my scar.I and dad were watching television and mom was in kitchen,
"Bela..I'm getting a call,I will come back",dad said going towards balcony and I nodded.

I was watching Finding Nemo movie.Hope Mahir is taking care of our baby fishes over there.I wiped my tear thinking about it.

My mom's phone was buzzing,
"Mummy..you are getting a call",I shouted.

"I'm busy baby..see who is it?"she shouted from kitchen.

"Some unknown number mummy..",I said looking at the number.

"Answer it",she said.

"Hello..",I answered the call.

There was pin drop silence from the other side,
"Hello..Dr.Saarika Aanand's phone.Who is this?"I asked and there was a silence.

"Hello...hello..Mah..Mahir?"I spoke sensing him.

Mahir!

"Hello..Mahir?"I asked with a curiosity.

"Bela...",I heard his voice.

I sighed closing my eye's.Mahir's voice...I heard his voice,
"Bela who is it?"mom came back and I immediately cut the call.

"Who is it Bela?"mom asked.

"That..it was..a wrong number",I said deleting it from the call logs.

"Oh..give me the phone",she said and I gave her phone.

"Mummy..I will sleep..good night",I said and stood up.

"You want to sleep so early?"she asked.

"Yes..good night",I said and walked back to my room.

I closed the door and slumped down against the door.Mahir..I just heard his voice,
"Mahir..babyy...",I sobbed closing my mouth with my palms.

I sobbed thinking about him and I heard a knock on the door.I got up immediately and wiped my tears.I opened the door and saw my mom and dad standing outside,
"Dad..mom..what happened?"I asked trying to be normal.

"Nothing..we just came to check upon you.You had your meds?"dad asked.

"No..I forgot",I said and they both came inside.

"Come here..",dad said making me sit and gave me my meds.

"It's raining outside Bela..close the balcony doors",mom said closing the balcony doors.

"OK..now sleep and don't think about anything",they said and I nodded.

"Good night baby",mom said kissing my forehead and they both went out.

I locked the door and came back to my bed.I looked towards the balcony,it's still raining.I tried to sleep but I couldn't sleep.I took my shawl and sat in the balcony for sometime.

I was looking outside and I saw a black car parked near corner of our street.I blinked again and looked at it.

It's dark outside and it's raining,maybe I'm hallucinating.I walked back to my room and closed the door of my balcony.

I offed the lights and slept.

MAHIR

"I told her what I have to say Mahir bhai..I just hope she comes back",Kuhu said caressing my hair.

"Thank you Kuhu..now go back to home,mom must be waiting for you",I said and got up from her lap.

"Mahir bhai..I will go,but I have to say something to you",she said and I looked at her.

"I'm sorry that I couldn't make her talk with you..but..I took her mom's another number and came",Kuhu smiled.

They blocked my number from all the numbers.Bela's mom is a doctor and she carries two numbers,one is her work related.And Kuhu got her number.

"Kuhu?"I asked and she giggled.

"I stole her number..when I was shouting on them.I tried my level best and stole her number,use it appropriately Mahir bhai.I dint tell this to anyone",Kuhu said.

"Thank you..thank you so much Kuhu",I said kissing her forehead.

"Stop thanking me.OK I will leave now,I have cooked dinner for you,please eat",she said and I nodded.

She smiled and left.I went and sat in front of our intercom.I saw the fishes moving actively and I smiled,I gave them food and lit a cigarette.I know mostly they will not lift my call..but I won't stop trying.

I saw the number and dialed that number,
"Hello...",my eye's bulged when I heard her voice.

Bela..she..it's her,she picked the call.

"Hello..Dr.Saarika Aanand's phone.Who is this?"I heard her voice and my body shivered.

Her voice..it's her,after all these months,
"Hello..hello..Mah..Mahir?"I closed my eye's clutching my chest.

It's been months listening to her calling me with my name!

"Hello...Mahir?"I heard a curiosity.

"Belaa...",I spoke,my voice breaking.

I sobbed hugging the intercom to my heart.It's her,Bela!

"Hello...Bela..Bela..",I spoke and that line was already dead.

