*Mature warning in the beginning because some people wanted me to continue the shower*

In the shower I found myself getting aroused again. Niall’s back was to me and the hot water was running over the both of us. I shakily rose my hands and thought about where this could lead us. We had already been so active and I doubt anything could stop us now. I rested my hands on Niall’s shoulders and he stretched his neck in response. I began to message his shoulders and he hummed with each rub. 

“Feels good.” Niall moaned out. My d.ick twitched and I stepped a little closer to him. My hands moved down his back and grasping his ass. He gasped, pressing his hands against the wall of the shower. 

“Uh, would you like me to-“ I ran my thumb down his center line and pressed my chest to his back. My d.ick bobbed against his skin. I wanted to touch him so badly. I wanted to feel him inside. The steam in the shower added to my already heated skin. “I promise I’ll go slow. Only what you can handle okay?”

Niall nodded frantically and stood a little wider, separating his legs. “I-I’ve done it before, ya know.” Niall spoke, water sputtering from his lips. “I can handle it.” He looked back at me and smiled sheepishly. 

“God, I love you.” I spoke, attacking his lips with my own. Things got so heated as I slipped my tongue into his wet cavern. I grabbed his face, ignoring his lower regions for the time being. He turned to face me and we kissed passionately in the shower, water rushing over our naked bodies. I grabbed his length, pumping him roughly and shoving him against the shower wall. He moaned into my mouth and I guided his hand to my erection. He skillfully pumped me in his hand like he had done with his own length so many time before. After collecting my thoughts for a few seconds I realized what I had said to Niall before things go heated. 

“Niall, I said I loved you.” I was shocked by my own realization. “Niall, I love you.” I kissed him quickly, stopping my hand from moving on him. He looked up at me with a spark in his eyes. He smiled and kissed me back, working me harder. “Oh god, I moaned, legs feeling weak when I was in Niall’s hand. I came into his hand harder than I had ever before. He smirked at me and returned my short kiss that I had given him seconds ago. 

“And If I didn’t love you, with all of my heart, I wouldn’t be here right now, with you.” He pecked me once more. “I.” Again. “Love.” And Again. “You.” He let me go and turned around again, facing the shower wall. He resumed the same position as before, legs spread and bare for me. I quickly grabbed the conditioner bottle while Niall grabbed himself and continued what I hadn’t finished. I squeezed a healthy amount of conditioner onto my finger and pressed them to Niall. I teased him slightly and he moaned, arousing me yet again. 

“Oh come on. I said I love you.” Niall complained. I chuckled deeply and repeatedly teased him until he could take it no longer. 

That night we went to bed in each other’s arms, naked and warm against each other’s skin. No, we didn’t go all the way. I was saving that for sometime special. In the shower after a small fight about adoption papers was not the right time. No matter how much we both wanted it.  It wasn’t the right time. 

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Those papers sat on my side table for days. I hadn’t touched them. I only stared at them and thought about how much my life would change if I agreed to them and signed them. Everything would change. But for the better? I had no clue. 

A light knock came to my door. It was early morning, just before school started for Niall. He had been coming in to see me before he left every day this week. He came into my room and sat down on the edge of my bed. 

“Mornin’” He whispered, placing a hand on my back. He began to rub circles and I melted under his touch. “I gotta leave for school soon.”

“As always.” I muttered, rolling over so that my back was on my mattress and I was frontward facing him. “Kiss me before you go?” I asked, reaching out to him. I was exhausted. Sleep didn’t come to me as easily as it did before now that I had a huge decision to make. 

Niall smiled and leaned down, overtop of me. He placed his forehead on mine and stared into my eyes. I pouted my lips and he pressed his down. When he pulled away he sighed and I could smell his minty breath. He must have just brushed his teeth before he came in. 

“Have fun at school.” I ran my hand down his side to squeeze his bum. He grinned and got off my bed. “Make sure you pay attention in class.” I shouted at him as he went to leave my room. Before he stepped out of the doorway, he turned to me and smirked. 

