Aditi's point of view

It's been a month since then the riots happen. It's been a month I have hurted my leg and Dhruv took a good care of me but things has changed in this month. Dhruv was distant from me. He talked less and never initiated a conversion. From past month he didn't even kiss me and do any flirting.

My leg was fully healed but I feel this empty hole in my heart because of the lack of attention from Dhruv. I get used to his flirting and kisses. I don't know where I get wrong, what I have done but he is not talking to me. Every time I tried to talk to him, he just ignore me or give a short answers. He stopped cuddling me in nights.

I heard the car sirens and I immediately went to the kitchen eindow which gave the clear view to the outside of the main gate. Dhruv stepped out from the car and without giving last greetings he walked towards the main door of dinning area. He looked tired. There were no expressions on his face. It feels like ge didn't sleep for days. I don't know what happened to him but looking at him, it feels like he was feeling alone.

I pore a cold water in a glass and walked outside from the kitchen to the dinning area where everyone was sitting and having their evening tea and snacks. Dhruv was sitting on the couch beside Anuradha aunty without any expression and he was pressing his head with his thumb and forefinger.

"Water..." He noticed my presence when I stood beside him and offered him a water.

Without even sparring a glance to me he took a glass of water and drink it last drop. When he handed back the glass to me our fingers brushed. Again I feel the same sparks whenever he touched me. I looked at him intensely but he ignore me like nothing happened.

"Excuse me...."

and just like that he leave from there without saying anything to me.

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I came back to the kitchen and made a sandwich and black coffee for him. I hope this coffee could lift up his mood. I don't know if it's because of work or something else I just want my Dhruv back.

I make my way to the upstairs with a smile on my face. Today I am dedicated to make him talk to me. I just want to know what is going on inside his mind but when I reached inside our room everything was shattered. Books, clothes, my stationary everything was shattered in the floor and what scared me the most was Dhruv was looking something in a drawer with haste like he was looking something. He was sweating and he was feeling restless.

"Dhruv...." I whispered his name.

He got startled with my presence. I got scared when he turn to looked at me. His face was all red and sweat was dripping from his face like he just washed it. His eyes were blood shot red and they were glistening.

"Dhruv..." I put the tray on a table and went to him but seeing me coming near to him he stepped back.

"Dhruv are you okay." Ignoring him I went close to him and put my hand on his shoulder. I was worried for him. I have seen him like this before marriage when we went for meeting with chief minister and he had a panick attack all of a sudden. He covered his both eyes with his palms like he was feeling irritated with my presence.

"Just go away..." He whispered under his breath.

"No, I won't. You need me." I refused to listen to him. I put my hand on his heart and it was beating like crazy.

"Aditi, I said go away." He again whispered under his breath. He still covering his eyes with his palm. He still feeling uneasy and irritated with my presence.

"I am sorry but I can't." I removed his hands from his eyes and our eyes met.

His eyes were filled with unshaded tears and they were red. He looked broken and shattered. I remember the day when I had my worst period and panick attack hit me, I also pushed Dhruv away from me but he was the one who didn't let me go and be with me in my worst period. Today he is vulnerable and I needed to be with him. Looking at him like this my eyes also filled with tears.

I took his face in my hands and kissed on his forehead.

"Don't think too much. Just take deep breath. Don't forget that I am here with you." I wiped the sweat from his forhead with my saree pallu.

He keep looking at me without a blink like he was seeing me for the first time. His eyes turned soft and many emotions were playing in his eyes which I was unable to read.

He raised his hand and wiped my tears with his thumb without breaking the eye contact. But suddenly I don't know what happened to him, his eyes turn hard and he clenched his jaw. He hold my both shoulders and pushed me away.

"I said, go away.." I flinched on my place when he shouted at me.

"Dhruv, please let me help you." I take a step towards him, to hold him in his arms but he stopped me.

"I don't need anyone's help. Let me be myself." He shouted on me again. But when I didn't make any move to leave him, he fisted his both hands and pinched his nose in irritation, "Fine, I'll leave." and after that he leave from there. I set on the floor and broke into tears.

"Dhruv, please don't go....." I cried out his name. I know he need me but I suppose to help hom when he keep pushing him away. I am now physically powerful like him who could caged him in my arms but I tried to stopped him. I got up and immediately went to the balcony when I heard the car honked. A gaurd came and opened the door for him and before I could blink his car drove off from the house.

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Another month has passed, things are still same between me and Dhruv. Even they got worst as time passed. He started fighting with me for unnecessary things. He came home late and leave early. Sometimes he came home drunk and Raghav carried him to home. Anuradha aunty blamed me for his condition. One day when I asked him about sudden change in behaviour, without saying anything he leave and didn't come home the whole night.

I took all the cups of tea in a tray along with some snacks and went to the living area. Today is Sunday so everyone is at home and spending a day with family. Dhruv scrolling down to his phone and didn't give me a glance. I gave everyone their tea but when I gave tea to Dhruv he didn't even lift up his face to look at me. Our  fingers brushed but it didn't effect him the way they effected me. Gulping down all the pain, I  set beside Divya who was playing with Rayansh.

