Please have mercy on me

Take it easy on my heart

Even though you don't mean to hurt me

You keep tearing me apart

Would you please have mercy, mercy on my heart?

Justin's POV

I was driving Nicholas's car very carefully, sure, I have my license...but he would really kill me if I damaged his car. I was nervous, that much I could tell...I have never felt this before, if you told me a few years ago that I would be crushing on the mysterious Mickey, I would laugh in your face...yet here I was, driving all the way to Central Park to give her song lyrics that I spent two weeks making. It might not sound as perfect without the music I wrote with it, but I still want to either sing it to her or give her the lyrics. I found a parking spot and quickly parked. I got out and locked the car. That's when I jogged into the park trying to find her. What I found, I was not expecting. I saw her sitting on a bench with him...with Alec. Her back was facing me while I swear I saw Alec look at me. I never thought I could feel such hatred for anyone in my life, it's like I was back at this park with Mason and saw Michela kissing Jake. I don't want Michela seeing me just yet so I cautiously walked forward enough to hear them talking but I made sure to hide from them. Alec was talking.

"So I know that we have known each other for only like two weeks, but I wanted to ask you something,"

That bastard better not be thinking about what I think he is.

"What is it?"

Just hearing her made me smile.

"Would you do me the honor of being your date?"

Oh my god...Justin....breathe....she might say no.

"Umm...I don't know Alec-"

Wait, is she rejecting him??

"Come on Princessa, please? I swear I will make it worth it,"

I think I'm going to be sick.

"Okay...I'll give you a chance,"

Why...why does this hurt more than seeing her kiss someone...I felt something wet go down my face and I wiped my eyes, noticing that I was crying. I can't believe she said yes....Nicholas was wrong. She will never like me. I can't believe that I let myself get my hopes so high...why would someone so perfect like someone like me? I hurt her so badly when I dated Kenzee...I messed up, I messed up our friendship, our relationship, and I just lost her to him. I looked at the lyrics in my hand and crumbled it up. I can't believe that I ever thought I would have a chance with her...she deserves someone better than me. I threw the crumpled paper to the ground and ran away. I ran to the car and drove home. I ran inside while I heard Nicholas shouting my name, I ignored him and ran into my room and slammed my door closed. I couldn't hold it in anymore....it hurts so bad, I never thought it would...how could someone I like so much also be the cause of so much pain? I heard my door open and heard my older brother sigh. I felt my bed dip down and a hand rubbing my back.

"Oh, Justin,"

I just shook my head as I tasted the salty tears when I opened my mouth.

"I-I....how can someone you like cause so much pain?! I just want...I want the pain to go away,"

I heard him sigh again.

"I wish I knew Justin...but what I do know is....it's all worth it, in the end, Justin, it's worth it, seeing her and watching her smile...it's hard at first, trust me, I know...I was CRUSHED when Ash and I broke up first. Dad had to bring me food because I wouldn't want to get out of my room, you were a bit too young to understand what I was going through, so you would come into my room sometimes and ask me to play with you. At first, I told you to leave me alone, but you were VERY persistent and I eventually gave in and played with you. Love works in strange ways Justin, but it's ALL worth it in the end. You should take the rest of the week off, no offense...but you, my dearest brother, are a mess."

I smiled a little at what he said. The thing is....how do I know that it's worth it? It hurts just thinking of Michela right now, especially since he took her away from me...I finally mustered enough courage to tell her how I felt about her, and then Alec just had to come into her life and ask her to be his date. I don't know when it will stop hurting.

"I just want it to stop hurting so much,"

"I know Justin...trust me. Just don't push anyone away as I did. I didn't talk to Ashley for a week after she broke up with me, and I only talked to her after I knew how to apologize."

Why am I thinking about her?

"Why can't I get her out of my head?"

I'm used to it because I think about her a lot...and I mean a lot.

"Because you always think about her, you like her a LOT...your brain won't stop thinking about her right away,"

Thinking about her just makes it hurt more.

"It hurts to think about her though,"

I felt myself being lifted up into a sitting position. I looked to my side and saw my brother looking at me, his eyes shone in worry. He wrapped his arm around me.

"Tell you what, Jesse is over at Brandy's house today, let's go downstairs and watch some movies while eating all the ice cream that we have,"

I shook my head...I just can't bring myself to actually move, I felt numb and horrible. Nicholas sighed and nodded.

"Alright, well...you should take a shower at some point and change, showers always make me feel better...I'll bring some tissue boxes and candy up here."

I just nodded. I don't want to get up. Nicholas got up and left. I laid back down and stared at the ceiling. All I could think of was Michela, all of the good times that we had and all the small moments that we shared...how her eyes lit up when she was excited, how her nose crinkled up when someone pointed out that she was short, how she tilted her head when she was confused, how she played with her necklace when she was nervous or worried, or even how if she was laughing so hard, she would crouch down. I can't believe I fell so hard for her in such a short time, but I'm not fully surprised...she is so perfect...and I lost her. 

A/N: Yes...I am that mean to do that to Justella. Poor Justin...hehe