Eleanor Francis Archibald
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R-18

Hingal na hingal kaming pumasok sa bahay nito na nakatayo likuran ng kaniyang mga magulang. Agad niyang sinara ang pintuan at binuksan ang mga ilaw bago sumalampa sa pang-isahang upuan.

Malinaw sa mukha nito ang pagod dahil sa mga pawis dumadaosdos. Bumuga siya ng hangin at nang magtama ang mga mata namin ay bigla siyang natawa, "You okay?"

Ngumiti lang ako at kagat labi na tumango. Tumayo siya at may kung anong inabala sa loob ng bahay habang ako ay nanatiling nakaupo lang at dahan-dahan na hinubag ang suot na sapatos. I also placed my panama hat on the edge of the wooden chair's armrest.

Habang nakataman sa mga hita ay bigla nalang akong napangiti sa nangyare kanina.

It was as if heaven's will. Ni hindi pa rin ako makapaniwala sa nangyare. It was fast and surprising. Nang halikan niya ako ay siya ring pagliwanag ng mga ilaw. We weren't the only couples there but everyone's attention was on us.

At dahil sa pagkagulat nila ay bigla nalang silang naghiwayan sa loob, tila ba'y nagustuhan nila ang pinanood. Ngunit hindi maiwasan ang mga taong bigla nalang sumugod sa amin na may dalang kaniyang mga kamera. It was breathless for me especially when everyone just kept on appearing.

Natakot ako bigla dahil baka mayroong mangyare. But being wrapped by Ysmael's arms was enough to keep me safe.

Mabilis na pumagitna ang mga kaibigan niya at pati narin ang iba pang nagmabuting tumulong sa'min. Loki got so pissed but it wasn't because of the kiss. Kaya naman ay mabilis niyang inutusan si Ysmael na umuwi na kami habang abala pa ang mga tao.

Ysmael didn't waste a second and immediately rushed me out of the scene. Malayo ang bahay nila mula sa court kaya tinakbo namin ito. I was almost passing out kung hindi niya lang talaga ako kinarga sa likod.

The image of him carrying me a while ago was priceless. Tila ba ay nawala ang pagkalasing nito dahil sa adrenaline. Gusto kong matawa kanina sa kaniya pero pinigilan ko lang dahil ayaw kong mag-isip ito ng iba.

Nag-angat agad ako ng tingin nang bumalik siya ngayon ay may bitbit nga tsaa at nakatupi na t-shirt. "Magbihis ka muna baka magkasakit ka niyan." sambit niya at agad nagbaba ng tingin matapos matamang tiningnan ang suot ko.

Tumalima naman ako atsaka pumasok sa banyo na tinuro niya. Hindi ko malinaw na nasilayan ang bahay nito sa labas lalo na't madilim na. Ngunit alam ko sa sarili na may katamtamang laki ito para sa isang taong tumitira.

Gawa pa rin ito sa bamboo katulad ng sa kaniyang magulang. Ang kaibahan lamang ay mas may maraming kagamitan ang bahay ng magulang niya kaysa sa kaniya na tanging mga essential lang ang naroon.

"Minsan ka lang bang natutulog dito?" tanong ko pagkalabas ng banyo.

Mabilis siyang nag-iwas ng tingin at tumango, "Kapag linggo o di kaya ay maagang natatapos sa trabaho."

Naglakad ako pabalik sa maliit niyang tanggapan at maingat na tinupi ang bestida kong suot kanina. I placed it on my lap to cover my bare legs. Maluwag ang damit na ibinigay ni Ysmael sa akin. Hindi katulad kay Loki, na hindi sanay sa pisikal na trabaho, ay may kalakihang tao si Ysmael kaya medyo mas malaki pa ang damit niya kesa kay Loki.

Ngunit kahit anong laki at luwag nito ay maliit pa rin ito sa tuwing uupo na. I heard Ysmael groaned at stood up to sit at the tall chair at his counter.

Nagkaroon ng gatla ang noo ko doon. Sumipsip ako ng hinanda nitong tsaa at hindi napigilang magtanong nang makitang nakatalikod ito sa akin.

