Hello guysssss

So I am back with a 10 k Update.

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And I shall now let you all Dive In without Further Delay.

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EPISODE 10 – UNLOAD

SKYDIVE ZONE – AT THE PALM – DUBAI – 7:30 AM

KHUSHI'S POV

I sip on my water and I shove my bottle back into my locker, and finish adjusting my Zip Snugly around my SkyDiving Suit – well since I was going to be Indulging in a Tandem Skydive with Arnav today – and not like a full on Technical class along with the Team here – I could have done without my Suit and just Jumped in my Tee, Denims, and sports shoes – but then I just am always more comfortable in my full Skydiving bodysuit whenever I jump, so that's what I shall be wearing today as well.

I check on my Harness, Safety Helmet, and Eye Gear, that lies in front off me on the bench midway in the locker- room, and I smile to myself on reflex, as I recall the genuine thrill and excitement on Arnav's face from fifteen minutes ago – as I finished teaching him the position and techniques , I would need him to form in the Sky just as we jump – before I made my way to this locker space to Get Set Ready to get on the Plane.

To be honest guys – I do feel a Flutter off Excitement in My Stomach at the Thought Too – the thought off SkyDiving along with Arnav! Because back then in the days when we used to be together – I would always talk to him about it, as in about Wanting to Explore SkyDiving ( but back then I never thought I'd love it so much that I would take it on as a professional as well eventually) ; and I really cant believe that today due to some crazy twist of time – I am going to be Jumping Out with Him in Minutes from Now.

I mean.

Who would have thought off that??

Well – I had also thought that I would never ever get to See Him Again – and well that happened , anyway now didn't it?

And now I wonder – that maybe Fate and Destiny are another Two Enigma's that are probably meant to stay a mysterious puzzles to us Humans – for we most definetly do not have the neurons in our systems to understand how they function and operate – Maybe?

Anyways.

Coming to the Present Situation that I was Talking about.

So,as I mentioned, I most definitely Hadn't even imagined this could ever Happen – and that's why I was so shell shocked and surprised when Arnav asked me to arrange a Sky Diving Session for him – for this Morning...and even more surprised when he'd asked me to be the professional to Jump Alongside Him!

Well – here, in SkyZoned Dubai, usually they open here for Tourists and the Crowd by 9am – and in the morning time before that, is when the professionals and the teams get together for their techniques and practice sessions on most of the days as per their practice schedule.And well today, its mostly going to be us all professionals on the plane too – apart from Arnav( I am so Glad Daksh could make this is an exception arrangement, and its like we are first going to fly upto the height off 18,000ft, when all of the Team is going to jump out to get on with their Session and then the plane will fly us to an Altitude off 16000ft – from where I will Jump out with Arnav in Tandem Skydive,along with one other professional skydiver in a wingsuit who is from the photography team and his focus will be to capture Arnav's skydiving experience ; and the free fall for Us is going to be just for about 50 -60 seconds, before I Glide us Down with Parachute and we should Touch base in the next six to seven minutes post that, depending on the condition of the Wind offcourse!

Ok to be Honest – I am also a tad bit nervous, because I have never really Professionally Jumped out with a Dear One with me – Ever!

Dear One – as in, in my personal equation.For, no one in my close Family and Friends and Professional Circle back in Queenstown is kind Off Interested in ever Jumping out the Plane..haha...as in they already label Mia and Me Crazy for it – even Josh.(He Hates Heights – there was this one time he literally came with Us on the Plane, but did not Jump at the last minute – he was all like – nope I cant do this...I can dive into the oceans, but I cant jump off this Plane..haha).

Anyways.

So.

Today does seem like a Big Deal , for – I am going to be Jumping Out with Arnav, who was/is the Central Axis My Heart Spins Around – hence I most definitely need to Double Check on My Harness and His Harness Too before we Jump off the Plane! And on that Note – I do think I explained him about everything with regards to his position needed to be executed in the Sky after the Jump etc, and I think he did get it quite right – since I made him Display it to me Five Times – before I got in to get Ready.

You know – Just In Case – He Forgets!

Because Dude – he is Mr.Tycoon, a Businessman/Industrialist who is Jumping out the Plane for the Very First Time – he's gotta Have it Right.Its My Responsibility as his Professional Company to make Sure off that – Right??

Although – I am being Extra Careful with him for Personal Reasons Offcourse! Usually I ask a fellow first time Jumper to Display the Technique Learnt to Me about Three Times.

But.

Since Its Arnav.

I just have to be More Thourough with Everything.

I am distracted in my thoughts as Mia enters in and she grins naturally as she states – " khushi...you gotta check out how excited Arnav is..he literally won't stop grinning...you know he's literally giving one off those touristy videos to the photography team member who will be jumping along with you guys...as they take on his byte before he makes the Jump..."

I chuckle naturally as I ask – " really??"

Mia nods – " yes...",and she comes and pulls me into an instant hug as she asks softly – " you ok??? I mean...I'm sure you are a little nervous for we'v never jumped out with a dear one..and well...this is Arnav..whose going to be with you on the tandem skydive today.."

I grin instantly as I pull back as I look at my best friend – " and trust me only you can read this even before I could talk to you about it...you know me in and out..Mia love...well tad bit nervous...and that is why I might just be doublechecking on his harness a lot more than I usually would.."

Mia grins and nods as she gestures me to sit alongside her on the bench and I do and she looks at me and asks softly – " and even though a part off me knows the answer to this...I want to ask you something?right now...can i??its related to everything you told me last night...your talk with Arnav..i mean I know you wanted to sleep soon after so we didn't talk this out last night..but I had something on my mind for quite a bit after we spoke...until sleep came over...we have five minutes right now khushi..lets talk about this?"

