So school sucks. Sophomore year sucks. Everything sucks except for you guys.

Hopefully that's enough to explain to you how my first month of school has gone.

Anyways please forgive me for not updating since early August!

Also, I just couldn't help myself from adding in my favorite Alpha twins from Teen Wolf!

Enjoy :)

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My heart dropped. "Someone saw us," I whispered at a loss of breath.

Axle peppered kisses down my jaw and throat. "Who cares?"

Suppressing a moan, I shoved him off of me and jumped down from the counter, getting angry. It was really wrong that this felt achingly right.

"Axle, someone saw us!"

The intensity in his eyes was still there as he let out a growl. "And as I said before, who gives a fuck?"

"You aren't even supposed to be here. You need to leave Axle. Like right now." I said breathlessly as he took a step closer.

"But you don't want me to leave Zaph."

I put my hands on his chest to keep him from advancing further.

He covered my hands with his own, trapping mine.

"I-" I shook my head. "Axle, please leave." I gently pulled my hands away from his chest, my head swarming in confusion.

"I really don't know what I want right now."

Axle's gaze was smoldering as he took a step away from me and headed towards the window.

"Well I know what I want, and I don't plan on giving it up anytime soon." He exited out of my room, and started down the ladder until I couldn't see him anymore.

I sighed and closed the window, feeling sick with myself.

Who knew the one time I actually got action, it only resulted in more complications?

***

"No training today. Get ready for school," Jacen's voice said, waking me up from a deep sleep.

I peaked through sleep encased eyelids, only catching a glimpse of Jacen's retreating form.

I groaned in discomfort as last night came flooding back to me, bringing a dull headache.

I sat up and slid out of bed, making my way to the bathroom. I tried to clear my head and not think about last night, but considering I was brushing my teeth over the counter that I made out with Axle on, it was proving difficult.

Guilt gnawed at my insides as I tied my shoelaces before leaving the safe confines of my room.

With my backpack hanging on my shoulder, I walked down the spiral staircase to the kitchen. There was a lot of clatter, and by the masculine voices, I assumed that the others were in the kitchen.

They were here more than they were at their own houses.

The sound of their deep voices, only triggered more sweating and guilt, so before I walked through the door, I tried to air out my pits for a moment.

I just needed to breathe.

Everything would be ok.

The second I walked in, four heads turned and stared me down, the noise quickly ceasing.

I just stood in the doorway, before Luke chose to be the first one to speak up.

"Uh, Z?" I looked at him, internally cringing from the conversation that was sure to come.

"Are you ok?"

Ok, I know that I kissed another guy in the same day but was that question really necessary?

"Why do you ask?" I questioned, not going to play this game with them. I'm sure Jacen already told his posse about what he saw.

Finn let out a snort and pointed. "Uh, you're bra is on the outside of your shirt. Brownie points for red lace Z."

I blanched. You've seriously got to be kidding me.

I covered myself, completely mortified, and turned away from the guys.

With a gaping mouth and quickly exited the kitchen and sprinted back up to my room.

I kneeled down on the floor, in utter mortification. I would rather succumb to athsma than live knowing that the guys saw part one of my intimates.

"Oh gosh, I can't go to school now. I can't even leave this room!" I groaned and redressed myself in shame.

I flopped onto the floor, the mortification still achingly present.

A knock earn a groan from me as I continued to lay on the ground.

My door creaked open and Jacen's head popped in. "Time to go."

"Time to go die?" I asked in hope.

He rolled his eyes and sighed. "Not like there was anything to see. Hurry up, we're late."

I looked up from the floor, gaping like a fish for the second time in twenty minutes.

He did not just say that to me.

Since I decided that getting up close and personal with my carpet was better than eating breakfast, my stomach grumbled the entire ride to school.

Throw in a little bit of tension, and things with uncomfortable to say the least.

"Meet me here no later than 3:30. I have somewhere to go after school." Jacen slammed the door, leaving me in the car alone.

I watched his retreating figure as sadness took over. It was my fault he was acting like this.

