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EPISODE 15 – TIME TO UNLOCK THAT ANGSTY VAULT TO REVEAL MY "SCAR No.2"

Eight Days Later

@ Qasar Al Sarab – A Desert Resort, Abu Dhabi

Khushi's POV

Guys.

Mia...Literally needs to Take on Travel Blogging Seriouslyyy!!

I am so going to make Sure that, she starts her Blog Soon...and this Trip out into the Middle East..is the First Vacation, she posts About, for we have Had an awesome, amazing, fantabulous time out in exploring Dubai, Oman and Abu Dabhi.

So I remember, that the last I met you guys, we were Still in Dubai. Well,so its fair to give out a tiny miny sneak peak into the Rest off the Time, until this point – but guys I am not going into the crazy details, for I am most surely going to share the Link off Mia's travel Blog with you all...so that you can see it all for yourself.

Haha.

Ok so,the very next day, Mia and me went in for another off our amazing Sky Diving sessions, with Daksh and Team, in the early mornings – before Arnav, Me and Mia, check out off our resort in Dubai , and hopped onto our SUV, to get on our Road Trip off 5 hours straight to Muscat, Oman.She'd arranged for our tourist expedition into Oman, to be like a Private chauffeur driven Guided Tour for the three of us.As in technically, she had first arranged this to be for just the two of us right...Arnav just join us in..and well, she took this private tour for the two off us, because she was all like, Dubai and Abu Dabi are a lot for popular as tourist destinations, Oman is just picking up, so its best of we have a local professional with us, guiding us along the way, and her idea turned out to be Superb actually, because first thing out, none of us had to worry about the Routes, the ways, parking tickets, speed limits etc, and just enjoy the Time out, with focus on Only Funning Around, and soaking up the Oman- experience.

On that note...Guys wait?

Is Funning even a Word??

Haha.

I guess, my crazy over enthusiastic Nutcase Cutlet Brain,just invented that One, for its like, all of my being is anyway Bubbling around with Intense Happiness I'v been feeling – all because of this Crazy Amazing , Heal Us Woo You experiment with Arnav.

So anyway, coming back to giving you all a Touristy Glimpse.

So basically, Arnav, Mia and Me, spent the first five days and nights,(out of this eight days later duration), exploring the Gorgeous Hidden Treasure off the Middle East – Oman.We saw it all – from the historic Muscat to the beauty off Jebel Shams, to the natural wonders of the natural reserves there,the amazing Wadi's, The famous Wahiba Sands, its gorgeous Coastal towns etc etc – in a complete road trip, taking on a Circular Route, as in we started from Muscat and finished in Muscat. And then once the Oman leg off our Trip was done, we drove back to Abu Dhabi (which was a six hour drive again), and stayed at the central location of the Ritz , Abu Dabi for two nights while we spent time exploring the central Abu Dabhi, its amazing mosques, some more Historic tourist attractions, the formula one racing circuit, the Ferrari world etc etc, before we Drove to down to this Enchanting Desert Resort – Qasar Al Sarab, to finish off our Holiday with just some chilling out time and relaxation at this Amazing Resort, before we finally head back to Queenstown.(Because, obviously Our Itenary over the last week has been very very hectic travel and exploration wise, and Mia always plans a little relaxation time right at the end off every trip, stating that we should pause, unwind a little,resoak the experience in before jet setting back Home.And she did say that she chose this particular resort for our last three nights, because she was Smitten by it the minute she saw it up online, and the first day here, wasn't going to be relaxing anyway – and that's why the rest two nights came in the picture, before we finally check out from here, and drive down to Dubai international airport which is a 90 minute drive from where we are, and board the plane back for NZ.)

And guys, she was right that the first day here, wasn't going to be Relaxing much, because she had a full on adventurous time planned for us out in the Dessert again.We arrived here yesterday around lunch time, and after a little lunch and relaxing time, we headed straight for another epic experience of Dune Bashing, and I can most definetly say that we were very very thrilled to discover, that the Dune bashing over the Dunes, around Abu Dabhi, turned out to be a lot more thrilling and exhilarating than our experience in Dubai, primarily because of the reason that the Dunes around here, are like way Higher.And we obviously were out in the sands, until late after Sunset, and only returned to the Resort in time for Dinner.

