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Please read the authors note today. If you have never read it I beg you to read it today, its important that you do.

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Jason

"Where's my wife?" I asked running into the Emergency room.

"Calm down sir," someone spoke to me but I couldn't register who, all my senses were trained on finding my girl. I looked up and down frantically until I  saw my mom who followed Liz in the ambulance and rushed towards her.

"Ma what's going on? Where's Liz? We saw the ambulance pass beside us as we drove back home but it didn't occur to us that it was Liz." I waved my hands frantically in the air looking for which bay or room she was in then continued bombarding her with questions.

"But she was fine few minutes ago, what could have gone wrong?" It didn't make sense to me, none of it did.

"Liz isnt the type to just get into fights, so why will she be arguing with Jadesola?" My moms silence was driving me crazy.

"Calm down please Jason, please." My mom begged.

At this point I tried hard to pause and breathe slowly.

"She's asleep okay. She will probably be asleep till tomorrow they gave her a sedative." My mom explained gently with a pitiful stare that made me feel uncomfortable.

"Okay what room or trauma bay is she in?" I needed to see my girl myself.

"That one," my mom pointed to a  room and I move toward it and she followed closely by my heels.

My heart thud loudly and for reasons I couldn't fathom I was scared. No one has told me what went wrong. When I got home my dad had barely told me Liz was taken to the hospital and I jumped back in my car to see her.

I pushed open the glass sliding doors and stepped into the room.

My girl.

Liz had an Intravenous line in her left arm and at first glance it looked like she was sleeping peacefully until I finally reached her side. She had a frown on like she was worrying about something before she slept and tear stains on her cheeks.

I bent down to kiss her forehead and cheeks and just breathed for a second listening to the steady lub and dub sound her heart made and watching as her chest rose and fall in gentle sinus rhythms.

The steady beat of her heart assured me for a second and it felt like the weight that dropped on me when I got home from the drug store lifted a little.

Two doctors entered the treatment room one in a blue shirt tucked into dress pant and the other in green scrubs, they both had white lab coats on and a sour expression.

"Are you the husband?" The one with scrubs asked and I nodded not letting go of Liz' s hands.

"Okay, let's talk outside." They walked out and I bent to kiss my girl. "I love you B" I whispered gently and got up.

"My name is Doctor Rhodes and here is Doctor Williams he is here for a Psych consult." I nodded my head and took turns shaking their outstretched palms.

"Are you aware your wife has retrograde amnesia?" Doctor Williams asked and I nodded in return.

"Okay that's good. She regained all her memories tonight and we had to sedate her because it felt like she was relieving the memory when she woke up."

I waited for few seconds to let the words sink in and felt my heart break. "Is she going to be okay?"

"Yes she will. For now we have taken samples for a full blood workup and we will be taking a CT scan of the brain too. Also we will contact her child therapist for more hands. Now that the memories are here you need yo be ready for what's coming as you are the closest family member. I'll brief you in on what to do next after speaking to her tomorrow." As the doctor finished talking he left with his counter part.

I tried breathing to calm myself but knowing that your loved one is hurting makes you hurt as well. I went back into the room and placed my head on my palms speaking to her gently.

"Hey baby. I need you to rest well, we are going to get through this together." Even though I knew she was sedated talking to her calmed me down.

After a while I got up and left the room alongside my mom.

"Mum what's going on?" I asked and she sighed heavily.

"Just tell me" I snapped feeling irritated.

"Promise me you'll calm down and not do anything rash?" She asked instead.

"Okay I promise."

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"I'm going to kill him," I chanted as sped down Los Angeles road running a red light.

I wasn't so sure I could see clearly where I was going, I felt like I was boiling over and my vision was red with rage.

"I'm going to kill him slowly" I promised myself again.

Listening to everything my mom said felt like someone exploded a bomb inside of me.

I'm not sure  I've been more angry or disappointed in my entire life. What I felt right now was more than that.

"Siri call Leonard," I ordered.

"Calling Leonard," the automated voice returned.

Four rings later a gruff voice answered, "hello sir."

"Leonard I want a detailed report before the end of tomorrow on Jadesola and this guy Alex that she is seeing. I want bank account transactions and details, social media checks, I want to know where he eats, where he shits, who he talks to, where he was born, how he likes his coffee, I want every single detail." I shouted barely controlling the tumult inside me.

"Right away Sir." Leonard answered and I could hear the shuffling of feet's like he just got up from bed before I ended the call. 

I barely put my car in reverse when I jumped out and stalked towards the house.

The door closed with a loud bang echoing in the big beach house and I shouted "Jadesola!" Letting my voice boom through the air loudly.

Immediately I screamed my dad rushed towards the door and towards me.

"Jace please calm down" my dad tried being a human barrier between me and the rest people who trooped in.

"Leave me alone dad I'm calm." I said gently in a voice that sounded low but was dangerous.

"Where is he?" I asked my dad.

"In the small flat, Xav is with him he isn't going anywhere tonight. Let's solve this tomorrow, please don't do anything rash."