Sitting in silence for a few moments, I gathered up my stuff and met up with Joney once I spotted her across the parking lot.

"You look," she started, her face morphing into many different emotions. "You look terrible, actually."

I sighed and ran my hand down my face. "Thanks for reminding me."

She inspected my face. "Mind telling me why you look like a truck smashed into your face?"

She was gifted with such a beautiful way with words.

"I made a mistake, and now my conscience is eating me alive."

She looked at me. "And this mistake was..."

"I kissed Jacen."

Joney looked at me in shock, and then pure excitement. "How is that a mistake? That's... That's beyond amazing, mainly because I thought you would never stop crushing on fictitious characters-"

"And then I kissed Axle."

Silence.

More silence.

And even more silence.

"Well, that's very... Something." She paused. "Very something."

I looked at her desperately. "What does that even mean? This is the part when you tell me what to do."

"How should I know what to do?" She yelled incredulously.

I gestured between us wildly. "This is an unspoken rule in the handbook! Best friends are supposed to share advice during rough times, everyone knows that!"

Duh! Had she been living under a rock her whole life?

"Well excuse me that I didn't get the memo!"

People started looking at us, and my voice fell into a murmur.

"That memo should have been implanted in your brain by default the second you popped out of the womb."

She shrugged impassively. "Well I know now and that's all that matters."

I sighed and nodded. "So what should I do?"

I was stumped on what I was supposed to do in the situation. Should I apologize for not knowing what I want? Who I want?

She shrugged again. "I said that now I know to give advice in times like these, but that doesn't mean I have any."

I growled and imagine my fingers slowly wrapping around her neck before I stomped off.

Even when Joney was extremely irritating, I still loved her, but right now I didn't want or need to talk to her because I knew I would blow up in her face.

As I walked away from her and into the building unease crept up my spine as I spotted two students talking to the principle right outside of the office. There was no doubt in my mind that they were twins.

Both had to be new, I had never seen them before. They were both well built, the kind of well built guys that played rugby and did manly stuff like that.

I can even admit that they were ruggedly handsome, but unlike Jacen, it didn't intrigue me in a good way.

Well technically Jacen was always frowning too much to be intriguing, but at least from him I didn't get the vibe that I was going to be strangled.

Well, sometimes I did.

The boys both caught me staring as I walked past them, but I didn't look away. I couldn't.

Both smirked simultaneous, but the venom in the look and me cringing.

I quickly sped past them and rounded a corner, breathing only until I got to my locker.

Why all of a sudden are people choosing to move to this minuscule town in what felt like the middle of nowhere?

I scratched my arm, but it wasn't enough to pacify the itch that took over, making my skin crawl.

Something wasn't right about those students, and I'll be damned to be naive enough not to keep my guard up around them.

I needed to find the guys and tell them, that is, considering that they didn't already know.

They all seemed to avoided eye contact with me throughout the first portion of the day, or would act like they didn't see when I tried to get their attention.

Regardless of their obvious anger towards me, I still wanted to talk to them, so I planned to.

The bell had just rung to get out of class, and I rushed to my locker, throwing my books in quickly, which was my poor attempt at beating the crowd of walking hormones.

I spotted Jacen's large form disappearing into the cafeteria, and I hoped that I would be able to find him once I got inside.

I was surrounded by sweaty bodies and loud noises the second I entered the cafeteria.

Friends were meeting up with friends and sharing the latest gossip, receiving loud responses in return.

My head started pounding as I saw Jacen and the guys sitting at their own table.

Squeezing through the rowdy crowd, I policed down next to Jacen, stealing a fry from off of his tray.

He looked at me in annoyance, and I smiled cheekily at him.

He went back to eating, as I looked at the guys who seemed uncomfortable.

Finn looked between Jacen and I with a grimace and then back down to his food.

"We need to talk," I said once I finishing chewing.

That was a good fry.

After silence from them, I took it as my cue to continue. "Have you guys seen the two new students? They look really familiar, and definitely rub me the wrong way."

