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Leggoooo
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I threw my small heels somewhere in my room once I got there, and collapsed on my bed. I was uncomfortable in what I was wearing to be laying down, but I was too lazy to move.

"Zaph," Jacen called for the doorway.

"Mmm?" I groaned incoherently, my eyes still closed.

"Come here, there's something I need to show you something." I cracked my eyes open a sliver as I looked at him. He looked nervous, or at least, as nervous as Jacen Matthews was capable of looking.

"What?" I asked, sitting up.

"It's a surprise, now c'mon."

So demanding. I fell off of the bed, rolling on the floor towards the doorway until my body was too long to roll any further.

Jacen pulled me up by my wrists I held out to him, yanking my arms out of their sockets. "Can I have a piggyback ride?" I asked innocently.

My feet hurt from walking in those dang heels for too long. Granted they were small heels, and granted we were only gone for like an hour and a half but still.

He glanced at me as he started walking. "No."

I gaped at him. "Hey! It's my birthday!"

"And that means my back has to suffer?" I crossed my arms. Was he calling me fat?

"Are you calling me fat?" I asked incredulously to his bulky form. He stopped walking, and turned back towards me.

He grimaced as he contemplated something. "If I give you a piggyback ride, can this conversation be over?"

I cracked a smile and nodded. With a sigh, he turned back around and crouched low. "Come on Zaph."

I did not hesitate to hop on. "You sound really defeated for a piggyback ride." I moved my hands towards his face and pulled his lips into a smile with my thumb and index finger.

"Smile, you're beautiful!" I said jokingly, but
secretly meaning it on the inside. He shook my fingers from his face, and we entered his game room type area where the guys usually watched football.

He continued walking until we were face to face with another door, one that I was pretty sure led to outside, but had never checked.

"Where-"

"Shhh, let me do the talking," he told me quietly, and pulled open the door. My jaw went slack as my eyes soaked in the view in front of me.

My gently placed me back on the ground and came up behind me, wrapping his arms around my waist. As he placed his chin on the crown of my head, I brought my hand to my mouth in disbelief.

I feel like I stepped into a Tumblr picture as my gaze swept back and forth. Covering the entire lining of the balcony were beautiful shades of Mums. Mason jars with small candles in them illuminated the otherwise dark balcony.

The soft smell of lavender hit me, as Jacen shuffled behind me, one of his hands leaving my stomach. I turned to him, and he looked down at me, holding a beautiful bouquet of roses.

"Before I say anything, I want you to listen until the end okay?" I nodded at his words.

He took a deep breath. "Okay. The moment I met you I thought you were the most annoying girl I have ever encountered in my entire life. I had never had anyone, especially not a girl come at me head on, and it threw me off; I was Jacen Matthews for fuck's sake." He laughed bitterly to himself.

He then shook his head. "I mean, I still am Jacen Matthews, but at the same time I'm not. You changed him, well me, and at first I... I hated you for it. I mean, all this time I had been protecting you, and I was angry when I realized that you were stronger than I initially thought." He looked up at me. "And it bothered me that it seemed like you didn't need me, and that you had the power to change who I was."

"Jacen-" He held up his hand.

"I never truly was that "bad boy" that people took me as. I was and still am just some fucked up kid with a fucked up family."

He took my hand and placed the roses in my hand. "But you made me feel like I was a little less fucked up. You are always smiling-God you could light a city with your smile, and you are hotheaded and can be infuriating all the same." I raised a brow at that.

"But you make me feel like I am more than just a fucked up kid whose made some terrible decisions. You made me feel whole." He took a step towards me.

I didn't realize I was crying until his hand gently caressed my cheek, wiping away some wetness. "And I don't think I can physically function without you with me." He brought his forehead to mine and our shallow breaths mingled in an intimate kiss.

"So that being said, Zaph, will you be my girlfriend?"

I had expected Finn, Joney, Luke, and Spence to burst through the door, but after a second, it was still just Jacen, some flowers, and me.

I gazed at him with everything I felt. "Only if I can have another piggyback ride," I whispered.

He gripped my face with his hands, kissing me slowly and gently, the fiery feeling in my stomach rising to the surface. "You can have anything you want."

"All I want is you," I whispered immediately, and then I thought for a second. "Well all I want is you and my family, but you get me."

"We are going to getting your family back, I promise."

"How can you promise when you don't even know where they are?" I asked, defeated.

"I think I have an idea," he whispered to me still gripping my face.

"Where?"

"Let's not worry about that right now right now while I want is to be here with you," he murmured.

I nodded, feeling comforted in his embrace. We talked for hours, and eventually I began to doze off. He pulled me up and carried me to bed, tucking me in.

With a kiss he left me to a blissful sleep.

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Stupid birds.

The sun was literally blinding me but I was too lazy to get up and close the blinds. The stupid bird were also chirping their butts off. I truly wish I was Fiona and they would all explode if I sang.

My door opened and I turn my head to look at Jacen who just walked in shirtless.

"Jace," I whined, "will you please close the blinds?" With squinty eyes, I watched him walk over and close the blinds before he bellyflopped onto my bed.

