Alex POV

John was leaving the hospital today and me laf,herc and peggy are in the car on our way to get him. I still feel bad for the peggy outburst but can you blame me? She was kissing my boyfriend and he was letting her he didnt push her away just let her pucker up her lips and even though hes gay he didnt seem the slightest bit bothered by the kiss like they kissed before.

Also is he mad at me after we left he still didnt really talk to me he kinda was like still "im glad you said sorry but im still mad you pushed her and assumed I would cheat on you on purpose or without a valid reason first type vide"and then before we left he was cobbling peggy like a baby which made me mad a little. But he kissed me and said he loved me before he left but then again he kissed peggy on then cheek and said he loved her to....

So now me and peggy have this awkward moments when we are alone. I do feel like peggy is gonna try to take John to matter the cost but I also thing John might not be so gay as he says he is.... nonsense I'm talking nonsense I'm just scared he would never leave me he loves me only me.

We arrive and John is at the front desk filling out paper and he turns around and sees us and peggy smiles wide and runs up to him and give him a tight hug which he winces at a bit he pulls from the hug he looks at me his smile grows and runs full speed to me and tackles me in a hug and cries.

"I'm sorry for making you worry"he whispered to me and I reply with "it's fine I missed you" he then backs out for our hug sadly and runs to herc and laf and gives them a big hug and laughes as herc picks him up and spins him around and places him on the ground as he bounces back to the counter and collects his stuff and thanks the lady and walks back to us.

Something is with this John this is not my normal John the one who quiet and shy. Wanting to be left alone and does like hugs unless it's from me and peggy. The John who wore long sleeves and would rather read a book then even look at you in the eye. This John is a outgoing John a John who wants hugs and is happy all the time and the John who is talking very loudly and very affectionate this John is a fake John this is John he thinks everyone wants to see him I can tell he smiling but in his eyes I can see pain sorrow he wants go cry but his holding it in something is holding those tears in and replacing him with a happy go lucky John.

As we get into the car a doctor runs out.

"Hey sir can I talk to you" she says herc nodded and jumps out of the car but why did she wants him..

Hercules POV

"Your boyfriend John Laurens he-

"Is not my boyfriend"i correct her blushing slightly 

"Oh my bad anyways he is taking some "happy pills" you see he has been put on theese for depressing behavior in our hospital as in he tried to kill himself in our care....twice....you can see he has been suffering so we put him on theese pill he will be extra happy then normal and will not be his normal self until we can find him some higher depression meds that's all thank you...

Wow

John POV (what his thinking)

I

Hate

This

All 

Of

It

Every

Nook

And

Cranny

I

Just want to cuddle up to Alex and hug him bug I can always do that so nopeeeee

Lallalalallalalala Ohhhhh a birdyyyyy

Please help me.

Alex POV

We got home me and John walked upstairs and he bust out crying I knew it he was holding in in front of the group.

He ran and hugged me smiling slightly herc had text us what the doctor said I'm so sad he need a higher perception then the last one ugh

John looks at me and whispers

Do you still love me