“That’ll be hard because you’re always on my mind.” He winked and left my room, leaving me with a grin on my face and the papers still on my nightstand. I fell asleep for a little longer after that and woke up around ten or so to head downstairs. The steps creaked under my feet and my stealthy approach to the kitchen was ruined. 

Maura was inside, speaking on my phone and wiping down the counters. She watched me enter and gave me a wary look. I just nodded at her and headed towards the fridge to get a glass of orange juice. Maura spoke quietly on the phone, telling whoever she was talking to ‘No.’ multiple times. I sat quietly at the kitchen table and drank my juice while Maura stayed on the phone. Something much have heated up the conversation because Maura left the kitchen, her conversation getting louder. 

“You can’t do that.” I could hear her yelling from the living room. “No, he is not going back to that man.” What was she talking about? 

I got up from my seat and dumped out the rest of my juice in the sink. I walked slowly over to the doorway and peaked out. Maura was pacing the living room, phone firmly pressed to her ear. She looked frustrated.

“No. I will not give him up.”

“You do that and see what happens. His life is so much better here. He will not go back to Yaser.” I must have let out a gasp because Maura turned to me and hung up quickly. Yaser. That was my dad’s name. Did he call back? No. Maura was talking about him, not to him. 

“Maura…” I started, completely clueless of what I was going to ask her. 

“Zayn, have you thought about those papers I gave you the other day?” Maura asked, setting down the phone on the tall table that sat behind the couch. I nodded. “Are you going to sign them?” 

I stepped out of the doorway and didn’t know how to answer that question. I wanted to sign them so that I would be safe from my dead beat dad, but I also didn't wan to sign them before being Niall’s brother and loving him felt wrong. Yeah. I said it. I love Niall. He is my world now. This is my world. I will not go back to my dad and have this all taken away from me. But Maura needed to know. 

“Maura, I…”

“I can understand you being apprehensive about becoming my son. You’re mother has only been gone for such a short time. I could never replace her. But your father. He’s trying hard to find you and take you with him. I don’t want that. I know you don’t want that either.” Maura was pleading with me and I felt so terrible for not telling her the truth. 

“I-I have to tell you something. It’s really important.” I stared down at my feet and I sensed Maura waiting for what I was about to say next. “Maura, I’m sorry, but I- Niall and I-“ I looked up at her, tears forming in my eyes. “Maura, we’ve been…”

“No. No. No. You stop talking right now, okay?” She shook her head and watched me. “You and Niall are just really close friends. That’s it.” She was trying to convince herself, but I could tell that she had been suspecting it for some time. 

“I love him.”

“No you don’t.” Maura keep shaking her head at me. “You just- Oh god. Zayn why would you do this?” Maura threw her hands to her sides. “I told myself nothing was happening. You two are just really close. Like brothers.”

“Brothers don’t-“

“Zayn, stop it right now!” Maura stomped her foot on the ground and I saw her hands clench into fists at her sides. I needed to shut up right away. She was getting mad. I thought she would be more understanding, but I guess it wasn’t the right time. It may never be the right time. 

“Maura- I-“

“I need a drink.” Maura walked past me, back into the kitchen and I heard the cabinet open. A glass cup clattered on the counter and I was left standing there, utterly in shock of all that just happened. 

I told Maura. 

She knows now. 

I will never sign those papers, not because I didn't want to, but because I would never have the chance to ever again. 

A/N: Well hello again. I updated yeah!!! This was a crazy chapter for me to write and I hope you all liked it! I think I will do the same thing for this story as I'm doing for my other Ziall story. THE QUESTION GAME! So ask my anything about the story, about my life, anything! I will pick two questions  and answer them in the next chapter's author's note! Also, I have a new Ziall story up called Phantasmagoria that will start once this story is over, which is going to be soon. I only have a few more chapters to write and then this will all be over! I can't believe it!

As Always, Much Love

Jachxx