After our day trip out in the fields with the horses I found myself more in tune with my horse loving side. I especially liked Patches. And Nelly, well Nelly we had to work on him. Niall and I washed the horses down, spraying the hose at each other every once in a while. It was at the end of the day when we both realized that we had been in the same clothes for way too long and it was time to go back inside, even though Niall wasn’t too sure if he should. That boy would have slept in the barn if I hadn’t had a say in anything.

“Sorry, but sleeping on hay bales is not one of the many things I’m good at. “ I chuckled while scuffing the bottom of my dirt caked shoes on the wooden block just outside of the barn.

“I just don’t want to go in there.” Niall pointed at the house. Chris’ car was still in the driveway so it looked like he took the day off work. I sighed and just grabbed Niall’s hand, squeezing in gently before tugging him out of the barn.

“It’ll be fine. And if it’s not, well, toughen up cowboy.” I tried again to imitate his twang, but then failed once again. He only laughed at my failure and walked with me to the house. When we got to the door, I let go of his hand. A small frown appeared on his face, but I didn’t want Maura or Chris thinking there was something between Niall and I, even though there definitely was.

I walked in first to see who was in the kitchen. I slipped out of my shoes and pulled my shirt off my body, heading towards the laundry room. Niall followed me in, doing the same task, but also taking off his dirty jeans, leaving him only in his boxers. “I’m going to take a shower.” He said as he hurried out of the laundry room and upstairs to the bathroom. I watched him as he went and nearly drooled, because not only was he almost naked, but also he was dirty with sweat and it was a near death experience for me.

“Is he okay?” I looked up to see Maura had been sitting in the living room. She was sitting there with an open book in her lap. I hoped that she didn’t see me checking out her son as he jogged up the stairs.

“I think so.” I replied honestly. “We went for a ride and talked about some things. He’s at least calmed down.” Maura nodded at me and thanked me before I went upstairs to take my own shower. I wondered where Chris had gone, but when I passed the office, I saw that he was working on something. I wanted to assure him that Niall was better now, just like I had done with Maura, but I didn’t want to interrupt whatever important thing he was doing.

I wandered down the hallway and quickly jumped into the shower to clean the dirt and grime off my body. I also brushed my teeth because I had a terrible taste of old cigarettes and alcohol in my mouth. I wondered how Niall was even able to bare kissing me. I definitely smelled horrible.

The shower I took was probably the best decision I had had in the past twenty-four hours. I must have stood underneath the water for a god thirty minutes before I actually washed my hair and soaped up my body. When I got out I decided to shave off the stubble that had been growing on my face. It came in dark and sometimes I let it grow because I did look good with a slight beard, but I didn’t feel up to grooming more each morning so I shaved it off.

“Ah I liked that part.” Niall spoke up in my doorway. I jumped a little because I didn’t know he was there. Sneaky little bastard. “But you look good either way.”

“I know I do.” I said cockily. “Do you ever grow out yours?”

“Never tried. It would probably come in all patchy.” Niall chuckled, grabbing his chin and trying to look at his own face so that his eyes were crossed. “Do you think it would look good?” He asked.

I thought about it for a second and I couldn’t quite picture stubble or a beard on Niall. His hair was so blonde, though I knew he dyed it, and his hair would grow in dark on his face. It would look kind of funny. “I’d stay shaved.” I answered honestly.

“Okay. I was thinking that too.” He smiled and rubbed his fingers over his chin. He walked back into the bedroom, leaving me to finish shaving my face. He sat down on my bed and bounced his one leg up and down continuously. After I cleaned up, I sat down next to him and watched as his expression changed. He was thinking about something.

“Go ahead and ask.” I nudged him playfully.

“Okay, when did you know you were gay?” It was a common question.

“I don’t really know. I guess it might have been when I realized that the only sport I liked was wrestling.” I winked at him to get a chuckle, but he just looked more lost.

“But I like Soccer. Like a lot. And I don’t stare at the guys’ butts. Except for David Beckham. Because well, who can’t stare at his ass.” Niall sighed and flopped back onto my bed. I let out a breathy laugh and fell down next to him. “Zayn this is so confusing.”

“I know. I’ve been through it. It stops being confusing after a while.”

“Like a long while or a short while?” He asked. I watched his face closely and saw his nostrils flare and his eyelid twitch slightly. “I hope it doesn’t take a long time because I don’t like feeling this way. I can only imagine what will happen when we get back to school.”

“It’ll be okay.”

“You don’t know that.” He replied. “I bet Liam hates me now.” Niall grumbled. Liam is a good friend of his. I really hope that their friendship doesn’t fall apart.

“Why don’t you ask him? Call him or something.” I urged Niall to make the best of things. Maybe Liam wasn’t as against all of this as Niall thought he was. I mean, Liam was okay with me, why wouldn’t he be okay with Niall? “You never know until you try.” Niall grumbled and mumbled for a minute or so until he finally pulled his phone out, tapped a few buttons and then locked the screen. “See? Wasn’t so hard was it?”

“Yeah, until I get his reply.” Niall groaned and then his phone buzzed and he shakily picked it up, looking at the screen. A look of relief took over his face and he turned the screen towards me.

From Payno: Nah man. I just didn’t expect it, really. But were cool.  You home?

“Does he want to come over or something?” I asked Niall, he was tapping away on his phone and it buzzed in return.

“Yeah, he bought this new game and wants to play it and I’m the only one with the X Box One.” Niall started to laugh. “You were right. It’s like nothing happened. He’s okay with it.”

“Told you.” I smirked, rolling to my side on the bed. Niall watched me carefully and I pecked his lips with my own to surprise him. He didn’t pull back though, he grabbed my hips and pulled me over to him, situating himself beneath me with me straddling his lap. I glared at him because I had never been the submissive one in any relationship. Though, Niall was making me that type and I wasn’t about that. I roughly flipped him over, switching positions and held him down by his shoulders. “This is better.” I smirked, leaning in and pressing my forehead to his.

“Whatever you say, Zayn.” He rolled his eyes at me and all I could do to shut him up was kiss him roughly, sucking on his bottom like. Soon our tongues mixed together and I felt all of his teeth with that slippery muscle. We made out until there was a knock on the door. We pushed away from each other, fixed out clothing and sat up straight, trying to catch our breath.

“I hope you two weren’t-“ Liam stepped into the room and when he saw us he groaned. “You were weren’t you?!! GROSS!”

Whoops.

 A/N: Shorted chapter than usual, but I updated twice so be happy! Please vote and comment!

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