Aditi's point of view

That whole Rahul just did not rape or get me gang rape physically. He was actually having the satisfaction of seeing me tortured. I could see the satisfaction in his eyes when he was making a video when his friends raping me. I was tortured mentally and this mental and physical rape cause me dipression and not ending nightmares.

Rape is not only a physical assault to me, it is often destructive of the whole personality of mine. When a girl get raped or go through a assault she alway looks for the support for her family and judiciary to give her justice. But I get none. My family throw me out and one of the man who was from system, raped me. I was alone. I feel myself changing. I don't laugh the same anymore, I don't have the same smile, I don't talk the same. I am just so tired of everything mentally.

I wake up every morning with the same demon, fighting with them theat left me so tired and sometimes I loose the power to fight them back. I have only one thing to say, you can chain me, you can torture me, you can even destroy this body but you will never imprisoned my mind.

"I am sorry Dhruv.....I am sorry. I hide things from you.....", I broke into sobs when I was done with my past, crying at one corner sitting on the floor while he was sitting on the other corner on the floor, leaning to the bed
and crying like a baby.

"He raped me because I slapped Nisha. He made people raped me. I was alone Dhruv. I was so alone.", I cried.

"Please stop...I can't hear anymore.", He also broke into tears and looked at me with his wet eyes.

"Dhruv I am sorry...I don't deserve you. Someone already take my body forcefully. I am not pure.", Tears are not stopping from both of our eyes and we both are crying like a baby. He got up from the floor and walked to me. He hold my hand and made me stand on my feet.

"They took me forcefully and I was lying there like a body. I cried but they did not stop. My family also throw me out. I did not get the medical help. Where would I go for justice, when a S.P. himself raped me.", Dhruv hugged me tightly and I cried on his shoulder holding him tightly for my life.

"What was my fault? They are the one who put there part inside me. They should be the one who feel ashamed then why people loath me when I got pregnant and I don't know the father's name. Why they did forget that I was gang raped."

"Baby please calm down.", He kissed on my forehead but I couldn't stop myself.

"It's been five years I was hiding this pain inside me. I was dying to share this to someone who could listen to me. It was eating me from inside. I feel suffocated Dhruv.", I was letting go the pain I was hiding. I don't know how I was able to hide it. I broke the hug and looked at him but he did not let me go, outting his hand around my waist and cupped my right cheek.

"Dhruv I swear in my whole life I only love you even when you leave me I could not stop loving you. But when they raped me and you came back in my life again I was having doubts if I deserve you or not. It feels sin to love you even though I know I am not your beautiful neighbour anymore.", I said through my tears.

"It's not your fault. I was at fault too. If I realised my feelings for you earlier and didn't run away like a coward, you may not have to go through this.", He said while looking at me through his unshaded tears. I did not agree with him nd shake my head as no.

"How it was supposed to be your fault? You were just 17 and just graduated from school. You were also depended on your family then how could you have take care of me. Also I don't want to come between your dreams.", I said looking into his eyes.

"I could have achive them with you beside me. But if you were with me that Rahul did not do anything with you.", A tear escape from his eyes.

"Will you leave me now as you know what I am?", I asked from no where looking directly into his eyes.

"Mrs. Aditi Dhruv Malhotra never ever say that. You are still mine, you are still pure like you were when I laid my eyes on you first time when you were dancing in the rain on your terrace. They just touch your body but your soul is still mine. It still pure and I am the lucky basterd who claims your heart. So never ever say that you are not pure anymore or I will leave you. ", He said while pulling me closer to him with authority and wiped my tears. I could not hold anymore and hugged him tightly again broke into tears.

"Dhruv, thankyou for coming into my life and giving a meaning to it. Thankyou for making me feel that I also deserve love.", I cried on his shoulder. Feeling his arms around me again feels like that no one can harm me now and I can sleep in relax because I know my Dhruv would protect me. He also know that I am tired and I need him.

For many girls, they have there safe heaven in their mother's lap. When they have fight with their husband or going through a tough phase they just go to their mother and relax in thier mother's lap but for me I don't have nother but I have Dhruv. He is my safe heaven and I can let go all my oain when he is with me. I broke the hug and he tuck back my hair but keep me close to him.

"Can I ask you something if you don't mind?" He asked and I nodded my head as yes.

"I was raped too and it leave the great impact on me that I feel uncomfortable if someone touched me. Even when Divya hugged me, I felt like I am going to have a panick attack. All memories came back and haunted me. Have you ever feel uncomfortable or it brings the bad memories back when I made love to you?", He asked while caressing my cheeks lovingly but I keep looking at him without blink. I came out from his hold and walked to the window. Rain is still pouring outside like our tears. Tonight is the night where I am going to give all the answers of Dhruv questions. I already confessed the toughest part of my life and after this there is nothing which could hurt me.