"Are you okay?"

I saw him flinched before he naturally spin his chair together with his body towards me. Namumulang mukha na tumango siya, "I'm fine. But are you aware that I'm a guy?"

Mas lumalim ang gatla ng noo ko, "Lasing ka pa rin?"

He chuckled, "I mean, we're alone in the same room and you're not wearing anything under my shirt."

Doon ko napagtanto ang ibig nitong sabihin at napabako nang wala sa oras. He laughed handsomely before pushing himself to stand. "I'll make you bed. Diyan ka lang." paalam niya na para bang iniiwisan ako.

Napangiti nalang ako at nag-iling. I love how he's self-controlled even after getting drunk. It was a turn on and breath for me.

Ngayon ay alam ko ng hindi ako gagalawin nito kahit pa man sa nangyaring aminan kanina. He will, if he wants but he resisted it.

Mataman lang akong nagmamasid sa paligid habang napapahikab dahil sa antok. The luminescent hue of the lights are knocking me to sleep. Pero kahit man gusto kong matulog ay hindi ko magawa dahil sa maingay na tibok puso ko.

Every time I'd remember about the kiss, I just can't help but feel a swarming heat inside. Nakakainis dahil hindi ko ito makontrola kagaya noon.

It was just a kiss yet it awakened the hoe inside me. Lalo na ngayon na nasa iisang bubong lang kami, walang ibang tao, kundi kami lang.

Napapalunok ako doon at pinag-isa ang mga hita. Damn. Why do I feel drunk more than Ysmael? Nawawala na ata ako sa isip ko.

Tinawag ako ni Ysmael kaya tumayo ako. Bumungad naman siya mula sa hagdanan paitaas at nginitian ako. "Antok ka na ba?"

Napalabi lang ako at iwinaksi sa isipan ang naiisip kanina. "Yeah, pwede na ba akong matulog?" I asked almost choking myself.

A chuckle escape from his mouth and God knows how much it cost me my control when my arousal straight up rise. Napasandal siya sa kamay ng hagdanan at namulsa, "Pag sinabi kong hindi pwede, susunod ka ba?"

Napanguso ako doon at siya naman ay tuwang-tuwa lang. "Aren't you too hyper at this time?"

Naglakad na ako patungo sa kaniya. Tumuwid siya ng tayo at hinintay akong makatapak sa hagdanan, "I got sober when we were chased by your fans."

"But you didn't look drunk kanina. You were all drinking until dark, kaya nagtataka ako kung bakit hindi ka nawala sa isipan mo." atsaka inunahan siya sa pag-akyat.

Natatawang sumunod lamang siya, "I'm so used to getting drunk that I became tolerant with it."

"Bakit? Lagi ba kayong nag-iinumang magkaibigan?"

"Yeah, especially whenever one is broke—"

Hindi ko maiwasan ang mangamba sa biglaang pakatigil nito sa likuran ko. Nilingon ko siya at nasaksihan ang surprisa nitong mga mata na nakatingin sa akin. Hindi ko mawari ang nangyare sa kaniya at para bang nakakita ito ng multo dahil sa gulat na naging sanhi ng pagkawala ng kaniyang boses.

I stopped my foot from stepping, "Is there something wrong?" pag-aalala ko dahil hindi pa rin ito nabalik sa dating huwisyo.

Umawang lang labi niya at nagtikom ulit. Bago sunod-sunod ang lunok at napabuga ng kinakabang tawa, "Wala, wala." mabilis siyang pumunta sa gilid ko at hinawakan ako sa bewang, "Sabayan na kita." aniya at nilabas ang biloy.

Naguluhan ako sa inakto nito lalo na sa biglaang desisyon na sabay ako sa hagdanan. Napakitid kaya ng hagdanan niya. Sumikip ang distansya namin at naapektuhan nito ang katawan ko lalo na nang madikit ito sa kaniya.

I swallowed and tried hard to maintain my knees with its strength.