And on that note – please note, that for our accommodation here, Mia and me had booked a Two Room Pool Villa, and Arnav had booked him self a single room pool villa, and the staff at the reception, were kind enough to allot us Villas literally right next to one another's too, at the time of Check in.

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Authors Note ** Including Pictures and Videos of the Resort to give picuristic background to Context

QASAR AL SARAB - A DESERT RESORT, ABU DHABI

Khushi and Mias Villa Below

Arnavs Villa

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Khushi's POV Continues

And well today, we'v just spent our time around this beautiful property, swimming,lazing around by the main oasis shaped pool etc etc, almost all day, we also had lunch around the pool actually, and we also continued to chill there until much later too.

Around 4pm Mia decided to catch up on some nap time, and Arnav asked me to get ready quickly, because he wanted to walk up with me, into the Sands and Dunes, around our Resort.

Ok – he's really got a thing – about just being out with me into the Desert for real.Maybe because off - his My Oasis in the Desert analogy for Me.

We walked hand in hand, trekking our way up to the Dunes around, talking, laughing as usual, and once we reached the top off this Dune he'd wanted to get on to, we just sat there for hours.

Just Us.

He cuddled and snuggled into me from behind, with his arms wrapped around my waist possessively, as I leaned back into him – and we just gazed out into the Desert as we talked and kissed each other frantically until the Sun went Down.(Ok to be Honest guys – we talked less, and kissed for majority of the time , frantically and desperately, continuously pouring in our overwhelmed emotions and love to each other.)

But there's obviously another reason, why our Emotions were so so so, Overwhelmed today, because the time to Head back is nearing no?

Our Heal Us – Woo You, experiment is heading its Closure on the Time Limit.

I have been Overwhelmed emotionally because I know these last two days with Arnav is what I have to make the most off again, for My memory Stock – and I think Arnav was very very overwhelmed, because, everytime, he's tried to talk to me about – what After for US...on the last two days especially, iv either just silenced him with a scortching kiss, or just diverted the Topic, and because I haven't yet spoken to him about it openly, he obviously poured in his every nervous emotion with regards to the same, in our kisses over and over again.

He does not want to Let Me Go.

I know.

He wants Us.

I know.

I can sense it all.

I can perceive it all.

Its reflecting in his actions and every gesture,towards me – in all these Days.

I mean...just What can I say about the Precious Time...Iv spent with him in all these days???

Even though I'm the over enthusiastic crazy Nutcase in my head..MY vocabulary is crashing on me right now to express to you...the emotions I have felt in my heart,soul and in my being as My Man off Many Words/Mr Tycoon for Real..continued to shower me with Immense Love.

Immense.

Precious.

True.

Love.

Both.

Day and Night.

Durings the Days,as we'v been like excited travellers, he's been on his charming and considerate and loving mode all through out with his loving gestures, and words– gaining full on Marks on this Wooing Khushi back expedition, and at Nights, when we are alone, we'v Poured Our hearts out to each other, not only through our words and talks, but through every deep and emotional kiss, that's been exchanged in a passionate emotional duel in between our lips, for Hours and hours , until we dozee off to sleep cocooned,in each other's arms, holding onto each other all night, as if that moment with one another even in our sleep – was all that Mattered.

I mean guys – if I had to give him a Grade on this , id really give him an A+, like 100/100.

It turns out that his Love truly had the Customised Healing Power for my being, a power so powerful...that now it almost feels like, that Scar no 1 of my being...had Healed in miraculous ways...and that now it was just going Exist as a Faded Mark.A Faded Mark...that was just a reflection off the fact...that the deep scar that once Existed has been Healed with appropriate Ointments and Healing balms. The appropriate ointments and healing balms off Arnav's Love, that My Destiny and Time had prescribed to me in my prescription...for this limited duration off Time.

