** A little bit of a Rated M Warning**

I didn’t give Maura an answer right then and there. I couldn’t. I needed to think about it. It was a big step in my life and I needed the time to gather my thoughts and of course, talk to Niall. “I-I’m going to go upstairs.” I told Maura, taking the papers with me.

“Sure.” She smiled at me, not questioning my postponed response. When I to upstairs I set the papers down on my nightstand and grabbed my pack of cigs. I walked out to the small porch and lit up. I wasn’t thinking about anything in particular. I had a week worth of free time to decide my future path. Today, well today is a day for me too relax. My chin throbbed with each puff of tobacco I inhaled. After a I finished my cigarette, stamping it out with the heel of my shoe, I went inside to take some pain medication and maybe sleep away the rest of the day.

What I didn’t expect was for Niall to be sitting on my bed with the papers in his hand. I guess Maura had went and called the school, sending him home early for the day again. “Hey.” I said softly, walking over to him and sitting down. Our legs touched and I leaned into him. “Did you read those?”

“Yeah…” Niall set the papers down and turned to me. His blue eyes were darkened as his eyelids hooded them. “It’s just-“

“I don’t have to be a part of your family. I’m fine with it like this. We don’t have to be brothers and then we can continue like this.” I reached for his hand and I saw his hesitate before locking fingers with me. “What do you think?” My heart pounded in my chest as I waited for Niall’s response. He gave me a shy smile.

“I’m worried, that’s all.” Niall shrugged; thumb stroking the top of my hand. “Because what if you don’t sign these and your dad calls again? What if he decided he wants you back?”

“I won’t go back to him.” I said firmly. There is no way I would ever go back to that man. He treated my mother and me like dirt and was never there, even when we needed him the most, when I needed him the most. He was nothing to me and if he called and wanted me to come with him, I would outright refuse. Niall had to know that I wouldn’t leave. He just had to. “Niall, I’ll never go with him.”

“You wouldn’t have a choice.” Niall said sadly. “He’s your real dad. He would have custody over you.” He took his hand away from my own and placed it on my shoulder. “I don’t know what I would do if you were gone.” Probably move on with his little country life. I’m not that big of a deal.

“So you want me to sign those papers?” I asked.

Niall nodded frantically. “It’ll just be legal. Physically, we’re not related. That’s all that matters right?” His expression was hopeful and I gave him a small smile and nodded. “So this means you’ll sign them?” He wrapped his arms around me happily. I hugged him back; whispering out a ‘yes’ and breathing in the cologne he wore every day. We pulled away from each other and Niall leaned in to kiss my lips. It was short and sweet, or at least I thought.

“Ugh, you just smoke didn’t you?” Niall grimaced and I could only laugh. “Really, that’s the only gross thing I can think of about you.” Niall wiped his mouth and I didn’t give him another chance to complain. I kissed him again and again, pecking his lips. His cheeks. His forehead. He giggled and tackled me down to the bed, something that occurred often.

I slid my hands down his chest and then up under his shirt, pulling the fabric up and off of his body. He already had small goose bumps on his skin. Everywhere I touch, they rose and the more I touched, the higher something else rose. I stared down at Niall’s crotch were his e.rection was creating a tent in his jeans. We hadn’t gone any further than that point before. But the more I touched, the more I wanted to be touched. My own d.ick started to harden in my jeans and Niall took it upon himself to let me free, so I did the same for him. Before, we had just taken things slow. Well, as slow as our hormonal bodies could take it.

“A-are you sure you-“ I asked Niall and before I could even finish my question he nodded eagerly. “I mean I won’t go all the way.” I promised him.

“Shut up and kiss me.” Niall grabbed the collar of my shirt and pulled me down so that my lips connected his again. I was lost in the moment and my d.ick throbbed. I placed my body down onto his and we rubbed together. I took duty into my own hands and grabbed both Niall and myself, rubbing our length together and becoming slick with pre c.um. I slipped my tongue into Niall’s mouth and the quickened the pace of my hand. He moaned out and that drove me crazy.

“Oh god.” I breathed, my breath getting caught in my throat. Niall attacked my throat with rough kisses. It was like he was determined to leave his mark on me. I moved faster and faster until I knew I was at my limit and came into my hand and onto Niall. He was shortly behind me, doing the same.