Pagkarating sa ikalawang palapag ay hindi nito binitawan sa bewang ko at mas lalo lamang inilapit sa kaniya nang makapasok kami sa isa sa dalawang pintuan doon.

"Ito lang ba ang kwarto sa bahay mo?" tanong ko atsaka maayos na inilagay ang bestida at sandal ko sa maliit na mesa na nasa tabi ng nakabukas na bintana.

I finally let go of me and shoved his hands on his pocket, "There's three. Isa sa ibaba, dalawa sa itaas." ngumuso siya sa kabilang pintuan, "Nandiyan ngayon si Pacholo."

Napatango ako at pinakinggan ito nang magpatuloy. "Pinagawa ko lang naman 'to dahil nadagdagan kami ng isang miyembro sa pamilya."

I chuckled, "Ylvis?" tukoy ko sa apat na taon niyang bunsong kapatid.

Tumango siya, "Matatanda na sina Ysa at Yva kaya may personal spaces na. Lima lang naman ang silid sa kabilang bahay. Isa kina mama, kay Ysa, Yva, kina Ygara at Yllena, at ang maliit kay Ylvis. At siyempre panganay ako kaya dapat may sariling silid, pero nagkulang. Kaya bahay nalang ang pinagawa ko." sabay angat niya ng tingin sa buong silid.

Tumango ako at napakunot ng noo, "Where is Ygara? I don't think I met her a while ago."

Napatigil lang siya ng ilang sandali at kumurap, "A-ah, tulog kasi kaya hindi mo masisilayan."

Napatango naman ako doon at hindi na nagtanong nang mapansin ay biglang pagkahinto nito. Despite the kiss, it wasn't enough to erase the line between us. Nakakaintindi rin naman ako kaya hayaan ko na na siya mismo ang magbubukas ng buhay niya sa akin.

My impatience won't work with his life. Kailangan kong magsikapin na maintindi ito at nang sa ganoon ay walang misinterpretasyon ang mangyayare.

"So, ahm...where will you sleep?" takang tanong ko nang makitang isa lang unan na nandoon.

Napakamot siya ng batok, "Sa baba na ako. Malamig naman ang panahon kaya ayos na ako doon." at tumikhim.

"Wala ka bang extra pillow?"

"Meron naman. Nandoon sa baba, bakit?"

My brows furrowed, "Do you have blanket?"

Doon umawang ang labi niya at umiling, "Kukuha nalang ako—"

"Just sleep with me here." I interrupted and grabbed the heavy blanket he folded, "Ang laki nito, oh." sambit ko habang inangat ito.

He chuckled and declined, "I'm fine. I'll just sleep downstairs. Hindi naman ako giniginaw."

"Ba't hindi nalang dito?" I ridiculed, looking at the wide bed that could fit three people in it. At lalo na na doon matutulog sina Loki at Jarvis.

Narinig ko itong huminto kaya binalingan ko. May kung anong init na naman ang umahon sa loob ko nang magtama ang mga mata namin.

It was dark yet I clearly see how desire lingered inside his eyes. He coughed a little, "We can't be together in one room, Crisceana..."

I almost moaned when he uttered the last word. His voice was husky and uncontrollable. Para bang malapit na siyang sasabog.

Napakurap ako doon at nagtungo, "Why?" I shamelessly asked, pulling down the shirt I was wearing when I felt something wet coming out inside me.

Umigting ang panga nito nang matanong ko iyon. Silence occupied us for seconds. His heavy breathing almost became a pant and it influenced my body so much that I could only tighten my legs together to prevent something from coming out.

"Apple..."

He locked our gaze together as he slowly walk, "Didn't I tell you want it means to be alone with a man?"

Napalunok ako at nahihiyang nagtango. Naramdaman ko ang mainit nitong mga palad na humawak sa magkabila kong braso at marahan silang pinisil.

He groaned silently and sighed hot air, "I've been controlling myself since I saw you wearing that dress, apple...And up to this time, I am still controlling—barely controlling it."

Napakurap ako at nag-init ang mga pisnge, "W-why?" nauutal kong tanong ulit.

