I am feeling so light and so much of butterflies of bright rainbow coloured wings are running through the fountain streaming down to main stream flowing parallel to plain.

It looks so exquisite! Just a step and I can kiss the blank air. Then the drenched layer of coldness.

I am lying , may be flying on my back , the skyline is bright but it is not sunny however blue , birds are nowhere to be seen.

A sadness or emptiness hug me I thought. But I am in someone 's embrace and a soft pair of lips appeared to be the most delicate pads on my dry flat one. The wrap of reliable arms feels like a warm blanket of comfort , that stopped to be attracted by the gravity.

His eyes which were glittering was holding my reflection inside. In sync our lips tricked in smile in between the attachment. 

I let my eyelids to sleep only to meet that dark room like engulfed in never ending night.

The sharp quite monotonous sound took over my mind . The penetration which asked consent with a pinch with force then an interval of numbness when I felt a middle in my veins . A protest aroused from carpals to move correspondent to my metacarpal .

A burning sensation at somewhere and that.......that emptiness could not let me keep my eyes shut .
So , I opened to meet a....a redness. My nostrils got errect as my head throbbed dictating to throw the bike out.

Clogs and  clots of swelled flesh in coils all around.  I trembled in oblivion when my eye met the not like so darker thing lying on it.

I could only see red. And a thing which recognized me......no blurry....it's.......I saw it somewhere in pages of book as a very young little girl.....yes it's that alien insect like thing which from the terminals came in bending to the centre.

An...an embryo.

But it has a placenta --- that darker thing but where is its origin?

Following the string I found it before my bare skin. It is attached to my bare tummy. I was seduous to reciprocate when a smell of flesh and blood made mr feel like I am bathed in ........Blood....

A jet of red fluid . That embryo got wasted. Blood oozing out yet. And a less quite quite voice started resonating making me cover my ears but....but I can't.  I am  tied to something .

I can't breath.......

I feel cold..........

Free me.......

Get me out of here.

I AM DROWNING....

SAVE ME......

"You killed .... me.."

"You......killed me.."

"......killed ..me.."

"YOU  KILLED    ME"

"YOU DIDN'T WANT ME"

An innocent face which would become angelic if it was nourished.  But I can know it. Who is ....... "NOH"

I jerked up feeling cold sweat smearing on my forehead and cleavages. That's mean I haven't cured yet . But ...it that then why I dreamt it after this long.

Is it because Jungkook returned?

Still same. I my breast it heavy. Perked nipples and ' a soring pain' .

I looked at my soundly sleeping , Sian. Managing my unsteady situation l looked at the ceiling.

A sound of silence is  more dreadful that anything else. The dream not so unknown to me . I always had but stopped gradually having it when he, Kim Seokjin filled my lap with  Sian.

The bed was full ; the either side of my boy took my attention which was not vacant,  it was evidently clear Jeon Jungkook was totally invested to this child .

Only the child?

It must worth until he regrets. His will Ofcourse . Seeing Sian turning towards my side I settled back on bed. Thought I get diverted easily still I am unable to understand why thay dream sneaked this night so boldly.

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In this week I got least time to think about anything . My work pressure reached to the highest pick. Though I never missed ti spend time with my boy and he also got involved more with Mr. Jeon.

I do not know how long he will stay with us leaving all his business at Seoul.

What does he want even?

"Shit!" I was so loud that my driver looked back . " It's okay Giran , you drive. "

I got so many missed calls from Seokjin hyung . I don't wanna face a furious him.

"I am back!" Pushing the door open I cried back but had to switch the light on as it was midnight dark.

"Where are the men?"

Taking off my coat I hunged it on the coat stand and walked to the center of the room then a  ear cracking sound and a giggle mixed birthday sound startled me .

"Happy Birthday....Baby ....mummy."  the two named got overlapped .

With scowl I looked at my hidden boy looking endlessly cute and the big man showing his bunny teeth fully .

Bunch of cute people! Aish how lucky.

Both of them approached to me.

I saw a sudden hurry . Sian pushing Him to place the cake . As he was dumbfounded infront of me , travelling gaze from Sian to me .

Then I felt a heavy weight on me with," C'mon dadah. "  Side of my face vibrated as he spoke

"Happy birthday --Y/--- love"

A sudden heat grew on my cheek. I cannot help palm my face mentally. I hugged him back as Sian was expecting me .

With a  joyful cry he did his small dance.

In one way just for Sian's sake I was  slowly slowly guarding down but not that I can't pull it back again.

Actually,  feeling nothing for long I began to forget how it feels when we feel something. The warmth once I thought if give my beloved is now all cold.

"Let's cut the cake ." A lot of anticipation were twinkling in his eyes.

Was he wanting me that bed!

In this way I felt the day to succumb its end. The enclosed echoing sound if an airplane made me smile having the reminder how would've Sian reacted if he was not knocked up yet.

My boy .....my Sian. Foolish. He is neither mine nor belongs to me. I have no relation with him

See you in the next chapter