I nod, looking at her, almost knowing what she is going to say and Mia says softly – " so you know the thing he said to you last night..that bit off - I want to move on from my Flaws too Khushi, and I want to make Amends to those Flaws too...better late than never Khushi..isnt it?or is it too late already?? – I do think his this bit implies that he's hoping for a second shot in here with you...its so freaking obvious..Khushi...its in his body language around you, in the way hes been looking at you, as to just how is with you...I mean technically its just been a couple of days since the two off you bumped into each other again, but as a third person whose been observing you both, I want to admit this honestly that it most definitely doesn't seem like that there's a timeline difference off eight years in between off you both – and I know why..because your hearts always been connected to him nonetheless, and I think its been the same for him...like im telling you this very honestly..all day yesterday..i just felt that maybe there was no time line of eight years in between you both at all...for everything just felt like so instantly connected in between the two off you...you know how like a wires stay connected to certain plug points..and the switch may remain off for a while...but the minute you switch it on, the current is back to flowing through those wires nonetheless...and I already do know that youv anyway got your emotional wires plugged deep into him..and I do think its been the same for him maybe.."

Well, I was right about the fact that I knew Mia is going to talk about this.I shrug my shoulders as I admit honestly – "well I know what you mean by that Mia...and to be honest to you..even iv been wondering that maybe in some matters.. the real timeline in terms of time doesn't even matter...but there's a difference no Mia...my hearts always been connected and plugged into him with the Wire Off Love...and well his may just have been connected/stayed plugged into me nonetheless too, over time out off guilt and angst......"

Mia looks at me as she narrows her eyes – " oh cmon...you know it...I know you can sense it too...theres something more than guilt in here Khushi...a lot more than guilt...guilt is obviously just a little part of this maybe...but...you know what I mean don't you?? I know you are perceiving it all too...you just don't want to adhere to it because off your previous experience with him...but that's all gone right...eight years long gone...why not atleast process these perceptions again??ok tell me something what if he says he wants another chance, another shot with you...then what??what are you going to do??"

Well, she's right about that. All day yesterday I did perceive by the way he's been around me that maybe this isn't only about guilt.And I have thought off the possibility off the latter question too – last night, until sleep took over, because off those very words Mia just discussed about, and the intense eyelocks with him after, before I stepped into my room.But then again – even though I know that hes genuinely sorry for it all - I am not confident about my Perceptions in my emotions when it comes to Him right now not because of the past – but because I am so Skeptical about my very own Reality – which has changed So Much over these years.

I am not the Same Khushi Anymore.

I mean – even though So much off me is Still the Same – yet there so much that Has Become Different.

Strange.How Life shapes You Into So Many Different Versions of yourself, as you go Along Transitting in this Journey off Life..

And I know Mia is waiting for an answer.

She won't let this go – without hearing me out on this.

I look at her sincerely and I admit honestly, shrugging my shoulders – " well the question you just asked me is that off a hypothetical situation Mia...lets not perceive or read more into things..."

Mia looks at me – " but I want you to answer me nonetheless , hypothetical situation or not...I want to know the first thought that comes in your heart regarding this...what if he says he wants a second chance??"

A sad smile curves my lips , naturally as I admit looking into her eyes – " well if you want to know the first thought that comes to my mind with regards to this...then id tell you honestly – that it's the thought that... it really is too late for that already, Mia...I am not ready for any sort of a relationship..i don't think I will be...so no point in discussing this further.."

Mia looks at me zapped as she asks – " no point in discussing this further? cut the crap...we are discussing it anyway...why is it too late?? I know you too well to know that this isn't about some ego trip you are indulging in...for you'v always loved him...I know how much your heart longs for him...then why??and I think that these eight years apart, that hes spent thinking that you were gone,he's truly repented over how much he hurt you back then for real, from his heart, and you know that don't you?and well, we both most definetly know what youv been through..so then why not???? Why is it too late for this second chance??"

I admit honestly with a sad smile – " well...yes, this isn't about me indulging in a ego trip surely Mia, where id be like, oh let me avenge him for hurting me back then...no ...most definetly not..you know iv never wished ill for him ever...and now...specially when I know he's repented enough over how he hurt me back then for eight long years Mia...which offcourse is a long long time, it most surely isn't about me going on about holding onto any pent up anger or hurt from the past...for you know...I was so overwhelmed when he mentioned that he sent a apology up to me looking out at the stars every single day off those eight years...and that look of sincerity in his eyes as he said that to me..made me feel like im ready to tell him that iv forgive him for it all completely...for real...its true Mia..in my heart right now...theres true forgiveness for him for sure...",

Mia narrows her eyes at me as she asks – " then why?? Youv always loved him, youv forgiven him too...then say if he asks...why is it too late for a second shot Khushi??"

I am sure my eyes are shining with love for my best friend as I put my arm around her shoulder lovingly and I take a deep breathe and I admit with a sad smile – " yes..iv forgiven him...yes..iv always loved him, longed for him, yes...but its still too late for the second shot...for there are other reasons why I have stayed clear from any sort of relationship until now..havent I Mia? Mia love, you love me way too much..and you are very biased towards me...but you are forgetting the fact that I am not the same Khushi anymore...in so many other vital ways...you know how it is..with my medical conditions.."

Mia's eyes well up as she says softly – " I figured this could be a reason...but Khushi...forget that for a bit no...think about what your heart feels about this..."

I smile sadly as I admit – " can I forget?Mia? can i?? ofcourse not ya...lets be practical please...and well my heart's been anyway receiving a lot off additional nutritional drips with the feel of just having him around Mia...and id never even thought that this opportunity would ever come my way..so im just happy with that now...you know...I just don't have it in me to be with anyone that way with my condition...I just don't....i can't expect anyone, else to embrace my scars Mia..i cant be so selfish...its for me to live with...its really too much and too complicated for any man to take in, handle or embrace...you know that...this isn't me falling for pressumptions..you know the severity off my condition..and things are only going to get more complex from now, medically...sometimes I wonder how difficult it must be getting for you all too..to kind off just to stand by me through it all...but you all are my family...you love me...so I know its natural for you all to understand...I can't expect anyone else to even understand this Mia..."

I can Never Thank My Family, Mia's family, Mia and Josh enough for Supporting me Through My Medical Ups and Downs in some ways or the other always.

Mia looks at me as she asks , conflict of emotions evident on her face– " I know what you mean by that...but khushi..why not be selfish in the matters of the heart once???just give yourself one chance maybe? Atleast try?and what if he is ready to embrace it? Look I just want to say...that if he talks about a second shot..how about you think off a possibility of telling him the entire truth..You wont know until you talk to him about it, khushi...please think this over...ok??"