"After I was raped for whole month, no matter how many times I showered or tried to rip my skin off from my body so I could not feel their touch. Sometimes I even tried to scratch my skin with razer but it could not work. I screamed, I cried because years later I could feel their touch but when you touch me for the first time I feels like I showered in a holy water, everytime you make love to me their touches washes off from my body. I never feel uncomfortable with you because you are replacing their touch. I feel refresh and feel this bew energy in me that maybe I could survive.", I said looking outside the window to the rain.

Yes, it is true that when Dhruv kissed me fisrt time I feel like I got the new skin on my body. Whenever he made love to me, traces his hands over my body it replaced those filthy hands which ones assaulted me.

Suddenly I feel pair of arms traced my arms from behind and I closed my eyes, feeling relaxed. This is the one I am talking about. His touch holds the power to loose myself. He keep slowly and steadily traced his palms on my arms and I let myself feel the calm. I slowly opened my eyes and tears welled up in my eyes, looking at the rain which was still pouring heavily. He move my hair from my shoulder to the other and I closed my eyes when I feel his lips on the crook of my neck. He encircled his right arm around my stomach and keep giving a sloppy and wet kisses on my neck.

I ghasped and tears left from my eyes when he sucked on my ear lob and then traced his tongue from my shoulder to the crook of my neck.

"Dhruv, aap kya ker rahe hai?", I asked and opened my eyes.

(Dhruv what are you doing?)

"Kissing away your pain.", He made me turn to him and pinned me to the wall. A tears drop from my left eye when I looked at him and he wiped it off with his thumb.

"I swear on you baby, I am going to rip that Rahul's heart from his body that he is going to regret of his birth.", He said and I closed my eyes when he peck on my lips.

"I already lost the hope of justice.", I said and tears freely fell from my eyes.

"Just hold a little bit. Soon he is on his feet begging you for his life.", After saying that he captured my lips in a deep kiss, biting them, licking them and pulling my lower lip between his teeth. I ghasped when he lifted me in a bridal style and took me to the bed. He slowly laid me down on the bed and hovered over me. This time I also did not hold myself and kissed him back, letting him love me again. I let his fingers explore my body. It's been more than a month he touched me and it feels so good because I was missing his touch.

He broke the kiss and removed his t-shirt over his head. I traced my fingers on his bare torso but he did not let me and again hovered over me.

"Do you mind if we....?", He asked with worry. He wants to make me feel comfortable. Tears brim to my eyes. I cupped his right cheek and nodded my head as yes.

"I miss this. Don't hold yourself.", A small smile came onto his lips and he leaned down to my neck kissing it and bitting it.

I traced my fingers on his bare back pulling him closer to me when he was squeezing my breasts. He again took my lips in a passionate kiss that I can hear our kissing sound in the noise of rain. He kissed on my cheeks, moved down to my throat and started tacing his tongue on my cleavage. I feel the spark in my whole body and the wetness between my legs. Dhruv parted my legs and stayed himself between them while kissing on my cleavage. I have tears in my eyes but smile on my face. After knowing all my oast he did not leave me. He stays with me and making love to me.

He hold my hand and removed my kurti over my head left me in my black bra. Soon he removed my leggings and my bra was laying on the floor along with my panties. We were laying under the blanket naked and he was making love to me. I moaned his name when he kissed on my nipples, nibbing them bitting them. Today he wasn't rushing things. He was making me feel love. He was kissing away all my pain. Though it will always be there but Dhruv was trying to replace it with his kisses and I believe that time can heal everything. With Dhruv beside me I can win the battle.

"Dhruv....", I moaned his name when I feel him inside me and I was penting with sweat on my forehead and tears in my eyes.

"Are you okay? I can stop if you are feeling uncomfortable.", He asked with concern but I shake my head as no.

"You never made me uncomfortable. Please don't stop.", I said and fresh tears fall down from the corner of my eyes.

"I won't love..."

"Aaahhh....", I ghasped when he thrust inside me.

"I can't stop loving you.", He again thrust inside me deeply and I scratched his back with my nails. He connected our lips and give me a long smooch while moving inside me.

"I am sorry baby for leaving you."

I whispered when he touched my G-spot. He dig his face to my neck and bit on it while making love to me. We both were wet in sweat, we both are feeling emotional, we have tears in our eyes but we can feel for eachother.