His hold moved down to my waist, down to my hips, and brought them to my back, "Because I might do something you're afraid of."

"I'm not afraid of sex!" I hissed to correct his misunderstanding about my condition, "I never said I was afraid of doing it. Ang tanging kinatatakutan ko lang ay ang pilitin akong gawin 'yon."

Nagtiim-bagang siya at ramdam na ramdam ko ang mas mahigpit na hawak nito sa likuran ko. Pulling me near until our bodies touched, "And what if I force you doing it?" may pagbabanta niya kaya napaatras ako.

My forehead crippled and annoyance surfaced, "Can you even force me?" balik ko sa tanong.

Bumuntonghininga ito at napaluwag ng yakap, "Exactly! Kaya hindi tayo pwedeng magtabi—"

"You don't have to force me because I'm willing to."

Hindi ko na siya pinayagan pang magsalita at hinapit ang mukha papunta sa akin at masuyong hinalikan. It was like he's expecting that because he immediately responded and held me even more tightly.

Napaungol ako ng mahina nang maramdam ang mainit nitong katawang tinatakpan ng kasuotan. I traveled my arms towards his shoulders and caressed his nape before raking my fingers through his hair. It aroused him, making him want me even more.

Naramdaman ko ang dahan-dahan nitong pagkilos. I unconsciously followed his movements by stepping backwards. Just until the back of my knees reached the side of the bed, mabilis akong inihiga ni Ysmael rito. Napatili ako sa gulat ngunit agad niya ulit inangkin ang mga labi ko, at masuyong hinalik-halikan ito.

The room was almost filled with the smooching sound. And it's crazy how it totally turns me on. Napaungol nalang ako sa sarap nito at naramdaman ang biglang pagbilis ng kilos ni Ysmael.

When he positioned between my legs, he immediately claimed my neck, nibbling them hard and pressed his body against mine. I couldn't help but giggled at his entice.

Mabilis kong sinapo ang mukha niyang at hinalakan siya sa labi, "Slow down, hon. We have all the night." pang-aasar ko.

But just like that, it instantly set fire to his whole. He kissed me again in the same pace but it was less aggressive and more considerate this time. Napapaungol nalang ako sa sarap na dulot nito sa katawan ko.

His arms were both on the sides of my head, supporting his weight above mine. Ilang segundo sa paghahalik ay dahan-dahan namang bumaba ang mga labi niya sa tenga ko. And I just couldn't contain my moan from coming out when he teasingly licked it.

"Ohh, Yael..." at mahigpit na napakapit sa balikat nito. He did it again and this time more seductive and arousing. Napapaliyad nalang ang katawan ko at sa tuwing gagawin ko naman 'yon ay mas lalo nauuhaw lang akong angkinin ito nang magtama ang pribadong parte ng katawan namin.

I could hear him moan when I suddenly clasped my leg onto his back. Bigla siyang napasinghap at napatitig sa mga mata ko. Only then that I saw how he couldn't stop himself anymore.

Walang paalam pinagdiinan niya ang gitna namin kaya napasinghap ako nang wala sa oras. "Oh god! Yael!" ungol ko at nagmulat.

I was taken aback how he was already nude in his upper body. Masuyong naghalikan ulit kami. The hot sensation grew more and more. Our skin touched, mouths moaned, and heart beat erratically and wild.

His hands were traveling all over my body. Each, not letting any part of me untouched. Mariing napakagat labi naman ako nang maramdam itong bumaba sa pribado ko. Humugot ako ng hinga nang pinasadahanan niya ng hawak ito. Then it passed his cloth I wore and brazenly shove his hand underneath it.

Napaigting ako nang maramdaman ang mainit na pagdapo nito sa dibdib ko. Filled with lust and desire that he stared at my eyes. He was already uncontrolled yet he maintained his gentleman demeanor as he pleaded permission. I couldn't help but bite my lip and kissed him, "Go on, hon...touch me."