I give her a sad smile – " well that's a hypothecial situation anyway...so relax...Mia...im just going to take each day as it comes remember"

Mia smiles at me – " yes ofcourse...do that...but im glad I got my point across to you..it will atleast make you think over it..",and I just give her a loving smile naturally,and right then we hear out Daksh calling out to us and I look at Mia as I say – " cmon then...you go first..ill be with you in two minutes..."

She nods and gives me a warm smile.

Mia makes her way out and I pick up my Skydiving eye gear, my helmet and my Harness and I touch it lovingly, and I wipe a tear that had come up in the corner off my eye on reflex – as I close my eyes and I shift my Focus on the Two Personal Emotional baggages that I want to Unload off my Shoulders as I jump out the Plane today.

One being – the unintentional ways in which my actions have Wronged Arnav over all these Years.

And Second being – the Irreversible twist off Fate , all those years ago, that Did save my Life, but left me with a Scar that I can Never Undo.( It took me a Long Time to Come to Terms with This – and for a first couple off years into SkyDiving – this Twist off Fate – was what I would Focus on Forgiving and Letting Go and Embracing – everytime I Jumped out the Plane – and I have embraced it – but if I were to explain the situation – its like the emotional baggage that came along in my systems with regards to this initially – was like a Eiffel Tower off Emotional Baggage, and over the years as iv let go and embraced it all over time..its like the emotional baggage with regards to this is – maybe now like this Small House with just a Ground floor and A First Floor – which does overwhelm my Heart every now and then in personal vulnerable moments when I am alone – for its only natural – and then obviously the next time I SkyDive, I focus on letting go and forgiving it all , a little bit more – unloading the Overwhelmed Baggages bit by bit..with a Hope that Hopefully one day – even this one storied House off Emotional Baggage will eventually reduce to a Ground floored House and then probably just exist like a Little Dent in my Emotional Being..with some more time down the Line – for I am obviously working on this.. )

And wait - I think you all must be wondering – why did I mention to Mia, the words - Severity of my Condition?

Well , Because my medical condition with regards to my reproductive system is pretty severe and irreversible – for I Can obviously never Conceive or be a mother because I don't have my Uterus in my body, and even though Science has advanced so much and there are techniques like IVF etc, Surrogacy through IVF etc, they most definetly cannot help me, in becoming a biological parent or a mother too because My Uterus was removed Out off my Body Eight Years Ago, hence I obviously faced a Halt in my Reproductive health in terms off Mensturation immediately after the surgery eight years ago..but with time..its like...My Ovarian Health kind off went down naturally in all these years, as a affect after the surgery, and despite the hormone medications to deter the detoriation of my ovarian health by a couple of years, for usually a woman would hit what they call a Surgical Menopause in terms off their Ovarian Health as well by a time line of five years after the Hysterectomy, but because of the hormonal therapy and medications I had been on , I kind off hit that Stage too about 18 months Ago – which offcourse has had a lot off additional side affects on my estrogen levels and other vital hormones as well – (and I am still on Medications and Hormonal therapy to Manage the Balance off hormones in my systems – so that the imbalance and diminishing of the anyway negligible estrogen production in my body doesn't lead to any other health issue).

So basically.

Me staying away from Relationships narrows down to two things, first being the Irreversible Fact off My Reality that I can not be A Parent biologically in any way – be it naturally or with the Help Off Science.( The reason why being able to adopt is so so so so so important to me, for that is the only way – I can ever Experience a journey into Parenting and Motherhood)

.And the second reason being - that I also have a medical hormonal condition that needs constant medical help and management,and its only going to get more complex to manage from now on since my Ovarian health has also been hitting its all time low, even though I look after my Health and Fitness well otherwise - (as in I exercise and work out rigorously in the late evenings, so that the benefits of healthy exercising can work both ways for me , as in it keeps me otherwise physically fit as I need to be, so that I can continue sky diving and second, so that it helps me have a better impact on my systems so that it can manage all those crazy hormone fluctutaions as and when they happen), - but still, despite all of my best efforts – at times, it gets really overwhelming and complex for me too deal with and manage myself through it all,on those days when I experience certain side affects and lows/mood swings etc, that I most definetly know that I am not comfortable with sharing this part off my life with anyone apart from my family,Mia's family and Mia and Josh – for I am nothing but a freaking pool off a deep emotional mess, whenever I experience those Lows,(And this does happen once/twice every month) and sometimes in those times when it gets very overwhelming, I also do turn to talking to my medical counsellor , whose helped me cope up with my situation in terms off my Medical Condition over the first couple of months after the surgery ,years ago, and then also recently for the couple of months after I hit the Surgical Menopause in terms off my ovarian health 18 months ago– for offcourse medically, physically and mentally - its just been a lot my body and my head has had to absorb and process and cope up with – even though I am technically just 28!

And.Also.

One More Fact.

Most importantly, I don't think, I really have it in me to share the emotional vulnerability in my heart with regards to my medical condition – with Arnav because I am afraid off spotting Pity and Sympathy in his Eyes for Me, and then too add to that he will also go on a guilt trip surely after knowing the truth as he will blame himself for the cause and affect chain maybe - and then to top it all – not to forget what a emotional mess off tears I will be if I ever were to think off opening up to him about this.

And.

I do not think I have the Courage in me – to Cry in front off him Yet.

Just like – I don't have the courage in me – to even let him get a Whiff of the deep emotions for him that Still Grip My Heart.

So Yeah.

The Scenario around me is kind off Really Complicated – I know.

But it is what It Is – Gotta Embrace It – Gotta Keep Moving On – Anyway.

I Gotta Just Keep Unloading These Emotional Baggages with Regards to my Medical Conditions – Anyway.

For I love MySelf quite deeply – and I most definetly Have a Forever To Love You, Commitment with Myself first, Nonetheless.

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8:00 AM – IN THE PLANE

ARNAV'S POV

I watch the Professional SKYdivers from the Team – jumping out One By One – out off the Plane, and I look at Khushi –totally Awed and Fascinated – and she obviously understood my Gesture, for she Gave me a Knowing Smile – which Meant – I know what you mean.