"Today is Priya's parents wedding anniversary and she invited all of us." Anuradha aunty says while sipping her tea.

"Hmmm...we should go. This is the chance both family come together forgetting the past. " Gautam uncle said. Nikita bhabhi and Nikhil bhiya nodded their head in yes.

"We should buy a gift for them." Nikhil bhiya suggested.

"Don't worry...I already buy the gift. You all just get ready on time. Don't forget theme was traditional so girls keep ready your lehnga and everything." Anuradha aunty said while looking at Nikita bhabhi and Divya, ignoring me completely.

"What mummy...? You should have informed us before." Divya gave a reaction of shock while Nikhil bhiya and Nikita bhabhi rolled their eyses. Gautam uncle shake his head while Dhruv wasn't effected with the conversation at all. It was like he wasn't there.

"You got the enough time. You have so many dresses. Just wear one of them." Anuradha aunty shrugged her shoulders.

"Still mummy...." Divya gave Rayansh to me and ran to his house like headless chicken.

"This girl.." Gautam uncle said while looking at her while pulling down his specs to his nose and again shake his head.

"Mummy, I am not coming to this party. I am busy." Dhruv said looking at Anuradha aunty. If Dhruv is not going then there is no point of me going there.

"I didn't ask your permission. You have to come with us. I don't care if you cancel the meeting or whatever. You are coming wuth us. You have no option." Anuradha aunty made clear things with Dhruv. He sighed and without saying anything he went outside without telling anyone that where he is going.

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I was going through in my cupboard, looking for something to wear in a party. As Anuradha aunty mentioned perticular lehnga but I don't have any. I only have sarees and suits. I hope she doesn't mind me wearing a saree.

"Here....." I turn around and saw Dhruv was standing beside me with a dress in his hand.

I look closer and it was a beautiful pink lehenga. I looked to him and a flick of emotions show into his eyes for a second but he masked them like what I was saw was a Miraj. He forward the dress to me and I took it from him without breaking the eye contact. I opened my mouth to say something but before a word could escape from my mouth he walked away, hurting me millionth time.

*****

When I came downstairs everyone turns to me. I was late, I know. Nikita bhabhi and Nikhil bhiya gave me a smile while Dhruv was keep looking at me like he was seeing me for the first time. But how could I explained my condition. He was looking breath taking in his black tux that I forget to breathe. But I reminded myself that I am not alone, whole family was watching us.

"Aditi.....you are looking damn pretty." Divya ran to me and took me in hug.

"Today you are not looking like my friend but my Bhabhi.." She bumped her shoulder to me and teased me.

A small smile came to my face and my eyes met with Dhruv who was looking at me intensely. When he found out that I caught him looking at me he turn his face and ran his fingers in his hair.

"We should go. We are getting late." Gautam uncle said and everyone nodded their head.

Three cars were ready in the drive way for the family to reached the menu. Everyone leave in their respected cars while I stayed i the hall as Dhruv get busy in a call. I waited for him patiently and when he came back he didn't look to my side.

"Come let's go." He said while walking forward but I hold his hand and stopped him. He turned nd looked at me.

"Did I do something wrong?" I asked while holding back my tears.

"No..." He said.

"Did I hurt you?" I asked him again. I wanted to know where I get wrong that he is behaving with me so rude.

"No....Why are you asking?"

"Then why are you ignoring me?" I hold my emotions back.

"I'm not." He pulled back his hand from my hold and turned his face away.

I hold his both shoulders and make him turn to me, "Dhruv, I onow we both are not good at expressing our feelings. All the time you cared about my pain, you always know what I want. I have shared with you my past but I don't know anything about you." Tears falls down from my eyes and I was crying. I was about to fall fown when he hold me by my both shoulders. My vission was blur with tears when I looked up to him.

"I always wanted to know what is going inside you. You cared everyone but you masked your pain. I know you feels alone. Please let me take away this loneliness away from you. Please shared your pain with me." I broke into tears in his arms

"But I don't deserve you." His jaw was clenched nd teeth were greeted when he said looking down to me.

"Let the fate decide." I whispered.

"I can't risk." He leave me and I fall into the ground. He walked to outside leaving me there while I broked into another round of tears and looked at his retreat figure.

Dhruv you don't know how much it hurts when you ignore me and how mny times you made me feel that I am not good enough to make you happy. But I tried Dhruv. I tried to change everything between us forgetting anout my past. Accept you as my husband even though our marriage was forced. Dhruv I love you, I love you so much and I keep trying to push your dreams away just let me in your heart. I promise you I won't disappoint you.

I wiped my tears and stood up with broken pieces of my heart. I went outside where the car parked. Dhruv was sitting inside it on the driver seat and looking outside, lost in his thoughts. Without saying anything I seat inside the car and buckle my seatbelts. His jaw was clenched and knuckles tutns inti white because his grip on steering wheel was tight. He starts the car without looking at me. His adam apple moved when he gulped down his saliva or I don't know, maybe emotions.

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