John POV

I feel bad for not leaving my room for the passed 3 months I only leave of needed. Alex has been trying so hard and I love him for it yes but I scared of walking out and seeing everyone wonder if they hate me don't want to he my friend because of me being suicidal. I had just ate pancakes for it's the only thing I have ate in awhile.

I get out of bed and take a shower and wash my hair and brush my teeth I pick out some skinny jeans and a hoodie and walk out of the room. Feeling refreshed and energized.

As I walk out Alex perked up and turned around like lighting flash. I flinch as reaction and slowly back to the room door scared he was mad but then I realize it was out of happiness to see that I was out of the room but the smile turned into a frown when he saw me flinch and back up.

I slow and I mean slowly walk to him and sit down next to him with a little space away from us and look at my phone. And curl up in a ball on the couch and scroll threw Instagram.

Alex looks at me and stares at me for a long time before speaking.

"Do y.you want anything love"

No I say simply I not hungry mostly because I ate like 20 pancakes by myself.

Ok he said a little sadly I decied to make a bold move and text the group chat letting them now I was alive and want to see them again.

The bad bloods

Gayturtleboi:hey guys yall want to come over?

The chat blows ups with yeses and questions.

Andpeggles: YES JOHNNY IS ALIVE IM SO COMIN OVR NOW

Jellybitch:omg John we missed you honey!

Elizzzaa: OK WE ARE COMING HOLD THE FLIP PHONE

HORSES:GOOD TO SEE YOU BUD ME AND LAF ARE COMING
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Gunsandships: MON AMI MY GODDDSHDHHDJSJHDHSSJJZ

Tommyjeff:sup love me and jemmy are coming

Burrsir:hi Johnnyboi I will stop by and say hi

DAmnhammie:Thomas call him love again your dead got it

I look and smile at Alex my first smile in awhile.

I love you Lexi

I love you to love

It was almost new