"Don't be sorry. It wasn't your fault baby.", I wiped his tears but still they are falling from his eyes. He keep moving inside me and we could feel the pain through the connection.

"I swear on you. I am going to fuck his life.", I cup his mouth, stopping him saying anything further.

"Don't ruin this moment bringing him between us.", I said and ghasped when he gave a harsh thrust.

"I love you Aditi. I love so much baby."
I feel myself close to the point and he was also close but he did not increase his speed. He waited for me to get comfortable and when I was feeling so weak he came inside me groaning my name and whispering only sweet words in my ear. He lay down beside me and adjust the blanket properly on both of us. I did not waste a second and move to him. His face was already on my side and he was looking at me with intense gaze. We both have gone through the same pain maybe that is why we both are connected through our pain and then our love.

He cupped my cheeks and then pulled me closer to him. He caged me between his arms and legs like he was afraid that I will leave him again but I won't and I will never do that again because I only belongs to my Dhruv. He is my safe heaven. I out my head on his chest and then I closed my eyes letting the sleep consume me because in oast month I only cried for him and now he is with me I want to sleep as long as I want because he also loves me as much as I love him.

******

The sun rise in the sky and I woke up before Dhruv. He was sleeping beside me peacefully and snoring lightly. His hands and arms are caging me and we both are naked under the blanket. He grew a beard and he needs to shave. A smile came onto my lips seeing him. It feels so light after confessing things to him. I have never shared about my past to anyone, it was not like I don't want to share, it was because I have no one to share with and later I don't want to share it myself as it's reminds me about ny horrible past.

I leaned to him and pack on his lips. I ran my fingers in his hair and he moaned in his sleep. I feel lucky to have Dhruv in my life. He never judge me. He is still with me after knowing my past. He knows the worst of me but he is still woth me.

After packing on his cheeks, I took the extra blanket and took some effort to came out from his hold but my dearest hisband again pulled me to him and hid his face in the crook of my neck.

"Dhruv, I need to go.", I slowly whispered in his ear.

"Five more minutes. You are so comfy.", He frowned in his sleep.

"Please babu....", I whispered again but this time he didn't reply. I made some more efforts and then he let me go but his hands still finding me so I put extra pillow beside him and he cuddles it like it was me.

I wrapped the extra blanket around me and made my way to the washroom. After taking a long shower I wore a simple pain anarkali suit and made my way to the kitchen to make breakfast for my handsome neighbour. I made two cup of tea and toast some bread. I made poha which looks so nice. I platter the breakfast for both of us in a tray and went to him. I put the tray in a small stool and set beside him. I leaned over him and ran my fingers in his hair.

"Dhruv wake up...", I whispered while caressing his cheek lovingly. He frowned a little but opened his eyes and a small smile came on his face.

"Good morning...", He cupped my right cheek and caressed it lovingly.

"Good morning....", I said while running my fingers in his hair. I ghasped when he suddenly pulled me towards him and I fall on him. He tuvk my hair back and looked at me intensively.

"After so long my morning feels good.", His voice was weak and I can see his pain in his eyes.

"I promise you, our morning will be like this always.", I said and he closed his eyes when I kissed on his forehead.

"I love you...", He said.

"I love you too....", We both sit there like this and keep looking at each other with love and with so much emotions.

His eyes were so deep and looked so tired yesterday but today I can see hope in them. His eyes were reflecting the satisfaction that he finally found me. Now I realised that how much a stupid I was. His mother threw me out. It was not his fault, infact I knew that it's going to hurt him, it may break him from inside but still I chose to leave him. I don't know why did do this but it was the most stupidest decision I had ever take. Our gaze broke with a pin of a message on his phone and I got up from him.

"You must be hungry. I made a breakfast for both of us." I asked him.

"Yeah, a little...", He yawned and stretch his arms and my eyes stuck on his bare chest which was glowing under the sun light.

"You are drooling..", I averted my eyes from his chest and looked into his eyes. He was smirking looking at me.

"Can you put your t-shirt?", I asked him still zoning out in his bare chest.

"You know, your hands were on it while I was doing things with you. Bow you want me to hide it?", He teased me and looked at him with wide eyes.

"Dhruv you can't mention perticular things.", I said with shock but still my eyes were keep going down on his bare uore body. A blanket was only hiding his legs but he was naked from upper part.

"Eyes up Mrs. Dhruv Malhotra..", He teased again.

"Yeah...", I was still zoned out on him.

"You are lusting over your husband. You just have to ask and you will find yourself under me the next moment.", Hearing him my cheeks turn red and I averted my gaze from him when he was clearly teasing me.