But now that I think off it – I still think – I am even more Fascinated by just the Sight off the Khushi 2.0 -the SkyDiver Version, sitting Across off Me right now,for I literally haven't been able to Tear my eyes away from Her as usual, ever since she stepped out of the locker room a while ago into My Line of Vision – in her Skydiving suit, with her headgear, and eye gear and harness in Hand, before we got onto fixing the Safety Harnesses in their place on ourselves, and then proceeded to get on this Plane with everyone.

She literally Checked – if MY Harness was in Place – Five times, Herself.

Just like she made me Display the Technique shed taught me to Her – Five Times, earlier to that.

And she also Had Mia and Daksh – check on My Harness Two times Each Too – as we got on the Plane.

I don't know if she's always this Extra Careful with Everyone..but my Heart would Like to bask in Joy at the Thought that Maybe , just maybe she is being this extra careful, because its Me.

Ha! You Wish – Raizada.You Wish!

She's obviously maybe always this Careful with everyone.

I am distracted in my thoughts as i hear Mia's voice come in my ears, as she heads to the edge of the plane – " ok then Raizada...ill see you both down in a bit....have fun...leapting out..",and I nod at her excited and she pats my arm, gives me a smile and then she winks at Khushi, and then just like that she Freaking Jumps off the Plane!!!!!!

She was the last one to Jump Off the Team.And I say instantly , grinning at Khushi, for now its just Me and Her and the Pilot and Jack , but the two of them are huddled close near the cockpit and we are at the Further end near the tail end of the plane – " ok so...they all made that really Kool...but to be honest.. I am getting a little nervous now...Khushi...for real..."

And Guys, Did I mention – and The Door of this Plane is like Open.

Yeah.

Literally Open.

It Has been Open ever Since we Took Off – so that We can Enjoy The View.

And The Views are obviously Thrilling – but I think – we are at a Really High Height!

Khushi chuckles as she says, passing me a bottle of water – " here sip on some ...but not too much..ok?? I wouldn't want you to throw up as we jump out..Mr Tycoon for Real..oh my god...just look at that nervous frown up your forhead...relax...the planes now taking us lower by 2000 ft in altitude..thats where we will jump from",she finishes with another Mischevious chuckle.

I sip on the water, gulping down two sips as I narrow my eyes at her – " oh you find this funny don't you Miss SkyDiver??"

She nods and grins – " well..yes...a tad bit little...",and she pauses as she asks – " hey...if you are uncomfortable..you can still back out...as in ...you have a couple of minutes to decide..."

I look at her determined as I reply instantly – " well, im going to Jump for sure..just nervous...natural right??"

Khushi smiles and nods – " natural..yes...so if you are sure...then I think we need to start fixing up our Harnesses together, since Jack just gestured to me from the cockpit that we shall be at our altitude in precisely three minutes..."

Jack was the Photographer – who was going to Dive with us in a Wingsuit and capture my Skydiving Experience.

We already have Our Safety Head Gears and Eye Gears On.And Khushi already has her Parachute Backpack and other Gears Ready up her Shoulders!

She looks so Freaking Amazing and Fascinating.

I am Smitten to a Height of a Level , I cannot really Explain.

I nod at Khushi,and she now Gestures me to Stand and I do, and she stands to, and we obviously bend a little, to adjust to the celiling height of the plane, and she instructs me to Turn around, and I follow.She starts to Work her way around Fixing Our Harnesses Together for ,obviously position wise since she is the Professional, I will be tied to her Harness, and a couple of seconds later I hear her say softly into my ear, from behind– " ok then..we are all set Arnav 2.0...ok wait...hold on...let me just double check your harness with mine...one more time maybe...iv checked it twice already...but still...",and she proceeds on to do the same.

To be Honest – Khushi is really Close Behind Me, and I feel my heart starting to Glow with the vibe and feel of having her, snug up so Close to me After Ages.

Her soft voice falls in my ears – " ok..so..yes..all set...you are Safely tucked into My Harness, Mr Tycoon..."

I nod at her – " thank you khushi ",and I ask on reflex – " should I display the technique iv learnt out to you, one more time??"

She chuckles and her voice falls on my ear softly from behind – " no..no...youv got it right already...don't worry about it...I make everyone display it to me three times mostly...but with you..i just had to be more careful, since Mr.Tycoon..this is totally out the blue for you...as in...people who usually plan to skydive usually have been thinking about it for days to weeks if not for months...so they are kind of prepped in their head...but you are doing it on impulse...so...and...also because...", and she pauses.

I ask immediately – " because??". I want to know the answer to this because.

She chuckles – " well to be honest to you..i am just being extra careful and precautious with you, because it is the first time, I am jumping out as a professional, with someone I have known personally at some point in my Life...so yeahhh..."

"really????",I ask on impulse.

"yes Arnav 2.0...really..."

My Heart Indulges in a SummerSault with that peice of information, just imparted to me, but I don't know if I like the sound off – someone I have known personally at some point in my Life – because it feels like she's talking about Me ,and Us – In Past Tense.

Well. Technically.We'v Been Past Tense.

But she's always been My present Too.

Always.

She just doesn't know it Yet.

Just like she Doesn't know that, I am going to Beg her to give me a - Second Chance Very Soon.

On that note – something in my Gut tells me that I should do it as soon as possible, because technically, I have waited for this Moment for a Very Aching Long Already.

Haven't I ??

For Eight Aching Long – Tortourous – Pained – years that I have Spent Without Her.

But I am scared off Overwhelming her too.

I am still on that line off thought and I hear Khushi say into my ear again – " ok then Arnav 2.0 we are all set...and Jack is going to be with us in 60 seconds...and hes going to start recording your video...before he reaches..us..theres something I want to tell you..before we Jump out..."

I turn my head a little sideways to the back so that I can look into her eyes a little since she is now Right up Close Behind Me and my eyes lock with hers as I ask with a smile – " any last minute tips for me...I am already recapping all the tips youv already given me until now in my head..."