"Bela..it's me..Mahir..me..Bela..hello..",I shouted trying that number.

And now it's coming busy again,it's blocked again!

"Bela..baby..",I sobbed.

I kept the intercom aside and layed on the floor,
"Please Bela..I'm sorry..please come back to me..please",I sobbed sleeping on the floor.

I kept sobbing on the floor and now it was raining heavily outside.I don't know for how much time I was sobbing sleeping on the floor.

It's not going to work like this.No!

Not anymore!

I walked back to my room puffing my cigarette.I kept it in the ash tray and looked at myself in the mirror.My beard has grown,my body is loosing it's shape due to lack of food and workout.

I caressed Bela's name on my chest and sobbed,
"I'm coming Bela..no one can stop me now",I said.

I wore my track pants and a black tee.I wore a hoody over it and looked at myself in the mirror,
"I'm coming..enough of this game",I said.

I walked back to the lobby and grabbed my car keys.I got into my car and took all possible shortcuts to reach her home.

No one can track me now,and it's raining heavily.I drived to her home and stopped my car near corner of her street.

I waited and waited for a long time.Now it's almost mid night and everyone must be asleep.I slowly got out of the car and looked around.There's no one here.

I looked at her balcony,it was clearly visible from here.But it's dark,I looked at the time and it was half past one,she must be sleeping.

I have to go like a theif to see my wife?

I slowly walked to her home and looked around to see if anyone is seeing me.I slowly jumped their compound wall and looked around.I walked fastly from their garden and looked at her balcony from downstairs.

I held the window panes and tried to climb up.I climbed up taking the help of their window panes and walls.

My trecking skills helped me here!

One more step and I reached her balcony.I jumped inside her balcony and hissed when I fell down.I looked around once again and got up.

I dusted my clothes and looked at her balcony doors.I stepped forward and rubbed the fog dew on the glass door.

My heart skipped a beat when I saw her face!

She was sleeping hugging a pillow,a bedside lamp giving me her look.I kept my palms on the door and sobbed looking at her,
"Bela..",I sobbed resting my forehead against the door.

I tried to push the door and it opened.

I was shocked.She dint lock her balcony door.

I composed myself and slowly stepped inside.My heart was in my mouth when I was near to her.I sat down beside her bed and looked at her,
"Bela..",I sobbed looking at her.

I tried to touch her scar on the forehead,but I dint.She will wake up,she will sense me.

"Bela..I want to talk a lot to you...please come back",I sobbed looking at her.

I rested my head beside her hand and sobbed.We used to sleep in each other's embrace.I cannot sleep without her and even she cannot sleep without me.

How is she sleeping now?

I sobbed looking at her and sat near her feet.I took out her anklet which I gifted her on our wedding day.

She stopped wearing this from the day we both fought regarding divorce.I found this in her closet after she left.

I slowly held her left feet in my hand and kissed her toe's,
"I love you so much baby...I love you",I sobbed kissing her feet.

I wiped my tears and locked the anklet around her left ankle.I kissed her ankle and sobbed.

I'm touching her and my body is loosing all it's stimulus!

"Please come back to me baby..please..",I sobbed kissing her another feet.

I took my phone and turned on the flash light.I kept it near her feet and smiled looking at the anklet on her ankle.It's dark here and I'm not able to see anything.

I could see her feet with the help of this flashlight.I gave a sad smile when I saw nail polish missing on her nails.

I wiped my tears and slowly walked to her vanity.I took a nail polish and walked back to her bed.I got on my knees and kept my phone towards her feet.

I held her feet in my hand and started applying nail polish to her nails.

See..how beautiful my Bela is!

I smiled putting nail polish on her last nail,
"You are always beautiful baby..my Bela",I said kissing her feet.

She is a tight sleeper,she is not sensing my touch.Or maybe her med's affect,Kuhu and mom said that she is still on medications.

"I love you so much Bela..I'm sorry,please come back to me",I sobbed kissing her toe's.

She likes it when I kiss her toe's!

One day all the distance will be eased and we'll live together!

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