"Breakfast is turning cold. We should eat it.", I said while putting the breakfast tray between us and only focused on his face. He chuckled softly and took the tea cup from the tray and sip on it while I did the same looking here and there, not meeting his gaze.

He is indeed a good distraction. We have made love so many times and I see him without shirt many times but I don't know what happened to me every time when I see him without shirt.

"Aditi, we have to leave today. We can't leave here, you know that right?", He said looking at me.

I looked down to my tea and an unknown fear crawled inside me. I know we have to leave this place but I don't know I'm scared. I don't know where would Dhruv take me, maybe to his parents house but I am not ready to go there after the way Anuradha aunty throw me out in-front of servants and called me whore and slut. It would be tough to go there. But if Dhruv wants to live with his parents I can not stop him. It was his parents house, his family live there and I am no one to stop him to live with his family.

"Would you take me to your parents house?", I asked still looking down, tears welled uo in my eyes because of the fear, facing Anuradha aunty again. I don't want her to blame me again for what happened in my past. It would be like going through my past again.

"Do you want to go there?", He asked and I hear concern in his voice because my eyes our still down.

I shake my head as no. I answered honestly.

"Me neither...", I looked up to him abruptly and he was already looking at me with same concern and worry.

"I don't want to go to that place where my were insulted and called by names. Yes, they are my family but you are my family too.", I sobbed when he says that and without thinking anything I put my tea cup aside and jumped on him, hugging him tightly. He hugged me back tightly and nuzzled his face into the crook of my neck.

"Dhruv, I am sorry but please don't judge me. I also wants to live with your family but I am too scared to face Anuradha aunty. She doesn't like me from start and I am afraid she would again try to separate us.", I let out my fear to him.

"I know baby, you don't have to scare anymore. I would not let anyone to come between us, not even my family.", He broke the hug and wiped off my tears.

We both keep looking at each other with love and so much intensity. It was like we both are talking with our eyes. His thumb which was caressing my cheeks went down and he traced my lower lip. His evyes moved from my eyes to my lips. He leaned to me and I closed my eyes. My heart was at its highest pace and I can anticipate our lips on each other. He lean more and his hot breath fanning on my lips. But before our lips could touch I heard the knock from the outside and our attention turned to the door. Dhruv put his head on my shoulder huffing in disappointment while my eyes were sticks on the door. My mind was stopped working and I can feel myself in the zone of Dhruv.

"I have to check it.", I spoke when I feel myself again.

He nodded his head and moved back. I got up from the bed and walked to the door while he was wearing his clothes. I opened the door and my landlord Geeta aunty was there with a bowl in her hand.

"Aditi, Can you give me bowl of sugar? Actually Tanu's father forgot to bring it last night.", She smiled sheepishly. Every time she have new excuses to ask things.

"Sure....", I took the bowl from her hand and came inside. She also followed me but her eyes were on Dhruv who was talking on the phone. He smiles looking at me and I smiled back while Gita ji gave him a weird look.

"Aditi, who is this guy?", Gita ji asked mw while standing beside me. I took the sugar jar and fill her bowl upto rim as I don't want her to come here with another excuse.

"He is Dhruv, my husband.", I said without looking at her.

"You are married?", She asked in shock and I nodded my head.

"But you never told us.", She said while lifting the lid of the pan and inhaled the aroma of poha and I know what she wanted next.

"Now you know Gita ji. It doesn't matter if I told you earlier or not.", I said while giving her a tight smile. I took another bowl and served poha for her. Dhruv also come and stand beside me. Gita ji was looking at Dhruv from up to down, making him feel uncomfortable under her gaze.

"Gita ji, this is for Tanu. I sure, she gonna love it.", I said while giving her a bowl of poha.

"Yeah, right. She gonna love it.", She said, still looking at Dhruv. I looked at Dhruv and he just shrugged his shoulders. Okay, now this is weird. Why is this lady not moving her ass from here?

"Gita ji is there anything, I can do for you.", I asked hwr again. I can give her whole my sugar jar to let her move her ass from here.

"Yeah, Aditi actually Tanu's father asking for the rent of next month in advance.", She said looking at me.

"But Gita ji, it's still a week left to end this month.", I said.

"Yeah but according to the contract you have to give the rent in advance and it's just a week.", She said.

"But I d.."

"How much....?", Before I could oppose further Dhruv intrupt. I looked at him and he assured me that he would take care of it.

"It's 3000.", She said. Dhruv picked up his wallet, bring out six 500 notes a gave it to her. Geeta ji's eyes lit in excitement nd she counted the money 4 times.