And after experiencing all off these days with him, I kind off have a clue as to why this Smarty Cheeky Singh Raizada, initiated the idea off this experiment in the first place.He wanted to Spoil me with the Idea and taste of Living my Days, with the feel of Him and His love around me for real this time with the acknowledgement of every ounce of emotion in it, so that I wouldn't ever have it in me to go on without him – now that my Heart had tasted the Happiness again.

I know that was what it was About.

I know.

And to be Honest – My heart is kind off going all rogue on me, telling me to Continue letting it go on with its Happy Flight.

But then now – the Minds Intervening , and its remind me of the fact that even though I thought it was ok for me to be selfish, for a little shortwhile – can I really continue to be Selfish forever?; hereby diverting my attention to the existence of my Scar no 2 with regards to my medical conditions, that is like the Hidden Mt Everest of Emotional Baggage, that I needed to Trek Through again, and this time with Arnav

Hmm.

Guys.

You know what?

Even though I have always been so so Honest and Upfront when it comes to accepting myself and my emotions as is, in my being without any Inhibitions, it still somewhat Surprises me in a good way..everytime I figure out that...I really was Right about A thought/Assumption That I had perceived about myself in my head.

So.Apparently.Like I had anticipated, It really did turn out that I really was Right when I mentioned, the last time to you guys...that these days with Arnav was exactly what I needed to stock up on the immense courage and strength that I needed – to Unlock the Vault off The ANGSTY Reality off My Life, to HIS Face, and take on that Trek through the Mt Everest of Emotional Baggage again.

For..I feel Like I really am ready Now.

I do plan to talk to him about this Tomorrow, for we are scheduled to head back to Queenstown, Day After. I mean I am pretty sure, he is going to bring it up Tonight actually.And the plan is to just silence him with Kisses all night today, and get around to talking about it all to him tomorrow, for I just want this one last night in his arms, with the Lock on the Truth still On.

Maybe because, I was really nervous about his Reaction to it all? For, this emotional baggage has been so so heavy In its weight, that my heart that loves him so deeply – keeps asking me over and over again, to not let the weight off it, slump down his shoulders.But then, I have to address this – I know.

I will.

Tomorrow.

I was going to Be Selfish for just this One more Night.

I finish getting ready for Dinner time now, and I smile at my reflection in the mirror, and step out the dresser to my room.(I went over to Arnav's villa last night, just like I have been with him in his room, for the last three nights, because I didn't want to risk him spotting my huge medicine kit until I talked to him about my condition, he almost did spot it on one off the mornings, in my room a couple of days ago, and I had managed to distract him just in time and tuck it back to safety, and ever since then..iv just been going to be with Him instead in his room, in the night time.)

I pause to check on my medicine kit, rechecking on the injectibles and medicines that I needed to take on after Dinner, and was I was done, I tuck it back into its place and I walk out my room and just as I step out into the living space, I spot Mia, who looks at me from head to toe, and gives me a smirk and a wink together – " whoa...look at you...your Mr Tycoon for Real is going to find it very difficult to breathe tonight..."

I chuckle, as I lace my arm through her arm, and I roll my eyes at her – " oh cmon...its just a normal Jumpsuit Mia...". I was dressed in this casual Sleeveless Maroon Flairy Jumpsuit, which had little slits around the midriff, just some basic minmal make up with the only highlight being my matching lip stain, and id just tied my long hair loosely into a side braid.

Mia winks – " yeahh...but you look smoking hot Khushi...",and I grin at her and wink back and I ask, as we step out and locking up on our villa – " you called the buggy cart??"

The Buggy Cart was going to take Us to the Restaurant for Dinner.

Mia nods – " yes, I did khushi love it should be here in two minutes..."

I wink at her, teasing her on a little – " daksh is driving down here tomorrow Mia...so that he can catch up with you for a full day, before we head back to Queenstown..im telling you...give him a shot..."

Mia rolls her eyes at me and she states – " yeah right...long distance and me is a no no...",and she pauses and states with a sigh – " and I am telling you give Arnav and you a shot again, for real..."

I give her a sad smile that she understands and asks with another sigh – " are you going to talk to him tonight about it??"