Khushi smiles and says softly, sincerity shining in her eyes – " well no additional tip Arnav..i just wanted to let you know before we jump out, that I truly have forgiven you....for real...for there is literally not even a minute molecule of grudge in me, or any atoms of any hard feelings whatsoever in me anymore...with regards to whatever happened in between us in the past...it's a bygone truly, and I just wanted you to know this, before you jump..you know just incase you do want to work on unloading the guilt and angst as we jump out, and experience the feel of letting it go a little, as we glide down in the parachute, before we touch base.."

I FALL IN LOVE WITH HER.

FOR THE ZILLIONTH TIME - AGAIN.

She's Killed me With that Look of Sincerity in Her Eyes RIGht now – Once Again.

I know, she means it.

She does.

Its in her eyes.

I just don't know what to say to her, as in How do I Thank Her??

I take a deep breathe as I keep my gaze locked with her's and I say – " thank you Khushi....you have no idea what this means to me...to hear you say that..."

She gives me a nod and a wonderful smile as she says with a wink – " cmon then Mr Tycoon for Real...lets jump out off this plane and aim to Move on from Our Flaws for real...or wait...a little correction to that...how about if I say...aim to fly on from our flaws, you know since its more suitable to the description of what we are about to do..."

I chuckle instantly and I nod at her, and our eyes lock again.

Right then in comes Jack's excited voice in our ears as he first goes out to the edge of the plane and tucks his one leg into the side of the plane door and faces us and he flashes the camera to my face with a gesture saying that the video is now on and he asks – " ok Arnav...so all set...you are seconds away from Jumping out of the plane for the first time ever...nervous much?"

I hear Khushi chuckle behind me and I admit looking straight into the video – " not much actually...pretty relaxed now..for you know I am with a professional, I'd trust more than just my life with...I trust her, more than anything in the world..."

And I look back sideways briefly to look at Khushi and I smile at her, and she nods at me and gives me a heartfelt smile, as she now nudges us to the Edge of the Plane and she says excitedly – " ok Mr Tycoon for Real, on the count of one two three...we Jump...keep your eyes open ok? take a deep breathe...and let go...I got you...enjoy yourself...ok?you can scream a little too if you want..."

I nod.

Guys.

We are right at the Edge of the Plane.

In Comes Khushi's Voice into my ears – " One Two Three..."

And I take a Deep Breathe and Leap Forward.

And.

WE JUMP.

(AUTHORS note - Including a Video link from YouTube about a Bloogers Experience over SkyDiving over the Palm...you can watch it if you wish too before reading further to get the Feel off It )

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ARNAV POV CONTINUES

I feel the Wind Hit My Face almost Instantly as I feel Khushi getting into the Position with her Arms and Legs Above me, and I follow suit and I do Scream A Little in Exhiliration too – as I Enjoy the Thrill and the Exhiliration off it all, as I look down into the gorgeous View of the Palm, below Me.(Jack's Recording it all)

I feel Like I am Flying – for Real.

This is Really Kool and Insane.

Exhilirating and Liberating for Real.

And all of a Sudden , I feel Myself, being Spun Around in Two Crazy Spins in the Sky .( which I know Khushi is controlling and administering with her momvements , since she'd told me about it that it's the safest thing to Experience while Flying down and Fun too)

And I love the Thrill and the Rush.

And just for a Second, now I close my eyes,to act on Khushi's ide as we are freefalling down to Gravity and I literally tell myself that mentally Unload that Immense Baggage of Guilt, that's always consumed my Insides with Related to Our past, and I visualise myself, dunking the damm bagge off my Shoulders – as I tell myself, that Khushi has forgiven me for real...its About time, I Forgive myself too, and Let it Go and Move on from My Flaw then, for Real.

Or as Khushi said it – Fly On from Our Flaws.

And ten seconds later, as I open my eyes – we are still FreeFalling Down, and all off a Sudden, I start to feel a little Free-er in My Heart – for Real.

Offcourse , this isn't Magic that its going to be all Ok – with just a Snap off a Finger.

But what I think is that this did serve as a wonderful exhilarating trigger, and I think in a little more time,id be able to feel a completely Light and Let Goe-d within.

I Cheer and Scream a Little More.

And Khushi spins us around in three to four rounds Instantly in the Sky as I hear her Whoo-ing too , and Jack gestures and calls out to us to Pose for the Camera, and We Do!

And about ten seconds later, I feel a Sudden Lurch up and I realise that Khushi's probably opened up the Parachute Now, and even though theres a lot off hustle around my ears with the wind, I hear her voice come through as she asks – " you ok??Arnav??"

I nod immediately as I turn a little sideways, not sure if she can hear me – " yes I am...ok...this was amazing...khushi...can you hear me??"

Her voice comes through the wind as she now starts to work up the glider, and I am so freaking fascinated, because she is such an amazing Pro at this – " yes I can...hear you....Arnav 2.0...the winds decent...apt to what I need....why don't you enjoy your amazing view now...while I take care of our Glider now..."

I look at the View Around Me, as We Continue with our Flight Down, and I am Obviously Awe-d with my Experience.

And a Lot more so – because Its With Khushi.

My Khushi.

My Precious Adorable Geeky Scientist + BusinessWoman+SkyDiver!

And I feel her adjust the glider with her Hands so that we now Steer a little Sideways over the Palm, and she makes it all Seem So Smooth and Easy as if it were a Cakewalk!

Clearly She's spent Hours and Years into This. I can only Imagine the Skill and the Determitaion and the Fitness – this Insanely Thrilling Sport Requires, you know since I am now experiencing It.

No Wonder her Eyes Light Up that way even more brighter than the Northern Star whenever the Topic of Skydiving Comes up.

She Loves This.

Its in her Vibe.

I can sense IT.

Freaking Fascinating, Captivating, Enchanting, Alluring - This Woman Is.

And as we Keep Gliding Down – I just feel Awed by the View around me as I soak it all Up and the exhilarating emotion too – added by genuine admiration and respect for Khushi- as it keeps Dawning on me – as to How Freaking Amazing she is at This!!!!

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Ten Minutes Later – Arnav's POV Continues

I finish up my after the skydive – excited tourist video byte with Jack, and he tells me that it shall be ready to be shared with me in forty minutes in a USB, which is ok for me, for this is exactly how much time, I have with just Khushi alone now, before everyone from the Team lands down after their practice session up in the SKY.I nod at him and thank him and I see him make his way in towards the indoor Dome, where the photography area is within the Huge Indoor space and I look back instantly now, with the aim to now ask Khushi, if she needs any help with packing up the parachute.

