3. 𝙃𝙞𝙨 𝙐𝙣𝙚𝙭𝙥𝙧𝙚𝙨𝙨𝙚𝙙 𝙋𝙖𝙞𝙣

ᴋᴀʀᴀɴ'ꜱ ᴘᴏɪɴᴛ ᴏꜰ ᴠɪᴇᴡ

I entered the dispensary, closing the door behind me and turned back to find her asleep on the hospital bed.

I went near her, and took the seat beside her on the stool, and took her hand in mine, as I recalled what happened outside, just few minutes back.

Few Minutes Ago
Outside The Dispensary
(After Faizi, Sanjana, Karan
Walked Out Of Dispensary.)

I punched my hand on the pillar, making my knuckles go red while Siddharth, Koel, Faizi and Sanju looked me wide eyed.

"Janaab ji, apne gusse pe control rakhiye!" said Faizi calmly to me.

Whereas I couldn't control myself as I almost yelled, "Voh Charu meri Monami pe attack krwa rahi hai, aur tu keh rha hai ki main shaan rahun!?"

Whereas Siddharth instantly came near me and whispered, "Not now, Sir! Aapne hi kaha tha na ki Monu ko sach nahi pta chal sakta?"

"Aur ab aap hi aise chilla rhe hain! What if Monami hears us?" questioned Koel, back firing my own words.

I rolled my eyes, as I went near the door and opened it slightly, and peeped in to check if she's asleep or not.

Her eyes were closed, probably she is drowsy after her forehead wound and recent happenings so she slept early, I sighed before closing the door.

I looked at five of them, and signalled them to move from here, and we can talk in the cafeteria.

We reached the cafeteria, and settled ourselves on the table as Koel interrogated, "Sir, exact plan kya hai? I mean, hum Monami ko en sabme involve nahi kr rhe, I understand but aapko nahi lagta ki voh en sabme already involved hai?"

I nodded my head, Koel's right. Monami is already there in the game, but she thinks that I ain't alive anymore and so she is just left with the determination to stop Charu, if I reveal to her that I am alive, then she will cross her limits to protect me without thinking about herself.

"Plan is simple, main Balli banke yahaan academy mein rahunga as Charu's informant and mere kuch sources hain jo Charu ke saath hain, mere spies banke. And they are trained for this, so hume unki chinta nahi krni..." I told her and Siddharth, ignoring the second part of her question.

Both of them nodded their heads as I instructed, "Late hogya hai. Go to sleep. Kl ki drills miss krne ka option nahi hai, even after everything."

"Ulti Khopdi is back." said Koel.

"Agreed!" replied Siddharth enthusiastically.

I looked at them, crossing my arms around my chest as I threatened, "Koel, Siddharth kl 50 laps? Chahiye?"

And, they instantly nodded their heads in "No" as I walked out from the cafeteria, leaving the four alone as I was smiling to myself remembering their faces.

Present

While holding her hands, my eyes fell on her knuckles, they were red, probably because of the previous fight she had with Charu's goons, I don't know why but I started to examine her.

I examined her further, her face was quite pale but still better then the time when I saw her in that damn hospital room, my examining session was yet to stop as my hands traced her forehead wound, as I felt the pain when I touched it.

I so wish to stop myself from looking further, but then, my fingers traced the corner of her eyes, the dried tear marks were still there but hidden perfectly from the others due to her make-up skills.

My lips dried, as my eyes fell on her dried-red lips as I realised that she isn't taking care of herself.

Once upon a time, I was ready to kill the person because of whom even if she gets a scratch or the slightest of the pain, and here, she has cried buckets and the sole reason is me.

"I am sorry Rani Sahiba..." I started, taking a deep breath.

My grip around her hand tightened as I almost whispered, "I am very really sorry. Bohot galat kr rha hoon na main tumhare saath? I know tumhara Khadoos Shergill bohot bura hai. But, meri duty beech mein aarhi hai Monami, kya kron?"

A tear rolled down my cheeks, as I was holding hands of my beloved. I can hide my pain from the whole world but not her.

"Sabko lagta hai ki main tumse baat chupake galat kr rha hoon. But, am I really that wrong Monami? Kya tumhari safety chahna galat hai? I know ki sabko lagta hai ki tum aise zaada break ho rhi ho...." I said being hurt, does everyone think that I am this heartless to not see the pain of my love, my Monami, my Rani Sahiba?