I take a deep breathe and I say – " I will talk to him for sure Mia, but tomorrow...I just want to be selfish for the next 18 hours maybe..."

We see the cart approaching, and Mia nods as she states – " ok im not calling Arnav...how about you go to his villa and get him out...ill wait for you guys on the cart..."

I nod at her with a grin and I see her station herself on the Buggy Cart.

I make my way towards Arnav's Villa in glee, and to my surprise, his door is left a little open,so I step right in and just as I am stepping through the enterance foyer towards the living space, I hear his happy voice – " di...you gotta be kidding me...don't tell me you really have it all planned out in your head..."

I pause in my tracks, and just lean side ways to sneak peek a little.

Ok.

So Arnav's on a video call with Anjali Di.He's sitting on the living Sofa, and he's got his back to me, so he hasn't spotted me.

Its 8pm Here – which means its Midnight in Singapore.

Ok should I Intrude?

Or let him Talk for a couple of minutes More?

And just as I am contemplating what to do next, I hear Anjali di's happy voice echo in the room – " yes yes...Arnav...well I am not kidding you at all...I do kind off have it all planned out in my head already...im so happy Arnav to know that youv not just found Khushi again, but have been able to experience bliss in your heart again..this time with full emotional acknowledgement.."

I hear Arnav respond immediately – " yes di...its been a bliss indeed, and to be honest, I think im evolving in terms off being emotionally challenged for real...I mean I might not be as emotionally challenged I once used to be...for iv been voicing out every bit off it to Khushi in these last days..."

I smile to myself.

My heart Glows.

I head Anjali di's chirpy reply – " which is great Arnav...so what now??

Arnav's voice now reflects a sigh as he states – " di...so first thing out, I have to get her to talk to me about what about Us...after from now...I mean..iv tried to talk to her in the last two days about it...but she's just diverted it off...and I just have to get her talking to me now...because you know I want her forever..its like I feel like I can dream again..."

I close my eyes, and they do well up to, and I lean back against the wall, clutching onto my heart.

Anjali di's voice comes through – " I know...I know what you mean...your heart feels like it can dream again...I mean...I can only imagine...I mean look at me all excited at just the thought of you and Khushi together again...that my minds in an overdrive...my dreams are back into weaving.. im already dreaming about you settling down for real...I have seen you ache so much Arnav all these years...I mean hasn't it been ages..since we'v been wanting you to settle down and get married, to have a family of your own...I mean...thank god..just when I thought you were going to never give me the opportunity to be called Bua.....bamm destiny strikes and you meet Khushi again...im sure she will come around to the thought off settling down arnav...just give her some time maybe...a lot has happened for her to take in...you did say that back then she really wanted to settle down, family, kids were always on her wish list..im sure she only said that her priorities on that aspect had changed to you, because she didn't know about the complete side off your story too...but now she knows...im sure...she will come around.. "

I feel my Insides freeze.

Arnav's voice comes through my ear, love and emotion reflecting in his voice – " yes di...I think so too...as in I think she just needs time to come around this...so much has happened...and even though she says shes not the same Khushi anymore to me, I don't understand, why she keeps saying that to me , for she still is the same khushi in her heart – the one I feel madly in love with...you know what di...im sure...somewhere in her being, she still wants to settle down and have a family off her own...kids..etc..I mean how can she not want this? This used to be everything to her...marriage..family...kids....you know di..she still loves children...you should have seen how she was bonding with these adorable young twin boy and girl the other day at the Ferrari World...it was so so FREAKING adorable to just watch...and you know what di...in that Moment, I felt my heart dream indeed – dream off a family with Khushi...her, me...our children..i mean..who would have thought id be imagining and dreaming about all of this one day..."

My heart Freezes to the Point off Liquid Bloody Nitrogen.

Holy SHIT.

I feel like a Selfish Beast Right Now.

What have I done?

In my selfishness off wanting to be on this Experiment with Arnav, I have lead him on to dream off these vulnerable things.