But – I am fascinatingly surprised once again to see, that its already Handled all of that , all by herself with Great Ease, and she's now Swinging up the Parachute Backpack up her Shoulder and I walk up to her excited midway and shes giving me one of her wonderful smiles , which makes me now act up on Impulse for I just take her by the hand, and pull her into a Crushing Hug and I just hold onto her Tight as I say, wrapping my arms around her possessively – " godammit...that was insane....so amazing....Khushi...I am so proud off you....just look at you...so amazing...you know all through the glide down in the parachute, I was literally thinking – how freaking awesome you are at this...Khushi...seriously...this is a wonderful feat..indeed...."

And I hug her tight, loving the feel of her in My Arms.

I think she's gone into some sort of a shock because off my Sudden Hug, because I do not feel her hugging me back, nor has she pushed me away yet, and I just brush her hair tenderly as I admit – " your idea...it helped me...for real...I think it did serve as a trigger for real...khushi...thank you....ill be able to forgive myself now...I really think I will be able too..."

Khushi now pats my back with her one hand, but she doesn't hug me back and to my dismay, she now slowly pulls back and she steps back from the circle of my arms and she gives me casual grin, again the twinkle in her eye was accompanied by calm and composure and she says – " and I am glad...that my idea helped you...Arnav 2.0...and looks like someone also really thouroughly enjoyed the freefall...I mean iv seen you scream and cheer that way...after a long long time...I mean I know you do it when you sit on....",and she pauses in her sentence and our eyes lock.

I know what she's about to say.

She obviously Knows.

For back then in time, she would obviously Plan, day trips for us to Adventure Theme parks, and we would sit on all the Crazy Rollercoasters – together.

And I complete the sentence for her as I say with a smile - " on crazyyy scary rollercoasters..."

We share a warm laugh and she gestures me to now start walking towards Indoors.

And I do, and I look at her sideways and I say with a grin – " remember that one time on that crazy backward rollercoaster in Thorpe park??"

Khushi chuckles as she looks at me – " you mean the one on which we both screamed so much that it literally took our voices two days to get back to normal from hoarse??"

I grin – " yeah...that very one...but it was an amazing day... wasn't it??".My Mind goes into an Insant rewind Down the Memory Lane to that Wonderful Amazing Day out with Her. Now that , I look back in retrospect, its Really True, that I really was the Happiest Version of Myself, in every moment around her.

Just like I am that Happiest Version of my self right Now.

Khushi nods as she gives me a natural smile,as if shes recalling the memory of the day in her head, just like me – " yes it was...it was a good day Arnav..."

I ask, inquisitive – " tell me something...do you still binge on Popcorn a Lot , during theme park visits?"

Khushi shoots me a amused look as she states – " and I plead guilty, your honour...my love for popcorn is still the same...I am still very loyal to what my taste buds love, Arnav 2.0...and once again...I cant believe you would remember..."

I grin as I open the door for her, and she steps in and I spot the little café type of a area at the other end, with some vending machines around and I ask – " well...if you are still loyal to your tastebuds...then I think you still enjoy a guava juice once in a while? Let me see if the wending machine has some...since the café kiosk is still closed, since its so early...."

Khushi grins as she gives me an amused look again – " well...ill walk with you...you tell me...are you still only drinking apple juice??"

I nod at her – " yes I am..."

We obviously know a lot of intricate details about one another, since we were so closely living together, in those last four months, before...

We reach the vending machine and Khushi says grinning – " ok so I spot my guave juice in there..and your apple one too...",and I offer her some dhiram notes from my pocket to help us get the same, and she nods and takes it from my hand and gets us our juice tetra packs, and we now make our way to the little table ,and she places her parachute backpack on the side gently, and she says – " ok so a little juice break time for us, until everyone comes...I think should take them another thirty minutes...",she says, looking at her watch on her wrist and she sips on her juice.

I am fighting the Urge to Kiss her.

Again.

Correction.

I am fighting the Urge to Ravage her Lips.

Again.

I gulp down my impulsive intense emotions along with the couple of sips of my juice and I place the tetra pack on the table and I keep my eyes on her, as I ask instantly – " I know youv forgiven me khushi..and I want to ask you something??will you answer??"

Khushi gives me a confused look but she shrugs her shoulders and she says casually – " sure..ofcourse...what is it??"

And just as I am about to ask her my question she says – " arnav...will you give me five minutes...I think I do want to change in my tee and denims..ill see you in five minutes??ok??the locker room is like right here..i usually change out of my suit after diving..and I need to freshen up too"

Well it was a Pity that she wanted to Change out of that Killer Hot SkyDiving Suit of Hers – so soon.

My Eyes were Having the Time of their Freaking Life.

But then I wanted her to be Comfortable too...before I asked her the Question on my mind – since I wasn't going to let her Escape amidst it.

I nod, and she gives me a smile and picks up her juice pack and she says – " And I will just gulp this down...in the meanwhile..."

I nod.

But.

Wait.

Did, she just escape from here, because she was nervous about what i was going to ask her maybe?

I don't know.

I sip on my juice, and I tap my feet patiently, on the ground, as I look around the deserted area around me, which will soon come to life, as it opens up for tourists, in an hour from now maybe.

I think ill just Freshen up too in the meanwhile.

Minutes later, as I walk out, I am hoping to Spot Khushi there already.

But she isn't There – yet.

Dammit.

Its been a little over five minutes now and she isn't Back Yet.

I was just about to ask her to think about US and give me another Chance, before she walked in to Change.

I walk a little closer up to near where the Locker room is, the one she went into, and I now hear her chirpy voice – " well its great that you are done with Lunch on time today, Josh...ok listen...I gotta rush now...how about if I call you later??"

I feel my insides Groan.

Josh.

She is talking to that Josh – again.

Why does he have to Call Khushi so much anyway??

I mean – whats his Problem??

Just let her Enjoy her Holiday Man.