Gently that he massaged it while the other cupping the cheek of my butt. Napapaliyad lamang ako lalo na noong dahan-dahan nitong inangat ang tanging suot ko sa katawan. I saw him smirked before his vacant hand traced my leg up to my breast and claimed it, "Do you know how difficult it was to stay sane after I saw your private a while ago?" he whispered, licking my ear.

Hindi ko nagawang tugunan siya dahil sa init na nararamdaman ko. He let out a chuckle and continued, "The next time you wear nothing, make sure to stay behind me, especially when we're on the stairs. Baka hindi ko mapigilan at sa hagdanan ka pa maangkin."

He was so bold with his words. Hindi ko akalaing may ganitong ugali si Ysmael. I am aware that he's a flirt but subtle and indirect.

Masayang pinaglaruan niya lang ang dibdib ko bago dahan-dahan na bumaba ang isang kamay patungo sa parteng basang-basa na.

Napaungol ako ng malakas nang maabot niya ito. I didn't know if it was because it was too wet that his finger slipped inside, ang tanging naramdaman ko nalang ay ang magkahalong hapdi at sarap bago napaliyad.

"Oh, god, Yael. You're killing me." at sinabunot ang sariling buhok.

Mabilis niya itong tinanggal at gulat nalang ako nang bigla itong naghingi ng paumanhin at walang permisong hinubad ang maong. I immediately got up with my arms when I saw his bulge underneath his boxers.

Mariin niya akong pinakatitigan habang nakaluhod sa harapan ko. I could only swallow my saliva from the tense and his thing in front me. I heard him chuckle before cupping my face, "Tell me if I get too rough, okay?"

It was supposed to be reassuring yet I felt threatened by the thought of 'his' hurting me. I'm not a virgin but never in my whole life I see something proud and huge behind the cloth. Kaya hindi ko mapigilan ang kabahan dahil sa magkahalong sabik at takot sa sakit na idudulot nito.

"I-I'm a Silverio. I c-can manage." nauutal kong sambit bago niya hinubad ang nakatabon nito.

I gasped, for the nth time, and I couldn't help but comment, "Ang liit." sambit ko nang masilayan ang umiigting nitong pagkalalaki.

I was just joking, though, to see his priceless reaction. Nabigla ito sa sinabi ko. He looked hurt and determined. He immediately held it tightly, "H-hindi. Lalaki pa 'to." at mabilis na itinaas baba ang sariling ari kaya napasinghap ako at napabuhakhak.

"Goodness, Yael! I was just kidding!"

Nahinto siya doon, pati ang umaapoy naming init sa katawan. Napabuhakhak ako at tuwang-tuwa na nakita siyang natameme sa akin. But then, my karma was behind me. Napatili ako nang ihiga niya ulit at nahinto sa pagtawa nang kinagat ang dibdib ko. It hurts but it only frenzies the heat inside me.

He raised himself until he was kneeling over me. Then he touched me between my legs and parted my soft femininity, preparing me for his entry. Naramdaman niya ang pagkakaba ko kaya masuyo niya ulit akong hinalikan. My breathing immediately became a pant as I tightened my hug in his neck.

"I'm sorry." he apologized first before he started.

Slowly that he entered. Napapakapit nalang ako sa balikat at sa buhok niya. I could feel how tight I was when his huge entered. It hurt me when the head went in. Tila ba'y mas napunit pa ang loob ko.

Panay pag-aalu naman nito sa'kin nang makita ang nasasaktan kong ekspresyon. He caressed my head, pouring me with his sweet kisses. And when it happened, I couldn't help but gasp with pleasure and pain. As my body encompassed his erection, it grew stronger inside me.

"Fuck..." pati siya ay nasasaktan rin sa loob ko, "Ang sikip. Tangina."

Kahit nasasaktan ay hindi ko mapigilang matawa, "I'm sorry?" tanong ko na nagpatawa sa kaniya at sabay rin napangiwi nang gumalaw ang gitna.