Anjali di's voice rings in my frozen ears – " and I never imagined that id ever hear this off your mouth ever Arnav...but now that we are at it...tell me something...how many kids do you think Khushi would want??and tell me how many you want too? I mean iv seen the two of your pictures youv shared with me off today...and I know for sure, that the two of your genetic combinations are going to result in adorable babies...surely.."

Overwhelmed tears have welled my Eyes.

They are on the verge off Falling.

Arnav chuckles – " di..really...you want me to answer this?"

Anjali di – " yes ofcourse..cmon...just answer this..then im going to hang up...your jijus calling me.."

Arnav's happy voice comes through my ears – " di..i think Khushi might want atleast two three kids, I most definitely want three though...two girls like mini Khushi's and maybe one mini me...or no..make that all mini Khushis..i want three girls...maybe..."

I close my eyes, and a line of Overwhelmed tears falls off my Right Cheek.

What have I done?

Just what I have I done?

I feel like a Selfish Dragon.

How am I going to have it in me to shatter all his Hopes and Dreams Now.

But I have too.

I have too.

And I think I have to do it tonight itself.

This can't wait.

I don't have it in me to Hold onto the Truth, after hearing everything I just did.

Dammit.

I hear Anjali di hang up and I wipe my tear now, composing myself, and I head towards the door, and I pretend to act like I am just about to step in and I knock on the door and I call out Arnav's name, in my usual chirpy tone.Only I know whats it taking off me too channelise my chirpy tone – " Arnav 2.0...cmon...lets go for dinner...im starving...the buggy carts here..."

And right then Arnav walks into the Foyer and I feel his heated intense gaze rake on me up and down,and I am instantly pulled my the hand, into him and his one hand snakes around my waist possessively and the he tucks my chin up, and he whispers looking into my eyes – " how about we just call in room service...and you let me kiss you all night...starting from this very minute...",and I shiver and tremble under his gaze, and before I can say anything, he kisses me instantly in a deep emotional kiss, and I pour in my conflicted emotions into the kiss too, as I hold onto his arm, and I break away about two minutes later, and he cups my face as he asks with a concerned look – " you ok??"

I nod, masking my turmoil – " yes yes...why do you ask...?"

Arnav gives me a concerned look again - "I think I just felt something very poignant in the way you kissed me right now..."

I mask it all up, and I gather up all my courage and I place my hand on the waist and I raise my eyebrow at him – " oh really? Did you just perceive a emotion Arnav 2.0??"

He gives me a side smile, brushing his thumb on my cheek – " yes I think I did..but you tell me if im right..and if I am right...then why this poignancy right now?all ok Khushi??"

I chuckle to cover up and I admit lacing my arm through his – " poignancy because my stomachs going all rogue on me right now...that's how hungry I am...mr tycoon for real..cmon then..can we head out already?? Mia is waiting for a while on the cart and I was just answering some last minute mails before stepping in....."

Arnav nods and I grin at him and as we step out, and he wraps his hand around my shoulders lovingly and kisses my head, and winks happily at Mia, as we take our seats on the Cart to head for Dinner.

But I do think – I have lost my Appetite in all this emotional Nervousness...I am feeling within.

How could I be so so Selfish?

I maybe should have never Agreed to this Heal Us – Woo You Experiment...for even though its healed my one scar...after everything I just heard...in my heart it feels like – maybe it was a Mistake.

A Mistake, because it lead Arnav on to accidently unconsciously dreamed off a LaFamila Happily Ever After with me – a happily ever after that, I couldn't ever Give Him.

And now the Truth is not only going to Hurt Him – its going to Shatter his Hopes and Dreams Too.

I am Sorry Arnav.

I am so so Sorry.

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90 Minutes – After Dinner – 930 PM

I smile at Arnav as I feel him kiss on my laced hand, as we are outside the restaurant,waiting for Mia to come back from the washroom, so that we can head back to our Villas.

I have somehow managed to keep up with my Chirpy normal self, all through out dinner, although I do think it was extra obvious that I was going the extra mile to seem Normal – because both Mia and Arnav had asked me about three times each – if I was Ok, during our Meal.

I had obviously covered up saying that I was ok, was just feeling more than usual excited, happy and Chirpy.