I shrieked when he grabbed my foot, and kicked at him to release me. He dragged me towards the edge of the bed, a playful smile lighting up his face.

"Stop Jacen!" I laughed, halfheartedly kicking at him.

"C'mon you little minx," he growled playfully.

Definition of a minx: an impudent, cunning, or boldly flirtatious girl or young woman.

I glanced in the mirror behind jacens head. Oh yeah, I was definitely a minx.

Note the sarcasm.

All thoughts left my mind when I was under him and he was staring down at me. His eyes went from my eyes down to my lips, and I immediately shut my lips and shook my head.

I'm not kissing him with morning breath. He may look and smell alright but I sure as hell don't.

"I have to go to the bathroom!" I said, shoving his shoulders so he would let up. He rolled over and I hopped up and slammed the bathroom door shut, breathing out.

***
"REESES PUFFS REESES PUFFS, PEANUT BUTTER CHOCOLATE FLAVA!" I sang and shouted into my spoon as I stood on top of a kitchen chair.

"Zaph, babe, would you calm down?" Jacen muttered next to me as he ate his boring Frosted Flakes.

"You are just jealous that you aren't eating REESES PUFFS REESES PUFFS PEANUT- hey!"

My spoon was snatched and Jacen wrapped his arm around my waist, pulling me down to sit in my chair.

"Sit down and stay seated." He devoured another spoonful of frosted flakes. I glared at him for a moment before reaching over and snatching his bowl from in front of him.

"I'm not a dog Jacen."

He looked at me intensely. "Close enough."

I scoffed. "Well how does it feel to be dating a bitch?"

Jacen coughed and rolled his eyes. "That's not what I meant and you know it." I actually had no idea what he could've possible meant but I dropped it.

But I kept his frosted flakes, and ate them.

I shrugged after a moment and looked over at Jacen. He gave me an incredulous look. "What? Frosted Flakes are more than good; their great. They are also in my stomach at this point in time, so deal with it."

Jacen and I spent a couple of hours training, but that eventually led to umm... Other things. The majority of the day was peaceful, and we just lounged around the house and watched tv and talked. Eventually he squeezed the Xenon information out of me, and not exactly surprisingly, he had the same suspicion.

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I was close to death.

Training had been something gruesome these past few days, but I kept pushing since I knew it was leading up to what I hoped was the final showdown with X. Just thinking about finally confronting the coward, made my heart beat erratically.

I collapsed on my bed, but eventually had to get up to bathe, and wash all of this grime off of me.

Jacen told me to get all the sleep I needed throughout the day, because tonight we were going to Xenon. I could be that we are totally wrong with where my family is, but I need to know for sure, and I won't know unless I try.

I soaked in a nice lavender bubble bath that reminded me of Jacen's "proposal" a few nights ago.

I was too imperfect to have a guy like him, and I knew it. I've made so many mistakes that when I think about it, I am surprised he wants anything to do with me. I accused him of being X for Christ sakes!

I sighed and sunk lower into the water.

I'm just happy that I have him now, and I held onto the thought that I would have him after tonight. Nothing was going to go wrong with our plan, and no one was going to die or get hurt.

This is what I had to keep telling myself as I loaded myself into the car with the five boys later on that night.

It was around nine o'clock, and the normally comfortable November air only laid a blanket of foreboding over my shoulders tonight.

"Hey, you okay?" It took me a second to realize Jacen was talking to me.

"Yeah, I'm okay. Just little nervous," I admitted. His eyes softened.

"Just stay with me, everything will be okay." I nodded and hopped in the van, just wanting to get my family back as quickly as possible.

After an excruciating ride full of jokes to try to lift the tension, we arrived a block from Xenon.

"What?" I asked jumpily. Jacen had been looking at me and then back towards the front for the umpteenth time.

"You forgot your inhaler."

Dang it. "Don't worry, I'll be fine," I told him reassuringly.

He reached in his pocket with a small smile as he looked back at me. "Good thing I grabbed it for you. Let me hold onto it since you don't have pockets. If you need it, you find me immediately, got it?"

I nodded in relief. "Thank you."

"Alright lovers, let the show begin," Finn whispered.

Spencer glanced at him, tossing a backpack over his shoulder. "Why are you whispering?"

"Cuz we are spies about to infiltrate enemy lines. You never know when their watching." He crouched, sniffing a very suspicious brown clump on the sidewalk.

I scrunched my nose in disgust as Finn stuck his tongue out. Luke sighed and yanked him up by the collar. "Don't lick that you dipshit."

Jacen started walking, wrapping his arm around my waist. "Let's go." I tried to ignore the glare coming from Axle's direction.

My heart thundered in the silence as my eyes landed on the abandoned building. Jacen squeezed my waist, and I looked up at him.

"Here we go."

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Crap.
ITS HAPPENING GUYS ITS HAPPENING ASGDHFJGKSKJL.WHY AM I SO EXCITED FOR MY OWN STORY WHEN I ALREADY KNOW WHATS GONNA HAPPEN?