Hinalik-halikan niya ako ulit bago nagpaalam sa paggalaw niya. I could only nod as he started it. Hot and moist as he moved little by little. I didn't hold back. From the back of my throat little moans escaped each time he filled me, withdrew and filled me again. Moans turned to cries of ecstasy. He was deep inside and eventually changed his pace.

Napapaungol kami pareho. Mabilis siyang gumalaw sa loob at sinabayan pa ng paghahalik sa katawan ko. Mas lalo nagkakadikit ang katawan nang yakapin ko. He buried his face in my neck as he whispered three words that brought my tears to stream.

"I love you..."

Nagising ulit ako sa isang katok mula sa pintuan. Narinig ko ang pagbukas nito ni Ysmael at ang inaantok nitong boses na humihikab.

"Morning, what's that?"

I always heard Pacholo's voice outside, "Hindi ko alam. Basta nalang inabot ni Jarvis. Hiningi raw ni Crisceana."

Nang marinig ko 'yon ay dahan-dahan naman akong nagmulat at umupo sa kama. My sight went to Ysmael whose back is bare. Nakatalikod ito at inawang lang ng kaunti ang pintuan habang kausap si Pacholo.

I suddenly heard Pacholo laughed and smacked his shoulder, "Nagsex kayo? Kaya pala ang ingay kagabi!" at umalis ng walang paalam.

Natatawang isinara ni Ysmael ang pinto atsaka nginitian ako nang makitang gising na. He bend over to kiss me. Inabot niya sa akin ang medisina kaya kinuha ko na rin ang water bottle sa gilid. "What is that for?" nakangiti niyang tanong.

"Birth control." tipid ko at iinumin na sana but Yael grabbed my hand. I arched my brows. "Why?"

"Bakit ka iinom niyan?" his face darkened.

A crease formed on my forehead, "What are you talking about? Why, are you ready to be a father?" I saw him clenched his teeth. Kaya napakurap ako. Wait, is he mad?

"Papayag ba akong may mangyare sa'tin kung hindi ako handa?"

My heart jumped. I thought he was just drunk last night that he forgot to wear a condom, but he was actually thinking. Hindi ko inakalang papayag itong mabuntis ako. I mean, we only figure each other's love yesterday. Hindi ko mapigilang mangamba sa kaniya. Does he really love me that much to impregnate me? Hindi ba ito magsisisi sa posibleng mangyare?

"Are you...for real?"

He only sighed and looked away, his heart broke. Now that I think about it, we aren't teenagers to worry about getting pregnant. Pero ayaw ko pa ring pagsisihan nito ang desisyon. Although, seeing him so determined and serious, I couldn't help but feel guilty and disappointed at how insensitive I was. Mukhang nasaktan ko pa tuloy siya.

"But it's still up to you if you don't want to." his expression changed. Yumuko ito at tumalikod. He sat on the bed as he fixed his shoe. Pinakatitigan ko lang ang likod nito bago nagsalita.

"Okay..." ininom ko agad ang tubig habang nanatili ang titig sa malapad nitong likod.

I didn't receive any answer but a flinch. Pagkatapos kong inumin ito ay pinilit ko ang tumayo para tumungo sa basurahan na nasa tapat lang. Paikad-ikad ako na naglakad dahil sa iniindang sakit sa pagitan.

"What are you doing?" nataranta niyang tanong nang makita akong tumayo. "Hey, I told you to just rest. Ako na ang bahala diyan." his voice didn't sound anything like before, it was soft and careful. "I'm sorry. I didn't mean to upset you—"

There was a halt when he saw what I threw. Binaling ko siya ng tingin at nginitian. His confession last night was enough for me to not worry about our future.

Like him, I also felt it. The future that will be ours, together with our little ones.

"I just thought that you might be a great father someday."

My definition of the best dad is definitely Yael. He helped me through a lot. Aside from his responsible and compassionate attitude, binigyan niya ulit ako ng tiwala na noon ko pa gustong makamit. The comfort, serene, and trust. I love him, too.

At siyempre, ayaw ko namang mapunta pa ito sa iba at maging ama ng ibang bata. He's ready to start a family, so why couldn't I?

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nyariina
8/13/'21