I fell on top of him, completely exhausted, and hitting my chin slightly, wincing at the pain. Niall wrapped his arms around me and kissed the side of my face. “We could do more if you weren’t so tired already. He patted my side and chuckled, letting out a heavy sigh.

“I could say the same to you.” I smiled, kissing him once more before flopping over to my side and resting my hand on his tanned chest. God, I could never get over his chest. “Maybe next time.” I winked, tracing circles in his flesh. I had never felt that comfortable with anyone ever before. After a while I started to get uncomfortable with the mess that we had made on each other. I crawled off the messy bed and wandered over to the bathroom.

“Where are you going?” Niall asked.

“Shower.”

A devious smile graced his beautiful face. “Can I join?” He asked. I smirked and walked into the bathroom, purposely leaving the door open behind me. I heard the bed creak just before I turned the shower on. Steam quickly filled the room and the door shut behind Niall. He walked slowly over to me and rested his chin on my shoulder and his hands on my hips, sliding down my jeans. I felt my d.ick twitch and maybe I wasn’t as exhausted as I thought.

“Let’s get this off too-“ He went to remove my shirt, but stopped suddenly when a knock came to the bathroom door. My heart stopped in my chest and I stared at the door. Another knock came a seconds later.

“Zayn? Are you in the shower?” It was Maura.

“Y-yeah!” I gulped. “Do you need something?” I asked and Niall continued to play with my shirt. “Hey, stop.” I whispered to him. I couldn’t risk Maura figuring out that Niall and I were more than just really close friends.

“Sorry to bother you, honey. But I was wondering if you had seen Niall around? He came home, but he’s not in the house or the barn.”

“Oh, uhm- Y-yeah! Uh…” Shit. I couldn’t think of anything. Niall was in the bathroom with me. Both of our pants were dropped. He was in the process of getting me completely naked.

“Tell her I’m out with the horses. In the field.” Niall whispered to me, pulling my shirt over my head. “She won’t question it.”

“Zayn?”

“Sorry! Uhm, Niall went out into the field with the horses. I saw him. Yeah. That’s where he is.” I sighed heavily and Niall chuckled at me. I glared at him and he just smiled back at me. He didn’t have a care in the world. Why would he? His mother would love him regardless. There was no threat on his end. Me on the other hand, Maura would have every right to kick me out of her house. If she ever caught me with her son, well, that would be the end of this happy little life.

“Thanks, Zayn. Sorry for interrupting your shower.” I listened in silence until I heard the door to the bedroom close. I sighed and leaned against the vanity. Niall stood back, stepping out of his jeans. I watched him and I was obviously attracted to what he was doing, but the Maura finding out scare got to me.

“N-Niall. I can’t.”

“What? You can’t take a shower? Come on. You’re all dirty.” Niall rested his hand on my chest and gave me a once over, lingering his gaze on my abdomen where the majority of the mess we created was.

“No, that’s not it. I can’t- I can’t sign those papers.” I stood back, getting away from Niall’s touch. He looked at me with sad eyes. “I can’t go and sign those papers, become your brother and lie to your mom like that. I can’t be with you and be in this family at the same time. I just can’t.” I shook my head back and forth, frustrated with my own decision.

“Zayn. We can figure it out. Like you said. It’s going to be hard. Life is like that. You taught me that.” Niall was pleading with me. “I don’t want there to be an opportunity for your dad to just come and take you.” He leaned into me, body shaking. Steam continued to fill the small bathroom while the shower ran.

“He won’t. I doubt he will even come out here to the middle of nowhere.” Though, it did scare me that he knew where to contact me. Why, out of all the years he was missing from my life, would he take the time to find a phone number to contact me at?

“Zayn, you don’t know that.”

“Well, I’m not psychic, so yeah. I don’t know what will happen. But I do know that right now, a shower does sound great.” I changed the topic completely to keep my mind from overthinking. I led Niall to the shower and he stepped in. I followed behind him, pulling the curtain close.

A/N: More things to come! Stay tuned! Please vote and comment!

Much Love

Jachxx