And right then for the first time ever, I hear this Man's deep voice come from the other end – " oh cmon Khushi...don't hang up right now..five minutes..alright? it's the first time iv gotten you on the videocall anyway..ever since you left for your expedition into the Middle east...I haven't seen you what seems like a really long time...already...I miss you.."

Ok .

Wait.

This Man – is clearly Into Her.

Does she not sense this?

I mean uptil now, I just thought its her Family and Mia's family whose trying to play Cupid in between of them.

Ok and technically I know, its bad manners to eaves drop.

But I stay stauted to my Spot anyway – because I really feel the need to Hear the rest off this Conversation.

I hear Khushi joke as she says – " ya ya..as if...Joshua Karras Manuel is on on being his cheeky self..."

I hear his reply in a deep , sincere tone – " khushi..shut up...for once can we be serious about this...please...you know how I feel about you...I know you do...???"

OK.

My Insides Roil up In a Emotion – I cant seem to explain in words again.

I hear khushi say – " josh...please...can we not discuss this?? You know everything..you know how it is..iv never kept you in the dark..or lied to you about anything....you know the equation from my end...all I can say is...im just so freaking sorry about this Josh..."

Ok.Wait.

I think Khushi already Knows that theres something from His end too- in there.

And she is not Into Him that way – she's made it Clear to Him, I guess.

I hear Josh's Voice – " look at me please...don't look away right now...I never imagined id say this to you on screen...but I just cant act all kool about it and keep it all huddled in anymore...I know what the equation is from your end...have always known...but I still can't help what I feel Khushi...and I think I do need to say this out loud to you once atleast...even though I know your answer already...I still need to tell you..."

I hear Khushi say with a disturbed sigh – " Josh...please...don't...its going to hurt me to hurt you that way.."

I hear Josh say instantly – " I don't care if it hurts after...its hurting a lot more keeping it all bottled in...you know I have feelings for you Khushi...very very deep ones..way beyond just our close friendship...you know I do...iv been feeling this way for you for a couple of years now...and you know I tried to control my feelings, I tried to not feel for you this way...because iv always known your stand on the same......but it happened anyway Khushi..."

THAT ROILED UP EMOTION THAT I CANT EXPLAIN – KIND OF HEIGHTENS.

Its not Jealousy.

Its something way beyond That.

Its Jealousy plus Rage - I guess.

I hear Khushi's sigh – " god...josh...please...its so complicated with me emotionally and otherwise too... now more than ever...and my otherwise condition is only going to get a lot more complex from now on..i am certain that I don't want to step into relationships, with anyone...like be it anyone...Josh...i just cant be with anyone that way...please.. you know everything...you know how it is..please.."

Wait.

What Otherwise Condition is she talking about?

What does she mean by that?

I am still trying to comprhened my Confusion when I hear Josh's voice – " exactly...I know everything...that's exactly why I am requesting you to think this over again Khushi...think about it once...with a honest heart? You know I don't care about the otherwise condition...look..I know you'v made things clear from your end...and I know what the equation is from your end...but then...our families also want us to think about this seriously khushi...listen.....lets discuss this over please?and ofcourse if you say no...then it's a no...and nothing will change in between us, I promise you about that..."

I hear Khushi ask in shaken sigh, angst evident in her voice – " nothing will change? Are you sure?? you know you are important to me Josh...I wouldn't have gotten through the last so many years without you and Mia...you know that don't you??"

I feel my Confusion rise again – what is she Hinting over Again? Clearly something Quite Substantial has Happened that I have no Clue About.I don't know if this is just a Hint towards Our Break Up in the past?

I hear Josh say, in a sincere tone again – " ofcourse...nothing will ever change Khushi...I have known the equation from your end..always...im just giving it my every shot nonetheless..so that in my heart..ill know that I tried my best atleast..."

I hear Khushi say – " Josh...ok...let me think this over..can we talk about this when im back...its just 11 days..right? ill see you back in Queenstown in just 11 days from now.. and then  we will talk about this...ok??"

MY INSIDES FREEZE.

Khushi is going to think over This?

Over a Possibility of a Future with Josh?

Didn't she say that for her – he would always be just a close Friend, more like a very close Family Friend??

I feel Something Inside me Break Into a Zillion Pieces.

Something what?

My Heart.

And it brings along a Pain so Strong that it doesn't even Make a Noise in My Being even though everything inside off me..is Breaking.

Right then I hear Josh sigh – " just saying that so that it doesn't hurt me much Khushi..isnt it? Its on your face darling..its in your eyes...I know you just said that lets talk this once im back because you think if you say no immediately...itll break my heart very harshly...isn't it??"

Wait.

What?

I hold my Breathe as I wait for Khushi's reply.

Khushi say something, anything – anything at all.

Fast.

I hear Khushi sigh now, and her voices breaking a little, its vulnerable – " josh..im so sorry...you know it...my hearts dysfunctional...for real...so much has happened...I don't have it in me to...im so sorryy...",and she pauses and I hear her swallow a sob.

I feel the Pain in my Being Reduce a Little.

But My Heart is going out too Khushi too, becuase of the Vulnerability in her Voice...what does she Mean..so Much has hAppened?? Why do I feel like theres something more in Here...as in shes just not Hinting to our terrible Break Up!

What is this thing?

I hear Josh sigh too as he says – " godammit..dont cry...just wipe that freaking tear off your eye right now..and don't feel guilty about this ok?? nothing changes...nothing will ever change...im still here..for you always...as one of your closest friends..."

Khushi says – " I do think im being unfair to you maybe..."

I hear josh say in a lighter tone this time – " oh please...now don't you go feeling guilty about it...we feel what we feel don't we? Its my problem not yours at all...and ill be ok..i promise..."

I hear Khushi ask – " sure?? are you sure??i hate to hurt you this way though..im so sorry...I am..."

The Zillion Broken Pieces of My Heart have Magically Stiched Back into Its Place.

My heart is Whole again – backed with a Very Strong Hope.

Hope that I may have a chance In here be able to have a SECOND shot with Khushi...because we have History! Yes..A very chaotic but yet Intense History!

