Garroth's Diary Entry:

Dear Diary:

I woke up tp the sound of the door opening, I went downstairs and looked at Laurence.

"Babe? did you stayed up all night in that meeting of work?" I asked and hold him.

"Yeah" Laurence said and yawned. I stopped holding him and cross my arms.

"Want to go to sleep and then eat? or?" I asked.

"I'll go to sleep" Laurence said and didn't even kissed me for a hello kiss, he just went and walked upstairs. I sighed and watched him walk away, he was walking with difficulties, strange...

I went to the living room and sat on the couch. I looked at the TV and turn it on, trying to find something good on it, I found an R-rated movie. I started watching it, I like r-rated movies just because they're passionate, dramatic and violent.

I went to the kitchen and made some popcorn to myself. I went back laid down on a pillow and thought of laying on Laurence's chest. I smiled to myself as I thought on how he used to wrap my arms around me, cuddled me and give me kisses. I cry at the thought as well, we haven't been like that in weeks, I want to know what's wrong.

-10:30am-

I went to mine and Laurence's room and looked at him sleep, I smiled and got in the bed with him, I hugged him and he hugged back while sleeping. This is the only time I feel love, we haven't cuddled in what seem like weeks, well like this. I felt him shift around and he eventually  woke up.

I mentally sighed knowing he will turn around and leave me there, with my hands wrapped around myself. He did, he did just that and I had my arms wrapped around myself, I had the urge to cry, so I sat up and took a deep breath.

"I-I'll c-come b-back in a m-m-mi-minute" I stuttered trying not to sob. I got up and went out of the room. He didn't followed me, nor did anything to stop me.

I went back into the couch and sobbed in the pillow. I hold it close to me like if it was him, gave all my love to the pillow and started violently shaking. I didn't felt arms wrapped around me. I didn't felt no one to console me.

"I don't know what to do" I started talking to myself. "Does he even loves me anymore?" I talked once more. "Am I just a joke to him? is OUR relationship a JOKE?" I asked and cried into the pillow trying to calm myself down so he wouldn't hear. Last time I cried he did something horrible to me, I'd appreciate not talking about it.

-5:00pm-

"Babe? what would you like to eat today?" I said holding the knife and cutting in the vegetables.

"Oh no, I'm going out to eat tonight, I hope you don't mind" Laurence said. My blood boiled, I cut in the the vegetables hard enough just making a slight cut in the cut board.

"Oh no don't worry, I'm totally fine with it" I said as I tried to keep the tears from falling down.

"okay, bye" Laurence said and left. I had a huge smile on my face and stabbed the knife into the cut board. I went into the room and looked at a box, I grabbed it and opened it to find photos of me and Laurence. I cried and started ripping them apart like if they were just papers, like if they meant nothing to me just like OUR relationship doesn't MATTERS to HIM. 

I looked at what have done and cried. "What have I done? I'm a monster! the only memories of me and Laurence are gone! and its all my fault!" I yelled and sobbed. "Its all my fault..." I whispered and hugged by knees.

-10pm-

Laurence hasn't still come from his dinner. I sobbed to myself. I didn't made anything for him to eat! he can starve himself in the morning! for all I know he hasn't ate the dinner of last night!. Its time to leave,
goodbye

-Garroth.

Garroth's P.O.V:

I put my diary in his place and looked at the rip photos of me and Laurence, I cried and tried to glue them on, nothing was working. So I hid the evidence and went downstairs into the couch, I changed my pillow for Laurence's so he can have nightmares about me.

I laid down on the couch and wrapped myself in the blankets and hold the pillow, smelling his scent.

"I love you, Laurence, I love you so much just like you love me" I said and fell asleep.