If I had blinked, I would have missed it. At once, all of the guys across from Jacen and I looked up and to him, but not a second later, they all looked back down.

"What?" I asked impatiently, fidgeting on the bench.

"Nothing, go eat," Jacen said impassively. I pursed my lips.

"Ok, but the second I get out of that line, I am poppin a squat right here."

"I don't want you here," he replied and took another bite out of his burger. I stood.

"Well too bad peasant boy!" I said, raising my voice, and marching off to the end of the line.

I smiled as I stood there. Even though Jacen was mad at me, I was going to continue to annoy him until he forgave me.

It was a mistake.

Or so I told myself.

But regardless of the circumstances, I didn't want the guys mad at me for not knowing what I want or who I want.

I sighed. I did plan on talking to Jacen later, I just needed to find the confidence to do it.

***

After lunch I had PE, and I grabbed my clothes from my locker and headed to the girl's locker room to change.

After I finished, I met the rest of my class in the gym and sat down on the floor near the back.

"We have two new students in our class today," he gestured towards them. "Please introduce yourselves to the class."

The first guy stepped forward. He raised his hand in a wave and gave a small grin. "I'm Sebastian, but call me Bash."

I could practically hear the panties drop. I rolled my eyes as the unease hit me full force when he found my eyes.

The second guy walked forward, with his hands in his short's pockets. "I'm Dax."

The remainder of the panties hit the floor. I groan at the hopelessness of my generation.

They both took there seats in front of the group, as my coach started talking.

"I had originally planned to play dodgeball," he started, "but I am really in the mood for some flag football."

I suppressed a groan. He was always in the mood for some damn flag football.

Memories of the last time I played had me cringing, just as Axle scooted forward from his spot behind me so that he was next to me.

His arm brushed mine as he gave me a cheeky half grin. I looked away, and caught Jacen's eyes before he shook his head and looked away.

Guilt took over again, and I subtly scooted away from Axle.

"...Any questions?" My coach asked after a long talk.

I raised my hand. "Good no questions. Everyone head out!"

Am I invisible or something?

He blew is whistle and I jolted. The game had started and I had no idea what I was doing.

From what I remembered last time, if you get the ball then you start running towards your goal.

Seems simple enough right?

Not.

I think that for a good two minutes I was just running in small circles across the field, avoiding anyone that looked like they could potentially harm me in any way.

When I saw the Axle had gotten his hands on the football, I jumped up and down in excitement.

I guess if he scores our team wins?

It's something like that.

I tried to run with him as he started coming my way, but I realized that he was yelling my name.

Why was he-

Force hit me from behind, a sense of déjà vu taking over once again.

I was thrown to the ground, my face becoming intimate with the grass.

Someone turned me over and onto my back, helping my to my feet. Cheers erupted from one side, as I stood, and I realized that they other team had scored.

I thought Axle just had the ball though? My vision cleared and I met Sebastian's eyes.

"You ok?" He asked in a worried manner, but I wasn't fooled. I gave him a small yes, as my eyes caught Axle's.

"My twin can get pretty wild in sports," he said sheepishly.

I nodded. "Yeah, you should tell him to tone it down. It's just flag football." I shrugged his hands off of me and started walking towards my team.

Axle ran up to me.

"Are you ok?" He asked in concern, panting.

"Yeah, I'm fine. Just a couple of scrapes here and there."

He growled. "I swear when I see that son of a bitch again I'll-"

"You won't do anything. I'm fine, I promise." I said as we met up with our team.

I bit my lip as people started strategizing the team's next move.

People don't randomly get thrown to the ground in flag football, but maybe it was an accident. I looked up at Axle.

He glared across the field to the twins who seemed to be staring back at us.

I'm not positive, but I could have sworn I saw a challenging smile on Sebastian's face.

***

Oh snap. Oh snappity snap snap snap.

We got some hot new twins who seem to be causing some trouble on the first day!

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Xoxo,

jean margaret