Trigger warning a little jeggy and mention of abuse
Alex POV
We walk in and let out a deep breath to see John perfectly fine he was sitting up on the bed on his phone. When he notice me he smiled shyly and set down his phone

Hey he whispered

Hi I whispered back smiling

How are you love

Goodish I'm still a little sick but I will be ok he said still smiling.

Good so um I have a small nothing big question..... he tilted his head slightly out of confusion.

What made you....have a....panic..attack when we surprised you.....I said slowly to make sure not to offend him.

Oh um........I-i he let out a low breath its because surprises were never a good thing for me on my birthday. My dad would abuse me for hours on end on my birthday and my family would hide like you guys did and jump and scared me and my dad would launch beer bottles at me when they jumped out and this was since I was 5 they did this till my dad finally kicked me out at 16 and I moved in with pegs, but after that we never celebrated my birthday. But the worst of all that my mom killed herself on my birthday with a letter that said. This was all your fault Jack I hope your happy you slut. It hurt a lot. Oh but that's not all on my 15 birthday my dad killed my older brother and then my dog and turtle. I never liked my birthday so that's kinda way but also I dont like loud noises which you...know.....

Omg everyone in the room whispered tears filled their eyes this was terrible how could his family ever do that to him this little innocent bean... but the next thing shock me peggy stud up tears and anger in her eyes as she marched go me and slapped me.

Third person

Everyone gasped as peggy slapped Alex tears streaming down her face.

How could you she yelled pointing a finger at Alex

You knew he didnt like loud noises and his birthday yet you still did it what the hell is wrong with you

Peggy calm down Eliza tried

SHUT UP she said punching the wall. Everyone backed away from her and John sat in shock on the bed he knows peggy is protective of him but not that much he needed to calm her down.

Everyone out the room John stated everyone turned towards him not moving an inch.

GO

Everyone rushed out of the room but John stopped peggy

Peggy I want to talk to you k. She nodded and walked over sitting on the bed with him awhile she scooted over. He looks at the door to see Alex looking hurt that he wanted her in there and not him. Alex loked one more time before closing the door.

John's POV

Pegs why you slap Alex

He's the reason w.why your here he knew

The real reason pegs

......... I dont think he's right for you... I still love you sure I love Maria to shes amazing but your just everything I been looking for. For years I known you for years and I know your gay and love Alex with your heart but his could he do so much to you and you still want him it just hurts kind of I'm sorry

Pegs I will always love you no matter what even if it's not a love love relationship ship type but I love you and I want you to know that ok

She nodded and smiled lightly

I have one question just say no if it's not weird and uncomfortable.

I nodded

Can I have one kiss I always wanted to kiss your big pink lips just you know your gay and all.

I wasn't going to lie It was a little uncomfortable but if I was straight I would be all over peggy right now but I will kiss her because I love her shes my bestie and i could never say no go her.

I nodded again and lean in and kiss her. Her lips were soft and loveable but not desirable for me because I'm gay again

Peggy's POV

Fireworks exploded everywhere even tho I know he doesn't feel it this is my one dream after we pull away I hear a pin drop I turn around and see Alex standing there mouth open and tears streaming down his face. He looks at me and his face is dull of hate.

He walks towards me and pulls me off the bed

WHAT THE HELL ALEX John yelled

Alex POV

I look at John and push peggy out the door argryly and close and lock the door

What do you mean what the hell!!

Why did you push peggy out the door

BECAUSE HE RKISSED YOU ARE YOU NOT MAD

NO BECAUSE I SHE ASKED ME

AND YOU SAID YES

YES BECAUSE SHE STILL LIKES ME AND WAS UPSET BECAUSE SHE DIDNT THINK YOU TREAT ME RIGHT BUT I LOVE YOU STILL AND ALL SHE WANTED TO DO WAS KNOW WHAT IT FELT LIKE TO KISS ME BECAUSE SHE LOVES ME SHE LOVED ME SINCE LIKE I WAS 15 WHEN I MOVED IN WITH HER AND I FELT BAD I LOVE HER LIKE A SISTER AND I COULD NEVER SAY NO TO HER  SO I DID AND I COULD TELL SHE WAS HAPPY AND THATS ALL THAT MATTERS SO BRING HER BACK IN HERE AND SAY SORRY he yelled crying was speechless shocked my face softened and I I went to the door and brought peggy's in who was sobbing and apologized like a hundred times she forgave me and looked at John and smiled

I will always love you