A tear of mine fell on her hand, as she stirred in her sleep but didn't woke up, thanks to my fate.

I looked at her sleeping figure and continued, "Unhe kya lagta hai, ki Rani Sahiba ko todkar bhala Khadoos Shergill kaise juda reh sakta hai?"

"I am breaking with each passing moment when I have to pretend to be Balli infront of you, and then see your tears!" I confessed, as I choked at my own words.

Those who know about this plan thinks that I am being rude to you Rani Sahiba, but I just couldn't let any harm befell you!

Tears streamed down my eyes, I know that currently no one is in that state of mind to understand my point of view, but that doesn't mean I am inhumane. Does it?

"Sabko lagta hai ki main Ulti Khopdi hoon, and I agree ki main Ulti Khopdi hoon bhi, but kya yeh mera pain dikhe usme hindrance ban rha hai?" I questioned, even after knowing that she won't respond to it.

I am holding back myself from crying and breaking Monami, but I don't know that till how long will I be able to hide it.

It really broke me when I came infront of you in the hospital, and saw you in that vulnerable state.

The moment you threw that vase on me in the hospital, and I dodged it, how much did I wish to come near you and tell you that I am here, I am alive, your Khadoos Shergill is alive!

But, I was compelled to see you breaking infront of my eyes, and I didn't realised when the uncountable tears were running down my cheeks, as they knew no end.

Irony is that the hands which could wipe my tears off, doesn't even know that I am alive!

Unknown to what I was doing, I slowly kissed her forehead, a kiss full of love, affection and to tell her that I miss her.

"I am sorry Rani Sahiba, lekin main abhi bhi aapko kuch nahi bta sakta. Nahi bta sakta, kyunki main apne secret mission pe hoon. Kaash, main tumhe yeh samjha sakta, yeh bta sakta...." I whispered, my voice breaking.

I took a moment, as I stared at her face, I can stare at her for an eternity, without blinking my eyes, her face, her voice, and her love are the only things, which are making me function right now.

Or else, I would have been a living corpse by now. The moment when I saw you smiling with Baby, I felt that all my sorrows were coming to an end.

I felt so lively at that sole moment!!!

But wait, right now, a question was coming into my mind, making me question my very ownself, as I am having second thoughts about my decision.

I neared her sleeping figure and questioned, being broken from inside at the moment, "Am I wrong if I choose my duty and motherland over you or anything? Does it make me unforgivable?"

I chuckled sarcastically at myself, how could she answer my question but I wish that she could.

"Karann!" she whispered.

Was she awake all this time? Did she heard it all? What she must be thinking? I glanced at her, and realised that she is still sleeping, but is murmuring something, my name.

I went closer to hear what was she saying, as I heard her say, "Karan, main tumhare sacrifice ko waste nahi hone dungi....  Duty comes first!"

I peered at her, was it our soul connection that she knew what I wanted to hear right now?

I blinked.

I realised that sedatives had took over her again, as a smile appeared on my lips, a genuine smile.

"Thankyou Rani Sahiba, mujhe meri uljhan se nikalne ke liye. I promise, ki main tumhare aanson, humara itne time ka separation aur hum sabki mehnat waste nahi jaane dunga. Duty comes first." I said, as I assured her and myself.

I stood up to go and move out of the dispensary, when I felt a grip on my hand, and I just turned to find her holding my hand tightly.

I stepped back, and settling myself on the stool again, I just admired my sleeping beauty.

A hair lock was blocking my view of her angelic face, as I removed that hair strand, tucking it behind her ear carefully.

"Good Night Rani Sahiba." I uttered as I placed my head on the bed, as my hand was still in her grip.

Being with her is my solace and I can never get enough of her.

This is gonna be the most peaceful slumber of my life, and this is all that I have realised in this present moment, as finally I closed my eyes, letting the sleep took over me.

This was my unexpressed pain and Rani Sahiba, you took it all away!

I let go all my worries, stress and even my mission, all in this moment mattered to me was her, is her and will always be her!

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To be honest, I really don't know if I gave justice to this part or not.

This part is dedicated to serialfreek_14❤️ Happiest Birthdayyyy Love <3

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