Josh says – " yes...don't worry but, one thing remains common in my heart irrespective anyway – and that is the hate I have in my heart for that bloody idiot you were with in London... just like your family hates him..trust me he ever comes in front off me...im going to freaking break his bones...or maybe Rahul will beat me to it...I still don't understand why you wont tell us who he is..nor will Mia...or Rahul and Me would have found him ages ago and beaten the hell out off him..."

OK.

THIS REFERENCE IS TO ME – Surely.

I hear Khushi say instantly – " and that's precisely why I never have, nor I will ever tell you guys about him...just let him be ok?and stop sending curses his way like I always tell you...and please...its about time you all..stop hating on him Josh...please...hes a good man ok? a very very good man...we just were in different headspaces in our life back then Josh..and we parted on a good note..no bridges burnt...no hard feelings...things didn't work out in between of us back then..yeah..so what? Break ups happen all the time...you gotta be gracious about it...accept and move on..."

Wait.

What?

Did Khushi just Jump to My Defence Like that?

My Heart Glows – even though I know I don't deserve her Kindness with regards to the Ref to the Past.

I hear Josh sigh – " yeah yea...iv heard that a zillion times from you...but you know the breakup is not why we hate him...look at all that happened after? You know its more about that..."

WAIT.

WHAT IS HE IMPLYING AGAIN?

WHAT HAPPENED AFTER?

WHAT DON'T I KNOW?

AND WAIT – WHY IS JOSH IMPLYING ALL THIS HATE TOWARDS ME AS IF I HAVE BEEN THE LAST ONE KHUSHI WAS INVOLVED WITH ROMANTICALLY ?

WAIT.

WAS I?

THE FIRST AND THE LAST?

I feel Something so Strong in my Being at the Possibility.

Was it possible – that just like I haven't been with anyone after Her – she hasn't been with anyone too?

I need to know this now.

I hear Khushi say – " oh please...we are not going there..ok?and look your phones ringing..you gotta go for a meeting now my dear Joshua..ill call you later?"

I hear his voice – "ok yeah...do that...gotta run for a meeting too..and you guys gotta full on fun time planned up in the dessert today right? Like quad biking, and dune bashing etc etc...I cant believe I missed out on this fun...damm work ya.."

I hear Khushi's chirpy voice and chuckle now come through – " yup damm your work...now you work..and I shall return to have a good day in the Middle east on my holidayyy...so excited about that...ok bbyeeeeee......."

I quickly make my way back to the seat I was in, deep in thought before, Khushi comes out, so that she doesn't catch me eaves dropping – offcourse.

And my Head is in an Overdrive.

As I am trying to Comprehend everything what I have Just Heard.

Clearly theres Something in Here – that I am Missing to get my Head Around.

And right then I see Khushi walking up towards me with a smile up her face, and I gaze at her wondering – what is it that's Hidden Behind that Smile of hers?

I need to talk to her – Now more than Ever.

As in we'v been talking but what I mean is I need to talk to her About What she is Feeling – and I think the only way she will Open up to me more on the same is – If I Tell her About what I am feeling?

What I have always Felt?

And maybe – I don't think I should wait Longer to tell Her the Truth.

Khushi takes her seat opposite me ,shes all changed into her Denims and Black round neck casual tee and she says with a smile – " sorry I just caught up on a call with Josh...so you wanted to ask me something??"

I give her a little smile as I admit – " yes...and its something very important.."

Khushi looks at me puzzled but she asks – " no worries.."

I steer to ask the first question on my mind that I need an answer to, and I look into her eyes as I ask intently – " tell me something...why did the Break up Happen?? I mean if you don't mind me asking?"

Khushi looks at me puzzled as she asks instantly – " what?? Huh? What kind off a question is that...are you hinting towards Our Break up from back then??are you crazy or what?"

I keep my eyes locked with hers as I ask , cryptically – " no no...khushi...I mean...I know why our break up happened...moreso because I was the fool of the highest order to let you go...I was an idiot for letting my anger take over me and ruining everything we had...but im talking about the one you were probably seeing after me..as in I know you mentioned you are single now...but im sure...there'd be someone you'd be seeing in between all these years right? I mean you are intelligent, gorgeous, beautiful, the perfect blend, of spunk , of fun, of humbleness, of niceness...you have the biggest heart...you are the perfect blend off just about everything Khushi...you are perfect...miss geeky scientist...just perfect...so I was just wondering what happened...did you break up with him? Or he did?"

Khushi shrugs her shoulders as she shoots me a genuine amused expression – " ok Mr Tycoon...thank you for those string of ajectives which I most definetly accept as compliments..but im sorry to say this but...I don't have any such interesting gossip off a break up tale off mine...to tell you about ..."

My heart Leaps Up with Joy.

She hasn't been with anyone in that way – after Me?????

Surely Theres Gotta Be Something in Her Heart still – for Meee.

Surely.

In some Hidden Corner – maybe – somewhere.

I had have to Work Very Hard maybe to Get that Hidden Corner back to Surface Maybe?

But I am ready to Give it My All.

I ask on Impulse, my gaze boring into Hers – " you haven't been with anyone after we parted??"

Khushi looks at me, keeping her eyes locked with mine – " yup...just like you haven't been with anyone after we parted??"

I ask on impulse, the question she asked me when I first told her my statement with regards to this – " why????"

She shrugs her shoulders giving me a genuine smile- " Mr Tycoon... do you really think I had time for anything apart from my books and studies and work all these years??? The only way I could have achieved all those degress in the time I did....if I had my face dipped only in the books...so yea..no time for the relationships scenes in my Life anymore...I told you...I just don't want to settle down that way...right?"

I nod.

And just as I am about to say something more, the door flings open, and we see the Team step in.

Khushi looks at me and she smiles – " Ill..be back in a bit..ok?"

I nod.

She gets up and makes her Way to Meet Everyone.

And I keep my eyes on Her - nontheless.

I had to talk to her Tonight.

I had to tell her the Truth.

I didn't have Time to Waste.

I recall her words to Josh – " ill be back in 11 days..."

Something in my gut tells me – I shouldn't wait Anymore.

If Unloading the Truth out to Her – Overhwhelms her, then ill be right there to Hold her Tight In My Arms through it all .

And Hold on to Her Tight – I most Surely Will.

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