"One more thing, Aditi is moving from here and you can keep the stuff she is owning.", Dhruv make taht clear for her. Geeta ji looked at me for confirmation and I nodded my head as yes.

"You know Aditi, I am going to miss you.", She said with a fake smile.

"Me too Geeta ji.", Though it was a total lie but I can't hurt the lady's feelings.

"One minute...", She went to the kitchen and bring the tea jaar along with sugar jaar with her. She looked at Dhruv and me and laughed nervously.

"You don't need them anymore. So I thought to bring them with me.", After giving us one more awkward smile she left. I closed the door behind her and looked at Dhruv. We both broke into laugh.

"She is one of the unique piece.", He said and I walked to him.

"Trust me....", I took his clothes which he was wearing yesterday. I washed them and hang them on the string, let them dry in air. They smells freshly. I took the iron and started ironing them while Dhruv come near me and stand beside me.

"Dhruv, where are we going to live?", I asked him ironing his shirt.

"I am still thinking about it. We can live in the bunglow that government has provided me but it's gonna take a week atleast as I have to complete some formalities to claim it.", He said while sitting in-front of me of the bed. The idea of living in bunglow did not set with me well and I also know Dhruv, he love privacy than luxary.

"I don't want to live in bunglow. I like the rental apartment you have at the outskirt of the city.", I said looking at him while folding his shirt and took his pants to iron them.

"Actually, there is a problem in it. I was living in that place but it was a garbage again.", He rubbed his neck and looked nervous. His neck have a red hue, saying that he is embarrassed.

"Dhhrrruuvv....aap bhi na....Ab hume humara ghar phir se saaf kerna hoga. Aap jante hai next week humara prilims hai. Hume saans lene tak ka bhi time nahi hai.", I get angry on him and showed him my eyes.

(Dhuv you know I have my prilims next week and I have to clean our house again. I don't have time to breathe properly.)

"I know, I am sorry but I won't let you clean our place again. I will hire someone to clean it before moving there.", He said, looking at me apologetically.

I fold his jeans and walked to him.

"Give me your phone.", I forward my palm in-front of him asking his phone.

Without asking anything he put his phone in my palm. I set beside him and unlock his phone. He still have my thumb print added on his phone lock also his phone's wallpaper is our picture. I went through his contact list and scrawl down the numbers. When I find the number I called it.

"I have maids phone number in my phone? I didn't know that.", He looked at me confusingly.

"I had saved it last time.", I said looking at him, still waiting for the person to pick up the call.

"Oh!"

The lady picked up the call and said hello.

"Hello Radha this is Aditi. Dhruv's wife.", I greeted her first.

"Yes, madam."

"Are you free. I need you to come over Dhruv's place and clean it. Also bring help with you. You gonna need it.", I asked her as I know what he did to our house. Mice and cockroaches might be doing their party. Dhruv picked up the comb and turn my back to him. He started combing my hair while I was busy talking to the maid.

"Okay madam I will bring two more girls with me.", She said.

"How much you would charge?", I asked her while my husband was busy combing my hair.

"5000"

"What....? 5000...?", I asked in shock.

"Madam you know how Dhruv bhiya keep his place. He made it garbage. We gonna need atleast five hours to clean it. Also I have to give money to the girls I am going to bring with me."
She said.

"I know but still 5000 is too much. Please give me some discount. I will permanent you if you charged decent.", I argue with her.

"Not at all madam. In Dhruv bhiya case I am charging less.", She argued back.

"Okay then I will ask someone else...",

Dhruv snatched the mobile from my hand "You will get your money, even I will pay you extra if you do it in three hours.", He ordered her and before I could oppose him he cut the call.

"Dhruv...why did you agree with her? She is being unreasonable.", I said.

"Leave it naa. I can't wait to moving with you in our place.", He kissed on my lips and hugged me. I smiled and gugged him back.

"You have lot of money Mr. Malhotra."
I said still hugging him.

"It's all yours Mrs. Malhotra.", He kissed me again and hugged me tightly.

"Go and shower, we have to leave.", I said while breaking the hug and got up from the bed.

"Let's shower together.", He said while coming closer to me.

"I already showered.", I said while stepping back.

"Aditi....", He smirked at me and took a slow step towards me.

"Dhruv....", I step back..

"Aditi....."

I sequel and laughed when he shoved me on his shoulder like potato sack.

"Dhruv, what are you doing put me down.", I laughed and wiggled in his hold.

"No....", He spank on my butt and wlked us the washroom.

Well I have to take a shower again with my handsome neighbour and I know I wasn't just a shower. We are going to do many more things.

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