Mia didn't obviously buy it though.

She knew something was up in my Head.

It was in her eyes.

And I think Arnav knows too.

Its in his eyes right now, as theyv narrowed, studying me silently shooting me concerned looks, in between the tender kisses he's placing on my Hand.

I feel him pull me closer by gripping on the side of my waist tenderly and his hand comes to shift some strands of my loose hair to one side over my shoulder and he asks in an intense tone – " something wrong right?? I can sense it is...isn't it Khushi? Whats on your mind??can we talk about what's bothering you please??you do know I can see right through you right now..."

I take a deep breathe and I kiss on his hand, bringing it up to my lips, and my eyes well up, as I continue to kiss on his hand over and over and I finally say looking into his eyes – " yes...Arnav...we need to talk....and before that I need to tell you...that I am sorry...im so so sorry.....im just sorry..."

Arnav immediately cups my face concerned as he asks worry dripping in his voice – " hey...sh...sh..why are you sorry Khushi???"

I admit honestly – " for this, it was a mistake...we shouldn't ever have gotten into this Heal Us Woo You Experiment",and I gesture to our joing hands, with my eyes.

I see a Flash off Deep Hurt Flash through his eyes and I hear him ask his voice literally trembling, as if he needed to reconfirm what he was listening – " you are sorry for this??did you just call this a mistake?? Did you just call us a mistake???"

I nod my head as I say, my eyes welling up – " yes...Arnav...it's a mistake....we shouldn't have...we shouldn't have...im just going to end up hurting you...now..."

I feel Arnav's grip on both my arms with his hands, and he pulls me into himself closer as he says in a pained hurt tone – " nothing could hurt me more than this dammit...nothing could hurt me more than hearing you call this a mistake??this isn't your heart talking, its your mind again..somethings cooking in it...I know...what's wrong Khushi?? Everything was ok all through our amazing time out at the sands around Sunset, then what? Wait..wait..Did I do anything ?i mean did I say anything that hurt you? did I say something that I shouldn't have??"

I shoot him a genuine distressed look as I stammer, gulping down my emotions – " no..no...it isn't you...you didn't say or do anything to hurt me Arnav...you didn't...",and I pause.

Holy Shit.

I pause, not because I don't have words to say to him right now.

I pause because I feel a familiar jabbed knot in the pit off my stomach that tells me – I am going to end up Throwing up in the next couple of minutes. It's the sign and signal that is a Kickoff - to those freaking low hormonal Hours that usually go upto 48 Hours or so.

I place my hand on the side of my waist as I take a deep breathe, closing my eyes.

Really? Hormones? You found this exact Moment to go all Rogue on Me Too?

Right when I am in the middle off a Emotional Moment with Arnav.

Or is it that my Intense Inner Turmoil, that I'v been fighting for the last 90 minutes triggered this off??

Ok...Ok...I really don't know anything right Now.

I can feel Arnav's intense Gaze on me, as I continue to take deep breathes to try to get this under control.

Nope.

Not working.

I need to get to my Room.

I need my Injections and Medicines – the only thing that will save it from getting worse right now.But I know, im still going to Puke Buckets out before being able to take on my injectibles and medicines.

I need to get out of Here.

I cant wait.

I immediately open my eyes, and I try to mask my discomfort giving Arnav a polite smile and I walk away.

I feel Arnav's hand hold onto my hand stratight away and before, I know it, he's pulled me back into Himself and he shoots me a worried, concerned and a hurt look as he states – " are you walking out on me right now?? Are you really zoning out and walking out me right now...??"

I want to say something back to him.

But how?

I don't want to Puke on his Face.

I take a deep breathe.

And just as I feel that knotted Jab in the pit of my Stomach again – my hand on reflex goes to my stomach and im sure iv paled as white as a sheet, as I state to Arnav – " Arnav...please...not right..now...can we talk in a while...im just not feeling well...I just need to get to my room...."

Arnav's face gets consumed of worry and concern immediately as he asks, panic evident in his voice as he touches my arm concerned – " khushi...whats wrong?? Whats wrong dammit? You'v paled as white as a sheet....is it a stomach pain??"