His pleas fell on deaf ear as I turned to leave and he rushed after me trying to catch up. Tiara who also came down rushed after him, I could hear her say something my brain wasn't interpreting right now.

I opened the door and rushed in to see the three of them. Xav, Jadesola and Alex.

Like a loose lion I went for my first prey I'll come back to the useless girl that was curled up on the couch near him.

I sent my fist flying into his face before Xav could spell jack and try to hold me back.

Deep down I knew I wasn't going to stop until he was bleeding. I rammed my fist in quick succession to his face and he tried to shield himself not expecting the rain of blows I was showering him with.

Hitting him three times didn't quell my anger so imagine my irritation when Xav dragged me off Alex.

"Unhand me Xavier" I yelled angrily.

"Stop Jace, I understand where you are coming from right now but you're going to injure him, you broke his nose already."

I chuckled darkly then said, "I plan on injuring him." Xav was well built though and escaping him was proving difficult.

"Stay out of it Xav" I warned. I moved a little out o his grip and charged towards Alex but Xavier placed himself between us.

"You have some nerve coming into my house, eating my food and disrespecting me and my woman." I screamed trying to escape Xav. In anger I sent a full packed punch to Xav's stomach and he doubled in pain giving me freeway to go after the coward.

The wimp had moved towards the far end of the room and I only sent two blows in when Xav came back again butting into where he wasn't wanted.

"I'm going to kill you. I'm going to make your life miserable, you'll regret the day you had the balls to touch my woman and hit my sister. Because you're the lowest type of a man, you're the type of nigga that likes to think with his fist to make you feel like you can escape your fathers beating or your worthless childhood right? You crossed a line, I'm not going to hit you anymore I'll come after things you love and I'll take them one by one because unlike you I have the resources to. I'll buy your house, I'll buy your parents house then I'll come for my money the one I'm sure that crack head over there spent on you." I pointed to Jadesola for reference then with as much venom as I could muster I added  "Lastly I'll be there before you go to jail." As I spat each word in his face, I enjoyed the fear that seeped into the white of his eyes and I smiled because he touched the wrong girl.

"Jason." Jadesola called gently tears streaming down her face.

I didn't bother to turn to look at her, I couldn't bare to. She had broken my trust so deeply I had nothing to say to her. Almost ad quick as I had come I stalked back to the car driving like a mad man back to the hospital.

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I rubbed my eyes with my bruised knuckles the result of yesterdays brawl and settled them on Liz.

I knew she was asleep but I needed to hug her right now. This was all my fault, I should have burned those papers but not once in a million years did I think Jadesola will go through my stuff.

I stared at her face, committing every single detail to memory for a while. I stroked her hair gently and finally got up to look for a decent cup of coffee.

I looked like hell. Xav had popped some of my buttons during the grab and my knuckles where a little sore. My eyes where also bloodshot from lack of proper sleep. I felt like hell inside too.

After three cups of hospital coffee and cleaning my face in the hospital washroom. I went down to receive a shirt I ordered to change into and finally made my way back up.

I could hear voices as I approached the room she was I'm and I hurried in.

Immediately I entered, I stared at my egusi soup taking all of her in. Liz had woken up while I was gone and she was sitting up her fingers joined together in a clasp as she met my eyes.

My poor baby.

"We will excuse you two for a minute and come back later," the doctor spoke and left.

My throat suddenly felt scratchy and I didn't know what to say or do. With my chest pounding I moved further into the room and whispered "B"

It was the only word I could muster now, even though it was more of a letter than an actual word. Calling her B was a summary to me of all the good things and name B started with that she was.

Her eyes where sad, too sad as she whispered, "hi," in return.

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One of the strongest memory I have in medical school so far was in 200level. A friend of ours had visited from the teaching hospital to our campus and told us of this girl that was brought in.

I'm not going to say her real name here let's call her Noor.

Noor was barely 19 the first child of her parents when she became paralysed. All for what? For saying no to a marriage proposal.

The guy had called her out and even though they had ended their relationship she went to the car park to see him. He had told her of his parents wish for him to have a bride and asked to marry him but she said no.

After a little argument she turned to leave but in anger he sent a blow down the back of her neck with keys in his hand and she fell face flat into the sand.

Noor can feel pain but nothing more from her neck downward. I went with my friend to see her in the hospital and I'll never forget. I can never forget.

If this message is for one person here please leave that boy. I know the theme of this book isnt domestic abuse but I pray you find the strength to leave.

When you see the red flags I hope you love your life enough to walk away or rather run away. I hope you have the strength to break the cycle of pain, I hope no one gets to cut any part of your life short all in the name of love.

Some days I can't forget her face lying on that bed, it keeps me going in med school not because she is the worst case but from the little conversation she was so beautiful so full of life I can't imagine the life that was stolen from her.

Whether Jadesola or Noor. If you have ever left an abusive relationship I congratulate you and your strength it takes real gut.

You, yes you. You are loved
Orex.