And right then I spot Mia, walking out the washroom, and the minute she spots me , I just gesture her with my eye in a – it's the low time setting in, and she obviously recognises what I mean instantly , because Mia's seen it so very often , over the last so many years, and a lot more of it happeneing in higher intensities, ever since my ovarian health hit a technical menopause too, facing a halt in its functions and she's by my side immediately now as she asks putting a loving arm around my hand – " wana throw up now?or can you hold it until we get you too the room??"

I look at her as I admit – " room...just take me to the room...i'll be ok...you know i will be...once I just throw up buckets and take in my meds..."

Arnav gives me a concerned look too as he asks – " khushi...you wana throw up??do you have a med for the same? I think ill check in my medical kit, that di's got all packed up for me...for every travel...im sure...I have something for this...maybe you just ate something that's bugged your stomach..."

I look at Mia as I state – " just get me to the room please???", and I look at Arnav – " later...arnav...please...give me some time...60 minutes...maybe..."

Mia says immediately, concerned, as my face pales more – " cmon then, the carts there...lets go..."

To my surprise, Arnav immediately whisks me up in his arms as he starts to stride towards the Cart, fast - " to hell with you dammit...im not freaking leaving you alone right now...",and I just find my hands clutching onto his tee and I rest my head on his shoulder, as I try to control my Insides, from throwing up until I reach my Room.

I hear Arnav and Mia – ask the staff to head to our villa in sheer Urgency.

He gets on with it, asking me if I was ok, and if he should call the in House?

Mia just informs him, that theres nothing to worry.She's in the front seat next to the cart driver.

Arnav's had me cradled in his arms, in the Middle seat.

And thank God – I am able to control the Throwing up for now.

Its because off the Desert Wind Maybe?

Or the fact that Arnav has me in his arms right now?

I don't know.

I hear Arnav ask in a concerned worried tone as he cradles me tighter into himself – " are you ok dammit??khushi?? talk please?? You are all silent and your face is paled as white as a sheet...are you sure you don't want to call the doctor in house???"

I manage to stammer brokenly , clutching onto his tee – " yes...no...n..e..e..d...for....d..o..c..tor..."

He kisses my forhead, ten times over now, tenderly and softly as he states – " ok..fine...no doctor...lets get you to your room first...and then we will see...ok??"

I nod.

Minutes later, as we reach Our Villa – Mia gets off Imemdiately. Arnav follows with me in his arms, and right as Mia opens the door – she looks at me giving me a knowing look as she asks – " Khushi...you want Arnav to be with you right now??? Or ???"

I ofcourse know, why she is asking.

Because if Arnav sees me now – this will be like a Trigger that will make me Open up to him about everything.

I will have to.

I wont have any choice.

He will freak out seeing me manage myself in this episode right now, injecting myself, taking on meds. I most surely will have no choice but to give him a background of it all.

Arnav gives her a look as he states angrily – " are you ridiculous Mia?? Whats wrong with you?? im not going to freaking leave her alone right now...no matter what..."

I look at Mia as I nod and I state – " yes...its ok...let him be..."

Mia takes a deep breathe and she nods.

Arnav strides with me into the room , takes me straight out to the bathroom, and he outs me against the WC and instantly lean forward and I start to puke my guts out.

And I can sense Arnav, hold my hair lovingly and tenderly as he states – " its ok...youlll be ok khushi...its probably just a stomach bug..."

I close my eyes and I continue to Puke.

A String off Tears, Rolling down my Right cheek on reflex now – as I find myself Nearing the Time I had been Embracing myself For.

The Time – I had been Re -Stocking Up on My Courage For.

The moments in Time, that Told me – that it was Now, TIME TO UNLOCK THAT ANGSTY VAULT TO REVEAL MY "SCAR No.2"

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Tadada!!!!

No shoes on me for Stopping right there in a Cliffhanger.

Haha.

I will get to working on the update Tomorrw afternoon – and it will be up as soon as I am done – expect one by Wednesday evening surely.

Thanks guys for all the Love and Support.

Much love guys.

Always.

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